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translucent.
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i wonder if she thinks of me
while i pretend to not think of her.
i wonder if she
reimagines when i used to
piece her hair behind her
ears as she laid on my lap
talking about the
inconveniences of life
while i pretend to
never remember the times
she hurt me or called me
things i refused to
rant to my family about.
i wonder if she
swallows the thought of love
when someone says my name
in front of her
while i digest the
thought of sadness,
guilt, shame, and pain
when someone says hers.