Today was the day of my dreaded doctors appointment and I honestly thought about canceling a few hundred times.
"Are you sure you don't want me to go with you?" Phoenix asked for the millionth time reaching for my hand.
"Yes!" I exclaimed basically pushing him out of the bedroom door and toward the staircase where Nick waited for him not so patiently and tapping away on his phone.
He wore dark blue jeans and a white t shirt paired with some white vans that I bought for him a while ago.
"Alright. Text me if you need us and well be there in minutes." he sighed turning and kissing me and biting my lower lip making me laugh in the kiss from his action.
"Go!" I ordered him finally making leave.
I watched him and Nick walk out together and sighed as I slowly strolled back to our room and finished packing my purse for my day on my own.
My hair was thrown in a topknot and I wore simple high waisted jean shorts paired with a white v neck tucked in on the side. On my feet were my favorite, comfortable brown sandals.
I grabbed my sun glasses off my dresser before heading down the stairs myself and out of the front door, feeling sick with nerves.
I walked into my car, right away putting on my air conditioner on and sighing, typing in the directions of my new doctor's office into my car gps.
The drive I had was silent and dread filled my stomach, because I was certainly nervous to finally find out what this annoying and time consuming pain was.
The office was not far, so I made it there a few minutes early , giving me time to collect myself and my thoughts and take many many slow breaths in attempt to push down my anxieties.
I grabbed my purse off of the passenger seat and headed into the large ,multiple glass story building , a little less nervous that I was able to calm myself slightly.
I followed the signs to the regular check up section and ended up in an empty large waiting room and I walked up to the main front desk where a tan man was sitting typing away.
"Hey." I greeted, startling him and making him look up with a nervous smile.
"Hey! Sorry about that. Its my first week here and we hardly ever have patients." he explained with an apologetic smile.
"Don't even worry about it." I waved him off, giving him my insurances and identification.
We chatted a bit more as he imputed me into the system and then ushered me into the back and into a large doctor's room, leaving me all alone.
I slipped off my clothes and put on the white and blue speckled hospital gown that was provided for me.
I felt almost child like as I sat on the bed, feet dangling while waiting for the doctor to come in.
I scrolled through Instagram feed and smiled at my photos of Nix, Nick and I that we had waiters or random strangers take as we drove down here from Washington.
It was quite the journey and was filled with many laughs, junk food and great music thanks to me and my amazing play list.
I was distracted and quickly shoved my phone away when the women doctor entered the room giving me a warm smile.
"Hello Amelia , my name is Brenda. So I understand you're here for stomach pain?" She began and turned to was her hands along with throw some gloves on.
"Yeah, It feels almost as a period cramp but a million times worse and lasts roughly seconds." I explained the best I could.
"Hmm." She began , walking over to me and gesturing me to lay down. "Chance of Pregnancy?" She questioned making me shake my head right away.
"All of my periods are normal and on time." I assured her while she felt around my lower belly and pelvis.
"Are you sure about your periods? No change in them?" She questioned again, moving away to grab a clipboard.
"I mean they are a little lighter and shorter." I shrugged making her nod.
She turned back around and handed me a small cup.
"We need to rule out all options completely." She said with a small smile. " Go ahead and pee in there so we can start getting you x rays and prove you actually aren't pregnant." She chuckled making me nod in understanding.
I took the cup from her and hurried to the nearest bathroom.
Once I was finished I handed it off to a nurse who pointed me back to my room.
"Doctor will be in with you as soon as possible."
I made my way back to the room and sat awkwardly alone on the doctor's bench while I sent a quick text to Nix.
"Send me a selfie of you two!"
My phone dinged with a response but I didn't get to look at it as the doctor walked back in.
"Well you were right. No pregnancy, but we did detect some strange hormones in you , I think a pelvic exam is needed." Which is what we did.
We did that, ultra sounds and even X-rays and what we discovered was life altering for me.
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Nix Point Of View
"Out of all the places to eat McDonalds?" I asked my brother as that is where he chose to eat.
"We never eat there." He pointed out. "But whatever, we can eat at Chilies." he offered and I nodded, agreeing with that much more.
I did a quick U-Turn and we ended up at Chilies, and luckily there was no lunch rush so we were seated right away.
The area we moved to, by no means was a large city. To get the shops and chain restarts it was easily a 20-30 minute drive and that is with no traffic.
We ordered our drinks and Nick and I sat across from another some what awkward, since we haven't had a chance to hang out in the past weeks, and I've been pretty harsh on him the few times I did get to talk to him.
"So." I began "Tell me about Taylor." I smiled softly and he immediately turned bright red.
"She's just my friend." He stuttered making my grin get even wider.
"Alright." I said stopping the laugh that was threatening to break through. "Really though, tell me about her." I prompted and he let out a breathe.
"I don't like her like that." He stated first before continuing, "But she is amazing. She's really funny and she's not afraid to climb trees." He gushed making me smile as he basically admitted his feelings.
"And ok." He added. "I like her a little bit, but I don't think she'll ever like me back." He admitted sadly.
"Why not? You're the full package." I questioned.
"There's another guy. His name is Hector. He's a lot taller than me and Ive heard he likes Taylor." He sighed.
I nodded, taking in the information. "Do you vibe with her though? Has either of them ever told you they have feeling for one another?" I questioned and he shook his head no.
"Alright then, its a fair game. Take her on a date." I offered.
"How?" he asked, interested.
"What do you mean how? Take her out, go to lunch together but you pay. You always have to pay for the first date." I added taking a sip of lemonade. "Then, you lay all the smooth moves on her. Show off a little to impress her but not too much to the point your annoying. And ask her about herself a lot too. Girls like that." I added.
He nodded eagerly. "Then do I hold her hand? Do we kiss?" he cringed a little at the last part.
"I mean, don't do anything you or her are uncomfortable. If you don't want to kiss her then don't and vise versa. Let me tell you about this thing called consent." I began to explain all of the details and how important it was in both parties.
"So basically, even if she dosen't say anything but yes than it's a no. And even if she says yes but is acting funny then it's still no?" He questioned sipping his strawberry lemonade.
I nodded happy he understood the concept to the best of his ability.
"So how do we have sex?" He asked bluntly making me actually choke on my drink causing us to get many stares from the people around us.
He crooked his head in confusion at my reaction and I shook my head multiple times. "Ok no. You guys will under no circumstances be having any type of sex ok?" I pleaded.
"But if I really like her? In Washington my friend told me-" I cut him off right away again.
"Absolutely not. That is not to happen under any circumstances aright?" I told him sternly, figuring he already knew what sex was from the people he hung around in our old city.
He nodded eagerly at my tone sensing how serious I was. "And do not bring it up to Taylor either. That is not a call I want to hear about." I lectured further and he nodded quickly.
After that quick lecture our lunch went by smoothly and I really felt Nick open up in ways I haven't seen in months.
"You know why I'm hard on you right?" I asked softly as we waited for our dessert.
"Because it gives you joy?" He sarcastically remarked making me roll my eyes.
"Shut up." I started "It actually doesn't give me joy. I just want you to succeed and have motivation and I want you to become independent and accountable ok?" I tried to explain and be surprised me by smiling.
"I know. Even though it sucks, it's still nice that you care about me. And you're my brother and I like being yelled at by you more than dad." He shrugged off making me feel a little better about myself.
"And even though I'm in charge of you, you're still my brother and I'll be here for you to talk about anything. Chances are I've been through it." I further explained.
"Ok." He answered sincerely and I was already overjoyed with our newfound connection and couldn't wait to tell Mia all about it.
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Sorry for the wait