Bella POV
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I looked at my phone and at the rode again, I was nervous. I mean what if he lies to me again or what if i find out some of the things he did and never look at him the same anymore.There were a million questions running through my mind and I was about 5 minutes away from home when i checked my phone and saw that it wasn't jake that texted me but ethan instead.
~ugh i dont have time right now~
I clenched my steering wheel because I was frustrated, scared, and curious...I mean the mob that's some serious shit. Apart of me didn't want to bring it up because what if he asks who told me and he finds out it's Grayson then goes after him, I dont want anything to happen to Grayson but i just have to figure out what's going on in my life everything is messed up and jake is like...
My light in all this darkness but what if he's apart of the darkness too...I rubbed my fingers through my hair and drove into the garage but i didnt get out of the car...i stayed in there for a couple of minutes trying to calm down and gather all of my thoughts.
Jake...he seems sweet, I thought he was the boy next door type.
I rolled my eyes
Maybe I'm blowing this all out of proportion but, what if he's not the so called sweet guy I knew before.
I got out of the car, going inside I heard yelling
Grandma:You are not marrying him!
Mom: this is my life! and you are not going to control it mother
i looked at Alex's face and he was rubbing his forehead...kaden was leaning against the wall staring and i wondered where Maddison was...
Then alex spoke up
Alex:So this is why you havent been wearing your engagement ring
my mom looked at him
Mom:alex can we please talk later
she said rubbing his arm
Grandma:I can't believe this your making another mistake in your life just like you did when you were 18 running off with that boy and then you had Isabella and who had to take care of her me!
Mom:How dare you throw that in my face when you got pregnant at 16!
then my grandma slapped her and my mom held her face
Mom:Don't sit there and pretend like you don't know why I ran away in the first place...you think just because your saved now that every thing you've done has been overlooked
I looked between them
Mom:not once have I heard an apology for the SEVERAL mistakes you've made In my life
My grandmother stood there and looked at her, silent
I looked at kaden and his eyes widened and he covered his mouth while walking out of the room backwards.
Alex walked towards my mom and put his hands on her shoulders
Grandma:you are a disappointment
she said walking off
Mom:and You're no better...you were a monster
She screamed
Mom:Talking about raising someone's child you babysat! What about me raising Marie huh!
She was about to go after my grandmother but she
looked at me.I walked over to hug her and for the first time ever she cried on my shoulder...i mean of course she was a terrible mother to me because look what she had to grow up with...plus without my dad being there it must have been hard for her to raise me on her own.
she let me go and she walked upstairs i walked into the kitchen where i saw and heard my grandmother cursing in Spanish
"why did you say those things to her"
she looked at me
Grandma:your mother is a ungrateful child..and if you keep looking up to her your gonna end up just like her
she said walking pass me and going upstairs
Kaden:Boo!
"Fuck...Shit"
I turned around to a laughing kaden
"what the hell is wrong with you"
Kaden:well....my life is fucked up uhm im pretty sure I took my stepsisters virginity and im hungry
"shh"
I said putting my finger to my mouth
"too loud idiot"
he laughed then opened the fridge
"seems like everybody has a problem these days"
Kaden:yup
He stopped and looked at me grabbing a juice carton from the fridge
Kaden:Go ahead
"My problem is I dont know who to trust anymore i feel like my whole life is turning upside down, i mean things are complicated and i feel like i just need to vent to somebody its giving me headaches and i just dont know what to do"
Kaden:well, we have a problem
he said staring at me from behind the fridge door
"what"
I say looking at him curious and putting my hand on the counter
"we're out of apple juice"
~what the fuck~
I threw up my hands and walked out of the kitchen and upstairs to my room, i got in the shower because i smelled like the beach and sand.Hopefully the steam and hot water can relax me, it did...slowly I became untense and my focus was on getting myself clean. My thoughts would go back to worrying but my focus would go back to the water as well.When I checked my phone again, there were no notifications from jake.
I laid down and grabbed my journal and begin writing
DEAR DIARY
So i haven't talked to you in a while, me and Kaden had sex that's a secret...Maddison is probably sleeping with a teacher that's a secret ....and Jake is in the mafia that's a secret...I thought everybody was different i thought Maddison was the shy innocent nerdy girl. I thought Jake was the sweet kind..funny boy next door type but i was wrong and Kaden...well Kaden is always gonna be an ass
I didn't know what else to write...it's as if I didn't even need the journal anymore.
I closed my journal and placed it under my pillow . I set my alarm for tomorrow gently laying my head on my pillow as well.Just like that i was out like a light bulb.
I woke up and was happy today was Thursday I was happy This was my last semester this year and that it was Early March I got out of bed did my daily things and got dressed I wore this today
I flatten my hair and grabbed my car keys I looked at my phone again but I still didn't have a text from Jake
I was getting upset...is he purposely ignoring me or is he hurting somebody else.I went downstairs and grabbed an apple Maddison came down and so did Kaden
Maddison:I'm riding with Kaden today bella
She said smiling to me
"Alright"
Kaden:lets go
We all went towards the garage and I got a text message from all my friends they texted me their Address and told me to come pick them up
~how the hell do they know I have a car~
I went by and picked them all up and we were headed to school together
Tyler:you literally have my dream car
Rose:it's beautiful bella
rose said while hitting my shoulder
"Thanks guys"
I looked in the mirror and noticed kamrie wasn't smiling
"What's wrong kamrie"
Kamrie:someone took my pop tart
We all laughed but she was still looking serious
Valentina:awh that's okay kamrie you can have my pop tart
I saw Valentina hand kamrie a pop tart and kamrie started smiling but then she stopped
Kamrie:this is my pop tart!
