Hi Guys, I'm super sorry, I think Wattpad had a glitch and uploaded this chapter unedited and unfinished! So, sorry for any confusion! Anyway, please reread this chapter if you already have! Another thing, I accidentally said that Nicole was 22, Luis is 22, and Nicole is 20.
"What's with this baby talk of yours?" I asked, confused . My husband just out of the blue wants a baby? I was still on the kitchen counter with my hunk of a husband's ripped abs in my face and my half buttoned shirt.
"Nikki, we have been married for two years. Four years to the entire public. I... I want a little Luis or little Nicole running around." He said excitedly. I couldn't help but smile.
"How long have you been feeling like this?" I asked.
"Ever since we got married. Having babies was always on my mind with you. But I guess, seeing that Kayla and Eddie having their little family, I guess I want one too." He confessed, slightly looking away from me because he was so nervous. "What do you think?" He asked me.
"Well..." I started. How do I tell my husband that I'm not ready for kids and that I want to focus on my career without sounding like a total ass. "I do too." I said. I could see the joy in his eyes. "Butnotrightnow." I said quickly. Instantly, his expression deflated, the joy was gone and filled with sadness.
"Oh...well.. It's okay. I shouldn't just spring this idea to you and thought you would have went along with it." He said, disappointed. I instantly felt bad. Did he really want a baby that bad?
"I'm not opposed to the idea." I started. "Just... Work and your career, like what happens if you go on tour?" I asked.
"I wouldn't go on tour anymore then. You're more important." He said simply. I gave him a skeptical look. He's saying that now, but if he ever told his manager to cancel an entire tour, the record label would drop him so quick. And I wouldn't want to be the reason he stops doing what he loves.
"Do you even know anything about parenting?" I asked. He then gave me a look.
"Do you?" He asked me. Damn, come to think of it, I didn't know anything about parenting. I didn't answer. "Exactly, we're both on the same boat, so we can do this together." He said optimistically. I shook my head.
"Can we talk about this later? Preferably an hour later, while we're upstairs in our bed. You kinda got me started." I said with a wink. I then seductively unbuttoned the rest of my shirt and threw it on the floor, exposing my black laced Victoria Secrets bra. He couldn't help but laugh as he picked me up, carried me up the stairs, and gently placed me on the bed. He got on top of me and kissed me as I rubbed his back. I knew sex would get this whole baby thing off his mind.
***(One Hour Later)
"Wow, amazing." I said as we heavily breathed. Our hair was ruffled, the bed sheets were undone, and I laid beside my naked husband who was looking up at the ceiling.
"Yeah, amazing." He agreed, as he turned to me. "You know what else is amazing?" He asked.
"What?" I asked.
"Having kids." He said to me with a smile. I rolled my eyes.
"This is still on your mind?" I asked.
"Sex is what makes babies. What you thought us having sex would make me rethink having kids? In fact, it just makes me want them even more." He said. Damn, my idea to seduce him into forgetting this whole baby thing failed.
"Luis I-"
"No wait let me finish. Nicole, I know we haven't really talked about kids, but I've wanted a child with you for quite some time. Remember that whole Hailey situation with her lying about being pregnant?" I heavily breathed. Just hearing her name gets me upset, still. "I was so upset that it wasn't you." He said. My eyes widened. Really? "And remember Kayla and Eddie's wedding when I found that pregnancy test and thought it was yours?" He asked.
"Yes, I remember." Another memory that makes me upset.
"I was freaking out, thinking that we were going to be parents. And, it was like, I was excited. But, then I started to realize that I couldn't have been the father, and I was so.. devastated. I think that was the day I realized that I really loved you, and wanted you apart of my life. I wanted you back then to be the mother of my children, and I still want you to be the mother of my children now." He said.
Why was I crying!? I quickly wiped away my tears so he wouldn't see me crying. It made me so emotional, the things he said about me. He really does love me.
"Luis, you know I love you. And I wouldn't see it any other way, us having kids together. It's just, I'm not as ready to be a parent. Right now." I said.
I remember thinking you were pregnant during Kayla and Eddie's wedding and it devastated me, to think I wasn't the father. These past two amazing years with you in complete love has been nothing but amazing. I just think we're both ready to be parents. And if we're not, we'll learn as we go." He said. I got out the bed and put on my robe.
"Nicole, you'll change your mind later. Why don't we start trying?" He begged.
"But, if I'm not on the same page, why push it? I want babies, but my career is taking off and-"
"Career? You're saying you're picking your career over having a child?" He asked.
"So, you can have a career and I can't? You had your peak of your career two years ago and now it's my turn." I said.
"You realize how selfish you sound right?" He asked.
"Do you realize how selfish you sound right? It's a lot of adjustment for both of us, but for me the most. I can't do the same things as I used to do if I become pregnant." I said.
