I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off on my cell phone. As I reached over to pick it up off of my night stand, I unplugged it from the charger then turned it off. Why did I even set my alarm? Getting out of bed, I walked to the kitchen to turn on my keurig to make some peppermint tea before turning on my music. After drinking my tea, I walked back up to my room and opened the curtains to let some sunlight in, then I started my morning routine. I got my clothes on and headed headed to my real estate agents office to go look at some houses.
"If it isn't Ms. Genesis! You ready to find your forever home?" Yasmine asked as she gave me a hug.
Yasmine has been my friend for years so she knows what I'm looking for. "Yes! I'm so excited."
"So have you told him the news yet or are you telling him when he gets back from shooting his movie?"
I sit in the chair that's in front of her desk and sigh, "No, I haven't told him yet. I don't even want to because he's already said he doesn't want any kids."
"And you told him that you weren't on any type of birth control. He's either gonna man up and take care of what's his or call it quits. Either way I'm here to help you and my unborn niece or nephew."
"Thanks girl," I say as I give her a hug. "Now lets go find me a house."
Grabbing her purse and planner she smiles," I think I have a few that you might fall in love with. But do you want to stay in the Sherman Oaks area or Corona?"
"Corona," I say as we walk out of the office and to her car.
"Why Corona?"
"If things go south, I don't think I could bare to stay in the same area as Mike," I say staring out the window. Why do I have to worry all the time? Mike and I have a wonderful loving and super supportive relationship and it may all change once I tell him that I'm pregnant.
As we headed to Corona, we talked about my residency and how I'm adjusting to being a surgeon at Del Rey Hospital. After a while we made it to the first house in Corona.
"Oh, before I forget there's a gorgeous house two houses down from me for sale as well. You want to check that one out first? I think you'll love it."
As I was thinking of something smart to say my phone started to ring. "Hey baby, how's it going?"
"Well I have some good news for you."
"What's that?"
"We finished early and I'm home waiting on your beautiful soul. I missed you."
"I've missed too. I'll be over after I'm done looking at a few houses.
"You're looking some place close by, right?"
"Yasmine got a few houses in that area to look at. The rest are in Corona."
"Aiight I'll see you once you're done, baby. But make it quick, I miss them chocolate cakes. Love you."
"I love you too."
I hung the phone up and focused on finding a house to live in with my unborn child. It's funny how I've always pictured myself a family person, wanting nothing but the best for my kids. A home with both parents and being surrounded by family. I guess life had different plans. I know Michael isn't going to be happy about this situation, but what's done is done. I have to live with the decision that we both made that night. The drive to the first house was fairly short and let me say it's was amazing!
I loved everything about this house, but it was just too big for me. "It's beautiful, but maybe something smaller. It's just me and I don't need all this space. Do you have any condos on your list?"
"I have two. One is close to your job and the other is in Malibu off Pacific Coast Hwy."
"Let's look at the one closest to my job."
"I know you will love it. It has one feature that you said you wanted,"she said as she locked up the house.
"What's that?"
She smiled. "I'll let you see that for yourself. I think you might just buy this one."
The drive was long, but once we got there I was in total awe. It was perfect. Beautiful view of the ocean, gorgeous kitchen and don't get me started on the bedrooms. This was mine. "I want it! I'm so in love right now! How much for this condo, Yas?"
"The seller is asking for $3,795,000. The price also reflex the staging furniture should you want that as well."
"I want it all! It will definitely take the stress of shopping away."
"I'll see what I can do. How much would you put down if the sellers agree to the price?"
"I'd pay in full."
"Give me a few minutes."
When Yasmine came back she had a look of defeat on her face. "Let me guess, they said someone already made an offer that they've accepted?"
"So... when do you want to move in?" She said with a grin.
"Are you serious?! You lyin!"
"No, I'm dead serious! You are officially a home owner....well after you sign those papers you will be."
I could not stop thinking about my new home, but also what Mike would think considering that it wasn't close to him. As we drove back to Yasmine's office I started to get more and more nervous. I had to tell him tonight and no matter what I would not get upset over his reaction. I'm tired of crying and I'm tired of walking on eggshells. Just then Sam Smith's song Too Good at Goodbyes came on the radio. Is this some sort of sign? I looked out towards the bright sky and said a silent prayer. Once we got back to the office, I thanked my bestie for helping me find the home of my dreams and left.
