Milan
I sat on the stool, at the counter, drinking some hot tea, since i had just got finished cooking breakfast with G's mom. Everybody was up, but they hadn't come down yet. We decided to cook breakfast, since Chy , Su and Troy were leaving later on tonight to go back home.
Momma was staying till the morning, since she didn't really like night flights. It was kind of bitter sweet for everybody to be leaving, cause I did want a little peace but then again that left me here with G, who pissed me the hell off a few days ago. It just didn't make sense why he avoided sex after being in jail for damn near a year.
I couldn't even deny that I was definitely sexually frustrated, and I expected him to be as well, but that wasn't the case. Then what really pissed me off, is that he acted like it never happened, he wanted to kiss on me and all the extra shit, like he didn't just turn down sex, as if i wasn't his girl.
"You okay Lani?" Momma asked, knocking me from my thoughts.
"Yeah, i'm fine" i said, sipping tea, as Rell came walking into the kitchen. He didn't know that I had heard him come in early this morning, before G woke up. He knew he was supposed to come in after that party, or at least call, but since he was already in trouble, i decided to let him slide this time.
"Good morning y'all" he said, sitting across from us, with his hoodie pulled tight over his head.
"Looks like you had a good time at the party last night huh?" momma asked.
"It was aight, my head just killing me"
"Sounds like a hangover to me" i said, sarcastically.
"Nah, I wasn't on that time last night" he said.
"Mhm I know" i said, smirking. I knew anytime, Rell stayed out, it was because he was with one of those fast ass girls from his school. Which didn't really bother me, cause thats what boys do.. I just wanted him to be safe about it.
He smirked, picking up that i knew where he was.. "You really got eyes everywhere La" he said, shaking his head laughing, as G came walking in the kitchen carrying Kai.
"Say good morning boo" he said, waving Kai's hand. "Good morning, it smell good as hell down here"
"Hey stinky" i said, standing up kissing her cheeks, before trying to walk off. G grabbed my arm, spinning me back around.
"Good morning to you too" he said.
I slightly smirked , "Good morning G" I said rolling my eyes.
He leaned in close to my ear, "Stop playing with me Lani, fr" he whispered. I didn't say anything, just snatched my arm away from him, going over to the stove to make plates as Chy and Troy walked in.
G just stood there staring at me, like he was ready to knock my head off, but i could careless. "What the hell did we just walk into ?" Chy asked, grabbing Kai from his arms.
"You bouta see your sis get fucked up" he said, saying sis sarcastically.
I rolled my eyes, and continued doing what I was doing. He always played dumb when i was mad at him about something. He knew exactly why I felt some type of way right now, but he always wanted to make me look crazy.
"Gionni, it's too early for that mess" his mom said, coming over to help me.
"Milan, come here" he said, walking out of the kitchen .
"You see me doing something" I semi yelled back.
"I don't care, come here yo" he said, sternly.
I sighed, "Imma go see what he want, you cool with making the plates Ma?" i asked.
"You go, I got it La" she said. "Just go talk to him"
I dried my hands, and began making my way out the kitchen. "What you be saying all the time boo? I'm just gone sip my tea" Troy said mocking Chy laughing. I swear he got on my nerves, always think shit was a joke.
"Troy shut up" momma said throwing a towel at him, laughing.
I walked into the living room, where G was sitting and now rolling up some weed. "What" i said, sitting in the chair across from him, folding my arms. I don't care, yes i really was mad he didn't give me no dick, shit it's mine anyway. Call it petty all you want, let your man come home from jail and he not all over you. Shit let your man come home from going to Walmart and deny you some dick, you gone be pissed too.
"Who you talking to" he asked, looking up, squinting his eyes at me.
"Gionni, what do you want ?" i asked.
He chuckled, "You acting like real nut right now yo" he said, licking the end of the backwood. "And I know exactly what's wrong with you too"
I rolled my eyes, "So if you know then what's the point of this conversation"
"You know i don't give a fuck about that dumb ass attitude, so you can cut it" he said, lighting the weed. I didn't say anything back, just sat back in the chair waiting for him to say whatever he had to say. "I created a fucking monster yo, i swear you spoiled asf" he said, shaking his head.