"Why are you making it seem as though I won't be as involved as you are? If you're pregnant, we're pregnant." He said.
"Soooo, when I'm going into labor, we're going into labor? When I can't sleep due to the baby kicking my stomach, are you awake with someone kicking your stomach as well?" I snapped.
"Obviously not. But, I'll be there emotionally." He said, with attitude. I rolled my eyes. "What, do you not to have a baby with me?!" He asked.
"When did I say ever say that?" I asked confused. "I just don't want one right now, why don't you understand that?" I asked. "You literally never mentioned having a baby until this very moment? Do you think I just jump when you say jump? Or that I was just going to drop every responsibility without thought, and just have a baby?" I asked, looking at him. "That's not the wife you married." I said.
"Well, I wish it was." He mumbled. I gave him the dirtiest look before getting into bed. We both had our backs turned to each other that night. I laid in the darkness and began to think. How can he expect one day I'll just drop all my responsibilities and just have his child like some baby maker? I am a busy woman, being pregnant isn't something for me right now.
***
The next morning, when I got up Luis wasn't in the bed. Normally, he would tell me he was leaving. I washed up and headed downstairs and saw evidence that breakfast was made. He usually made me something, but I there was only a dirty pan and a box of pancake mix out. "Yup, he's mad at me." I concluded. Well, I was mad at him, too. I sighed. I couldn't think about him now, I had two clients to meet with and discuss their final touches on their wedding. I went upstairs and pulled out my white polo and some work pants and a blazer. The door rung and I walked downstairs and greeted the couple, celebrity singer Jake Pontiac and his fiance Isabella Givena.
"Welcome." I said, as they walked in. I sat them on our couch and pulled out their file for their wedding day which was next week. I explained to them the entire schedule step by step, and how the day would be. We then planned the final touches of the wedding about which flowers her bouquet should be and the color of the bows in the flower girl's hair.
"I love it." Isabella said with a smile. She held her fiance's hand as she smiled.
"I can't wait to be married to you." Jake said to her, as they kissed. I smiled at this young couple who seemed so madly in love. I felt a little bit jealous, even though I had my husband. Maybe I was jealous that they were happy in love, and we were fighting right now.
I coughed and they focused their attention on me. "Let's take a look at the gifts you're going to give the guests." I said, as I flipped through a look book of small presents.
***
"...and now Luis is mad at me." I said to Kayla over the phone. I needed to vent to someone and something to do, all my duties as a celebrity wedding planner had been done for the day and Luis wasn't home yet.
"Dude." She started. "Just have a baby, settle it." She said. I rolled my eyes.
"It's like everyone is telling to have a baby except the person that is going to be having the baby-me!" I yelled in the phone. "No one is understanding, that I'm not as ready to have a baby."
"So what would happen if you found out that you were pregnant right now?" She asked.
"Well, I'm not." I said confidently. For the two years I was on the pill, I haven't missed a single day.
"Just pretend. What would you do if you were pregnant?"
Just then, the door opened and came in my husband. "I'll call you back later." I said, before hanging up. I turned and looked at him and he looked at me. "Hey." I finally said.
"Here." He pulled one hand from behind his back and it held a dozen red roses and chocolate. I began to smile. What a big sweetheart my Luis was. I took the roses and smelled them as he sat beside me on the couch. "I'm sorry." He started.
"No, I'm sorry." I repeated.
"What do you have to be sorry for?" He asked, laughing. I couldn't think of an answer. "I shouldn't pressure you into having a baby. It is your body that is going to go through this and I want us to be on the same page when we decide to get pregnant. And I know exactly who I married. I wouldn't want any other woman but you." He said before hugging me.
"I love you." I said to him as we kissed. I then began to think of Kayla's question, what would you do if you were pregnant now? I'd be happy. I'd be ready. Then why am I so opposed to having a baby right now?
"Now, tell me about your day." He said to me, as we sat on the couch, ate chocolate and talked about our day.
He didn't bother me about any baby talk for the rest of the night or throughout the week.
I did feel bad at some points throughout the week, that I shot him down on the idea of getting pregnant. But, as of right now, my job came first. I had just opened my own office downtown that soon to be brides can try on my dress brand as well as plan weddings, in addition to the home office I had. Not to mention, planning multiple weddings by myself for high class celebrities who want everything and anything is very strenuous.
And Luis, he could go on tour at any day. Luis doesn't look at the future of things. If I got pregnant and he's on tour, I would have to be in a stuffy tour bus hours at a time, with my cravings, hormones, and unstable stomach.
But, we will have a baby, and I know we would be amazing parents.
Yay, to the first new chapter! I hope you all love it! Again, sorry for the chapter some of you guys read, Wattpad has been having some glitches lately. Also, I will be uploading the next chapter shortly! :)