The best love is unexpected, they say. I didn't just pick someone and I can't just cross my fingers and hope that it'll work out. The best love is meeting someone by fate, it's instant connection and chemistry two people share which makes them feel in over their heads. It's talking for hours and noticing how their lips curl when they smile or the color of their eyes or loving the sound of their laugh. It's those moments that make you realize that you're either lucky or you're screwed.
And I could tell that I was screwed because Asa and I can never be. Not when we're family. Not when Deb and Victor will never allow it. Not when it will confuse the kids. Not when it could ruin us.