WINTER HEARTS
Dedicated to: CORKIER
You sighed as you looked out the window, seeing your friends play in the snow.
"Y/N dear, why are you cooped up in here?" Your mom asked making you turn to her, "Go out and join them."
You smiled at her. "Just a minute mom."
"Hm? Is something bothering you?"
"H-Huh? Why do you think so?"
"Nothing... it seems like you've been thinking too much lately, always in deep thoughts."
"O-Oh.. it's nothing Mom, really." You smiled again before standing up. You kissed her cheek and ran outside.
"Was I that obvious?" You muttered to yourself before sighing.
You really were thinking of something---- someone.
It was already winter in your country and you heard that it was also winter in SoKor as well. Travelling is hard nowadays because of the weather. You really missed him and you badly want to see him again.
"Y/N!!" Daniel screamed as soon as he saw you. He was a friend of yours whom you met in Seoul. He ran to you along with Minhyuk which made you smile.
"What are you guys doing?" You asked.
"Making snow angels." Minhyuk replied, smiling, "C'mon. Join us."
You smiled before lying down on the snow. Minhyuk and Daniel did the same and the three of you started to spread your arms and legs alternately in order to make snow angels.
After a few minutes, you stood up and studied what you made. You smiled at first but then frowned.
It reminded you of Seokjin.
Kim Seokjin is a close friend of yours who lives in Seoul, South Korea. You first met him 5 years ago, along with his friends. You fell for him, but you don't plan on telling him about your feelings.
Snow angels reminded you of the time when you were 18 years old and Seokjin was 22. It was winter in Seoul and he unexpectedly showed up on your frontyard, yelling your name and saying that he wants to play with you in the snow. Even though you were already comfy inside, you had no choice to face and play with him or he'll continue on yelling, and who knows what the neighbors will think?
The two of you played for almost 2 hours in the snow.
"For a 22 year old man, you think and act like a kid." You laughed.
He laughed as well. "I just wanted to make you laugh."
He made a snow angel and told you that it resembled you.
You raised a brow at him. "And why is that?"
He looked up before turning to you. He smiled. "You do know that you're an angel, right?"
Your eyes widened. You were speechless. He was looking at you directly in the eyes, and you weren't able to look away. You stood there frozen, unable to give him a reply.
"You okay, Y/N?" He asked which made you snap back to reality.
"U-Uhh.. y-yeah.."
"Your face is red."
"W-What??" You blurted our before cupping your cheeks and realized that they felt hot.
"C'mon, let's go inside."
That was the time you realized that you fell for him. And you cried when your parents transferred you to another university, outside Korea. It has been 5 years since you visited Seoul. Since then, you lost contact with Seokjin. You called him but he changed his number. You contacted his friends but they told you that Seokjin was busy. Always.
"Yah, gwaenchanha?" Daniel patted your shoulder which made you jerk and snap back to reality.
"You've been staring at the snow for the past 5 minutes." Minhyuk said, "Seems like you were in deep thoughts. What were you thinking about?"
"N-Nothing.."
Nightime came and the snow outside hasn't stopped. Snowflakes kept falling outside and they looked mezmerizing, as you looked out your window.
You sighed before closing your window and lying back down on your bed. You opened your Facebook account and the first thing you saw was an update from Jimin.
SPRING DAY by 방 탄 소 년 단
You watched the video and didn't realize that a tear fell from your eye while watching it. The lyrics were extremely amazing and the boys sung it with their hearts.
"Ah~ seriously." You lightly slapped yourself, "Why are you crying, Y/N? Tsk. Stop it."
You reacted 💗 to the video and commented, "대 박! What an amazing song! Truly heart shaking 😍 축 하 해 요! 💕"
Not long, they replied to your comment. You were surprised when you saw a lot of replies.
"Y/N-ah!! We miss you! - Jimin"
"Please visit Y/N-nie! - Hoseok"
"Yah!! Why aren't you visiting us? We miss you so much! - Namjoon"
"My birthday's coming up, you better come and celebrate with us or I'll drag you here myself! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ but seriously, please do come! - Taehyung"
"It's been different without you, Y/N. TT____TT - Jungkook"
"Yah. Come and visit us. - Yoongi"
You smiled at their replies. Your heart felt warm but immediately shook when you realized Seokjin didn't post a reply. You waited for a while but nothing popped in. You bit your lip as you felt your heart drop. You sighed before covering yourself with your blanket and forced to drift off to sleep.
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5 days later...
"Y/N-dear..."
"Hmm?" You fluttered your eyes open and the first thing you saw was your mom, smiling. The sun's light shone in your room, making you squint your eyes.
