A: I suddenly want to skip time...
Let's have one week after.
Listen to the same suggestion of instrumental song from the previous chapter. Just an advice.
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One week have flew...
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- Jimin
It's been a week and God knows how I miss her.
But...
My ego still can't face her, neither one of her members.
What happened did broke me too hard that I can't even see her photo on my phone.
I had enough from her and Jungkook...
And I have disregarded that already.
But this one? I don't think I still can handle.
It would be fine if I saw her tried to push him away. If she tried pulling away from that fucking kiss.
I would still consider if she even told me that she and Kai are both having good terms already...
But none of these...
Happened.
She didn't told me.
And I don't think she attempted to say.
We just finished another one concert tour, now we're heading back to Korea again.
We're heading back to our home.
To be honest...
My everyday gets dull and boring now that she's not here. It feels like empty and blankness is filling inside me. But, will you blame me if I don't want to face her as of now?
I will face her...
I will try to the best I can endure to listen to her...
But not now.
"Not now."
"We are arriving, be ready."
Our manager commanded as we are about to land any minute.
Now, we're on plane and I don't care if I got motion sickness. That's better that heart ache.
"Jimin, will you go with me?"
Taehyung asked which made me furrowed my brows in confusion...
"Where?"
I asked seriously and confusedly.
"Just going to buy some gift."
He answered and I can't refuse.
I just nodded.
Few hours...
We got off from the airport and went to a...
"Hotel?"
I confusedly asked as we went out of the car.
"I thought we're going to buy a gift?"
I asked and both Jungkook and Taehyung looked at me.
Jungkook went with us as a guide to I don't know.
"Yes, I need to do something here first."
Taehyung answered before pulling me by my wrist.
We entered the hotel and Taehyung asked something on the front desk.
I travelled my eyes to the facility, it's clean, cozy, warm and quiet.
"Anyway, Taehyung. Who are you going to give the gift you're buying?"
I asked while we began to take the path to somewhere I don't know.
Few seconds...
I didn't get a response.
We entered an elevator and Jungkook pressed the button for seventh floor.
"Where are we going again?"
I asked...
And I still don't get an answer.
"Hey, the two of you are not answering."
I complained and they both looked at me blank.
"Hyung, I'm very sorry. But just like what I told you, this is the least I can do for the two of you."
Jungkook answered with worry and I got anxious the moment I got even more confuse.
"What are you saying?"
The time I asked, the ting sound of the elevator echoed the room sayung that we have reached the floor we want to go.
The door opened...
And...
Unexpectedly...
I saw Jisoo and Jennie.
Ny forehead creases at the sight of them but before I could even ask about their presence...
Taehyung and Jungkook held my arms ony back not letting me to release myself.
"We're sorry hut she just want to talk to you which we know, as your friend, would be imposible until we helped."
Taehyung's raspy and mature voice met my ears.
I got goosebumps as I heard...
"Chaeyoung's inside."
From Jennie's mouth.
Hearing her precious name is enoihh for me to go faint...
Especially this time.
I haven't seen her for more than seven days after what happened between her and Kai...
I haven't read her messages.
I am turning my phone off ahenever she calls.
Even though I misses her so much...
My love for her isn't enough to go drag my ego down for now.
"Release me, Jungkook, Taehyung!"
I commanded frustratedly, but they are both serious and strong enough not to let me off from their hands.
"Just this day, Jimin. Give Chaeyoung a chance, it might not be cheating if you'll listen to her."
Taehyung uttered as we reached the door of a room.
"Hyung, she has been crying for the whole week we are not here in Korea. She even fainted and passed out for a two days. At least try to listen now, and hyung, thisnidea wasn't from her. It's from me. I texted Lisa the just the exact day Chaeyoung fainted, and her members even need convince her to cooperate."
Jungkook explained.
"If they need to convince her, it means, she don't want to be in here. So why do I even need to bother..."
I was cutted when I just want to defened myself.
"Remember, you love her. You came to her life, you're the one who promised forever for her, you have the obligation to prove it. It wasn't her promise, so, basically, she can do whatever she wants. If she eanted to kiss Kai, you're bad. If she wanted to give you back the love you're giving to her, you're good. Why do you need to be bothered? Chaeyoung is still your girlfriend. You still love her and we all know it. You're just rising your pride up cause you think that would save you from the pain when the truth is, you're kist hurting the both of you even more."
Taehyung added, manly, seriously, and emontionlessly.
"She don't want to be in her not because she really don't want to and don't have the intention. She just knew that you would refuse just like now, and sje's afraid you would reject and neglect her."
Jungkook defended her.
"Please, recall the image of Chaeyoung hurting herself because of you. Think of the image of her crying everyday and night, endlessly. And try to imagine her, not eating her meals, not even trying to get uo from the bed. If it wasn't becayse of her members, she died already of starvation or dehydration."
Taehyung looked at the door as he stated...
And...
I felt my heart beating slowly yet hardly.
A couple of seconds...
And the door opened...
It revealed...
Lisa.
"Is she fine?"
From behind, Jisoo asked with her serious tone.
Lisa nodded who looks worried.
"Anyway, still thank you to you, Jimin. Lisa and Chaeyoung have forgiven each other already. They are fully fine now. Our group is healed."
And with a bitter tone, Jennie thaked me.
The way she told me thank you, it sounds like sarcastic.
"Now, enter the room."
Lisa demanded which unknowingly, my body obeyed.
Slowly...
I walked into the room.
Lisa walked out and they closed the door.
I explored the whole huge room wit my eyes...
Until my eyes met a familiar image.
"My Chaeyoung-a."
I froze the moment I saw her...
She is standing away from me.
Her eyes on the ground.
She's wearing a long and thick black jacket.
