"i need to fix this immediately " i grabbed my stuff and hurried out of the building , the boss was not there he had some meeting and thank god he did , i grabbed the first taxi and headed to the clinic ,
" i need it out of me " i said panacing to the Doctor in front of me and he smiled completely aware of the state i was in which was a one hundred percent "losing my shit" kind of state.
" come down Miss y/n , i know what you are going through now , it's perfectly normal to freak out like this , its your first time and its big news , i am sure Mr Lee is going to be extremely happy to hear the news " and my eyes shoot and my body flipped at his name
" what!! what do you mean? did you tell him ?" please say no !
" of course not Ma'am we don't have the right to share confidential information about our patient without their consent " thank the lord for the existence of the medical ethics ,
" but if i may say Ma'am i think it's better if you share the news with him " ok Mister 'good doctor ' it's none of your business , and look at him all cocky how can he be sure sure that Donghae is the father !! damn it i bet they already have done some test to know who is the father , ughh i hate rich people ,
i just plastered a genuine polite smile on my face " yes sure , as soon as he will be ready for it , and Doctor i appreciate it if we keep this between us " with a firm handshake
" absolutely Ma'am" though i dont trust u but i will pretend that i do .
my trip back to the office was like one of those long roller coaster , i have played over a thousand senario in my head , and giggled every possible outcome of this whole complicated situation .
but i have realised that i am a grown independent women and i have to accept whatever he decide to do , either he welcome the pregnancy and be part of my life for the rest of it which is what i wanted , or he will freak out just as i did when i found out about it and chose to leave , which i would be totally cool with it , i can do it by myself , yes !! yes i can
really are you sure y/n , no i am no quite sure
and suddenly my phone started ringing in my purse
" hi baby " i said trying not to be so obvious of the internal battle that i was having at that moment
" hii , where are you ? i just came back from the meeting and you are not here "
" yeah !! well i just had to do some shopping , i ll be there in a five ,bay " i lied of course
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" where is your shopping " he said looking behind me and rising that famous eyebrow , ohh snap !!
" i didn't find what i was looking for "
" next time just give it to the driver he will get all you need ok bab" he said and went back on his work and i smiled nervously , that was close .
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so here i am y/n , i just discovered that i am lee dahee and i am in love with my cousin who is the father of my future child and i am almost 1 month pregnant , bet you can't beat that haa !! if you were in my place what would you do ? i was feeling like a completely different person , i started smelling thing that normally i don't , even Donghae perfume started bothering me , every time he is near i just avoid his smell, i started craving elso !! can u believe that i wanted to eat watermelon ohh no no let me put it in other words I STARTED FANCYING WATERMELON which i normally hate , the sound of my co-worker's high heel was driving me crazy , the smell of the disgusting morning coffee iww!! a lot of thing started shifting and it was only few days after , how i am gonna fucking survive these whole nine month , i was doomed , and ohh yeah i still didn't tell him anything ...... i just couldn't .
what if he was not ready yet for commitment , what if he doesn't want kids .. yet !! what if he hate me !! i don't know at that time i was lost and drown in sea of my raging hormones .
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we were sitting together as usual having our dinner , the house was empty as all the stuff were given a day off by Mr nice right here , so it was only the three of us !
" soo how was work today ? " i asked and he gave me that sceptical look that says ' are you out of your mind'
" it was a joke !! come on!!"and i laughed " i just wanted to make small talk , like all the couples do" he put his fork down and straightened his poster and cleared his throat
" actually there was something i wanted to tell you y/n" oh crap he know , he freaking found out about it
" i think .... i think i am in love with my assistante " and he broke laughing his ass off , and i felt my heart at the floor , for a second there i was so sure he was gonna break it all to me ,
" ohh baby that was funny " no ! it wasn't stupid head you almost killed me with heart attack
" i am so in love with her that i hurt sometimes "
" yeah but you never propose asshole" i said under my breath
" sorry what was that baby "
"ohh nothing i said i love you more " idiot !! ughh i wanna kill him please can i !!! i know he is the father of my still unborn child but he is getting under my skin a lot these days
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we were just hanging out in bed watching jurassic park , you know that Chris Part is so damn hot that i was so much fangirling without realising it , and Donghae started giving me the look until my phone buzzed
" good evening Miss y/n ,i am PARK and i just wanted to inform you that you have a meeting with Mrs Lee tomorrow at 11 am , i will pick you from your office at 10.30 am , have nice evening Ma'am"
" its a message from your grandma's PA , he told me i have a meeting with her tomorrow at 11"
" what !! why ?" he asked
" i don't know , maybe she just want to talk about Mina "
" i don't know i don't feel good about this !! i will come with you"
" come on don't be silly , she want to talk to me , don't worry i'll handle it " but all i was concerning me at that moment was is abnocsualy loud prfume , i feel like i have gag reflex every 5 minutes
" bab did you shower ? "
he raised his both hands " what is this weird question!"
" i a sorry i know but you're wearing too much perfume "
" what ! no i didn't " and he rolled his eyes at me " anyways i am going to sleep this movie is boring anyway and you are acting all weird " ugh men i am telling you !
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the lady was in front of me , with her perfectly styled hair , her overwhelming chic outfit , and here i am 24 years old and i looks like a potato , she can't be my grandmother i have nothing from her of from the way she carries herself , she is so elegant and graceful that there is no way we are blood related .
"so my dear how have you been?"
" great , thank you Ma'am , how have you been ?" oops i sound nervous !! i am nervous
" well you know how old women are , i always say that this will be my last day on this earth , and yet i rise again the next morning which believe me i wish i didn't most of the days" and she chuckled lightly , ohh she seems sweet now , why the sudden changes in the atmosphere when she smiled !! humm weird
" no don't say that , we still need you , Donghae still need you" and she just smiled
" and how is things between you two , is he driving you crazy yet ? " see she get it , yes he is !!
" oh no ! not at all"
" i wish you two rush thing a bit and announce your engagement" and i choked on my tea , did she just brought that to the conversation !! well hello !! that's what i have been waiting for him to do , but you know that foolish grandson of your who has zero intelligence's DNA from you didn't propose , not even hint it , nothing !
" i don't know we haven't discussed it yet and .. and i think Donghae is not ready yet for it " and i swoled the rest of my despair with tea , i am absurdly grateful to that tea .
" i am sure he is honey , and i will be more then happy when you two get together and i cant wait to see my little grandchildren running all over the place " ok this is fishy !! i am sure and by all the thing that i know about iron lady here in front of me i am sure she is on to something. so i just smiled and nodded my head .
from that point on i was more sure about telling Donghae the big new as the care move to the office my convection level kept growing , that i was determined that i was going to tell him that night . ok i will do it tonight , i am going to tell the love of my life that he is going to be a father .oh lord have some mercy on me i feel my heart gonna ripe out of his cage
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will he be happy ? will he gonna be excited as much as i am about this love present that we both made ,with this little creature that is growing in my belly as days go ?
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i am back tuutututuroo i back tututututuroooooo
i missed you SO freaking much
DONGHAE is rocking that boyfriend/DADDY look these days and he is killing me
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