"You have visitors." She smiled, "Hurry and make yourself look neat."
"Who is it?" You asked as you sat up.
"You'll find out once you see them." Your mom said, "Now, hurry. You wouldn't want them waiting, would you?"
You sighed before grabbing your towel and walking into the bathroom. While taking a shower, you noticed that you were crying. You couldn't accept the fact that Seokjin doesn't care for you anymore.
You finished showering and got out of the bathroom. Your eyes widened when you saw a pink off shoulder dress that had blue super marios on it and a pair of pink shoes, laid on your bed.
"Did mom buy these?" You questioned as you stared at the dress. "What's with all the pink stuff?"
You wore the dress and put on the shoes. Your mom left a note on the table.
Style your hair nicely, sweetheart.
"Do I have to??" You said in annoyance. You knew that your mom knows you don't care how a mess your hair is and it was odd how she was acting like this.
You ironed your hair and curled its ends. You looked at yourself at the mirror and couldn't help but smile. You only wore light make-up but you looked pretty.
"Huh. Not bad." You said to yourself.
You went downstairs and saw your mom talking to some boys. Your eyes widened and your jaw dropped when you realized who they were. They looked up and noticed you.
"Y/N!" They screamed in sync before running and hugging you.
"H-How..." you stuttered out, "You guys!"
"We missed you!" Jimin grinned.
"Awee.. I missed you guys too."
"Hey."
You froze when you saw Seokjin. "H-Hi."
"You kids better get going." You mom said, "Bring her home before midnight, okay?"
"Ne!"
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You were now in a taxi with the seven boys.
"When did you guys get here??" You asked.
Namjoon smiled. "Last night."
"Jinjja!?" You blurted out, "Why didn't you tell me?"
"We wanted to surprise you." Hoseok said.
"I-I thought you guys were busy."
"It's Christmas break." Yoongi smiled, "So we decided to pay you a visit since you can't travel to Seoul."
"Aigoo.." you pinched his cheeks, "Yoongi has become a softie."
The others laughed. Yoongi glared at you. "Do you want me to go hard on you, then?"
You chuckled before pinching his arm. "Oh c'mon, I was joking."
"Besides, Taehyung's birthday is coming up." Namjoon said, "He wants to spend it here."
Your eyes widened before looking at Taehyung. "WAAAAAA!" You screamed before jumping on him, "I love you 'couz!"
"Y-Yah! I can't breathe!" Taehyung blurted out making the others laugh.
"You'll end up killing him." Jungkook laughed.
The ride was full of laughter and teasing. You noticed that Seokjin was quiet, the whole time.
Sigh. Maybe he doesn't like the idea of visiting me.
You couldn't help but feel sad at the fact that Seokjin didn't talk to you the whole ride. The 8 of you went out and walked into the mall.
"Hey Y/N." Jungkook called out making you turn to him, "What's with the outfit? Not that I don't like it but... why pink?"
You looked at your dress before rolling your eyes. "Mom made me wear this."
"Oh, I see." He said, "Seokjin-hyung thinks you look cute by the way."
You raised a brow at him. "When did he say that?"
"He told me when we got off the taxi." Jungkook grinned before running to Taehyung, leaving you there speechless.
The eight of you went to the arcade and then to the food court. You had an encounter with a korean waitress and she was very glad to know that the eight of you knew how to speak korean. But she bothered you. She kept looking at Seokjin, throwing smiles at him, smiles that could almost rip her face off.
You couldn't help but look at her in annoyance. You knew that she was flirting with Seokjin and she noticed your glares which made her tease you even more.
Hoseok noticed your annoyed face. "Are you okay?" He patted your shoulder which made you turn to him. "What are you thinking about that your brows almost connect?" He asked which made you laugh.
"It's nothing."
The waitress came back with your order. "Enjoy~" she said but she looked at Seokjin as if he was the only customer.
"Ehem." You faked a cough which made them look at you, "May I remind you that he is not the only one you are serving."
"Of course, maam." She smiled at you and you wanted to skin her alive, "I am aware of that."
"Are you also aware that you should properly handle plates that are to be served?"
"Pardon?"
"Waiters, waitresses and servers should not let their fingers touch the rim of the plates, as said in your proffession." You said, "You are aware of that, right?"
"N-Ne."
"I'll let this pass but next time, be more attentive." You told her and she glared at you, "What's with the look?"
"Just tell me."
"Tell you what?"
"That you were jealous and you humiliated me in front of this guy." She pointed at Seokjin.
"A-Agassi." Jungkook interrupted.
