"Nice car,Cassy,but i dont recall hearing that Jay got a new car and that school finish 2hours after 14:30?"all of that sacarsm is coming from a woman i call 'mother' .This woman can be so sacarstic in the way that you wont know when she is being serious and when she is being sacarstic.
"That was not Jay mum,that was Tyrol and i was in the library doing some research on chemistry,"I lied.I cant tell my mother the truth,i can't tell her i was in detention.She will literally make me sleep outside she says its parenting.
"Ohk dear,are we visiting your dad this friday,"she asked.Looking at her you can see the sadness in her.Mentioning my father is like mentioning world war 2 to those that were effected.Its been 7 years since he died but she has not move on,I sometimes hear her cry before she sleeps ."Cassidy,I asked you a question,"she said irritated.
"Yes mum,we gonna visit him and mum, Jay asked me to escort him to his grandfather's party this friday ,"i told her.
"Thats really good,Im happy to hear that Cas.This will be a change Cas,you should have fun ,you too young to have so much of problems on your plate,"she said with a forced smile on her."I really wish this was all a dream,I still feel like he is going to come back someday,"She said with glassy eyes.
"Mum you promised me that you are not going to cry."
"Im not crying baby,I'm just wishing.Go clean up and and do your homework and come dowm for supper."
"Okay mum,"I said and left after kissing her cheek.I know once I leave her sight she is going to start crying .
My mum and Dad are like Jay and I.They grew up together, their life always revolved around each other.Its difficult for my mum to move on because she is so used to my father's presents.2 years after my father's death my mum became an alcoholic,she claimed that when she is drunk she sees my dad.As time went my mum changed .She didnt care about me.I was all by myself.Jay was shocked by her behavior but didnt ask any questions cause I told him to let it go.
I dont know how it happened but my mum stopped drinking.She became the mum she was when my father was alive.She started going work,she started cooking helping me with my homework. I thank God for this.
I thought everything was fine until the 5th death anniversary,she tried committing suicide.My life is really....
*knock
"Cas,Jay is here to see you,should I let him ?"my mum said disturbing my train of thoughts.wait why does she sound like a secretary?
"Let him in mum"
"Okay sweet"she said
I wonder why she is so happy but I love the vibe but this is not my first time seeing her this happy when days are approaching to the day i lost my father,the last time she was this happy during this days she tri.....
"May I come in?",Jay asked yet he was already in.This guy's size of manners and size of my Patience is the same.
"You are already in,"I rolled my eyes.
"Your rudeness is what got you in detention in the first place,"he said smirking at me.
If this idiot knew that i was detention cause of him n Connie....
"I wont take long,Cas,"He said with a serious face.
"Yea,of course you wont take long,you dont have time for me."
"Now where is that coming from?"
"Just tell me what you came here for,"This guy is annoying me and I dont even know why.'yes ,you know why,because you dont like him not giving you the attention you like'I swear this voice will be the death of me.
"Well,I came to tell you that I asked Connie to be my girlfriend and she accepted it,"He said.Thats great news but the only problem is . Honestly this 2 makes a great couple.
"Jay,why didnt you tell me that you liked her,I thought we were best friends,"i told him.
" Thats because i wasnt sure about my feelings,but now im sure,i really do like her a lot ,"he said smiling. He really does like her.This is my first time seeing him blush over a girl.
"Omg Dude,you really like her,you blushing,"I said hitting his shoulder
"I cant even deny it but thats not all i wanted to tell you."
"Okay dude shoot."
"When I was in the moment of romance,i kinda asked her to be my dance partner to the party and she accepted it.I cant turn her down Cas,she is my girlfriend.So is it fine if I take her?"He told me. WHAAAATTTTTT,this guy gotta be joking. Seriously.I wont even lie.Im really hurt,im on a verge of crying. I THOUGHT he was my best friend.Why is he letting me down like this.I was really happy about this.I was looking forward for this party. "Hey,Im really sorry plus you didnt want to go,so im sure it fine,"he said smiling.
So he was using me,he didnt have any girlfriend to take and thought of taking me.I thought he wanted to go witg me,I didnt know he wanted to go with me because he didn't have a girlfriend.And
He has the guts to laugh.Does he know how hurt I am.He lead me on to just let me down.I even told my mother about it and now i must go tell her that he turned me down,she will be so sad.
"So you asked me to be your dance partner not because you wanted me to go with you but because you didnt have a girlfriend?"my anger is starting to boil.
"It's not like that Cas,of course i wanted to come with me,but she is my girlfriend,i cant take another girl to be my partner,"he said as if it was the most realistic reason ever.
"Jay,I am your best friend im not just a girl,if you knew you were feeling something for her why did you ask me,why didnt you just go straight and asked her?"
"I know this could have been prevented if I asked her,I just didnt know how."
"But somehow you did"
"I need to go,I love you."He said.
"Close the door on your way out,"I told him and after that he left.
Now what......
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CHAPTER 5 GUYS♡
Chapter 6
"Cas,I don't want to pass there,I told you chocolate isnt good for your health,"my dad said.
"Daddy please, I promise its my last time,"i pleaded
"You've been saying that since you were 6,I can't wait for that day you will really stop,"he said.
