Confession by Nina
My untamed confession is about my unforgettable-not totally horrible experience I had when I was still in College in the Philippines. Four years ago, sa Philippines ako pinag-aral sa College ng parents ko dahil mahal mag-college dito sa U.S. But because they can't stay with me, inihabilin ako ng Mommy ko sa college bestfriend niya. I stayed with Tita Jocelyn in her townhouse in Paranaque, together with her step daughter Mandy. Widow na si Tita Jocelyn and was dating anew that time kaya lagi s'yang wala sa bahay. But because of that, her very "unfriendly" gothic step-daughter, always had odd late-night parties along with her friends-who are mostly guys, in the basement.
At first, I didn't really care what they do there. I just minded my own business. Tutal, hindi naman sila masyadong maingay, at dahil hindi naman sila nakakaabala sa akin, hindi ko na lang sila pinapansin. Though sometimes, I get really curious kung anong ginagawa nila sa basement, kaya one time na nagpaalam si Tita na aalis siya ng two days with her new boyfriend, I took courage to get in the basement ahead of Mandy and her friends and hid in one of the cabinets there.
I waited for two hours before they came. May horizontal spaces naman ang cabinet door kaya nasilip ko sila in between those spaces. They were six in total. I saw four guys, and a girl with her when they came in. All of them wore all-black, had tattoos, piercings and various gothic accessories.
"Where's Chuck?" Tanong nung isang girl besides Mandy,
"Kasunod ko lang kanina." Sagot ng isa sa mga lalaki.
"Pa'no natin s'ya mabibinyagan kung wala s'ya rito?" one of them brought up.
"Kung ayaw n'ya, 'wag!" Mandy was disappointed.
I felt really nervous nang pinatay nila ang ilaw after they lit a lot of candles. Lalo na nang nagsimula na rin silang maghubad and just literally started fucking each other right away.
I found them really weird, yet I won't deny na I felt really hot and uncontrollably horny myself. I was only seventeen that time, but I already have the urge dahil hindi na naman ako virgin when that happened. And just like an ordinary hot-blooded teenager, I like having sex too-regardless if it's for love or pure lust. They were in the middle of their orgy when I began to touch myself. What I saw them doing was so intense kaya I've almost lost myself while masturbating.
Their lustful activity lasted for almost two hours. What they did afterward was what really gave me the creeps...a Satanic Ritual. I freaked out, but I did my best to keep quiet, at least, until I thought "all of them" left around midnight.
I felt so lost and scared kaya tumakbo ako papunta sa k'warto ko. Pawis ba pawis ako dahil sa init sa loob ng kabinet kaya nag-shower din ako right away. Nakatapis lang ako, going out of the bathroom, nang may nakita akong matangkad na lalaking lumabas mula sa ilalim ng bed ko. He was sneaking towards sa door when I screamed. Napabalik tuloy s'ya para lang takluban ang bibig ko.
"Shhhh, tangina tumahimik ka!" Bulong nito sa akin. Limilinga-linga. "Ikaw lang ba narito?"
Tumango ako. I was really scared.
Binitawan n'ya ako bago nito nagmamadaling tinungo ang bintana at sumilip doon. "Shit, nand'yan pa sila?" He murmured.
"Ikaw ba si Chuck?"
Bigla s'yang lumingon sa akin, "Paano mo nalaman ang pangalan ko?"
"Nabanggit ka nila. Hinahanap ka nila kanina."
"Pota!" Tila nataranta s'ya. "Isa ka ba sa kanila?"
"Oy hindi ha." Mas hinigpitan ko ang tapis ko, napatingin naman s'ya sa ginawa ko.
"Eh paano mo nga nalaman na Chuck ang pangalan ko?"
"Fine. Nacurious ako, nagtago ako sa kabinet kanina para malaman ko kung anong ginagawa ni Mandy at ng mga kaibigan n'ya sa basement. Eh ikaw, bakit ka nagtatago rito. Isa ka ba sa kanila?"