She said hitting Valentina
We laughed and was almost at school
Tyler:okay bad bitches we need some entrance music
He grabbed my phone and plugged it into the stereo and played "Break the rules by Charlie XcX"
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We pulled up towards the school parking lot with the music blasting.
Of course everyone is going to look at my car even Maddison and Kaden were there, I saw Rachel and her minions with a mean mug on their face
I smiled and looked at Tyler who grabbed my shades
Tyler:ready honey's
We parked and people eyes were still on the car wondering who and the hell would get out of it and all at once we all got out it felt like it was slow motion...while my hair in the wind. I looked at Tyler smiling and he put on the shades and Valentina flipped her hair.
While rose popped her gum and kamrie winked at me while eating her pop tart you could see the lust in boys eyes...we all joined arms and started smiling
Tyler:we look hot
Tyler said while looking at us
and the Dolan twins stopped us
Ethan:well then that's an entrance
Grayson:you guys look hot
Then Tyler put his hand in Grayson face
Tyler:sorry you can't have me only Tom Holland can
And then he walked off
Grayson:I met the gi-
I cut him off
"Thanks gray"
And followed behind Tyler
I did the usual by walking to my locker and opened it to get my books when I felt someone behind me and I knew it was either Jake or Rachael
Jake:you look beautiful today
I rolled my eyes and continued getting my books
Jake:bella
"What"
Jake:what's wrong
"The fact that you didn't text me back last night I wanted to talk"
Jake:Yea I know I was busy
"With what"
I say closing my locker staring at him
Jake:things
He looked away and back at me
Jake:I was handling something
"Whatever"
I say walking off he tried to grab my arm but I jerked away from him and kept walking the day went by fast.I was actually surprised that Rachael didn't try to mess with me. we were In Lunch and for the most part I'm surprised Maddison was even here with us we all ate, talked the usual and went our separate ways.Soon it was English I walked in and noticed Jake was already in his seat.
A part of me wanting to talk to him but the other part was just mad I mean how can you not text your girlfriend back all night.
I sat down but in the corner of my eye I saw Jake looking at me
Jake:can we talk
I grabbed a pencil and my tablet to start doing the work the teacher assigned us
Jake:bella
He said putting his hand on my desk
"Jake you should really do your work"
I stared at him but to him it probably wasn't a stare I mean I was mad he slowly moved his hand and started doing the assignment but the whole class period he was still watching me stealing glances here and then.
when the bell ringed I walked out of class and towards my locker
Where I saw Tyler smiling at me
I put my books in and then I felt someone else beside me
Jake:can we talk bella
He said looking at me like he was anxious for me to say yes
I smiled at him looking up I mean the guy was like 6'2 he was towering over me
"No"
And closed my locker I was about to walk off
Jake:please
He said grabbing my arm hard I turned around and then Tyler got in front of me
Tyler:she said no Jake
Jake stared at Tyler but it wasn't a regular stare it was like he was mad and wanted to punch the shit out of him I stepped in front of Tyler
"Fine"
Jake:let's go
He said to me but he was still staring at Tyler
I followed Jake outside by his motorcycle
"What do you want"
Jake:bella I'm sorry, Alright I didn't know you texted me I was busy with some friends
"Friends"
I cut him off
"Or someone"
Jake:yes friends
"And what were you and these friends doing Jake"
I said pulling my backpack up because it was heavy but Jake grabbed it like it was nothing and put it over his shoulders
Jake:we were....handling business bella trust me I didn't want you to worry about me...just like you said on the Beach...it's best that you don't know everything, at-least just yet.
He said moving closer I stared at him
Jake:so what do you want to talk about
I've been waiting to hear that from him but when he asked me I got stuck...I didn't know either to blurt it out or beat around the bush
And I looked at him in his eyes
Jake wasn't exactly who I thought he would be and I'm genuinely shocked, to look at him in the way that I did.
"I forgot"
By the look on his face he could tell I was lying but I didn't want to cause trouble and I didn't want to start an argument he grabbed my hand
Jake:tell you what...why don't we have dinner tonight at this restaurant
He said smiling that smile that I always love
I hesitated but looking into his eyes and how he soften up around me I gave in
"Okay"
Jake:pick you up at 8...okay
He questioned swinging my arms
We kissed and he handed me my backpack back and got on his motorcycle
"Put on a helmet"
He smirked at me and started the engine then he rode off
I felt like I was holding my breath the entire time and I finally let out a deep sigh I got in my car and so did my friends
Tyler:so remember my house tomorrow at 8
We all said got it and I drove off listening to music I dropped them all home.
The car was filled with arguments, conspiracy theories, and what was basically happening within school...from teachers to drama
But my mind was just filled with Jake and our situation, I would answer questions here and there and give a blank statement...I guess they took it as me trying to focus on the rode and learn it. Instead I was focusing on whether or not I could trust a mobster.
I arrived home around six o'clock because we all wanted to stop and get burgers. I went inside the house and did my homework , it was 7 and I took a shower while conditioning, shampooing and do my hair routine.
I got out and blow dryed it while curling it and putting it in a bun with some hair coming down in my face
I put on a necklace and sprayed some perfume on me
I couldn't decide what to wear so I searched my closet and found this
I sprayed on my perfume and put on some brown heels that matched my purse...I was going pretty casual yet classy...comfortable but fashionable.
