"Okay blue or red dress?" (Y/n) held both up for Lena to inspect as she sat curled up on the couch a book in hand.
"Hmmmm definitely red."
" Are you sure it's supposed to be the first date? "
"Wear the blue then." Lena shrugged.
"You are no help at all Lena this is important what if I turn up and she takes one look at me and runs back to Maggie?" ( Y/n) waved the dresses in the air frantically.
Lena smiled softly putting her book down and walking toward her. "For a start, if that happens I will kill her secondly (Y/n) she chose you."
" After choosing Maggie first, I feel like a chocolate bar she wasn't sure she wanted to buy. "
"That is your nerves talking, stop thinking so much chose the red because it makes your eyes pop and your legs look killer and go to the restaurant."
(Y/n) took a deep breath. "You are right."
" Good now go and let me read my book. "
"You really need to start putting me before your books, now just so as I know can I bring Alex home and have sex in the bathroom? we will lock it unlike you did."
" No, absolutely not! "
(Y/n) burst out laughing unable to take her serious expression any longer. "You are so easy to wind up, don't worry Alex says we're not ready for that yet she is right."
" And you're okay with that? "
"Yes, I wasn't at first I just wanted to be with her again in every way I could, I guess kinda make her mine again territory type of thing, but she was right I want us to work not fall apart because we focused on the physical stuff."
Lena smiled. "So you are giving her a second chance?"
" Yes, she doesn't know that though. "
"Will you be telling her?"
" Eventually. "
"I hope it works out for you (Y/n) I know how much you care for her."
" I've never felt this way before Lena, she is like no one I've ever met. "
"I know, now go on go and get ready or you'll be late." Lena smiled at her urging her back into her room.
xxx
Alex sat anxiously at the table her eyes darting to the entrance every few minutes to see if (Y/n) had arrived, she hadn't so far she was twenty minutes late.
She was beginning to wonder whether she had stood her up.
Please (Y/n) don't let this have all been a joke to teach me a lesson.
An image of her and Sara came to mind laughing together rolling around in a big plush bed, mocking her as she sat waiting for her to arrive.
"Alex, I'm so sorry the cab driver got lost turns out it was his first day on the job and he didn't read the map of the city before taking the job " (Y/n) sighed as she arrived at the table, Alex breathed a sigh of relief as she took her in, her hair pulled up high leaving her long and alluring neck on full display.
"You are here now and that is all that matters." Alex smiled rising to kiss her cheek before sitting down again not letting go of her hand.
"You look terrified."
" I thought you weren't going to come. "
"And your mind was cooking up all kinds of possible ideas right?"
Alex blushed. "Yes."
" Alex I promise you I was always going to come tonight, I wasn't going to tell you now but I think I need to. "
"What is it? (Y/n) please don't do anything rash, give me a chance."
" Stop assuming things Alex, you are a massive pain in my ass, far too overprotective always assuming things instead of listening and I know we have a long way to go to get to where we were but I want to give you a second chance. "
Alex stared at her dumbfounded, had she really just said what she thought she said or did she make it up?
"Really?"
" I want to be your girlfriend again, I want to call you every night to say goodnight just because I won't sleep well without hearing it, I want to go to the bar with you and hold your hand, I know we have to go slow but I want to at least start. "
"I want all of that too." Alex smiled brightly, this was truly the best news she had ever heard in her life.
" But Alex this is your last chance if you hurt me again no matter how much I love you, you won't get another chance. "
Alex clenched her hand tighter staring deep into her eyes. "I promise you (Y/n) I will never need another chance, you are everything to me I threw everything we had away once I won't do that again I'm always going to be there for you, you will never have another occasion to doubt me again. "
(Y/n) smiled lifting the hand he held and placing a soft kiss. "Shall we order then?"
" Only if you promise not to critique it. " Alex laughed.
"I am always a chef Alex if they don't want a bad review from me they should work harder." She shrugged innocently.
"Did you have a chance to think about the test?" Alex asked as she picked up the menu to look through.
" No, I decided that it's probably just a boiled egg or something she has. "
Alex chuckled.
"Hmm, nothing for Vegetarians or Vegans." ( Y/n) pondered.
"Is that a problem?"
" Is it for vegetarians and vegans. " (Y/n) shrugged.
After they had given their orders to the waiter they were left to wait for it to arrive.
"Kara broke her apartment door today." Alex suddenly said.
"Why?"
" I told her about what happened with you this morning and Lena. " Alex laughed.
"It's her own fault, Lena likes her too they are so useless."
"I guess. "
" This is what happens when you just leave things to go, the one you want is going to find someone and then you will be left to watch them together. " (Y/n) shrugged.
