TROUBLE // Lil Xan

18

We layed down in my bed with the lights off and the tv on, But I don't think ether of us were paying attention to the tv. I had my head on Ethan's bare chest and our legs were wrapped around each others. He was scrolling through his phone looking at Instagram showing my pictures every once in a while. I just layed there and listened to his heart beat. Why was it so easy to be with Ethan and not Diego? Why was it always so messy? I thought about I still needed to sit down and have a serious talk with Diego. I kept wondering what he was doing right now... I don't know why he was on my mind. Diego popped up on Ethan's Instagram stories and I couldn't help but smile when I seen his face. Ethan looked down at me. "You love him huh?" before I could answer he leaned down and kissed the top of my head. He brushed my hair back and ran his hands through my hair for a few seconds. "I just miss him... That's all" he stopped running my head and layed his arm around my back. I didn't want to hurt him so I chose my words wisely. "Maybe we can have a kickback at my place, and it'll be better than last time. I'll invite D and you guys can work it out, ok?"
I smiled up at him, "why are you so sweet to me? All I bring is drama" he leaned down and kissed my lips gently, "nah, baby you bring sunshine. I don't want Diego to miss out on the sunshine of his best friend ether. You guys need to get back to where you before all this?" I didn't let him pull away, I wanted to kiss him more. "I love you" I said, my eyes widening at the fact that I just said that to him for the first time. "I love you. I know it's been a short time but there's no place else I wanna be" when he said that, my heart melted and at the same time I thought of Diego and where he might be tonight. I hated myself for that. I hate loving them both... I wanted to be angry at Diego. Ethan pushed my shoulder so I was laying flat on the bed now, with him above me. I looked up into his eyes, green. Perfect. "I'm lucky" he whispered in my ear while biting on it. Suddenly I forgot the bullshit rushing through my mind. Chills started going up and down my body. Ethan knew exactly what to do and exactly when to do it. But, it was different than him than with Diego. Gentle. He came back and kissed my lips. He started to slowly undress me... Every moment with Ethan was better than the last. He deserved so much better than me but for this moment I'm going to let him give his all to me... And I'd give mine to him