And my eyes noticed...
Her puffy red eyes, swollen and blushing face.
Tear stained visible on her cheeks.
My fist clenched at the sight of her, at the sight of the evidence that she suffered.
I felt the anger now...
Not for her...
But for myself.
I also noticed that she got thinner.
"Haven't she eaten regularly?
My fault, isn't it?"
I stared at her...
I frozenly stared at her...
I can't move, I can't even brrath properly.
I can feel my heart beat raising.
And few more seconds that we are just standing...
She suddenly squeezes her own hand...
And couldn't stop but to burst out crying.
"Chaeyoung-a."
I don't know already...
But I couldn't stop my body.
I immediately ran a little towards her, grab her, and hugged her.
The moment I hugged her tight...
I felt her body shaking.
And I need to supoort her from falling.
She cried even more on my shoulder.
She sobbed harder like it was the end for us.
I rubbed her back...
Tried to calm her down.
But the more I comfort her, the more she sobbed.
I closed my eyes...
Preventing myself to cry.
If she's this weak...
I at least need to be strong to hold her.
I shouldn't cry, I should be strong enough to fight if she isn't able to do.
I heard her voice cracking and she's trying to speak but her sobs won't let her.
She's having hiccups already as well.
"Enough, enough, baby. I'm not mad anymore."
I uttered just to make her stop.
I pulled her a little away from me as I kissed her forehead.
Her hands gripping on my coat, on my arms.
She let out an amount of carbon dipxide as she tries to stop her from sobbing...
I cupped her face and wiped the tears off.
"Shh, don't cry."
I demanded but the time I did...
She shook her head and cried even more.
"I-I....I-I'm s-s-sorry."
She apologized.
I pulled her for a tight hug once again.
I can smeel the scent of her hair, sweet fresh vanila.
"I'll listen to everything that you'll say, so stop crying now, my baby."
I stroke her back gently to send her comfort.
"I'm sorry for ignoring you the whole past week. I just can't face you if it's not because of our members. But I really do miss you, Chaeyoung. God knows how much I wanted to see you, it's just that my prideful side is pulling me away from you."
I whispered and burried her face on my shoulder.
"Please, explain yourself, I'll listen even if it's lies. I am ready to disregard everything once again for you, I don't want to lose you, I hate seeing you like that. Swollen eyes and reddish face. Tear stained cheeks, thinner than usual. Look at yourself, you haven't followed my instructions. You didn't ate regulary, did you? Chaeyoung-a...."
I pulled her a little and cupped her face again.
This time...
She's calmer.
Her eyes closed and breathing slowly trying to relax herself.
"Calm yourself, and explain later. I will listen, don't worry."
I brushed her hair with my fingers, the way I usually do when she's sleeping or just woke up.
I suddenly want to carru her on the bed...
I lifted her and carried her bridal style.
Her brows furrpwed at my action but didn't questioned me why.
I put her on bed gently.
I say beside her and I caressed her cheek with my one hand. And the other free hand squeezes gently her hand.
She's still looking down...
Looks like she feel guilty of what happened.
I lifted her head by lifting her chin up making her look at me.
I gazed to her eyes...
Pretty eyes yet reddish and swollen.
My eyes landed on her lips...
Those lips...
Sinful lips yet moisted and attracting.
I cupped her face and was about to pull her closer yet she refuses just before I could ever pull her.
She held my hand and removed it from her face.
And as my hands are off from her face already, she removed her hands and hold it on her own.
"I'm sorry but...."
Tears began to stream down again from her eyes...
"Y-you might ger disgusted with me now."
My brows furrowed from her words.
"That's not gonna happen, Chaeyoung-a."
I denied which is true.
"I told you, i'm goijg to disregard everything just explain yourself so I have something to believe on."
I added making her cry even more once again.
"I didn't intend to kiss him or kiss him back that time. I also didn't mean to..."
She wiped her tears with her sleeves and continued...
"I didn't mean to keep it a secret, I am just waiting for you to come back before telling you. I didn't know that he would do that or he would fall for me if that's what we should call about that. He comforted me the day Lisa and I had conflict and you're not around to comfort me. He's also the one that bought me the coat. And..."
She stopped as she prevented herself to sob again.
Then, she continued...
"And that night that he kissed me, I just went to him because he's sick not to cheat on you. I am so shock that I froze for a moment before I realized that e is kissing me. And just before I could push him away you already saw us and thought that..."
She stopped and let herself cry.
My hands reached for her back, rubbing it gently.
"I'm not telling lies, J-Jimin. P-please, b-believe me."
She suffered from stammering but still managed to finish her words.
And after her explaination.
I hugged her.
"You have suffered too much already. I am ready to forgive you, so, enough. Don't cry."
"Don't break up with me."
She muttered on my shoulder which earned a shock expression from me.
"Who told you that I'm going to break up with my baby?"
I pulled her, hold her shoulders and asked surprisedly.
"Jungkook and Taehyung told me that you said that you don't know me anymore which I can conaider as an indirect break up."
Her eyes lookimg at me chest, avoiding my eyes.
I looked at her a bit fruatrated...
I lifted her head and made her look at me by cupping her face.
I shook my head and answered...
"I'm just mad that night. I didn't mean to break up with you."
Her eyes soften at my words.
"I'm sorry."
She suddenly apologized again.
"You actually don't have to."
I hugged her again...
But now...
She's calmed and I'm fine.
"Right...I.told myself that I am ready to disregard every mistake that she will do just not to lose her. That's how much I love her. Too much, too much that it's fine for me to swallow every dignity and pride that I have for me."
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A: Undeniably, a long chapter, isn't it?
I hope you enjoyed the chapter today.
But everything isn't fine yet, I'm giving you a direct hint.