"I'm sorry sir but this woman here should learn her manners."
You scoffed. "You have no right to use that tone with me."
"Don't I?" She said.
"Y/N-ah, just ignore her." Yoongi whispered, "She'll cause a scene if you keep this up."
"Fine."
"May I ask?" She grinned at you before looking at Seokjin then back at you, "Is he your boyfriend?"
Your eyes widened. "N-No."
"Oh! I see!" Her grin grew even wider. She sat beside Seokjin which made your blood boil. "Then---"
"Excuse me." Seokjin cut her off, "Whatever you are doing, please stop it. My girlfriend's here and I don't want her to be mad."
The waitress' eyes widened. "Y-Your girlfriend? W-Who----"
"Jagiya." Seokjin smiled at you making you freeze in your seat, "She's only trying to be friends with me so please don't think of it the wrong way."
Your jaw dropped and you were still processing everything you just heard.
The waitress backed up a little bit away from Seokjin. "B-But she told me..."
"She's only lying because she's shy to admit it to my friends." Seokjin smiled again, "Whether I have a girlfriend or not, you should know your limits when it comes to your customers, agassi. We could complain this to your manager and it could cost you your job."
The waitress quickly stood up before bowing. "J-Joseonghabnida." She then walked away.
"Whew." Yoongi said.
You opened your mouth so say something but Seokjin quickly interrupted you. "I only did that because I didn't want to see her cause a fight. Let's eat."
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2 days later...
It was Taehyung's birthday and you were planning to surprise him. He stayed in your house and the other boys rented an apartment beside it.
You got up early and texted Jungkook that you'll be out with Taehyung in a few minutes. You took a shower and quickly ran to the guest room where Taehyung was sleeping. You opened it and you saw that he was still asleep. You smiled before kissing his forehead.
You walked to the door and opened it from the inside before slamming it close. Taehyung woke up because of the noise. You ran to him and turned on your acting skills.
"T-Taehyung-ah!" You grabbed his shoulders and pretended to cry.
"Y-Y/N..." He held your hands, "W-What is it?? What happened??"
"J-Jimin..." You said, "He's missing."
Taehyung's eyes widened. "WHAT!?"
You were crying and you held his wrist. "C-Come. The others are waiting outside, we need to find him."
"Okay." He stood up and took a white shirt from the closet. He took off his shirt which made you blush. He noticed and laughed. "Don't drool, cousin."
"Psh. As if." You rolled your eyes at him, "I've seen better."
"You mean, Seokjin-hyung's?"
Your eyes widened. "N-No. Just... hurry up and change."
When he finished changing, the two of you ran outside with you following him. He knocked on the apartment door but got no answer. While he was busy, you took the blindfold from your pocket and quickly wrapped it around his head, covering his eyes.
"W-What..."
"Just follow me, idiot." You said and knocked on the door 7 times, continously. The door opened, revealing Namjoon. He grinned at the sight of Taehyung blindfolded. You guided Taehyung in.
After a few seconds, you took off his blindfold and quickly hid under the table.
"Y/N??" He yelled, "Where are you? Why is it so dark in here? Where am I?"
You covered your mouth to keep yourself from chuckling. You were waiting for Jungkook's signal. You froze when you felt hot air on your neck.
"What---" you were cut off with a hand, covering your mouth.
"Shush." You heard a voice, "He'll hear you." He then let go of you.
"S-Seokjin?" You muttered but audible.
"Yes. It's me." He said, "Be quiet. He'll hear you."
"S-Seokjin..." You knew that he was only inches from you since you could smell and feel his minty breath. Your heart was beating fast and you were afraid that he could hear it.
"What is it?"
"I-I..."
"Wait." He cut you off, "Sht."
"What?"
"Y-You're on top of me."
Your eyes widened and you realized that he was right. No wonder you felt something beneath you.
You were about to get off him when he grabbed your waist and stopped you from doing so. "Don't. He'll notice."
Silence.
"Ah~ where is everybody?" You heard Taehyung say, "Yah! Stop playing tricks! I'm really getting scared!"
You giggled at what he said. "How cute."
Just then, a ball hit your toe. You understood that it was Jungkook's signal and quickly patted Seokjin's side. He let go of you silently and you crawled outside the table. You opened the ball and put on the night vision glasses. You could see Taehyung bumping into some chairs which made you chuckle. You stood up and messed your hair so that it'll cover your face. You stomped your feet twice, signalling Hoseok to turn on the lights.
"W-Who was that!?" Taehyung blurted out as soon as he heard you stomp.
