Drink up baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do, you won't but you might
The potential you'll be that you'll never see
The promises you'll only make
Drink up baby, look at the stars
Ill kiss you again between the bars
Where I'm seeing you there with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught
-Elliott Smith
(please listen to this track while reading the chapter Between the Bars by Elliott Smith. i put it on side as well)
“What do you want?” Zayn questioned as I gulped the last sip of wine of my fourth glass. I am already light headed with four glasses. “What do you mean what I want” I chuckled for no reason. “Like this very moment anything. I am just so happy, ask me I’ll fulfill that” I smile at his excitement.
“Okay…” I lick my lips and it has the taste of wine on it. “I want to get drunk” I laugh at myself as his eyes went wide. “What, that’s not a wish my love and you are already tipsy.” He smiles at me with amusement dangling in his eyes.
“Will you let me complete?” I narrow my eyes, as he gestures me with his hand to continue what I want. “Yes…so I want to get drunk and go to the tower bridge and yell my lungs out” he looks shocked. I on the other hand continue “And it’s like my wish for a very long but you know I was never really that happy to go this devastated with alcohol and go mad yelling on the top of my lungs like a crazy woman that secretly I am.” I smile and wink at him.
“Really are you happy now?” he asks, his eyes are happy and that relief which was missing from days makes me happy. “Yes very” I move closer to him. “Okay then let’s get you drunk” he states calling the waiter. I grin clapping my hand.
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Zayn’s P.O.V.
“Zayn you should try this” Faith said as she drowns another glass of vodka in her system. I just shook my head watching her talking utter nonsense and drinking neat vodka. In the first two glasses I made her mix soda but now no one can stop this motivated and fully charged girl. I rub my forehead.
“I think you had enough love, we should leave” I said rubbing her arm. “Yes I can feel my head buzzing. But it’s good. You should take a sip Zayn” she pouts making her pink lips more demanding. I groan inwardly. “I had wine…come we should leave” I smile at her. Why I decided to let her drink in the first place. She is so annoying and cute. Did I just use the word, cute? But anyways she is.
“Shall we go?’ I ask her again as she was busy looking at the vodka bottle which is nearly empty. “Okay” she whispers. She tries to get up but fails. The waiter glances at us and I narrowed my eyes at him. Really? He shifted by moving his back to us. Fucker, I curse at him in the back of my mind.
“Come I’ll help” I said placing my hand on her back as she stands up. “Woah!” she exclaims as she finds it hard to gain momentum.
“Easy babe” I whisper kissing her hair. “Everything is spinning” she said more to herself. God why did I agree to let her drink. I hold her right hand in my right and put my other free hand on the small of her back and make her move. She stumbles more because of these annoying heels that she is wearing. I clenched my jaw as she stumbles walking slowly towards the exit. People glance at us but I don’t give a shit but the only problem is I don’t want Faith to get embarrassed. The doorman offers us Faith’s trench coat which she refuses to wear. “Faith you should wear the coat its cold out there.” I said holding the coat out.
“No!” she stays stubborn. Ah I miss my calm Faith at this very moment. “Okay fine” I said clenching my jaw for the tenth time in this hour I feel. I hold her coat in one hand and make her walk outside. “Sir your car is waiting outside.” I give him a nod taking my keys from him.
Faith stumbles on the stair holding my hand tightly. I open the door for her as she stumbles getting inside the car. “Here” I hold her by her petit waist placing her inside. I quickly fasten her seatbelt. “I love you baby” she coos pulling me by my collar and smashing her lips on me. I stumble on her but compose myself kissing her back chuckling slightly. Our teeth clashes twice in this kiss.
“I love you more babe” I kiss her temple. I laugh at myself closing the door. I scan the place laughing more as I saw the doorman seeing our PDA. Not that I care, she is drunk. Give my girl a break.
I close my door as she smiles biting her laugh. “What so funny Faith?” I glance at her starting the car. The engine roars to life as I make my way out towards the Tower Bridge. “Nothing” she said giggling. Oh that giggle is contagious.
“Zayn you remember my wish right?” she murmurs. “Yes we are going there” I assure her placing my hand on her knee, rubbing small circles.
She stays quiet humming to some song and I was occupied with my thoughts when I saw a flash. I look at Faith as she is holding her phone clicking my picture. “What are you doing Faith?” “Clicking your picture, you have mine and I have none” she pouts clicking more. “You are looking so sexy” she fans with her hand.
“You are being so absurd” I laugh at her, as she clicks more. “Okay now let me focus on driving yeah…I don’t want us to end up in the ER” I said suddenly thinking of hospitals. It’s still a sensitive subject to me.
After a short while, we are at the start of the bridge I have to park here and walk on the walking lane because we can’t stop in the middle of the bridge. I don’t want a ticket and make news in the morning. I look at Faith who is already unfastening her belt ready to jump out of the car.
“Faith I am concerned about your dress” I point at her knee length dress. “No, I don’t care Zayn I want to go, now open the car door” her alcoholic breath is all in the car and mixing with her perfume. “I will but you have to wear your coat now” she huffs loudly as I bite back my smile. It feels like babysitting.
