This chapter contains sexual scenes. Read at your own risk.
WAKAS
"You're getting married. Siguro naman maiintindihan ni Clicko kapag lumabas tayo ngayon for the last time, di ba?"
Napabaling ako ng tingin kay Sarah na nakatayo na ngayon habang naghahanap nv damit na maisusuot sa lakad daw namin mamaya. I didn't even say yes about it yet pero heto sila ngayon ni Felly at Kazandra na nag-aayos na.
"I agree. C'mon let's try mag-paalam ka sa text or tawag para malaman natin kung papayag ba siya." Suggestion ni Kazandra.
I bit my lip while thinking. Knowing Clicko I'm sure papayag iyon. Even before, hindi naman siya mahigpit sa akin. Ako lang talaga ang ayaw lumabas ngayon. I felt sick for the past few days. And worst, wala dito si Clicko ngayon dahil bumalik na siya sa trabaho last week. I totally missed him at nakadagdag pa siguro iyon why I suddenly felt sick.
I grabbed my phone at the table at nagsimula na sa pagtipa ng sasabihin ko kay Clicko. He's probably on duty right now.
Ako:
Sarah and my friends planned a party for me. Can I go?
I clicked the send button at naghintay ng kanyang reply. A few minutes after ay tumunog na ang cellphone ko. It's him calling. Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakaupo at ipinakita sa kanilang tatlo ang cellphone ko. I groaned when Sarah touched my boobs and squeezed it. Tumawa kaming lahat sa ginawa ni Sarah at saka sinagot ang tawag ni Clicko.
"Hi!" Bati ko sa kanya.
"Hi. So? Are you going?" He directly asked kaya natahimik ako ng ilang sandali.
Ngumiwi ako at napaupo sa kama ni Sarah. Well, like I said I don't really want to go but Sarah was right about what she said you know. Malapit na akong ikasal, hindi na ako palagi makakasama sa kanila tuwing lalabas sila.
"I don't know. Can I?"
He chuckled sa kabilang linya kaya napangiti ako. God. I wish he's here.
"If you want to, then you can baby. Just make sure to behave and don't drink too much." Pag-papaalala niya sa isang malambing na tono.
I bit my lip at halos maiyak na lang. I missed him so much. And damn it, dalawang linggo pa lang ang nakalipas.
"I miss you. Uwi ka na." Malambing na sabi ko. The line went silent and all I can here was a heavy breathing.
"Don't used that voice on me now, Heanndra. You know I'll fly right away if you badly want me there." Aniya sa seryosong boses.
Napakagat ako sa labi ko at humiga sa kama ni Sarah. Damn it. I'm being crazy again. Of course, he can't do that even if he can. He's very important in that job at hindi madali kapag uuwi siy dito sa akin at wala siya doon.
"Baby..." He said softly kaya napapikit ako doon. His voice is seriously driving me crazy.
"Hmmm?" I replied.
Huminga siya ng malalim sa kabilang linya. I'm sure nahihirapan na iyon ngayon. He's probably also frustrated like me. Like how I want to see him and just kissed and touch him. Goddamn it, Heanndra. Umayos ka nga. You sound so horny.
"I missed you too but you know I can't come home right now." Malungkot na sabi niya.
Bumangon ako mula sa pagkakahiga at pinaglaruan na lang ang bedsheet ni Sarah sa kama.
"I understand. Where are you right now?" I tried to make my voice as jolly as it is.
I don't want to distract him from his work. I know he can fly immediately back to me pero kawawa naman iyong mga kasamahan niya doon at ang mga tinuturaan nila.
"Camp. We have to train some fresh meats for the job. Ikaw? Sarah's condo?" He asked kaya tumango ako kahit hindi niya naman nakikita iyon.
"Yes. So, I'll just go with them. I felt sick though." Sagot ko sa kanya.
"Sick? Like what kind of sick?" He laughed a bit while saying that.
Kumunot ang noo ko sa tanong niya dahil wala akong maisagot.