We going to fetch my mum from work and he doesn't want to buy me chocolate.We are currently by the robots and he just...
*knocking by the window
"Hello may i help you,"my daddy asked the guy.
"Yes,sir you may help me by....," he takes out a gun."By dying!"he shoots him 8 times .
I am there but i cant do anything i cant move,theres nothing i can do.Why doesnt I have control over my body.
DADDY,I tried to scream but nothing is coming out.DADDY PLEASE WAKE UP.My voice,i got no voice.
"CAS!"
"Daddy please wake up,please dont do this to mummy and I",I told my father finally finding my voice.
"CAS!"He shook me with more force
"CAS,wake up"Somebody else said.
I opened my eyes,to see my mother kneeling next to my bed crying.That was another nightmare.This nightmares always happen to me.My mum have tried everything to help me but it doesnt work.It stopped but always come back when Im upset.
"CAS,Thank god you woke up,this was worst than ever,Cas are you okay?,why are you getting these nightmares again?,I thought they stopped,is there anything upsetting you and you arent telling me?"she spoke so fast as more tears fell."Cas please dont do this to me,dont keep any secret from me,"She pleaded.
She is already upset ,I cant tell her that Jay doesn't want to take me to the dance anymore,this will really upset her even more.So I gave the most stupid reason to justify why my nightmares reappeared"mum,I am fine,its just that i read this book last night and it was similar to my life,so it reminded me of dad,I am so sorry mummy,"I told her.
She first studied my face before saying anything "I just hope you are not lying to me Cassidy,I am your mother,if things are troubling you,you gotta tell me,"she asked,hugging me.
This is all I have as a parent,My mum.Her hugs is what keeps me going.As long as she hugs me,I am fine.I cant really imagine my life without her ,cant even think about.
"Yes mum,I will tell you,"Looking at the time,I am 20mins late for school.I didnt even hear my alarm "Mum,look at the time,I got to get ready for school,"I told her.
"Ohk baby,dont forget if theres anything bothering you,come and we will have a talk about it,"she said.
"Ohk mum,"
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What an eventful morning.I manage to finish everything in time..
☆Jay-Hey,I know you are still upset with me and I'm really sorry but please let me drive you to school
♡Me-Im getting a lift from Tyrol,its fine Jay.
☆Jay-okay.
He didnt even insisted on taking me .Now I will have to walk to the busy station to get a bus.
"Mummy,Im leaving ,"i told her.
"Where is Jay?"She asked
"He is not feeling well,so he is not going to school,"i lied.I seriously don't know where I got these lying skills from.I should think of becoming a lawyer.
Here's that facial expression I hate,she is pitting him."People get sick mum,you dont have to pity them,"I told her.
"Go to school,you getting late,"She said smiling.She is fully aware that i hate 'pity'.
"Bye,"I kissed her cheek and left.
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Ive been walking for over 15 minutes now.I really hate going to the bus station because there's a big possibility that i may not even get a bus.
*car hooting*
Im not even walking on the road,why is the driver hooting at me.He has been doing that 5 mins since i started walking.I think he is following me.What if it's the same person that killed my father.
After the death of my father,I have become a little paranoid.Maybe not a little but wouldn't you if you witnessed your father getting shot 8 times.
So I did what i thought was right.I started running.I ran until the hooting stopped.I really am a good runner.I thought while running.
"You dont have to run away from me,I am not going to hurt you,"A voice said and this voice sound really familiar.Okay,maybe i am not such a good runner but people doesn't have to know. I turned around and of course it's that idiot Tyrol.
"YOU STUPID,you scared me damnit,you couldn't get out of the car so I could see your face,"I screamed at him.
He laughed"What is wrong with you?Why you getting scared of small thing?"he asked.Thats because small things killed my father.
"What do you want?"
"Will I be greeted by that whenever I speak to you,I must say for a pretty girl you are a bit rude,you weren't like this before,What happened?"
Where does this guy know me from.He speaks to me as if he knows everything about me.This is really annoying.
"Anyways,wanted to know whether you wanted a lift?"He asked
"Nope,I am fine,I am almost at my destination,"I told him.
"Yes of course,with the 15 mins you have wasted running,talking to me and being paranoid,You have plenty time to go wait for a bus and also not find one and start walking to school,"He said sarcastically. He is so sacarstic he reminds me of my mother.Maybe he is my mother's son.
I laughed to myself.
"Why are you laughing?"he asked.
"Something,anyways lets go only got 45mins before school starts ,"I said pulling him towards his car.This was not the car he had yesterday,thats why i didnt recognise it.Well this is perfect,now Jay can see that he can also be easily replaced.I smiled.
"Crazzidy,Why are you laughing to yourself,"He asked.He called me Crazzidy .That name rings a bell but I don't know from where.
"Crazzidy?,Why did you call me that,"I asked him.
"Sorry,was caught in the moment,I promise to not call you that again,"he apologised.
"Why did you call me that?"I asked.
"Dont worry about it Cas,Let's go,we getting late,"he said.
"But......"
"Will you please let it go,"he seems angry.His mood swings wow.
"Okay, lets go ,"I said.
Our drive was really quiet,he looked like he was pondering about something that he didnt like to ponder about.
I didnt push my luck because this guy's mood swing is craaazyyyyy.
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