She wore it eventually before failing to place her arm in the right arm twice. I unlock the door as she jumps out without even waiting for me. I quickly rushed at her side. I look at her feet which are barefoot. Shit! “Faith wait” I rushed after her as an old couple walking besides her laughs. I catch her up holding her by her waist. “You little monster” I whisper to her as we both catch our breaths. “Zayn come I want to go in the middle” she turns around looking at me. The side lamps placed step after step on the bridge making her eyes glow as she grins from ear to ear in excitement. I found myself smiling at her…at her excitement. Her eyes are still the same even in her drunken stage. She is still the same Faith, my innocent Faith who is unknown about this cruel world and too kind, who took the blame on herself about everything without thinking about herself. I feel my eyes glossy as the unknown emotion crosses deep in my heart. So foreign but known at the same time. At this moment I know I will die for this girl in a heartbeat. She is my end point.
“Zayn?” she questions placing her index finger near my eyes. There she is again my Faith, I saw her again drunk but still the same. “You…you are crying Zayn?” I chuckled blinking back my tears. God, how can I have myself like this, crying in front of her. “No baby” I kissed her temple “Just the air is cold”
“Come we will walk, no rush” I intertwine our fingers. “and your shoes Faith?” I glance down. “Zayn it’s not that cold I can manage” she whines like a child. I let it go. We walk in the calm atmosphere as the water beneath us makes noise. The lamps glowing up on us making our shadow sharp and clear as I look at it. I smile looking at the shadow of our hands. The image is so clear that I want to draw it later, it seems so perfect. And I know it will stay in my mind forever.
“We are here” she whispers making me move with her to the railing. I noticed they are perfectly secure. The path is deserted just few people crossing it without noticing us. We stand holding our hands. I look at her as her hair flowing gracefully in the air and her nose and cheeks are red as she looks at the river with full astonishment in her eyes.
I loosen my grip on her hand but she quickly holds it tight. “It’s your moment” I said. She looks at me “But you are the reason for this moment” she states looking straight in my eyes. I just keep looking at her as she diverts her eyes back at the River Thames.
She took a deep breath and then she yells laughing in the last.
And then again, I saw a few people glancing at us but I don’t care at this moment because if that’s what makes her happy then let it be the way it is. She looks at me then the next thing I know she is yelling is ‘I LOVE YOU ZAYN’ I laugh at her covering my face as she laughs.
She looks at me again and now I notice the tears in her eyes glistening in the yellow lights shining from the lamps above us. “Hey” I pull her to me holding her by her waist. “Why these tears beautiful” I said rubbing my thumb on her cheeks. “I’m just so overwhelmed.” She said. Without answering I kissed her with all the love I felt for this girl, my girl. Cupping her cheeks which were cold, our cold lips move in sync as I hold her close to me. I keep kissing her biting her lips as our tongues keep meeting. I can’t get enough of her and in this calmness I just want to hold her forever.
A tear slides down her cheek I rub it with my hand looking straight in her eyes. “We should go huh?” I ask her. She nodded. I look down at her feet which were pale and she keeps squirming her toes. I hold her by her waist and pick her up bridal style. “Zayn what are you doing—“ I cut her off “you are bare foot. And drunk” I chuckled as she holds me by my shoulder.
I walk back to our car and make her sit back. “Now what?” I ask her sitting back in the car and switching the heater in the car to the highest temperature. “We should go back home” she said quietly. “Hey what are you thinking” I said rubbing her arm. She looks deep in her thoughts, in her drunken stage. “Nothing” she mumbles smiling. “Okay” I give in, starting the car, not questioning her further although I know something is going on in that mind of hers.
Soon we reached back to the mansion I look at her and she is in her half sleepy state. “Faith” I shook her as she looks at me then out. “Yes…yes” she rubs her eyes. “We are home baby” I said pushing her hair away from her face. “Oh!”. I climb out seeing Torres standing by the staircase I nod at him and he gives the keys to me. I open the door for her, placing her hand in mine she climbs out as well.
Back in our room I look at Faith. “Faith you should change” I said as she climbs in her trench coat and dress. She hums shifting from here to there. “Can I wear your shirt?” she asks looking at my white V-neck. “Sure” I smile. “Stand up” I said to her holding my hand for her. She takes my hand, I literally place her on the concrete floor and she keeps swinging from left to right and, back and forth. “Still babe” I whisper opening the buttons of her coat. She moves closer and tries to kiss me. “Woah! Stay there. You’re too drunk for sex” I chuckle. She pouts “I thought you’re undressing me for sex” she wriggles her burrows. “No baby” I sigh.
Removing the pink dress from her body I dress her in my V-neck t-shirt which reaches near her mid thighs making her look so goddamn hot and sexy just for me. I rack my eyes up and down at her as I groaned because she is drunk. “You should wear my shirts more often.” I kiss her side of the lips. She nods smiling. “Come to bed now before I lose my self-control”
I hold her close as she looks with wide eyes at the ceiling. “What are you thinking Faith?” she looks at me then smiles her beautiful close mouth smile. “I just miss my mum” she whispers. I hold her close by her waist. “I think she sent you in my life. Silly, right? But I think that you are the one who will be here forever” she nuzzle against my neck and soon I find she is sleeping. Her breath fans against my neck.
But my whole focus was on what she just said. I sigh kissing her in her hair.
“I’m here forever, for you and only you Faith…forever”
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