I don't know, somehow along the way I saw my aesthetic beginning to change, I liked the way I was dressing now. It was more chic and mature. I still had some comfort clothings here and there but I noticed I was going for more...business woman like my mom.
JAKE POV
I pulled up in my Mercedes outside of Bella's house I knew she was lying at school I could always tell when someone is...being around people my whole life it was easy to observe them.
I always used to friend group spectrum, in a friend group there's always The leader, mean one, nice one, quiet, loud and observant.
Usually I just wait for things to reveal themselves
I brought up this dinner so hopefully she would feel comfortable telling me then.
I knocked on the door and some man opened it and looked at me up and down
Alex:jake
"Yes sir"
I smiled at him but his face seemed blank as if he was wondering am I good or not, I laughed to myself
Alex:come in
I walked inside and stood near the stairs when some woman walked down them she looked just like bella and I could tell it was her mother again
Angela:she will be down in a minute
I smiled at her
Angela:Alex, this is the boy I was telling you about that's with Bella
He shook my hand with a firm grip
I saw the nerdy girl walk into the kitchen and Kaden was leaning against the door
Alex:have a seat
He looked at the living room with his hands in his pockets and so I went
Alex:so where is this date going to take place
"At campiello sir a nice Italian restaurant"
Alex:Mhm....Tell me about your parents
"Well my father is away for Awhile and my mom is a lawyer"
Alex:Mhm
He said sipping something brown out from a glass
Alex:what are your intentions with my daughter uh Jason
"Jake"
Alex:jake
Now he's annoying me
"My intentions are to treat her to a dinner...Bella's been stressing lately and I want her to be comfortable"
Alex:I expect that is all to happen tonight
"What do you mean"
He walked up to me and I was staring up at him while sitting down
Alex:I mean...I want her back here by 10 I know how boys are and I don't want bella to get hurt
"Sir I won't-
He cut me off and I always get mad when anyone cuts me off
Alex:don't get on my bad side Jake
"Don't cut me off"
Alex:what
He said setting his cup on the table next me to
I stood up
"I said....."
And I got in his face
"Don't cut me off, when I'm trying to explain to you the best way I possibly can"
I wiped his shoulder off a little knocking off that chip he seemed to have on it
I said looking into his eyes smiling
"I understand your her father, figure...but in order to receive respect, you have to give it"
He was quiet
Angela:how you boys doing do you want anything to drink Jake
I smiled
"No ma'am thanks"
And I looked back at Alex as he nodded to me
Alex:10
Then Kaden walked into the room and sat on a couch, we heard heels clicking against the floor and bella walked into the room holding her purse
~goddamn~
She looked amazing
her hair was flatten and for some reason it made her look even sexier I looked at her lips and they were red as fire and I wanted to kiss her right then and there
It's a couple things I wanted to do
"You look amazing"
She blushed that innocent smile of hers that made me want to fall apart I loved the effect I caused on her
Bella:thank you Jake
I looked around and saw everyone standing even Kaden and I walked towards her and held her hand she looked into my eyes and I kissed her
That's exactly what I wanted to taste
We stopped when we heard someone clear their throat I knew it was Alex and I looked at him and kissed her again but this time it was a peck.
She blushed harder
"Are you ready"
Bella:yes
We walked out of the front door and her mom and Alex was standing their I opened the door for her and she got in, I walked to the passenger side but before I got in I stared at Alex and he stared at me
I nodded
While getting in the car we pulled up to the restaurant in 25 minutes and I took her hand leading her towards the door...The manager lead us to our table I didn't even have to say Anything.
She sat down and a waiter hurried to us he asked us what we would like to drink
" your most finest Champagne please"
Waiter:of course sir
Bella:these people know you
"kinda I guess"
Bella:This place is so beautiful
"Not as beautiful as you are"
The waiter came back with the champagne
Waiter:the chef has sent me to tell you that he has made a special meal for you both would you like it
Bella:yes
I looked at her and she was smiling at me
We ate for a while and every piece of food that entered her mouth I wondered how it would feel if she wrapped that pretty little mouth of hers around me
I clenched the fork in my hand and she smiled at me, I imagined all the sex faces she would make if we would make love.
Then we talked and laughed but I saw her looking around like she was nervous
"What's wrong"
Bella:nothing
~lie~
"Tell me"
Bella:it's just....
She hesitated a little
Bella:I know your in the mafia
~shit~
I paused before putting the pasta in my mouth...I looked at her she was staring at me and I put the fork down.
"How did you know bella"
Bella:I just figured that-
"Stop lien to me and tell me"
I said calmly...I didn't want to raise my voice at her, but for her to beat around the bush and lie to me about this subject...it's starting to irritate me.
Bella:Grayson told me
I knew he couldn't hold it in he never had the stomach to do anything
Out of all the people why would you tell Bella...I wanted to tell her on my own, at the right time.I felt like this was just stolen from me and I could've made her more relaxed about the subject.
I don't know what picture he painted of me in her mind but usually people don't talk likely to that kind of lifestyle.
"Well....."
Bella:why didn't you tell me
"Why would I tell you I'm in the mafia that isn't something you just come out and tell someone bella"
Bella:but I'm your girlfriend Jake you can't keep a secret like that from me
I sat their quiet
Yet again observing her
Bella:do you kill people
I didn't want to answer...it was another reason, I didn't want her apart of this life it wasn't good and I didn't want to see her get hurt.I have a lot of enemies, my dad has a lot of enemies and they will go after the thing you love the most or something or someone that makes you happy and in that case that thing....well person was IsaBella
she makes me happy
"Bella"
Bella:do you
She put down her fork and just stared at me with a worried expression
I didn't answer and she stood from the table and walked outside I walked behind her
"Bella stop please"
I begged
Bella:no I don't want anything to do with you I can't believe this...Jake you hurt people!
