Jane
I laid in a guest room with my head in my mother lap as she brushed my hair with her hand, it was slightly uncomfortable as I listened to music playing in the background as my mother hummed along. All I really could focus on was the sound and the image of that man. It was so hard to breathe as the sound kept echoing and the sound that it made when it hit him. I felt as if his blood was still on me, I could feel still on me like burning hot wax. Worst I could still see River, standing in front of me, completely blank and void of any emotions. Just replaying over and over, as I listen to my mother humming.
“I remembered the first time I ever saw some die” my mother said as I did not respond “it doesn't go away, I can still smell the blood like it was right in front of me” she said as I closed my eyes trying to block out what she was staying “it was when we had just gotten pregnant, and there was a man who tried to take me, he said he was going to kill me” and your father didn't even hesitate as another man held a gun to my head” she said as more tear fell down my face and she started brushing my hair again “I was frightened for a long time of him, so scared I ran, I had grown up in this sheltered world, I didn't know anything about my father's work or what Dante dose.” I looked up at my mother as she smiled slightly “but I was so scared, I ran away, I didn't want to be involved so I ran away, I didn't want my baby growing up to be a monster they had made the man I loved into.” she said as I took a deep breath
“what made you come back” I said in a shaky voice “why didn't you just stay away” I asked wanting to know want to know why everything I've dealt with could have never happened, I could have had a normal life simple free.
“your father, I was scared of him, but I loved him, he knew where I was the entire time I wasn't good at hiding as I just checked into a hotel” she said chuckling “had guard posted in hiding here I couldn't see, to give me space. After a month of loneliness and dealing with everything, he sent me a letter's daily, gift, flowers the works until one day I was waiting for my letter and I went to open the door for the staff person the brought them up and he was standing there with such a sad look my fear and heart melted” she said as I shook my head
“that ridicules a month mother you forgave him after he killed someone, and lied about his job in a month” I said sitting up and moved so I was sitting beside her up against the headboard
“yes, I know it doesn't make sense, but I love him and I always will” she said patting my knee
“that just dumb you could have gotten away maybe I could have a normal life and not be gawked at like a freak every minute of my life
“well, running ways wouldn't have solved your problems Jane, but I chose not keep you sheltered from it and it was helpful at least to not be caught off guard” she said as I rolled my eyes and heard a knock on the door and I jumped in fear it brought the echoing of the gun shot back as I started to breathe heavier
“relax, it just your father and River” she said as I laid back-down pulling the cover over my head trying to hide I couldn't face River.
I felt my mother climb off the bed and heard her footsteps moving away as my heart started racing more and I could hear my heart beating in my ears blocking out all the noise. I was frozen in shock would they come in here I really hoped they wouldn't I just wanted to be alone. I felt the bed dip next to me as I panicked and was to run away. As I tried steadying my breathing so I could try maybe hear what was happening. The room was silent I could hear someone breathing behind me, but it was quite. The person on the edge of the bed was moving not much, but I could feel vibration coming from the depression in the bed behind me. I pulled at the blanket so softly so it was uncovering my forehead as I stopped and froze as I felt the person move again. I pulled move to uncover my eyes to see who was sitting there.
I first noticed the door was cracked open as I rolled my head to and sighed as I saw my father sitting next to me as I moved to uncover myself I heard my mother and father voice coming from the cracked door and I glossed over again and realized it wasn't my bad, but River. Panicking I moved away as he stood up fast turning not sure what was happening behind him as I crawled to the other side of the bed to get away from him. He just watched me, as I glared in fear at him. He didn't say anything he just watches with an almost exhausted expression. He took a step back so he was closer to the door turning away from me a glancing toward the cracked door sighing. As I watch him intensely I was friends what if he decided to kill me for knowing what he did. But he just crossed his arm looking down at the ground as he leaned against the wall.
“We, I mean your dad and I are going to the store to get you a new bed” was all he said still not looking at me as I watched him intently “its shouldn't take long, will be back before my parents' get home hopefully” he said as the door moved a bit but only a small amount I thought I was going to be save from being in trapped room with him, as he looked up at me staring like he was looking for something as I broke eye contact quickly and looked away as my mother came back in moment later breaking awkward silence
“Jane, how are you feeling” I heard my father say as I smiled politely still avoiding River line of sight
“that good, it will get better sweet heart I promise, River did you tell her” he said as I glance at River who was nodding “good honey come, let them talk I need to know the measurement and junk about the bed” my dad said walking out of the room with my mother shortly after as I glanced back at River who really hadn't moved.
