* Troye's pov*
Fears and doubts had been troubling my thoughts and clinging on to my spirts, like an anchor slowly dragging me below the suface, and with each agonising minute that passed I was being taken to the point of no return, towards my eventual doom and self destruction.
Just when the pressure on my lungs became too great, my head already pounding, and water threatened to crush my weak and defenseless body, when I was about to relieve myself of my being, I felt movement. Water was rushing past me as my body arched backwards, the darkness that had surrounded me was lifting-I was being pulled back up to open air! And finally my head broke through the icy surface and my lungs gratefully drank the morning air.
It felt as though I'd tricked Atlas into shouldering the weight of the sky, I was finally free.
That's what it felt like having someone know my secret, and accepting me for who I am, to know that someone whom I truly cared about didn't reject me, but welcomed me with open arms. That is the effect of Tyler's reassurance and mutual feelings.
Snippets of what happened merely two hours ago were replaying in my head, and I couldn't help but smile at the memories. They meant more to me than Tyler would ever know. They not only meant that Tyler accepted me, but it also confirmed that Tyler -THE Tyler Oakley- liked me back. I squeezed the pillow I'd been curled up against even tighter, badly needing to fangirl but noting that I could easily be heard.
I tried to take long, deep breaths, hoping to calm my heartbeat, but Tyler's face kept resurfacing and I just couldn't. I sighed and turned over, so I was now lying in my bed, beneath the soft, white hotel covers.
I've been tossing and turning ever since I got into bed, right after I had a freak out fangirl session as soon as I closed the door. Sleep was obviously not option tonight, I was way too happy and excited, adrenaline still pulsing through my body.
It was 4a.m, there's only one thing to do at such an hour: Tumblr.
I reached over to the bedside table on my left, where my beloved laptop was placed. I opened it an was overwhelmed by the light of a thousand suns. Once my eyes had gotten used to the blinding light, and I tried to connect with the hotel's wifi, but it kept asking for a password, which was weird since we can connect automatically once we book a room.
I glanced at a laminated paper on my bedside table which read "Free Wifi!", and below it, in tiny lettering, "please contact reception desk for your personal password". I groaned as I noted that I had to actually talk to people if I wanted to use my people-avoiding pass time.
I sighed as I kicked off my sheets and got up. I had 'slept' in my clothes so I was decent enough to go talk to the receptionist without needing to change. I grabbed my keycard, taking my laptop with me, and left the room, walked down the corridor, down the elevator and got to the lobby. I approached the surprised-looking receptionist and asked her for the wifi password. After blinking a few times she ruffled through some papers and gave me a series of numbers and letters. I thanked her and made my way to my room, deciding to take the stairs for a change.
As I climbed the stairs I connected my laptop to the hotel's wifi and opened tumblr. My dash immediately exploaded, new posts filling every inch. As i happily went through it -I was now at my floor- I noticed a post from Tyler, dated 3 minutes ago.
I had reached my door, but now I looked over to Tyler's room and realised that he was probably awake. I glanced one last time at my room before walking the short distance to Tilly's room. My heart pounded as I wondered whether or not I should bother Tyler at such an hour, but he was awake and I don't think he'd mind my presence...I hope.
I shook the doubt out of my head and knocked on the door.
After a pause of pin-dropping silence, which tensed my fears and doubts, there was shuffling behind the door. A few seconds later the door creaked open to reveal a half naked Tyler, with messy hair and a curious expression. My breath caught in my throat and a wild blush spread through my face.
When Tyler saw that it was me his eyes widened and a broad smile showed off his pearly whites.
"Hai! What's up?"
" H-hey Tyler, I saw you tumblring, and since we were both awake I thought-"
"Say no more!" and he grabbed my arm and pulled me into his room, letting the door slam behind me.
"Before you can make yourself comfortable, you need to change, coz that outfit is not suited for sleep" he threw me a pair of pyjama bottoms-just the bottoms-, which I caught, "put this on, and then we can tumblr and gorge ourselves together! "
I shot a grin his way and noticed his eyes twinkling, but with what...happiness? cheekiness? or perhaps, mischeif?
I turned on my heel and went into the bathroom to change.
*Tyler's pov *
As Troye turned away and made his way to the bathroom, there was nobody to stop me from observing how well the skinny jeans fit his body, and showed off his ass(ets). A cheeky grin slowly grew through my lips, and mischeif took over my expression.
We had the rest of the night to ourselves...together...alone. Obviously I won't try anything too..forward..it's too soon for that, but I can't promise much else.
Troye walked out of the bathroom and my eyes were immediately glued to his chest. His flawless, milky skin that perfectly suited his beautiful slim figure and not-too-broad shoulders.
He chuckled and jokingly asked, "like what you see?"
I stepped closer to him and met his eyes, trying to keep the lust out of my voice and eyes, and said "You have no idea"
I rose on tiptoes and closed the gap between us, meeting his feather-soft lips with mine. I couldn't get over just how soft his plump, pink lips were. Then Troye reacted, and wound his arms around my neck, and I locked mine around his waist, sealing our tight embrace.
Our lips moved in sync as my heart raced to fuel the passion in my veins. I slightly pulled and played with his bottom lip, earning a moan of pleasure and desire from my aussie. I felt his tongue across my lips, but I felt like teasing him and kept them shut. He tried again and I smile into the kiss, loving that he wanted me as badly as I wanted him, but I wasn't caving quite yet. In fact, I pulled away with a wink and a devious smirk.
Troye was trying to control the blush as well as his breathing, but a slight pout bent his lips. His expression read 'I hate you but I love you, ugh you're so annoying :P'
I motioned for him to stay there and I backed up to my bedside table. I opened the first drawer and pulled out...a jar of nutella. I waved this at Troye and he jumped out of his bubble and almost leaped on me. I cracked up at his reaction, noting how he would so easily transition from a lusty adult to a hungry child.
We spent the next hour scrolling through tumblr, laughing, and eating nutella. At 5a.m I shut my laptop and turned to Troye, who was on his side with his laptop next to him, laughing at some post.
I put my arm around his waist and snuggled closer, so that his back was against my chest, I saw him smiling, but still he typed on. I mindlessly played with his dark locks, loving the feel of their soft texture against my fingers. I placed small kisses down his neck, and saw goosebumps rising on his skin, he'd stopped typing.
I continued the line of kisses along his shoulder, while trailing a finger down his back, sending shivers through his spine. I drew circles and patterns on his soft, exposed skin, satisfied by how his skin heated under my touch, and at how his body reacted so easily to me.
I brought my face down closer to Troye's, stopping at his ear. I left a trail of kisses there and allowed myself to nibble it a little. I could hear Troye's breath hitch as I carassed his body, I whispered in his ear, with a clear yet raspy voice: "mine". The hair in Troye's arms and neck rose at once, and Troye turned over, facing me.
He put a hand in the back of my head, and placed a gentle amount of pressure to move me until our forheads touched, and answered, "always".
He kissed me, a small kiss, just a peck, but it was filled with honesty and love. And then he wrapped his arms around my torso and cuddled into me, while I placed mine around his shoulders. And just like that, we drifted off into a blissful sleep.
A / N
Heeey :3 Did you like that? I know I did :3
Thankyou guys so much for sticking by this story, considering I wasn't sure if it would turn out good or not, it means a lot :)
I had my friend, who barely knows who troyler is, read this fanfic and she was fangirling and dying in front of me, so I guess I'm doing something right :P
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