"Because they deserve it!"
I said loudly yet again not wanting to raise my voice at her.
Bella:They have families! Jake just like we do, can't you see that's not okay and I'm not gonna be there for you every night worrying.
She waved her arm for a taxi
"Bella stop...can't you just listen to me for once"
I said looking around trying not to cause a scene as everyone else's eyes were already on us
She looked around too trying to calm her self
I reached for her but she stepped away
Bella:I just don't get it...why would you hurt people Jake...why would you hurt somebody that could be so important to their families.
Jake:Bella this was the life I was born into, you can't get mad that this is things I have to do.
A taxi driver pulled up
"Do not get in that car Isabella"
Bella:goodbye Jake
"IsaBella"
She got in and I tired to hold the door but she closed it to quickly and locked it
"get out of the car"
I hit the window
I was getting frustrated and the one person who usually calms down my anger, is igniting it
"Bella please"
I decided to take a softer approach
She looked away from me
And I heard her say drive to the driver and they left
"Dammit!"
I swatted over
"Get my car and hurry up "
He ran off and I pulled out my phone to text bella
The worst thing I thought could happen...just happened
BELLA POV
I caught chills just looking at him
Driver:you alright miss
"Yea, Yea thanks just keep driving please"
I said with a shy smile
I was about to tear up but I held it in
I thought about everything while covering my mouth with my hand and looking out the window. I can't believe it was actually true I'm dating a murderer, it disgusted me I mean those people have families and lives their living.....no matter how their living it, they still have someone to go home to and keep a smile on their face the same as we do.
Maybe I got so emotional because of my own dad situation...someone took him from me and my life changed for years, imagine if it's a little kid out there that experienced their dad never coming home and now have to live with the thought of that.
I'm even more disappointed...I thought Jake was the only good person here who didn't have any secrets, I thought he was just this goody two shoes but I guess not.even though I feel hypocritical...I guess I just didn't want him to have any secrets because of my own.
My phone vibrated and I looked at it to see his text message I didn't reply I just turned my phone off I didn't want anything to do with Jake at the moment I just wanted to go home, lay down and sleep this whole night away
The taxi arrived at my house and I looked at my watch to see it was 11 something...I unlocked the door.
Then walked silently upstairs, I took off my heels in my room as well as my dress and coat. I threw my purse in a chair and wiped off my makeup I put on pajamas and laid down, Then I heard my door about to be open and I closed my eyes fast I didn't know who it was but they turned off my lights and put a blanket over me and left out the room.
I peeked and saw it was Alex
FRIDAY
I woke up around 6:30, I did the usual took a shower, brushed my hair, and took my vitamins too.I didn't do Anyhing special I put on this
I looked in the mirror and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear. Let's see what today holds, I went downstairs to grab a banana and kissed my grandma on the cheek.
I hugged Alex and my mom, Maddison told me she was riding with me today and Kaden was too
"really"
Kaden:its called saving gas
"whatever"
We arrived at school but was late because of traffic the principal understood and let us go to class. already chemistry was almost over so we didn't do anything really...lunch went by fast as usual mostly because we were talking about what kinda snacks we would have for the slumber party and what kinda movies we should watch then the same teacher I saw Maddison kiss...
came into the lunch room to get her to his classroom for some so call extra credit they had planned. I rolled my eyes, how long do she think she could keep this up before someone catches them or before someone comes to the conclusion of what's going on.
I sat in silence thinking about jake I didn't get to see him all day really... I don't even know if he's here or not
"have you guys seen jake"
I asked them as they passed my locker
val:no..I don't think hes here today I didn't see him in science
"oh..."
rose:why
kamrie:yea what happen between you too
"I think we broke up"
and they all gasped
val:what why
she said sounding shocked and coming over to hug me
"secrets you know"
Tyler:oh my god is he gay..because if so I would lo-
kamrie cut him off by snapping her fingers in his face
Tyler:bitch please
He said holding his hand up in her face
Tyler:don't snap at me
I rolled my eyes
tyler:can't get mad because your man wants me and I'm delicious
Kamrie:your something alright but it aint delicious
She rolled her eyes at him
I laughed a little
"guys its fine really I'm just gonna let this slumber party take my mind off things"
tyler smiled at me
Tyler:We can talk about it later if you'd like
Some time went by before we all split apart
We continued walking to class and then I had to go to English I wasn't ready to look at jake I mean I was nervous what if he brings up the subject again what if-
I inhaled and exhaled deeply,rubbing my hands through my hair I walked in and looked at jake he looked at me back and then looked at his paper.
~mhm~
I sat beside him expecting him to say something to me but he didn't instead he did his work and went to sleep.
I know it's dumb to crave his attention especially after the way I've acted to towards but can you blame me? I'm not one to judge but to be with someone that just kills people and think it's a way of life is insane. Every move I've watched or book I've read it leads to nothing good, either they end up in jail, dead, or on the run.
~I don't think I'm ready to commit to someone whose lifestyle is like that~
After I stared at him while he was asleep he looked like an angel like he was so peaceful
I want to say something to him but I hesitated
~he probably doesn't even want to talk to me after all the things I said to him~
I judged him before letting him even speak.