"Muntik na. Ang mga gago, akala ko for orgy lang, malay ko ba na kultong satanista ang grupo nila."
Napangisi ako, "So you just joined for the orgy?"
"Don't judge me, ok?!"
"I'm not judging you, I'm only curious." I was actually entertained by the sight of him. On how kind of cute he was. He's tall, lanky, fair-skinned and chinky-eyed like a KPOP star.
"Nakangisi ka kasi eh. Look! I don't even want to have group sex. I actually think orgy's disgusting and unsanitary. All I want was to get laid with only one partner, if possible! Sabi ni Mandy, pwede ko raw s'yang masolo kung sasama ako sa gimmick nila tonight. Pero on our way here, nagpaalam siya sa grupo n'ya pero hindi pumayag ang mga ito. They said it's either I'm 'in' for group sex before their ritualistic worship, or I'm 'out' to go ahead and fuck myself. Look again! I maybe a horny bastard, but I believe in God. Ayokong maging Satanista as much as ayoko sa orgy. Tangina! Nakakapagsisi talagang nag-pauto ako kay Mandy. Teka nga...kaano-ano ka ba ni Mandy?"
"Wala. Step-daughter s'ya ng guardian ko."
Muli s'yang sumilip sa bintana, "Tangina, ba't ba ayaw nilang umalis?"
"Baka hinihintay ka, sa labas ba nakaparada ang kotse mo?" I kind of bit my lip as I naughtily gazed over his crotch. He's definitely hot; my type of guy. Mahilig kasi ako sa mga mukhang Asyano, lalo na 'yung mukhang Koreano.
"Nakisakay lang ako sa kanila kaya wala akong dalang kotse." Napatingin na rin s'ya sa akin na tila napansin na rin n'ya ang malagkit kong pagtitig sa kan'ya.
"Gusto mo ba silang napaalis sa ibaba?"
"Y-yeah, sure...do you have any ideas?" Alam kong nauutal s'ya when I started applying lotion all over my legs, right in front of him.
"Make an anonymous call to the police station." I shamelessly winked at him. "Sabihin mo, you feel vexed by a group of kids parked across the street."
"C-can I do that?"
"Of course." I seriously wanted him to get the message all over my face... 'you-can-fuck-me-right-now-boy, tinanggal ko na ang tapis ko at walang kahihiyang nag-apply ng moisturizer sa buong katawan ko. "Do you want me to do it for you?"
"C-could you?"
Oh, I really liked it nung sinulyapan n'ya ang boobs ko. Lalo na when he unconsciously licked his lips while doing so.
"I can." I stood up completely naked and reached for the wireless phone, which was situated on a small table, very close to where he was. I was not looking at him but I can actually feel him staring at me. I dialed the number of the nearest police station.
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The sirens faded soon after they've arrested Mandy and her companions. Too bad, nakitaan sila ng drug paraphernalia kaya naaresto sila for reasons beyond the anonymous report on unjust vexation.
"Aren't you a genius?" Tatawa-tawang sabi sa akin ni Chuck. Pasimpleng sumusulyap din ito sa pagbibihis at paghahanda ko sa pagtulog. By that time, I was already convinced na kahit he's a self confessed horny ass, he's actually a gentleman. Hindi n'ya ako ginalaw kahit na, gosh! tinutukso ko na s'ya 'no? Napapatingin lang s'ya pero, hindi naman ito nagpakita ng signs na he wanted to take advantage of me.
"Thank you." Umupo na ako sa gilid ng kama ko, matapos kong maisuot ang aking black lingerie. "So, are you leaving na ba?" Tumuro ako sa wall clock, "Alas tres na oh."
"Ahm..." Nahuli ko ang pagsulyap n'ya sa legs ko. "S-sure...dito ang palabas right?" Itinuro n'ya ang pinto.
"Ihahatid kita if you like."
"Uhm... yeah, sure."
I was secretly laughing inside nang tila sinasadya niyang bagalan ang paglalakad niya. Nasa salas na kami at malapit na sa main door when he began to walk even slower.