"What is this, a tell Lani about herself party?" i said, sarcastically.
"You on a roll today huh?" he said laughing. I don't know why he always did this, when he knew i was already annoyed. He knew i hated when he thought shit was funny, when it wasn't. "Why you mad at me Mama?" he asked, leaning back taking a pull from the weed.
"You said you know right? You tell me"
"You childish boo" he said.
"I didn't ask to have this conversation"
"But you the one walking around here with a dumb ass attitude over some shit that happened three days ago" he said, taking a long pull from the weed. "You wanna smoke, relax ya mind " he said, holding the L out, smirking.
"Bye G, you always think somebody fucking playing" I said getting up, walking pass him.
He grabbed arm pulling me back, "I'm fucking with you, chill" he said, still laughing and shit.
"You wasting my time, thats what you doing"
"Nah forreal, lemme stop fucking with you" he said, pulling me down on the couch next to him. "Aight so i know you in ya feelings cause I ain't give you no dick the other day, but you know i do everything for a reason"
"You not telling me shit right now" I said, rolling my eyes.
"I'm getting to it, if you relax" he said. "So you remember how I used to tell you about how the female guards used to be in there" he asked.
I scrunched my eyebrows, "Mhm".
"Aight well, the day i got out one of the shawty's was on some wild shit, beyond my control, while i was cuffed" he said, making me side eye him.
I stayed quiet, taking a minute to figure out what he was saying. I remembered him saying the female guards were always all over him. "So basically, you was in there fucking the guards?"
"Did you just hear what i said? The bitch did the some shit while i was cuffed" he said, calmly as if that wasn't a problem, which only made it seem like bs.
"You telling me, one of the bitches in there raped you Gionni, that sounds like bs"
"Don't say raped, i'm not a bitch" he said. "But the jawn i got to bring me the phone basically, felt like i was obligated to fuck her since she did that favor. She was on some weird shit, talking bout she been wanting to fuck me since she came to one of my concerts.. shit was wild"
"Sounds like rape to me, she plotted on you, that what rapist do" i said. "You been home for damn near three weeks, if you got raped why the fuck you ain't say something, this sounds like a bunch of bs G I'm not gonna hold you"
"Chill with the rape shit" he said, sitting the backwood in the ashtray. "I ain't say shit, cause i wanted to make sure i was cool after that shit, which is why I ain't do nothing with you"
"Wait, so you went and got checked.... and what?" i asked, as my heart started beating even faster than it had already been. Even thought I wouldn't have been physically affected if Gionni had something, since we didn't do anything sexual since he came home, I still was nervous for the answer I could receive.
"Relax, I'm good"
"When the hell were you gone tell me about this"
"I just told you, I was waiting till after i check shit out first. he said, nonchalantly.
"Why are you acting like this isn't a big deal?" i asked, trying to figure out why he was so calm.
"It's not that deep"
"It's not that deep?" i repeated. "Gionni she raped you"
"Don't say that shit again yo" he said, sitting up. "Obviously I wasn't with it, but she ain't the first freak ass girl that did some wild shit"
"You sound dumb, you said you were cuffed, that's different from other run ins with street bitches." i said, I could feel my blood begin to boil. "Then not to mention, the bitch was a CO, so she really took advantage"
"It' really ain't shit for us to worry about, I went and got checked, Im clean so we good" he said shrugging his shoulders.
"That's not the point, wrong is wrong"
"Mama what you really want me to do huh... sit through multiple court sessions with this bitch, after i just got lucky, getting outta jail for some shit i actually did" he said, looking me in my eyes. "Im cool off that shit, she got what she wanted, and ain't give me no disease. Can i focus on being home with y'all or nah"
"So you just wanna let it go" I asked, scrunching my eyebrows.