Jake:its not polite to stare
he said opening his eyes at me and I looked away.
I decided to grab my pencil and pretend like I was atleast scribbling something on my paper.
~oh god, is it still looking at me~
~good job bella~
I thought to myself, watching the lead crumbling away on my sheet of paper, leaving tiny marks on the thin blue lines.
The class was boring as usual...as soon as it was over I immediately rushed out and I walked to my locker, I saw jake heading towards me and I was gonna say something but he kept walking.
I mean I don't blame him for being mad at me, I did judge him and who am I to judge someone on their actions. I know I slept with my stepbrother but he probably killed people and that keeps weighing on my mind.
I thought yet again, over and over. Trying to come up with something new to excuse the way I treated him.
I guess he was giving me space
Jake probably doesn't know how to approach me or maybe he thinks it's better to keep a distance, he probably thinks I'm afraid of him.
Maybe he's avoiding me because he thinks I will tell people
I walked outside standing by my car...watching jake get on his motorcycle and leave, I felt bad but I also felt like I needed him.The car ride home was quiet by the looks on Kaden face he didn't look so happy either and Maddison looked like she was just annoyed.
I turned on some music and looked at Kaden harder
"nice hickey"
he looked at me and back at the rode, then laughed
Kaden:thank you
"Maddison"
I spoke looking in the rear view mirror
she looked at me curious
"how was your day"
The shocked expression on her face seemed like she wasn't expecting me to ask that
Maddison:uhm cool
"really, no special guy or something"
Kaden groaned and put his earphones in his ear
she laughed
Maddison:well yea...he's uhm older and really smart
~no shit~
"is he cute"
Maddison:the cutest
"does he go to our school"
Maddison:no
then she looked out of the window
"well I hope you two last forever"
I said smiling at her in the mirror and she smiled and looked out the window
I don't know why but I wanted to make their day...maybe because I haven't had mine made in awhile
we got home and went to our rooms I put my clothes on and anything I would need in a bag
we walked out of our rooms and saw Kaden.
Maddison:where are you going
Kaden:over ethan and gray house...you two aren't the only ones that get too have fun
he said walking downstairs
"so, your having a sleep over"
I said following behind him
Kaden:sleepovers are for girls sis
Maddison:its totally a sleepover
we laughed
Kaden:Its tots not
he said in a girly tone pretending to flip his imaginary hair
we laughed harder on our way out
Kaden:but seriously, you two be safe while your out and have fun
***
we arrived at Tyler's house
He lived close to the beach like right on the shore almost, it was basically behind his house.Tyler's house was almost as big as ours and it was beautiful I never really known what his parents do actually
"what does his parents do"
Maddison: His dad is a director and is currently in California and his mom is the housewife type
"mhm"
I say as we get out of the car with our bags as we were getting out I saw another car pull up, it was a Chrysler 2018 I saw rose, val, and kamrie get out of it and a woman yelled
Jennifer:remeber mija no bebas a menos que Margritas (no drinking unless its margritas)
she laughed and so did I, everyone looked confused except me and rose
Rose:I know aunt Chris thank you
She said rolling her eyes
I walked over to rose
"Your aunt and my mom should get together shes not the only one who loves margritas"
and her aunt drove off
we walked towards the door and knocked on it
we all laughed when we saw tyler, he had on a pink silk rob... In his boxers and a tiara on his head
Tyler:bitches
he pointed into his house
Tyler:you may enter
"you are so extra'
tyler:isn't that why you all love me
his house was so beautiful
"i don't see how you don't have a car yet"
then a woman came near us
gwen:because he is crazy as hell and might try to run over his boyfriend...hi girls
She said hugging us
we all said hi and laughed at what she said
Tyler:mother that is no excuse
he said looking at her
Tyler:but you know me so well
he hugged her and grabbed me and val hands and started running everyone else followed and we were in this huge room. it is was so pretty, he turned off the lights,the room had color all around it.
It had a huge bed surrounded in pillows and a huge tv screen on the wall the lights were on the ceiling and changed different colors
"Goddamn"
Tyler:I know right
Everyone got comfortable, so we just put our bags wherever
We followed Tyler back towards the kitchen and saw his mom cooking
Kamrie:watcha cooking
Gwen:mash potatoes sweet peas steak and peach cobbler
Tyler dipped his hand in the mash potatoes and licked it, his mom slapped his hand and put up a finger
Gwen:no no no
And Tyler copied her
Tyler:no no no
She laughed and I looked between the two they seemed so happy to just have each other he wasn't worried about his dad being in California he was worried about his mom and keeping her happy.
MEANWHILE
KADEN POV
"GO GO GO GO GO!"