"I don't know basta sick. My head is spinning and I want to vommit." I said.
Natawa siya sa kabilang linya kaya mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko. What's so funny about that?
"Uhuh. Don't drink. You felt sick already. I'll send Aaron and Bobby to watch you and don't worry you will never see them." Bilin niya kaya natawa ako. It's true magaling talaga magtago iyong mga tauhan niya.
"Can I sleep in your unit tonight?" I asked. Sobrang lapit lang kasi ng unit niya sa unit si Sarah pero hindi pa ako nakakapasok doon.
"Of course you can. You know the lock code. You can sleep in my room there." He said in a teasing voice kaya napapikit ako.
"Okay I will. Take care. I love you."
"I love you. Don't drink, okay?" Bilin niya ulit bago binaba ang tawag.
Huminga ako ng malalim habang dinadama ang sakit ng aking ulo. Tumayo ako doon sa kama ni Sarah at naglakad sa kanyang living room kung nasaan silang tatlo.
"Well?" Taas kilay na tanong ni Felly.
"He said I can go but I can't drink." Sabi ko at halos malaglag naman ang kanilang mga panga sa sinabi ko.
"What? That's the very reason why we're going out tonight. We're gonna drink as hard as we can before you get married to soldier boy." Sarah said at agad na tumawa.
"It doesn't matter I felt sick anyway, hindi na lang ako iinom. I'll just go with you guys." Deklara ko at tatalikod na nasa nang hawakan ako ni Kazandra sa braso.
Kunot noo niya akong sinuri mula ulo hanggang paa.
"You felt sick? We can go out tomorrow or the day after that." She said in her voice full of concern.
This is why I don't wanna say something dahil kapag aayaw ako ay aayaw na din sila. It's like I'm the one who's holding the decision. Huminga ako ng malalim at magsasalita na sana na okay lang ako nang makaramdam ng pagsusuka.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at kaagad na tumakbo sa kusina ni Sarah para makasuka sa sink. Kahit anong pigil ko na huwag magsuka ay hindi ko iyon napigilan. Halos halikan ko na ang sink sa sobrang lapit ko doon. Matapos magsuka ay kaagad akong naghugas at napatayo na lang sa gilid ng sink.
"Holy shit, Heanndra." Mura ni Sarah sa harap ko.
Nandoon silang tatlo at mataman akong tinitingnan.
"What? I told you I'm not gonna drink." I said habang nagpupunas ng kamay.
"Are you fucking pregnant?" Biglang tanong niya sa akin kaya napatigil ako sa pagpupunas ng kamay.
What? Pregnant? Me? I don't know. Maybe? Oh shit. Is that it? Kaya ba nahihilo ako at nagsusuka ng ilang araw na because I'm pregnant?
"Holy shit you are!" Deklara niya ulit ng hindi na ako makapagsalita.
"Oh my God Heanndra! You didn't know?" Gulat na gulat naman na sabi ni Kazandra.
Napakurap-kurap ako at hindi alam ang gagawin. Okay. Just chill Heanndra. We got this.
"Hindi ko alam. I thought I was just sick. I'll ask Nad to bring me a test kit." Seryoso na sabi ko at tumango naman sila sa akin.
Tumigil silang tatlo sa pag-aayos at hinintay si Nad na makarating sa unit ni Sarah. When he arrived ay minadali nila ako na ipasok sa CR para makumpirma kung totoo nga talagang buntis ako.
I felt like my heart stopped beating for a moment when I saw the two red lines na nasa test kit na binili ni Nad. Tiningnan ko ulit iyong anim at pare-pareho lang ang linya na nandoon. Napangiti ako at hinawakan ang aking tiyan.
Hello baby. You are real. You are inside of me. I love you and I can't wait to see you.
"Bes, ano na? Buhay ka pa diyan?" Boses ni Felly ang narinig ko sa labas ng banyo at kumatok pa.