I felt very scared and I wished he would leave as I decided to lie back down facing away from him. The guest room are nice, but small the window was closer to the bed then in my room and I could light see River reflection in it. In a couple of hours it would be blinding to be in with the window open. I heard River sign and could see him walk closer to the bed. As the bed moved as I watched him sit on the furthest corner from me.
“I'm sorry you had to see that” he said as I stayed silent “ I wish you had to or least I hadn't been the one to show you as I don't know how to comfort you and make it better” he said as my heart started to sink at his word “ I guess the least I could do is getting you a new bed” he said laughing awkwardly “any request?” he said as I rolled my eyes
“yeah something you're big ass won't break” I said and instantly regretted it, would he get pissed and shoot me. Frozen in panic as I hear laughter and I took a deep breath
“I'll make sure to test it before we get it” he said as I imagined him jumping on the bed in the store and my father's reaction, as I rolled my eye smiling as it became silent and uncomfortable again “I see you later then” he said as I heard his footsteps toward the door as it opened and closed. I was alone for a long time as I watched the sun start to lower into the window view when my mother came back in.
“I order some pizza figured we can go be sloths on the couch and eat ice-cream and cookies after. I let you chose the movie” she said sitting next to me as I signed I wasn't hungry and I didn't want to move my bodies felt like a million time heaver then normal, but she was trying to cheer me up
We walked down as she chatted away a heard talking in the kitchen and I frozen in panic at the Idea River was back and I would have to face him again, and I couldn't hide from him under a blanket. I clenched at the overly large t-shirt I was wearing my mother had focused onto me that covered the small pair of shorts I had. My mother patted my arm as she smiled and pulled me along as I tried to fight her. But once in the kitchen I was let out a deep breath I hadn't realized I was holding. Brit, River mom was putting pizza on plates, Tiffany was sitting on the couch along with her mother Cara, both seemed to be in a glaring contest that stopped as I came in the room.
The all rushed over to me and were hugging me saying nice things and I wanted to scream I hated this. I was upset yes, but I didn't want to have a group therapy session, I could deal with it on my own it was better for me. The ushered me to the coach quickly as they all sat talking a million miles a minute I didn't understand a word it was a bunch of mush babbling because I didn't want to hear their sympathetic words. Get irritated as a headache forming I cover my ear block the noise
“will you all just shut up” I said and I knew it was quiet as I lowered my ears
“sorry sweetie, pizza” Brit said getting up heading toward the box on the counter, as I shook my head
“I'm not hungry” I said as everyone looked at me
“sweetie you might not feel hungry, but see as it's almost 6” Brit said nodding toward the clock on the wall as I looked at it for a long time I hadn't realized it was so late “you didn't eat much this morning and it best you eat at least one slice” she said coming back handing me a plate, and I took it reluctantly I just wasn't in the mood to eat
“what movie are we going to watch?” Cara said piping in as I glanced at her the Tiffany who was still glaring at her mother as I surged, not knowing anything really
“don't worry I got you covered” Tiffany said
She said standing up walking over to the movie shelf and I saw her and reach into the section of one of our favorite movies. Mean girls, I smiled as she showed our parents as I nodded and both of our parents sighed, but didn't protest as she put in the movie. I settled in as the move started still holding the pizza I knew I wasn't going to get out of it. So, I picked it up taking a bite. I wasn't hungry, but it was nice and soothing, so I eat the rest. The movie was good as it always is some time my mother had broken out the ice-cream and I eat it as well it made me feel so much better and normal.
I can't even remember when I fell asleep, but we had watched another handful of moves in the safe general neutral funny zone. I must have fallen asleep some time, waking up to the sound of my alarm. I sat up in my room, in a non broken bed. I got up looking at it, and was generally surprised, nice dark wood with a little lace caring all around. Well, at least River has taste. I looked at the time saw I was running late I need to shower as I walked in the bathroom and panicked. There was bloody hand prints on the wall with smearing marks. Everything came flooding back as I couldn't breathe. I felt hand wrapping around me as I realized I was screaming and being hugged tightly against a chest.
"your okay I got you, you're fine” I heard River voice say in my ear as I opened my eyes, the first thing I noticed was my empty wall next to the window was open. I pushed away from him and started walking over toward it, confused as both my parents came running in the room.