I watched Ethan chug a whole milk carton down in a minute and threw it all up
Me and Grayson was laughing at him and he flipped us off with his finger
***
We went in the house so Ethan could clean up and sat on the sofa to drink almond milk
"Dude it must be awesome to live by yourselves"
Gray:yup
He said grabbing the remote
"So what ever happened to you and that Maggie girl"
Gray:Bella's friend
He said looking at me curious
"Yea the blonde"
Gray:ehh I wasn't really feeling her I mean she's amazing don't get me wrong but she's a bit of the wild type... what about you and Rachael
"I'm not so sure actually"
I looked at the tv
"I mean she's good to me or whatever but you ever just look at a girl and see your whole future, it's like she brings that excitement in your life a simple stare or a simple touch just get you"
Ethan:wow what the hell did I miss
He said as he was walking in
"Just talking about girls"
Gray:you sound like you had that feeling before
I didn't make eye contact with them and instead I looked down
"Something like that"
Ethan:well don't feel bad kaden Atleast you two have girlfriends I'm still lonely
He said pouting
"You guys ever wonder what the girls doing at their sleepover"
Ethan:should we trash it
We laughed
Gray:nah, I'm sure whatever their doing is boring anyway
"What do you guys think bella is doing"
They looked at me
"What"
Gray:does Kaden wadey has a crush
"No way dude"
Ethan:lies
"Whatever"
Ethan:it's not like you can get to her anyway
~I already did~
"Why you say that"
I say sipping my drink
Ethan:she's with Jake and that guy is...never mind
He said laughing then went to a straight face
"What"
Gray:nothing
He looked at Ethan
Gray:he met nothing
"What aren't you guys telling me"
Ethan:it's nothing really
"If he's with bella and she may be in danger it means everything to me, now tell me"
I said staring at them both
Gray threw a pillow at Ethan and he held his hands up
Gray:damn E, do you ever learn when to just...I don't know, shutup
Ethan: you know I can't keep secrets
"Whatever y'all aren't telling me...I need to know"
I looked between the both of them and then they looked at each other.
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JAKE POV
I was at the club desk thinking about Bella and what she might be doing at this time I checked my phone to see if she texted me back and she didn't and then I heard a knock at the door and my guard pushed chupeto in.
I laid back in my dads chair and stared at a picture with us in it and my mom
Chupeto:come on Jake you have to believe me I didn't take the stuff
I watched him and I looked at the other dangerous but serious men in the room, who were also at the table looking at me.
I was at the head of the table,the prince of my fathers mafia empire...these other men had somewhat of an authority as well but they never crossed the line. They trusted my father putting me as the head and didn't question the things I've done.
"Sit"
I looked at my guard and nodded
he left
Chupeto:jake plea-
I cut him off
"Shutup...do not speak unless I tell you too...and it's Mr.Moretti"
I looked at the other men at the table, some I didn't like and some I tolerated around me, but they all had one thing in common they feared my father
John:let's get this over with huh kid your father wouldn't have taking this long in a meeting
I stared at John...he was always the one budding in everything even when my father was here.
I stood up took off my suit jacket and took out my blade i rolled up my sleeves, it was sharp and silver I dragged it along the table stopping it to the man in front of me.
"Speak"
Chupeto:we just lost it a bunch of gang members just started robbing us I tried to get the drugs back but-
I raised the knife and he got quiet I went behind the man and bent down
"You know why my father left me in charge"
The man shook his head several times no
And then I whispered
"Because he knew I wouldn't take excuses"
I patted his shoulder with a smile and I raised the knife and slit the man's throat, he held it with his hands.
Eyes wide
He was panicking, I could feels his heart beats through his shoulders and that drove a side of me wild, I removed his hands and decided to slit his throat again.
Everyone looked at me in shock really some even had to look away.
He was struggling to bleed, basically coughing up his own blood...needlessly gasping for air. His eyes were bloodshot red and even the blood begin to come out from his nose. Chupeto was choking on his own blood shaking in the chair, looking up at me with the look of desperation.
Then he was still
Silent
Chupeto was always trusted with the drugs coming into the club so we could sell them, but ever since my father got locked up somehow the supply has been running low and each month we lose more and more money.
No one looked his way because he was good at doing his job, but something still felt off to me about the situation, at first we blamed the supplier but she's been giving proof that she's been giving us the correct amount.
We asked chupeto about it before but he lied to us...so I made one of my men follow him instead, ever so often they would change cars throughout the day incase he noticed.
I didn't like a thief, especially one that was so close to the business...if you can become a thief and not accept that as betrayal. I have no respect for you, a thief can easily become a rat...I don't play with thieves and I sure as hell don't play with rats.
"Fucking Rat"
I said watching life basically being stripped from eyes dull eyes.
I snapped my fingers and my guards dragged the man out quickly, the maids came in and cleaned up the mess...I trusted them, besides they were too scared to say anything anyways and the amount of money we pay them made sure they were quiet. I grabbed a napkin from my pocket and wiped off the knife...I walked over to John
"I'm not my father..."
I touched his shoulder and whispered
"Remember that"
I say patting his shoulder with blood still on my hands.
And I smiled that smile that everyone feared, the same one I inherited from my father.
They thought I was a lunatic
At any moment I would snap...so I've heard and I wanted them to think that. I liked it...but I liked loyalty more than respect. Honestly I like love...I wanted to have both but I couldn't let them know that.
I didn't show any signs of weakness because that's when a serpent would try to sneak in and take whatever they can. So my guard is always up I was always alert as possible anywhere I could possibly be.
I sat back in the chair
"Now let's begin the meeting shall we"
I grabbed a Clorox wipe next to me and
wiped off my hands smiling
I looked around at the table and the men look at themselves and nodded at me
I rolled down my sleeves and buttoned them back up
Grabbing a single red M&M from a glass throwing it up and catching it chewing away deliberately.