Napatingin ako doon at mabilis na kinuha ang pitong test kits at lumabas ng banyo. Napatigil silang lahat sa ginagawa at napatingin sa akin.
Hinablot ni Sarah ang kits sa akin at isa-isa na tiningnan iyon. Agad nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata nang makita iyon.
"You are freaking pregnant!" Sigaw niya at niyakap ako ng mahigpit.
Tumawa ako tinapik siya sa likod. I am freaking pregnant and I don't even know na noong nagpro-pose sa akin si Clicko ay may mas sasaya pa pala doon, and this is it.
"Did you tell Clicko about that?" Tanong ni Nad na nakupo na sa sofa ni Sarah at kumakain ng kung ano.
Umiling ako. He just called me earlier at alam kong kapag tatawag ako ngayon ay hindi din naman agad masasagot iyon dahil busy nga siya. I'll call later or maybe tomorrow. Baka mamaya ay lilipad iyon sa kalagitnaan ng gabi at umuwi dito sa akin. I don't want that.
"I'll tell him tomorrow."
"You girls can't go clubbing. Mausok doon at magulo baka mapano si Heanndra at ang baby niya." Ani Nad kaya napangisi ako sa kanya.
"Aww, thanks Noel Adrian but I'm fine. They can drink and I'll just watch." Sabi ko na naupo sa tabi niya.
I hooked my arms around his arm at sumandal sa balikat niya. He tapped my head and kissed it.
"You are fine but what about the baby?" He asked kaya natawa ako nang makita na nakasimangot na si Sarah. She really wants to drink and party. This girl.
"Okay have it your way Heanndra. Where do you want to go?" Sarah asked.
"Clubbing is fine Noel. We'll just stay away from crowded people and you can drink Sarah." Masaya na wika ko at ngumisi naman si Sarah sa akin.
"Ah? Hello? It's a club? It's crowded everywhere inside a club, Heanndra." Sarcastic na sabi ni Felly pero imbes na magalit ay tumawa na lang ako.
"I'll go with you guys. Promise manunuod lang ako and I'll watch Heanndra." Nad said kaya napasimangot ako.
Why would he want to go with us when he doesn't like those kind of places? Ayaw niya ng maraming tao at maingay so why would he wanna go with us? It is because of me?
"Nad please. Don't go if you wanna go because of me."
Kumunot ang noo niya sa sinabi ko. Tumayo siya mula sa sofa at naglakad papunta sa fridge ni Sarah.
"I'll go because I wanted to be with you guys and I wanted to make sure you're fine there. Now, don't be stubborn or I won't let any of you to go out." Pinal na sabi niya kaya wala kaming nagawa kundi ang sumunod sa kanya.
True enough, pagkarating namin sa club na malapit lang din naman sa condo ni Sarah ay pinili kaagad ni Nad ang medyo mas malayo sa dancefloor dahil daw mausok. Napatingin ako sa kanya nang maglapag siya ng orange juice sa harap ko.
"I know you wanna drink." He smirked at me kaya natawa ako.
"You were never protective like this to me before Nad. What's happening to you?" Natatawa na tanong ko at uminom doon sa juice.
He laughed at what I said and drank his shot of tequila.
"You wanted to know the truth?" He seriously asked kaua napatigil ako sa pag-inom at tiningnan siya ng mataman.
"Clicko asked me to look after you. He's probably not contented with Bobby and Aaron being around so he asked me to watch you." He said kaya napataas ako ng kilay.
Okay. I know that was Clicko moving. At talagang si Nad pa ang inutusan niya? This guy won't even step a foot inside a club tapos heto siya ngayon at nasa loob ng isang bar, katabi ko.
"Even if he didn't tell me that, I would still be here and watch you." Dugtong niya kaya napangiti ako.
I would always always thank him for coming into my life and of course my friends. They've been with me all along and I would like to stay it that way.
"Thank you Nad. I'll always love you." I emotionally said.
