Happier | p.j.m & m.y.g
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(Please play Happier by Ed Sheeran)
Walking down 29th and Park
I saw you in another's arms
Only a month we've been apart
You look happier
...
"Hey Lei." I smiled at her as we walk at the park.
My arms on her shoulders and hers on my back.
She smiled back,"Yeah?"
"Why do you even want me to excercise this early?" I sighed playfully.
She pouted,"Because Yoongi... you need some excercise."
"Stop that." I smiled.
"Stop what?" She smiled back.
"Pouting... it makes me want to kiss you." I said.
"Too cheesy." She laughed.
I just rolled my eyes at her.
-
Saw you walk inside a bar
He said something to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours
Yeah, you look happier, you do
...
"Hey... Baby... wanna be my girl?" I whispered to Lei Min as I sat beside her.
She laughed,"Didn't know going to the bathroom will make you forget I'm already yours."
I smiled at her as she look at me.
She smiled as well.
"So anybody have been hitting on you while I'm gone?" I asked.
"There is this pale black haired good looking man who hit on me 5 minutes ago." She chuckled.
"Ooh, looks like a keeper." I winked at her.
Her drunken laughs makes me laugh as well.
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Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal, baby
If you're moving on with someone new
...
That's how we were before we broke up.
Now I see my girl walking with him here at the park.
Her arms are on his waist while his are on her shoulders.
Just like we were before.
The boy is short and have black hair like mine.
I may be short as well but Lei Min is shorter than us both.
And that boy is Jimin, my bestfriend.
What am I doing here? Reminiscing and sulking because of letting go of my girl who seems so happy in my bestfriend's arms.
I'm sure glad they didn't notice me... because they'll notice my red eyes and shaveless face.
I also don't have the energy to pretend I'm happy.
Because I am not.
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'Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'll feel it too
And until then I'll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you
...
"Another." I told the bartender also the owner of the bar.
And also my friend.
"Yoongi you should stop." Namjoon said.
I looked at him with my dead eyes.
All the life I have are now gone.
Because she... is all my life.
"Another." I only said and he just sighed and poured another drink on my glass.
I took it in one shot and looked around.
I saw them.
Her laughing as he smiled and whispered to her ear.
Just like we did.
I looked away and looked at my empty glass.
"Another." I muttered while my heart broke into pieces.
"Dude... move on, its been a month now... you said before, if she's happy with Jimin then you'll be happy for them as well." Namjoon said.
I ignored him because I, myself know that he is right.
What can I do anyway?
She's happy with him... not with me.
I want her to be happy.
Even if my happiness will be taken away.
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Sat on the corner of the room
Everything's reminding me of you
Nursing an empty bottle and telling myself you're happier
Aren't you?
...
I looked at my empty bottle of beer.
I looked around and only see our memories in this room together.
Us cuddling in the sofa.
Us watching our favorite movie.
Me loving you.
And you breaking me.
I smiled to myself.
No worries... she's happy now.
If she's happy then I'm happy.
Even if I'm not the one bringing happiness to you.
And with that thought I cried once again.
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Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody need you like I do
I know that there's others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you
But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you
...
"Yoongi!" I turned around and saw her smiling at me as she called me.
It brought memories that are so beautiful yet its so sad.
I look decent now because I was forced to clean myself by Seokjin.
'You shouldn't look as miserable as what I feel... she'll notice and it'll bring guilt in her heart, do you want that?' Is what he said.
And because I only want Lei Min to be happy... to don't mind me being miserable or not knowing I'm a mess.
I fixed myself.
"Oh hey." I smiled at her.
I wish my smile will come back to how its used to be.
Not the same fake that I show to them.
"Its been months, how are you?"
I'm miserable without you.
"Oh I'm fine... I'm hanging out with Namjoon a lot since Jimin is busy with you now." I said.
"Speaking of which... where is he now?" I asked.
"He went to the bathroom... oh there he is now." She pointed out Jimin who's wiping his hands with his handkerchief.
"I should get going now... got some errands to run." I lied.
I just don't want to see her happy with someone else.
As long as I know she's happy... I'm happy.
But not as happy when we were together.
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Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if he breaks your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you
...
"So have you moved on?" Namjoon asked as we have our lunch at a cafè.
I smiled sadly at the black coffee I hold.
"I don't know..." I said.
My heart is too numb to know.
Too hurt to feel.
But I only know one thing.
I'm still waiting for her to come back to me.