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BELLA POV
I looked at my phone to see It was 9:40 and out of no where Tyler blurted out
Tyler:so who had sex before
Val coughed up her drink and my eyes widened
Kamrie:I have
Rose:not me
Val:I have, it was one night in New York on the top of the roof...everything just felt right and the moment was so beautiful you guys
I smiled at her
"Val, your life is a like fairytale movie, so artsy and delicate"
She laughed
"It fits you"
Maddison:I have
They all looked shocked, even I did but then I remember the teacher
Tyler:Maddy what
She even blushed a little
Maddison:okay, okay, moving on
She said laughing
And all eyes were on me
"I have"
Then it dawned on me, wow I actually had sex
Kamrie:Don't even look this way, of course I did
Tyler:that leaves you and me rose
Rose:I would but I haven't found the right guy
Tyler:I might not ever find the right guy
"Don't say that the right guy might come around one day...even for me"
Rose:you never told us what he lied about tho
I looked at all of them could I really trust these people I thought about it and decided I should
"Well he lied about who he was turns out" I looked away
Well maybe I should tell them, I haven't been able to talk to anyone about it and if I told Ethan he would disapprove immediately...he would be thinking about it on a more protective state, and not emotional way.
"Jakes in the mafia"
I whispered it
Kamrie:what?
"Jakes in the mafia"
Val:spit it out!
"JAKES IN THE MAFIA!"
I screamed it
I saw their eyes widen
"Turns out, his dad is the king of his mafia and Jake is the prince"
I said fidgeting with my fingers
Tyler:damn
Rose:that's just
She paused
Tyler:sexy
I looked confused
Tyler:it's dangerous and fun think about it a powerful mafia man aggressive mhm
He said day dreaming looking up at the ceiling
Tyler:I would love that life...do you know what kinda mafia
"Uhm no I never asked"
Maddison:has he ever killed someone
She said sounding intrigued
"No....maybe....I don't think so I mean"
~hopefully not~
Val:wow I've heard of mafias but I didn't know we had some in Miami
Kamrie:Damn girl
Tyler:hell right in our school
"I know right, he didn't seem like the type"
Kamrie:still, are you not comfortable with it bells
"I mean...no, like I said I don't know exactly what he does you know"
I looked around And rose nodded
Rose:you just have to go with your intuition and your gut...your heart can easily be fooled but you know what's best for you Bella.
Kamrie:does he treat you right
I nodded
Kamrie:does he make you scared
"No"
I thought about all the things he's done for me just to make sure I was okay and happy...how he's helped me and was patient with me
Maddison:he seems helpful
She looked at me and I remember that night at the apartment complex
I gave her a sympathetic smile and she smiled at me and nodded
Tyler:well he's a 10 in my book cause baby if I had someone whose that hot I wouldn't keep my hands off of him
He gasped
Tyler:did y'all have sex yet
I laughed and everyone seemed to be intrigued
"Tyler...no"
Kamrie:liar
Rose:There's no way
I started smiling
"I'm serious"
"I mean I wanted to, but he said that he's waiting for the right moment and he always had things to do so we just brushed it off"
They nodded
Rose:well at the end of the days it's up to you...you don't run across these kind of things everyday
Val:especially a lifestyle like that
"Yeah"
Val:if you wanna take that chance...take it and if you don't-
Tyler:give 'em to me cause I'll take it
He said laughing
I threw a pillow at him and he caught it smiling at me
"Of course you'll take it"
Kamrie:you'll take any walking specimen
Tyler:Pshh please, if that means I'm somewhere sitting in Italy with a champagne glass in my hand, twirling my hair with shopping bags near my feet...your damn skippy!
Maddy:There's a darkside to these things too though
I looked between the group
Rose:yeah...the women
I thought about what rose said
Rose:The job alone itself is dangerous right
I nodded
Kamrie:The police, Murderers...girl all kinds of shit
"Yeah"
Tyler:I guess at the end of the day it's all about what image you create in your mind. If you see it in a dark way, it's not for you.
Val:and if you see it in a secure way...like money, materials, you know the things that come along with it as well.
"Or even in a protective way"
Maddy:That too
They nodded
"I guess I'll take some time to think about it guys"
I held a pillow close to me while eating fruit from the tray Tyler brought up earlier.
"So...since I've told my secret...can someone please tell there's"
It got quiet and I looked around at everyone
Maddison started eating a bowl of M&M's that Tyler had on his stand
Then Val spoke up
Val:I live with my grandparents
We looked at her
Val:uhm, I can't live with my mom because she uses drugs
She said with a smile
Val:she almost sold me at a young age for a bag of drugs...actually
Kamrie:oh my gosh Val I never knew that
Rose:How come you never said anything
Tyler:who the hell wants to tell their business like that
Val started smiling
Val:I'm not angry with her though...I understand that life gets hard, but-
She hesitated
Val:I'm her only child you know
We nodded
Val:I haven't seen her since...I don't know where she is honestly, but I hope she's okay. My nana was the best thing that happened to me though, if I didn't have her...I don't know how my life would've been right now.
It was silent...you can tell she hasn't thought about it in a long time so I kinda felt bad for asking that question, it was like she was about to tear up
Val:I'm sorry that was-
We all went over there to hug her
Val:but it's fine because even though their super weird they make me happy
Then we all opened up to eachother...one after the other and it helped me realize, that nobody is perfect and everyone goes through things behind closed doors.
Rose:This is my mom's 5th boyfriend in 3 months the others treated me so bad, she never really knew because she was always drunk. She used to get so drunk that I was the one who had to feed the twins.but atleast this one is nice and has money unlike the others, I guess.
I held her hand
Rose:It's just...I guess you know, people usually reveal themselves after awhile so my guard is always up. Like even now...it took a lot for me to even come over here
Tyler:Yeahh rose usually doesn't go out
She pushed Tyler
Rose:I worry about the twins so much and I hate it...sometimes I think my childhood was robbed from me
Maddison:I understand how you feel rose
Rose:it's a lot I would rather get off my chest but, I don't know...I just hope that something better happens for us...b-but he treats her good.