I wanted to cry and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm just so thankful na nandito sila kasama ko or maybe it's because I'm pregnant and my hormones are not stable.
"You're welcome. I'll always be here, okay?"
Ngumiti siya sa akin at nagulat nang hilahin siya ni Sarah at Felly papunta sa dancefloor. He looked at me confused kaya tumango ako sa kanya and mouthed "go". Bobby and Aaron are around anyway. Hindi naman ako pababayaan ng mga iyon.
I relaxed myself as I listen to the beat of the music and sipping my orange juice when someone tapped me from the back. Nilingon ko iyon at nakita ang isang pamilyar na mukha. Tumayo ako mula sa sofa at binati siya.
"Aro!" Gulat na bulalas ko at kaagad siyang niyakap. He laughed at what I did kaya napakalas kaagad ako.
It's really him! I haven't seen him for so long. I wonder if he knows about Lyrra and Quinn being together and having kids?
"Nice to see you again, Heanndra. Does Clicko know you're here?" He asked kaya napangiti ako.
"Yes he knows. Sinong kasama mo?" I asked him.
Tinuro niya ang isang table di kalayuan sa amin. I saw some familiar faces na taga-criminolgy din noon. I even saw Timothy and the guy named Napoleon that I met the last time we went out clubbing.
"I'll introduce you to them. C'mon." He said at dinala ako sa table nila.
Tumigil kami doon at napatingin naman sa amin iyong mga kaibigan niya. Timothy smiled and waved at me.
"Guys, this is Heanndra Henzon, Clicko's fiancee. Heanndra these are my friends, Xarkin, Iggy, Timothy, Kleo, Marc, Napoleon and you probably know, Finn." Pagapapakilala niya sa mga lalaking nandoon.
Some shake my hand but the others just nodded at me. Hinatid ako ni Aro pabalik sa table namin at nandoon na sina Nad at Sarah nakaupo.
"I really thought Aro and Lyrra would end up together, you know?" Biglang sabi ni Felly habang nakatingin sa table nina Aro.
"Lyrra married Dr. Quinnito Soriano. Hindi naman kawalan si Aro, noh? I mean Quinnito is also a deal." Maarte na sabi ni Sarah.
Our conversation went on. They also dance and drink habang ako ay masaya lamang na nakatingin sa kanila. When the clock strikes one o'clock ay umuwi na rin kami. As usual, lasing nanaman sina Felly at Sarah. Nad all drove us home at hinatid muna namin sina Sarah sa unit nila bago ako hinatid ni Nad sa unit ni Clicko.
Agad na umilaw ang buong bahay nang binuksan ko ang pintuan. Iginala ako ang pangin sa paligid noon. His unit looks nice. He's obviously minimalistic because of the colours around his space. Black, white, gray and brown. Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang makita ang pamilyar na painting na nakasabit sa kanyang living room.
It's the painting he bid for two million pesos! It's here in his condo unit. Napangiti ako habang pinagmamasdan iyon. I suddenly remember how he wanted to give it to me for free. Napahawak ako sa tiyan ko at napangiti.
"Welcome baby." Bulong ko.
Napatigil ako sa pagtingin doon sa painting nang marinig ang pagbagsak ng isang bagay sa isang silid sa gilid.
May tao?
Napalunok ako at lumapit doon kahit na kinakabahan. I was about to turn the doorknob nang may maramdaman na isang mainit na yakap mula sa likuran ko. Madilim sa bandang gilid dahil hindi iyon automatic ang ilaw na nandoon.
"Hi..." Bulong ng boses kaya napangiti ako.
"Heck? Clicko!" Sigaw ko at humarap sa kanya.
The dim lights from the living room reflect on his face. What's he doing here? I thought he's busy with his training?
"Why are you here? Kanina ka pa ba nandito?" I asked him.
He didn't say anything. Tinitigan niya ako habang namumungay ang mga mata. Napatingin ako sa labi niya na kanina niya pa kinakagat.