“what wrong?” my father said breathless in pajama bottoms and with no shirt, glancing at River who was practically the same I looked back at the door confused what the hell this was
“we forgot to clean the bathroom” I heard River say as I stepped closer to the door and realized it leads into River room
“I'm so sorry Jane we got back so late last night we must have forgotten” my father said walking closer as I glared at him
“and this forgot to mention this to” I said point at the door
“no, it wasn't really your business, it Rivers” he said walking out as my mother followed silently after him. I glared at River as he just shrugged and looked at the bed
“you like, the bed?” River said walking over and sitting on the edge
“its pretty” was all I said still glaring as he yawned as I saw sparkle shimmer on his back as he raised his has up in the stretching “why is there is glitter on your back?” I asked confused as I looked around the bed not see glitter on it
“what” he said turning and trying to look “ as I rolled my eyes “I'm not sure, how it got there” he said still trying to see as I walked close to the wall the furthest away from him toward my closet. To get my uniform I would shower in a guest room
“how are you not sure? Where you lying on a glittery bed at the store?” I said as I stepped into my closet want to hear his voice so I knew where he was.
“no, it was from the strip club, I just don't know how it got on my back” he said catching me off guard as I walked out of the closet holding half my uniform as he was walking back toward the open secret door “ I need to wash this off” I heard him mumble
“strip club?” I said baffled at his statement as he just emotionally stressed and scared me for life and he went to strip club
“yeah, we went got you a bed, then we had some business to attend to and we went to a strip club for drinks after” River said as he stop confused why I was asking about
“wow, what was a celebration of traumatizing me for life” I said ferrous as River shook his head
“no, it was a long exhausting day for everyone not just you, we went for some drink it was the close location Tition owned that would let me and mark drink, scenes I'm sure you haven't noticed these things called laws that don't allow people under the age of 21 to drink” he said frustrated walk back into the middle of the room
“Oh so killing and scaring me earns you drinks then” I said trying to wrap my head around it
“you think that was the only person I killed that day Jane?” he said as fear rocked my body “I work for your father yesterday I killed at four people under his orders, and he thought we all were in need for a drink to relax” he said as I just started at him in shock, I didn't know if he was lying or telling the truth “in truth he was the second man I shoot in the head, the first one was early in the morning while you slept like a little princess in your bed, the other I tortured to death while you eat pizza and ice-cream watching girly movies” he said a low menacing voice “then with those same hand I carried you up here and put you to bed” he said point at me new bed as a large lump formed in my throat and I couldn't speak.
River didn't say anything else as he just walked out of the room closing the secret door behind him. I sat down where I stood and realized I had started crying, but my tear quickly turned to anger as I got up scrambling toward the desk that was near the hidden door. I started pulling with all my strength it was hard, but I got it to move and I blocked the door. I glanced at the clock again groaning as I braved the close off the ground running for the guest room. Wasting time, I quickly did everything sloppy and rushed. Running back to my room to grab my hair dryer as I stopped near my bathroom and decided I would just braid it because I could stomach going in there now. I grabbed my shoes as I heard River yelling from downstairs, as I rolled my eyes, why does everyone have to yell why can't they just come upstairs and tell me. I walked out of my room as my mother came down the hall.
“your room will be cleaned by the time you get home” she said
“good, do you know what River and daddy were doing last night” I said as we walked to the stares
“yes, they went to a strip club” she said without a care
“ really that doesn't bother you your husband was staring at other naked women” I said as River was shaking his head, as we came down the stairs
“it does and they all got an ear full about it from me, Cara, and Brit, plus it was some guy bonding thing I guess, but it better than prostitutes so it could be worse” she said walking away waving as I reached down into my purse looking for my phone that I couldn't find as I head back toward the stairs I must have left it in my room
“what are you doing we're going to be late” River said as I flipped him off
“I need my phone” as I quickly went up but was stopped half way
“I have it” River said as I stopped and turned glaring at him stomping down the stairs irritated “don't give me that look, you dropped it plus I need to do some business” he said opening the door as I stood next to him
“give me my phone” I wasn't going anywhere with him, unless I could call for help, who knew he could snap and try killing me for all I knew, he dug in his pocket and pulled out my phone smiling as I snatched it
“it's dead” I said glaring at him
“yeah I didn't have to charger sorry” he said walking out as I wanted to scream following him into the bright morning sun
He stayed quiet as we walked to his car and I wanted to pick up a handful of rocks and throw it at him. Once in the car I sat leaning on the door, mostly to stay as far away from him, and the fact the seat smelled of a mixture of chlorine and ammonia. Which sent my little mind in overdrive, what did he do in the car last night that requires a chemical cleaning? He said he tortured and killed me last night while I was at home, I felt pretty nauseous at this point. I just kept imagining all the horrible things dead people, body-parts, my head was spinning as I reached for the window control and frantically rolled it down to escape the smell. I must have looked like a dog with my head out the window mouth wide open.
