Demi's pov
I go in my room and I close my door but I don't lock it I walk into my bathroom and I grab a razor and I lay in the bathtub and I pull up my shirt and I start to cut my stomach I cut deep really deep then I cut my upper thigh then I cut my wrist deep then I light a cigarette while I'm bleeding and I smoke it I turn the water on and I lay and there and smoke then I hear the door open
"Umm who is it" I ask
"Kehlani" she replies
I wrap my arm up quickly then I cover my stomach and my thigh and I drain the water and I let the cig out then I walk out and I smile lani hugs me and touch my cuts
"Shit!" I scream
"Baby what's wrong?" She ask
"Nothing I u-" I get cut off by a razor falling out of my pocket
"Clothes off now" she demands
"Why?" I ask
"Did you c..cut?" She stutters
I shake my head
"Just let me see baby" she says
I nod and I take off my sweater and sweatpants she goes down where the cuts on my stomach are she touches it gently I flinch
"Sorry" she says trying to hold her tears
She puts a seat out for me to sit on and I do she spreads my legs she looks at the cuts on my upper thigh then she grabs my arm gently she takes off the bandages she sighs
"Why" she ask crying
I shrug
"You had 6 fucking years without cutting doing coke and doing all that stupid shit!" she yells
"I'm sorry" I say quietly
"No fuck that shit why!?" She yells
"Because nobody fucking cares!" I yell
"I'm fucking done" she yells while throwing the promise ring on the floor while walking to the door
"Lani wait please I'm sorry" I say while grabbing her shoulder while crying
She turns around and hugs me I see everything go black then I blackout
1 hour later
I wake up and I'm in the hospital Kehlani is sleep with her head on the bed and her butt on her chair
"Kehlani baby wake up" I say while taping her
"Baby are you okay?" She ask
"Yeah,what happened?" I ask
"You passed out from lack of blood and stress" she says
"I need a stress reliever" I say teasingly
"Well buy some medicine good luck" she says jokingly
I playfully hit her arm
"Demetria Lovato did you want to die is that why you did that" she ask with a serious face
"Did want to die and to be honest I kinda still do but I'm fine" I say smiling
"You're not fine Demi" she says
"Yes I am" I say
"Okay" she says
She kisses me
"Kehlani I love you" I say
She doesn't reply I over to her and she's sleep I lay on the bed and I go to sleep