"I miss you..." Bulong niya at mas lalo pang nilapit ang sarili sa akin.
Napasinghap ako nang maamoy ang pamilyar na bango niya. Kanina pa talaga siya nandito because he already smells after shave. Nandito siya simula nang pumasok ako dito kung ganoon?
Walang pagdadalawang isip niya akong inatake ng halik. The kiss was smooth and slowmo kaya napapaatras ako hanggang sa sumadal na ako sa pintuan ng kwarto kanina. His kisses grow wild and erotic.
"Clicko..." I moaned when his kisses travelled all the way from my lips to my neck.
He touched my butt and tried to carry me. I hooked my legs on his hips at kaagad naramdaman doon ang isang matigas na bagay. Goddamn it, I really want him to touch me right now.
He groaned when I tried to grind on him while kissing his lower lip. Pinihit niya ang doorknob ng kwarto habang karga pa rin ako at walang kahirap hirap na binaba ako sa malaking kama doon. It's so freaking dark inside at tanging ang ilaw lamang sa living room ang nagsisilbing liwanag sa amin.
Mabilis niyang hinubad ang dress ko leaving only in my panty habang siya ay naka boxers pa rin at naka t-shirt. He kissed me again while I was busy undressing him. Napasabunot ako sa kanya when he sucked one of my breasts.
"Hmmm..." I uttered habang hindi alam kung pipikit ba ako o tinitingnan ko siya habang ginagawa iyon.
His kisses travelled below my breasts, in my tummy until it reaches my thigh. He immediately took off my panty and in a split second I was on fire when his finger touches my damp core.
"Oh my God!" I moaned when he teased it with his finger.
Bumalik ang halik niya sa labi ko habang naglalaro doon ang kanyang daliri. Napapikit ako at hindi alam kung saan ipapanig ang ulo dahil sa halo-halong emosyon na nararamdaman ko.
"You are mine." He declared habang dahan-dahan na pinapasok ang kanya sa akin.
"Ahhh..." I shouted when his hard on fully entered mine.
His rhythm was slow kaya damang-dama ko doon ang mga galaw niya. He's back in kissing me while his rhythm becomes faster. Napayakap ako sa kanya nang mahigpit when he suddenly pumps faster that he usually does.
"That's it baby. Hmmm?" He sensually said while suddenly moving slowly inside me.
Tumango ako at hinila siya papalapit sa akin para mahalikan. He moaned when I sucked his lip at kaagad na binilisan ang kanyang galaw. We are both panting and catching our breaths. Napapikit ako dahil sa pagod habang siya naman ay niyakap ako at sinuklay ang buhok ko.
"Clicko I have to tell you something." I seriously said pagtapos magpahinga ng ilang saglit.
He stopped from combing my hair for a second and looked at me.
"What is it?"
Ngumiti ako at kinuha ang kamay niya na sumusuklay sa buhok ko. Kunot noo niya iyong sinundan ng tingin habang dinadala ko ito sa aking tiyan. He looked at me confused kaya natawa ako.
"Congratulations Clicko. You're gonna be a Dad." Naiiyak na sabi ko habang pinagmamasdan siya na nalilito sa ginawa ko.
Nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata at napatingin doon sa kamay namin sa aking tiyan. He looked at me again kaya tumango ako sa kanya.
"You're pregnant?" He asked amused kaya natawa na lang ako habang umiiyak.
"Holy shit you didn't tell me about it! Is it okay? Is the baby fine?" He panicked at kaagad na umupo mula sa pagkakahiga.
I laughed at him pero agad ding tumango. The baby will be fine. I know that. Sumimangot siya sa akin habang nilalapit ulit ang kamay sa tiyan ko.
"We made this." He seriously said habang nakangiti na sa akin.
"Hell yeah, we made that!" Ganti ko.
He kissed my tummy and I watch him as he talked to the little human inside.
"Hello there buddy. I love your mom so much. You're a part of her so I love you too."