“what are you doing?” River asked loudly as I brought my head back in and glared at him
“your car smells” was all I said and he nodded
“Yeah sorry you had a lot of blood...” he said stopping himself “I was dirty and I cleaned it and forgot about the bathroom” was all he said as I didn't press the issues much
“so why is my phone dead?” I said trying to get my mind off of dead bodies and blood
“I was chatting with your blackmailing friend arranging some stuff” he said and a gawked at him
“I told you to let me handle it” I said a little irritated
“you were a little bubble not talking to anybody and I don't want the picture getting out” he said in a normal tone as I glared
“well, are you going to tell me or what” I said
“there is not much to tell really we are going to warehouse tonight, to discuss an arrangement” he said as I gaped at him
“I'm not going anywhere with you” I shouted as River shook his head it was true, plus there is always a lot of people there and I was ready to be around that just yet
“all the girls are going so you can have company” he said as I choke my head
“I'm still not going” I said putting my foot down, I just watched a man died right in front of me, I'm still have to go to school, I'm not going to the warehouse.
The warehouse was fun under better circumstances it was kind of club, but not like my uncle dean's club. This was in a warehouse, which consisted of a wall of glass counters with people behind them, for illegal gambling ring along one side. The other side was a bar. In the center was a boxing ring where fighters went on, mostly people from all the families that were on the youngish side came and tried besting each other. Most people came for betting and watching people get all messed up. Me and the girls went because all the way in the back was a staircase which lead up to the second level that gave great views of the ring, plus there was music and pool tables which we mostly played.
“Jane they want to meet there tonight, we either show up, or that picture goes to the magazines and all new related places which means your daddy and all your friends will see” he said as I crossed my arms irritated
“I still can't go, don't you remember the incident of me being grounded, my mother will never let us leave” I said smugly
“don't worries about I'll take care of that” he said with a smug smile right back as I glared, luckily we were finally at school and he was parking. Escaping the car was the best feeling in the world as I walked over to the girls who were walking toward me.
“he makes me so mad” I said through clenched teeth as they laughed
“what did he do know” Tiffany said as I glared at her amused tone
“First did you know, him, my dad, his dad, your dad, and mark went to a strip club last night” I said as she looked shock and glared in the direction of the boys as the other girls giggles “and apparently we are all going to the warehouse tonight, after he just traumatized me and scared me for life” I said as Tiffany nodded
“well I didn't know about the strip-club” Tiffany said in a mad tone as she looked ferrous
“Jane, it better to go out and socialize, after what happened your mind is fragile right now and being scared shut in isn't healthy and look suspicious, we are all going for moral support” Nikita said as I glared
“I don't want to go, plus I'm pretty sure you all forgotten I'm really grounded after I dragged everyone” I said looking at Tiffany as she was staring off at the boys not listen
“your parents will understand it what is best, being around people getting back to your normal ways and normal self, if River never shoot that man and you were not grounded, would you go?” Nikita asked as I rolled my eyes “exactly, normal ways Jane, you are going” she said walking off with Courtney, as Gina stayed behind leaning against her car quietly, as I felt an arm wrap around my waist as I panicked and fought off whoever it was
“what the hell are you doing” I said turning to see an amused River
“doing what I have to, seeing as your forgot” he said as I looked at him like a crazy person “you told the entire school I slept with you, meaning we are suppose to be together, now unless you want a flock of horny teen boys at your feet, people think your slutty or them to think you made it up on David behalf I suggest you play your part as well” he said as the lump formed in my throat as I heard Gina giggling looking at the ground, see new and was waiting for this. As I wanted to kick her
River took a step forward wrapping his arms around me and I was frozen solid as the side of my face pressed into his chest. I was scared of him and now I had to act like I was with him, nauseous came back. I felt him leaning down closer to me as I wanted to push him away and run, but the sick part is, he was right and even though I was scared I felt safe and warm.
“I'm sorry I'm just protecting you, in a few days we can stop, but after the weekend actions we need to keep up appearances for now” he said which was right, I hated he was always freaking right, as he loosened his hug, as I step back a little as he wrapped an arm around my waist and looked at my shoe to avoid eye contact
“I hear you went to a strip club last night” I hear Tiffany said as I glanced at her and mark, and laughed as mark looked like a sacred kid who had just broken an expensive toy as everyone else joined in on my laughter and we started walking to the school, as I took a deep breath, it was going to be a really long day.