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DEAR DIARY,
I have never been as puzzled and confused and disgusted as I am today. I swear I don't like girls, I never have and I never will! It's just not possible for someone like me.
I stared at my reflexion in the mirror for hours this afternoon, wondering why I was like this, wondering what went wrong. My green eyes were red and puffy and I couldn't stop myself from letting the warm tears stream down my cheeks. I don't want to be the way I am, I just wish to be normal like everyone else. That way my parents could be proud of me.
But then I found myself thinking of her. Max just makes me feel something I've never felt before. It's this weird tingly feeling in my stomach that comes whenever I'm near her or whenever I think of her. I've barely spoken to her, maybe once or twice, but I just can't help it. It's like there's this inexplicable force that draws me to her and I simply can't fight it.
a/n: Hey guys, hope you're liking the story so far! Things will start to get a bit better in about two chapters. OH AND MY BIRTHDAY IS IN TWO DAYSSS!!!!!
( re-written on 15/07/2021)