"That's exactly what I wanna do, it's not bothering me, don't let it bother you"
"It's definitely bothering me" I said honestly. And i was definitely not letting it go, if he didn't wanna handle it, i was gonna take it into my own hands. I know because G is a man, he'd never admit that what she did, was considered rape. But no matter male, or female .. non-consensual sex is rape.. PERIOD.
"Leave it alone, Lani" he said. "Now you know wassup, this the last time the shit need to be talked about."
I shook my head, "That shit ain't right G"
"Look, I know you.. so imma beg you to leave the shit alone, all it's gone do is fall back on me.. remember i'm out here by LUCK Lani, niggas don't get outta jail by being lucky too often"
"Well, i appreciate you caring enough to not do anything with me before getting checked" I said, deciding to just leave it alone for now.
"I wouldn't be a man if I didn't, cause lord knows i wanted to tear you up" he said, pinching my side.
"I was so mad, you don't even understand.. I had dreams about it while you were gone" i said, honestly.
"You was mad as fuck, not just mad. I can't believe you acted like that yo" he said, lighting the weed again.
"I just couldn't see how you didn't want it as much as i did"
He ran his hand down his face, "Man, you even know how that shit put my self control to a test"
I looked at him shaking my head, "Im sorry that happened to you G, and I'm sorry I acting like that"
"Don't say sorry, ain't shit for you to be sorry for" he said, taking a pull from the weed. "The shit that happened, wasn't a tragedy.. she just caught me a time when she knew she could. And you don't gotta say sorry for acting like that, you ain't know what wassup" he said. "Let you would have denied me some of my shit, i woulda be on some shit too, i can't blame you for that"
"I know what you were trying to do, i just wish you would've said something G"
"I rather tell you shit once i know everything is cool, don't need shit else for you to be stressing over."
"It wasn't about me this time tho, this was about you" i said.
"But i learned from being in there, that the shit that I do affects y'all, whether it involves y'all or not." he said, pushing my hair behind my ear. "You better not fucking cry" he said, i didn't even notice that my eyes began to water.
It was crazy, how you can be so close and in love with someone that everything they go through really affects you more than you thought it would. Majority of the time, I thought about Gionni's feelings before mine, and from this situation i could tell it was vice versa. "I'm not crying" i said, wiping a tear before it fell.
"Heard ju" he said, making a "I know you lying" face. "I love you girl, you know that? " he said, lightly gripping my neck.
"I love you too, like more than anything besides the kids" i said laughing a little.
"Can I have a kiss?"
"Can i have some dick?" i repeated from before.
He busted out laughing, "You can, if you can sneak upstairs"
"I'm just playing"
"I'm not" he said, kissing my neck. "I don't even think you understand what i would do to you right now... have ya legs shaking and all"
"That's how Kai got here" i said, laughing.
"We can make another one" he said still kissing on my neck.
"Stop it" i said, pushing him off, standing up.
"Oh now you wanna turn shit down huh?" he said standing up. "Come on" he said, pulling my me towards the stairs. "This what you wanted so bad right?"
"I have to get Kai"
"All of them in there right now, they got her" he said. "Don't make another excuse, let's go before they start looking for us" He said, as we walked up the stairs.
You never know what it's like to really be a parent, until you sneaking off to have sex. I had to think about it, everybody else was going home between today and tonight, which means this was the only time someone would be here to watch Kai.
The information I got from G, definitely didn't sit right with me, and i honestly wish i could respect his wishes and leave it alone, but there was absolutely no way i could do that. Me coming from the background that i had, that shit bothered the hell outta me, even if it didn't bother him. I most definitely wasn't letting this fly, I just had to figure out a way to handle it with out it falling back on G.
SORRY FOR ANY MISTAKES
I know its kinda short but, sis got a paper to write for class lol 😂 sorry
Okay so, i need y'all help... DM me, with any ideas or ways you think Lani should handle this situation. Who ever comes up with the best scenario, i will use it in my own words, but also give you credit, if you want you name at the end of the chapter. DON'T WRITE IT HERE, make sure you DM me so nobody else has your idea. THANKS 😘
TAYLOR MONAE 💋