The lights went on and Taehyung let out a sigh of relief. You on the other hand was looking like sadako, behind him. You poked his shoulder making him turn to you. He immediately shrieked when he saw you. He punched you so hard that it made you fall on the floor.
Well, that wasn't what I expected.
"H-Hey Taehyung!" Yoongi and the others came out of their hiding spots making Taehyung look at them, "Easy bro. Don't hurt her."
You were still holding your cheeks because of the pain as you stood up. You tied your hair and glared at Taehyung. "What was that for?!"
His eyes widened. "Y/N?! WHAT THE FU--- I'M SORRY!" He pulled you into a hug. "OH GOD. I'M SO SORRY!" He held your shoulders and looked at you worryingly. "AH SHIT. YOU'RE LIP IS BLEEDING!"
"WHAT!?" Seokjin blurted out and ran towards you. He cupped your cheeks which made you freeze. "Yoongi go get the first aid kit. NOW."
Yoongi quickly ran upstairs. "Jimin, go get some water." Seokjin added, "Namjoon and Jungkook go get some ice. Hoseok bring me a towel."
The boys ran and did what they were told without saying anything. Taehyung was still holding your hand and saying sorry.
"Stop it." You told Taehyung, "You'll end up crying. It's your brithday and I don't want to see you shedding a single tear, ara---- Ah, it hurts." You held you cheek.
"Taehyung." Seokjin called out, "Go to Yoongi and let him check if you have bruises."
"B-But---"
"Just go." Seokjin cut him off, "I'll take care of her."
Taehyung sighed before reluctantly walking away. You smiled at him but you then felt a sudden sting of pain on your cheek making you wince.
"Does it hurt that much?" Seokjin asked you. You looked into his eyes and you couldn't believe that he was worrying about you. "Just wait for a little longer. They'll be back soon."
"O-Okay." Was the only thing that came out from your mouth.
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After the boys came back with the stuff Seokjin told them to bring, he quickly made you drank water. He wrapped the ice with a towel. He placed some medicine on the wound on your lip before gently tapping your cheek with the towel.
You couldn't say anything as if you're voice was gone.
The pain subsided. You thanked Seokjin but he didn't respond. You sighed, knowing that he only did what had to be done. Nothing special. You stood up. "Yah Taehyung-ah!"
Taehyung came running downstairs and hugged you. "Are you okay, now?"
"Mm, I am." You smiled at him, "Now. Where were we?" You winked at the other boys and they smiled.
"Saeng-il chukha hamnida. Saeng-il chukha hamnida." All of you sang which made Taehyung smile. Namjoon was the one carrying the cake. "Saranghaeyo Taehyung-ie. Saeng-il chukha hamnida!"
"Make a wish!" Jimin said.
Taehyung's smile grew even wider. He closed his eyes and after a few seconds, he blew the candle. All of you clapped and hugged him.
The party was better than you expected despite what happened. You played a few games and drank a little. You were happy that Taehyung was smiling and laughing but you were disappointed on how Seokjin acts towards you.
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Five days later...
"Why so sudden?" You asked Jungkook. The boys said that you guys should go to a KTV bar.
"We're leaving tomorrow, remember?" He replied making you frown.
"Oh, yeah."
Jungkook was the one to sing first. He sang 2U by Justin Bieber and you were amazed on how his voice improved. Your eyes widened when he handed you the mic after he finished the song. Taehyung pushed you making you face the screen. You glared at him and he just laughed.
"What---- how---" You were surprised when the song played. It was their new song "spring day".
"We brought our own cd." Yoongi said, "We want you to sing it, Y/N."
"It's in english version by the way."
"You guys are awesome." You told them. "Here I go."
"I'm missing you." You began, "And I don't know what to do, I'm missing you. These pictures just remind me of you, I miss you. And time is just so cruel. I hate this. Tryin' to see you once, never worked out once. Where do we find the chance? It feels so cold like winter. It's august and not december. With my heart I walk alone across down this train is a snow piercer. Wanna take you by the hand and forge across the other end of the earth. Tell me how much more should I long for you, and pray for spring to come forth, friend?"
"Little specks of dust, floating 'round in the air, floating 'round in the air. If I was snow in the air, will I get to you even just a little bit faster?"
A/N: Search it up on youtube. It's lyrics were translated by eonnie Ysabelle Cuevas. It's a great cover!
The boys were closing their eyes and humming to the song. Seokjin wasn't moving at all. He was staring at you as you sang whole-heartedly.
"I missed her sing." He muttered to himself.
"Snowflakes keep falling down. They drift away, further arounnd. I'm missing you. I'm missing you. Oh, I miss you."