She said but somehow I didn't believe that
she begin to cry to and we all were hugged up
Kamrie:I was in an abusive relationship
She blurted out
"Oh my god kamrie what"
She nodded and gave off a sympathetic smile
Tyler:how come you never told anyone
He looked at her angry
Tyler:When the hell did this even happen
Kamrie:That's just not something you wanna say though tyler, it made me feel weak. I knew I could trust you guys it's just...I always felt like no one would understand what I was going through
I looked down
Tyler:baby you never let anyone lay their hands on you
Rose: yeah kamrie what the hell
Val:you never told us
Maddison:are you okay now...mentally
She nodded
"Kamrie I'm so sorry that happened to you"
Tyler held her face up and started wiping her tears
Tyler:Your a diamond...not Coal...don't get hit, life may put you under pressure but you still come out shining and worth more than you can imagine
For some reason you can tell that really hit for tyler
Out of everyone he felt it deeply for some reason
Kamrie: I never told anyone...I thought no one could relate, he would hit me and blame me for things that's how I got this cut
She pointed to her stomach
Kamrie:it was so deep the doctors didnt think I would make it actually...then, he would force his self on me
She stopped and started to cry
"Hey it's okay alright"
~damn who would've thought that tonight would have ended up like this~
Kamrie:But I'm better now since he's gone, I just always have my guard up...I haven't been in a relationship since and I don't want too.experiencing something like that just gave me ptsd to a lot of shit.
"Kamrie, you will know when the right guy comes along...it will feel like you've been waiting for him"
She nodded
Kamrie:But how
She questioned
Val:Around him you won't need to tense, you will find yourself relaxing and actually trying to put something forward.
It got quiet with us holding eachother but finally someone spoke up
Maddison: My uhm...dad used to beat me, he tried to touch me once. He succeeded...with his hands but when he went to unbuckle his pants he was too drunk and passed out instead...my mom
She hesitated
Maddison:she left him when I was 9, she tried to take me, but he threatened her and my life so she just left me behind and promised to come back
We all stared at her
She looked down to start picking at the skin around her fingers
Maddison:she never came back
"Ohh maddy"
Kamrie:come here girl
She laid her head on Kamrie shoulder and she rubbed her hair
Kamrie:whatever happened to you...you are okay now
She said looking at her
Kamrie:I know it hurts going through that abuse...but you came out stronger than you ever have before okay
Maddy nodded
Maddison:I've just been holding so much in
Rose:clearly we all have been doing that
"Yeah"
Val:we shouldn't hold in stuff with eachother...I know due to our lives it's hard to trust people but that kinda stuff causes anxiety and it's hard on our mental
I nodded
"We can be there for eachother...through anything"
Rose:now that doesn't mean ima tell y'all all my business
She said laughing
Rose:but overall I'm happy to get things off my chest with y'all...seriously...you guys are the best
We all was hugged up
Tyler:you bitches really have fucked up lives
We all looked at him and laughed
Tyler:but I guess your apart of my fucked up life too
I smiled to know that I have real friends it's the best thing in the world. Maddison got up and left out of the room I figured this was the last moment I got to comfort her so I went after her
"I'll be right back guys"
I saw her in the bathroom wiping her nose with a tissue
Maddison:oh hi Bella you wanna tissue too
She said smiling
"Uhm no, actually I came to talk to you"
I said stepping into the bathroom and closing the door
"I don't want you to take this the wrong way but I saw you kissing Mr.smith"
She paused and threw the tissue in the trash
Maddison:listen-
I cut her off
"Before you get mad at me I'm not gonna say anything"
She paused and looked surprised
Maddison:really
"Yea if I really wanted to say something Maddison I would've said it in front of our friends but that's not my secret to tell"
She smiled at me
"But your lucky it was me because if it was someone else-
She cut me off
Maddison:I know...
I smiled at her
Maddison:thank you bella
"I'm happy we got our secrets out...and I wanted you to know that one is safe with me, if you feel like it's on your chest. Don't be"
I hugged her
I don't what goes on through her mind but after having that talk I could see why she would go after an older guy...some issues are just deeply rooted in trauma and I hope later she realizes that along the line before she gets hurt
I smiled and walked out of the bathroom
MADDISON POV
That
bitch knows my secret now...if it wasn't bad enough that I have to live with her knowing she has a perfect little life
I stared in the mirror and looked at myself
"You are nothing, you are helpless,you are pathetic, you should just die"
I put on a fake smile
~did she tell me that to hold it over my head~
I started to bite my nails until they bled
That was the last thing I wanted anybody to know
~what if she gets angry with me and tells someone and takes him away from me~
I was panicking...nervous at the situation
~dammit~
I thought I was careful with Stan...I mean years, and years no one noticed or knew. She comes around and it's like everything changes.
Isabella better keep her mouth shut because the last person she wants to piss off is me...I didn't care that she knew my secret but now it feels like if we ever fell out, she would probably tell it and make me look bad.
~no one understands stan like I do~
She doesn't get that
I walked out of the bathroom
BELLA POV
I looked around the room at everyone we were all so different but yet so unique these are my friends this.....is my family I smiled at myself knowing that
THE NEXT CHAPTER IS GOING TO HAVE ALOT OF DRAMA SO GET READY
Hehehehe
Lmao just picture the little villain fingers every-time I do that