Once at Mike's house I begin to get more and more scared. I look out the window and take a few deep breaths before getting out and walking up the driveway. "Babe, I'm in the garage," I hear him call out followed by noise from the weights clinking together. "What's wrong? You look nervous. Is everything ok?" He asks as he walks over to me giving me the biggest hug and kiss.
I swear my heart is going to jump out of my chest. "We need to talk."
I followed him inside the garage where he was working out and tears begin to build in my eyes. "Genesis whats going on? Why are you crying?"
I look at him with tears falling. He gently wipes them away and holds onto me. "Michael, I'm pregnant," I say into his neck. He tensed up and took a step backwards.
"What?"
"I'm pregnant," I say looking him dead in the eyes.
"Why the fuck would you go an get pregnant when I said I didn't want any fucking kids?! You thought this was a way to keep my ass with you? You planned this shit all along. Thought you'd hit the fuckin Jack pot with child support? You just like every gold digging bitch I done met," he said as he walked past me. "Get the fuck out and don't come back," he yelled as he walked into the house, leaving me in the garage crying. I didn't bother saying goodbye to anyone I just walked out to my car and left.
When I got home I deleted his number from my phone and cried into a pillow. I expected him to react this way but it was still painful. I'm not going to sit here wallowing in self pity. I'm too strong for that shit. I got up ran some bath water and tossed a bath bomb in the tub as my phone began to ring. I looked at the screen only to see his number. Rage filled me and I threw the phone across the room causing it to break. Shit I didn't think that through. Just then I heard a knock at the door, whoever it is can stay there. I don't feel like being bothered,
but whoever's at my door isn't getting the memo. I climbed into the tub and let the hot water engulf my body. The welcoming fragrance of lavender filled the air and I began to relax, only to be startled by my front door slamming shut.
"Genesis?!" He stopped short when he saw me sitting in the tub.
"Why are you here? You don't want me or our baby. You had the audacity to call me a gold digger and even said I planned this just to get money from you! I don't need shit from you or anybody else, so seeing as you no longer want me I suggest you get the hell out of my apartment," I said without even opening my eyes. "Oh, don't worry, I wouldn't dream of putting you on the birth certificate or asking you for help. Just pretend like you never even knew me. Leave the key on the table on your way out."
"I'm not here to argue with you, Genesis. I came to apologize for the things that I said. You have every right to be upset with me. Yeah, I'm upset, but that doesn't give me any right to call you a bitch or gold digger. I'm sorry. I hope that one day you can forgive me. Can you please look at me? What can I do to make this right between us?"
I opened my eyes to see him kneeling next to the tub looking like he had been drinking. "I don't even know how to respond to you at this moment. Your words hurt, Michael. You seem to think that I planned this, but in all reality I told you that I was not on any type of birth control. You decided that you still wanted to fuck and didn't give any damn thought to the repercussions. What's done is done. What's sad is that even after I told you that I grew up not knowing my biological father you say some dumb shit like that. I guess all women that get knocked up after fucking their men are scheming just to get a little pissy ass child support check, huh? I'm set. Our child will have everything that he or she needs and I'll make sure that we won't bother you or your family now or in the future. Now please, put my keys on the table on your way out."
"Imma leave you alone and give you time to calm down. I hope that we can still remain friends, after all that's how we started out. I still love you."
"I can't say the same right now. I need time to think without you in my face acting like you're sorry."
He leaned closer to me, "I'll give you all the space that you need. Just keep me informed."
This muthafucka! Keep him informed about what?! My ass getting fatter? I mean what the fuck! After he left, I climbed out of the tub and made sure my door was locked. I looked out the peep hole and saw him leaning on my door. "I know that you're standing on the other side. I fucked up. I'm not going to pretend that I'm the perfect man. I'm not. I know that it's going to take a lot for you to forgive me, that's if you forgive me. But I don't want to lose you. You've shown me what it truly means to love someone and to be quite honest, I trust you more than most of my family. You're my best friend, my lover, and now you're the mother of my son or daughter. I apologize for hurting you."
He straightened himself up then turned around to leave. Genesis if you open this door and take him back you a punk ass, I said to myself over and over. I walked back to the bathroom and climbed back into the water. Everything is going to be different now.