"And how long do I have to wait? How many sleepless nights do I have to take? To finally see you? To meet you?"
"Passing by the edge of this winter. At least until the change of the weather. When spring comes and flowers bloom. Just stay until then. Please stay and wait a little more."
"Was it you who changed? Or was it I who changed? I hate the time went by with friends you know and when the trees went dry you grew so cold."
"You never changed." Seokjin smiled to himself, "And I'm sorry."
"Yes I do hate you, you broke me too. But not for one day I didn't think of you. Yes you I tried to forget your name. It might hurt a bit less if you take the blame."
"I tried to exhale you in vain. Like smoke in the rain, white smoke in the rain. I said that I can forget you. But up until now, I know I can't let you go."
"Me either." Seokjin said.
He himself knew that he could never ever forget you. He may be silent but his heart keeps screaming your name.
They clapped as you finished the song. You smiled at them but frowned when you saw Seokjin walk out the room. The boys eyed each other before looking at you.
"Go after him." Hoseok said.
You handed Taehyung the mic before running after Seokjin. You were standing outside the room and searched for him but failed. You walked outside the bar and realized that it was raining. There you saw Seokjin, standing by the sidewalk, staring at the passing cars.
"Seokjin!" You yelled which made him turn to you, wide-eyed. You ran to him. "What are you doing here?"
"Yah!" You were caught off guard when he yelled at you, "Go back inside! You'll get wet!"
"I already am." You countered, "And I'm not going back inside without you."
"You'll get a fever, Y/N!"
You couldn't counter him when you heard him say your name. You hung you head low.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"W-Why..." a tear fell down your cheek before you looked up at him, "Why are you doing this?"
"W-What do you mean?"
"Why are you doing this, huh!?" You blurted out, already crying, "You act as if you don't care and then this?! Stop this!"
"Stop what??"
"Stop making me fall for you even more!"
His eyes widened. He was speechless. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"I miss you, everyday." You cried out, "I keep wishing that I could see you. And when I did, you acted as if you don't know me. Do you know how that feels?! When you long for someone and then they act as if they don't care?!"
"Y-Y/N..."
"You're not the Seokjin I know." You looked at him sharply, "You're not the Seokjin I fell for 5 years ago."
"Y/N."
"WHAT!?"
"I missed you too."
Your eyes widened. "W-What..."
He took a step closer. "I'm sorry if I acted that way." he said, "But you broke my heart too."
"What? When?"
"When you left without telling me."
You couldn't say anything.
"Remember?" Seokjin sadly smiled, "When you moved here without even telling me? Do you know how I felt that time? I saw myself as someone not worth an explanation!"
He was right. When you moved here in Y/C, you didn't tell him. You couldn't accept the fact that the two of you were separated just like that. You also couldn't accept what he did.
"Y-You..." you trailed off, "I saw you kissing Jisoo."
"WHAT!?"
"5 years ago." You said, "I was off to tell you that we were moving. But when I saw you kissing my cousin, I left and decided that I shouldn't tell you."
"I was drunk!" He said, "And she kissed me first!"
"Still!" you countered, "You broke my hea---"
You were cut off by a kiss. Your eyes widened and you didn't know what to do. He pulled away, crying.
"I'm sorry." He said which made your breath hitch, "I'm sorry if I hurt you. I didn't know. I'm sorry."
You held his cheek which made him look at you. "I understand." you smiled at him, "But do you really need to kiss me?"
He chuckled. "I couldn't help it."
You rolled your eyes before kissing his cheek. "Come on, let's go back."
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You were frowning as you looked out the window. You just came home from the airport as you said goodbye to Bangtan. You sighed before flopping on your bed.
At least it ended well.
"Y/N?"
You looked at the door as it opened and went wide-eyed. Seokjin was there, smiling. You sat up.
You slapped yourself lightly. "Ah~ stop stop. You're missing him already?"
He laughed before jumping on you which made you freeze. "Really? You already miss me?"
"W-What... H-How..."
He kissed your forehead before sitting beside you on your bed. You looked at him with brows furrowed.
"Why did you come back?"
"I'm moving here."
Your eyes widened. "WHAT?"
He flashed you a smile. "Mm, you heard me. I'm moving here."
"Why?"
"What do you mean, why?" He pouted, "You don't want me here?"
"N-No. I-I mean, why so sudden?"
He wrapped his arms around you and made you sit on his lap. "I don't want to be separated from you ever again."
"But what about the others?"
"They already know."
"Heol."
He brushed his nose against yours making you smile. You pecked his lips and he did the same in return. "I love you." You both said in sync.