"It still sucks though," Alex said remembering having to watch ( Y/n) with Sara she'd hated it, she must have felt the same when she'd seen her with Maggie.
"It's life definitely part of the, you snooze you lose mantra. "
"(Y/n) I need to say something to you. "
"Err okay."
" I'm so sorry for how I reacted when I found out about you, I just couldn't think and everything fazed me so much then after when you came to the DEO and the suit I was just so scared of you getting hurt. "
"I'm going to lie and tell you that I wasn't hurt by any of that I was, I can't help who I am."
" I used to think that Kara having her stuff made her special that she would go off one day and leave me behind. " She said sadly.
"Alex I'm not going anywhere. "
"If I lose you (Y/n) I just don't know what I'd do."
(Y/n) felt her heart melt the look of sadness in her eyes beckoned her closer. "You are not going to lose me."
"But Sara.."
"Stop worrying about her you think I am so weak willed I would just jump on her whenever she bats her eyelashes? and strange as it sounds to you but she is actually really nice."
Alex paled.
"As in nice person Alex, this isn't Jane the virgin we don't need all the drama."
" How do you like that and not Wynonna Earp? " Alex frowned she needed to get to the bottom of this.
"Easy Petramos, I ship them totally." ( Y/n) said smugly.
"And you don't Wayhaught?" Alex said outraged at the very idea.
" Exactly, plus there is no one in that show as easy on the eye as Rosario Dawson. "
"I'm not sure I like this date very much," Alex said suddenly jealous she didn't want ( Y/n) thinking about another woman on their night.
"You are actually jealous right now aren't you? " (Y/n) smirked.
"You're supposed to be thinking of me! "
"I am, Alex you are acting weird. "
"I'm just really nervous. " She admitted turning away so she wouldn't have to meet her eyes.
"Okay let's make a deal."
" What deal? "
"Let's just be ourselves be natural and organic like we were we've gone past the trying to impress each other stage right?"
"Okay."
" Good, now let me tell you why Lena would choose Gemma Chan as her celebrity crush. "
xxx
"I don't want this night to end," Alex said softly holding her hands tightly as though she were afraid to let them go.
After a stiff and awkward start where no one had seemed able to think of the right thing to say, they had settled into a groove that worked for them, it had been fun, although Alex spent every moment waiting for an emergency to ruin it all.
Thankfully that hadn't happened, everything had gone well.
"I know but it's late already and we do have early starts tomorrow."
Alex sighed, she hated having to leave her, she had this sorted out once after asking her to move in then she'd been a fool and ruined it all now she was here again, she tried to calm herself, being here was far better than not being here and having (Y/n) still hate her.
"Can I kiss you?" She said quietly.
"Stupid question to ask me, of course, you can kiss me."
Alex smiled the side of her mouth rising upwards as she advanced closer (Y/n) feeling the familiar rise in her heart beat as she drew closer until their lips met, soft and gentle at first (Y/n) threw her arms around her neck and pulled her closer and Alex placed her hands on her hips, their kiss deepening until they had to break apart, although they didn't break apart.
"Come inside."
"I thought you said we.."
(Y/n) stopped her with another kiss, this one hard and unforgiving yet filled with a passion made their toes curl and the hairs on the back of their necks stand on end.
"Wow okay," Alex said stunned almost speechless when they finally broke away.
(Y/n) opened the door pulling Alex close behind her, she could sneak her into her room when Lena wasn't looking.
Just as she was about to turn around to throw herself at Alex again footsteps stopped her.
"(Y/n) Alex, what are you two doing here?" Lena asked her cheeks flushed and she looked behind her to the balcony.
"What's wrong Lena?" (Y/n) said suspiciously.
"What oh no there is nothing wrong I was just on my running machine."
"In your heels?" Alex said looking at her feet.
"What, ahhh... yeah it's a new exercise regime I read about."
She is lying.
(Y/n) looked at Alex, the brunette woman nodded her head in silent agreement.
"So I'm just going to jump in the shower." Lena rushed towards the bathroom and closed the door both women watched her until they just stared at a closed door.
"What the hell was that?" Alex said.
"I have no idea."
"So I guess that means our night is ending." Alex sighed sadly turning towards her.
"I guess, maybe it is for the best."
"Maybe."
"Alex."
"Yeah."
"How long do you think we'll have to wait until....you know?"
Alex's face reddened slightly. "I'm not sure."
"I hope it's not too long Alex, I miss you."
Alex smirked. "I thought you said I was crap."
"Oh please, you know I was talking shit, who in their right mind would ever think you are crap in bed?"