"No!" I yelled while laughing still so hard and running down the hallways of our home.
"I'm so much faster than you!" Justin joked as he chased after me laughing just as hard as me.
"No you're-" I was cut off by him grabbing me from behind. We both were laughing loudly as he pulled me against him.
"I got you" He said in my ear.
"Well this is good to see" I heard causing me to look up quickly. I saw Scooter and Allison standing by our front door with big smiles. Justin didn't let go of me.
"Hey guys" Justin said to him happily.
"Hi" I said back smiling and trying to catch my breath from running around the house. Justin let go and stood next to me.
"You guys have plans tonight?" Allison asked us. I looked over at Justin who shook his head.
"What's up?" Justin asked her as he leaned against the wall. He quickly looked up at me and grabbed my hand. He gently pulled me to him getting a giggle out of me. I leaned against him and looked back at Scooter and Allison. Who look very happy watching us.
"Well we were thinking we should have a big dinner tonight. I have this nice restaurant I want to go to and I think we should all go with obviously us, Ryan, whoever else. Just have a good time" Scooter suggested.
"I would love that" I answered him.
"I would too. It would be fun" Justin agreed.
"Okay so we can go at seven, good with you guys?" He asked us.
"Yeah, that's perfect." Justin told him. "Just let me know what time you guys are coming over so I know what time to be back here by because I want to take her somewhere in a little bit" I looked back at Justin confused.
"Where are we going?" I asked him and he started to smirk.
"That's a surprise, baby girl" He told me and I started to smile. Of course he wants to surprise me. He leaned down and kissed my cheek. "Don't ask questions" he joked and we both laughed.
"Well you guys have fun. We'll be here by six-ish" Allison told us as she started to back up towards the door. "I'm happy to see you guys like this again"
"Thank you" I said back and leaned my head back against Justin. He squeezed me a little bit and leaned his head against mine.
Honestly, as bad as the break hurt the entire time, we needed a break. Because now we are back and better than ever. It was needed. Even though we were actually done and didn't take it as a break. But it's in the past now. We're happy again.
We've been back together for a week now and it was been so amazing. It feels good and I feel good. We haven't been out in public together yet, but today will be the day. We haven't even posted anything together yet, but like I said today will be the day we do. Or I know I will.
But I feel like Justin did fix his ways. It feels good again and like I have nothing to worry about. We had such a long talk the day and the day after we got back together. I feel normal again.
I'm not going to lie the first few days I didn't fully believe things were going to be different. I mean, I feel like anyone might feel that way. But I was skeptical and I did something, the second night back, that I don't know if it was wrong or acceptable considering everything.
**Flashback**
I took deep breaths as I held Justin's locked phone in my hands. As I debate with myself if I want to go through it to make sure things really are going to be different. That he isn't talking to all the girls he was talking to before. But I somehow feel bad for wanting to go through his phone.
I sighed as I looked over at Justin who sleeps peacefully beside me. Then I faced his phone again.
Fuck it. If things really are different then I won't find anything and everything will be fine.
I unlocked his phone and went straight to his messages. I noticed most conversations were gone which means he deleted them. I didn't see one girls name besides obviously me, his mom, Allison, and Ally.
I swiped out of that and went to his contacts. I typed in one girls name and it didn't pop up. So I typed in another girls name and again didn't see her number. Maybe he deleted their numbers then.
I went to his blocked callers list and my eyes widened to see many girls numbers were now blocked. Damn. I honestly didn't expect that at all.
I swiped out of that and went onto Snapchat. I didn't see any recent Snapchat's from any girls. I mean there are girls on here, but they were just his friends not girls he hooked up.
I smiled and swiped out of it before locking his phone. I carefully reached over him and put the phone quietly back on the night stand. I laid back down and felt myself calm down again.
He can obviously have friends that are girls, but it always made me uncomfortable when he would stay friends with girls he hooked up with. I think any girl would feel the same way. I mean it's Justin we are talking about. He's perfect. He's so god damn handsome. He can have any girl in the world. So of course I get scared. But he loves me.
And finally things are going back to normal. I don't want anything to ruin it.
**End Of Flashback**
"Babe?" I heard Justin say pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up at him and he chuckled. "Deep in thought?" He asked as he kept a smile.
"Yeah." I said and giggled. "Should I go get ready now? What time are we going?" I asked him.
"You can get ready now. We can go whenever you're ready" he told me as he let go of me. I leaned up and kissed him softly.
"I can't wait" I said before kissing him once more. I went to walk away, but he grabbed my waist again. I looked back up at him. He smiled down at me still.
"I love you, baby" he said quietly.
"I love you too" I kissed him once more and he let go of me. Time to go get ready for where ever he is taking me.
***
Justin and I are at this park that has a pond and many paths to walk down. It's a pretty big park. We are by the water leaning against the railing and facing each other as we talk.
"It was never my intention to hurt you. Ever. I look back and hate myself for what I was putting you though. But I wasn't myself. I wasn't sober, wasn't healthy, had way too much going on in my head that would make anyone's head spin. I was pushing away everyone who loved me. It wasn't right, but my mind just wasn't right either. But I knew you stuck by me as much as you can until I started to pull you down with me. I never wanted that for you" he ranted to me. I sighed and nodded.
"I know, Justin. I know you didn't" I said back and I grabbed his hand. "Don't hate yourself over it. We can't do anything to change the past. But you were able to change your ways and be healthy and positive again. That is what matters most. And everyone is still by your side. I'm here. I'll always be here. I may have left a while, but I knew I wasn't okay either. But I'm here now" I said back to him. He nodded and looked off into the water so I did the same.
"I will do everything in my power to keep you happy." I heard him say causing me to look back at him as he stared back at me. "I won't lose you again. Since we were little I've seen a future with you. Well granted when we were little, I just saw a future of us being best friends forever" he stopped talking to laugh. I giggled and shook my head. "But once we got older, once I knew my feelings for you, I saw a future for us. A relationship, a marriage, children, a beautiful home. I see it all with you." He told me. I started to blush as I smiled wide.
"I do too. I see us having all of that" I said back and he pulled me to him. He wrapped his arms around my waist so I did the same with him.
"I love you so much. I hope you know that" he said then kissed the top of my head.
"I do, I promise. I love you more, babe" I said then picked up my head to look up at him. He smiled down at me and put one hand on my cheek. "I missed you, J" I said quietly.
"Does this mean you'll follow me back on Instagram?" He joked causing me to laugh.
"I completely forgot" I said back giggling. Wow. I really forgot I unfollowed him.
"Not going to lie, that hurt a little" he joked again and I playfully rolled my eyes.
"Wait, this one thing blew my mind" I started to talk and laughed a little. "Ally and Chaz"
"I know right!" He said in disbelief. "I was shocked. I really thought they were trying to prank me" he said getting a laugh out of me. "We have to go visit them soon or them come to us" he said and I nodded agreeing.
"Maybe for the holidays then" I told him and he nodded quickly. I just stared at him as I kept my smile.
He looks healthy and happier. This is all I wanted for him. Because anyone who really looked at him before could have noticed he wasn't okay. Now you can tell he is healthier than he was before.
Our relationship was rocky and toxic for four months before I left it. But Justin wasn't himself and was using drugs for six months. Honestly, it could have been more. But I didn't know until his arrest.
But thankfully, he pulled himself together and woke up one day wanting to be a better man. Wanting to be healthy and love life. I'm so grateful he's back to his old self.
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