"Ok, Chuck. pakatotoo na nga tayo. Ako ang nahihirapan sa 'yo eh." I was half giggling.
"Ha?" I caught him looking at my chest area, again.
"Chuck...do you want to fuck me?"
"W-What?"
"Alam kong narinig mo ako."
"Ah...eh..." Kumamot s'ya sa ulo.
"Kung ayaw, 'di wag. Halika na..." hinila ko na ito patungo sa pinto." Bye-bye. Nice to meet you." Pipihitin ko na sana ang door knob, nang hinawakan n'ya ang mismong kamay na ipinanghawak ko sa door knob.
"P'wede ba 'yun kahit ngayon lang tayo nagkita?"
Nginisian ko s'ya. "Filipino ka nga."
"Bakit, ikaw ba?"
"Mukha lang akong Filipina, because both of my parents are Filipinos, but I grew up in the US so...it's totally up to you if you want to have sex with me or not. Kung against sa cultural principles mo ang casual sex with a stranger, that's fine with me. I'm sorry for being too straightforward though. Hindi kasi uso sa States ang paligoy-ligoy eh. So paano uuwi ka na?" Muli kong pinihit ang doorknob.
"Wait." Pinigilan n'ya ulit ang kamay ko. "Gusto ko."
"Gusto mo ang alin?" I smirked.
Kinagat n'ya ang lower lip n'ya, "Makipag-sex sa 'yo."
"Are you good?"
Tumawa s'ya, "Oo naman!"
"Baka ma-bore ako ha? I am kind of hard to please sa kama."
"It won't hurt you to give me try."
***
Mind blown. He was indeed good...no, he's actually so fucking amazing. Solo namin ang bahay kaya we did 'it' all over the house. Nauna sa salas, where he scrumptiously licked my pussy; I was seated on the sofa when he also finger-fucked me. After three orgasms, I had him chase me as I ran towards the kitchen; I gave him the blowjob he can never forget right there. But before he came, I ran towards the dining room...where the real fucking session began, and then right before anyone of us could hit the climax, I broke free so he would chase me back to my room.
I frantically called God's name, yet not in vain because I was really thankful that He made the deliciousness of "sex," as part of human benefits. I repeatedly uttered his name, to express how grateful I was for the unexplainable ecstasy of having Chuck's dick coming in and out of my horny pussy.
"Yes! Uhh!" Chuck seems to like to dominate me. To hate fuck me in a missionary. "Fuck!" At least I know he's having so much fun digging the deep--moisty, cavern towards my soul. "I love your pussy...what's your name nga pala?" as he pounded me in a consistent speed.
I giggled, "Nina. My name is Nina."
"O my G-d Nina!" Sumunsob s'ya sa bandang leeg ko, bago n'ya itinodo ang pag-ulos n'ya sa ibabaw ko. "Ang sarap mo naman, grabe ka." Bulong n'ya sa tenga ko.
"Fuck me Chuck!" Hinawakan ko na ang puwitan n'ya. "Fuck me harder!"
Tumunghay siya para magkatapat ang aming mga mukha, "I so fucking will." Before he forced his tongue inside my mouth.
My sight seemed to shake sa tindi ng pagbayo n'ya sa akin. Feeling ko, nag-vibrate din ang kama dahil sa bilis ng kanyang movements. "Chuck! Don't stop Chuck. It's so good. Oh my G-d, your dick feels so good inside me. Oh, Chuck, you're gonna hit it." I thought I was going to lose my sanity as I come closer to my eighth big O. "Fuckerrr don't stooop!" I screamed as I reached the very peak.
"Shit!" He began to thrust deeper, though slower. I knew he's going to explode at any moment. I already came kaya pinabayaan ko na lang in what manner he wanted to use my body for his own satisfaction. "Tangina Nina... salamat!" He screamed as he pulled out to release his semen all over my tummy.
***
That was the first and last time we shtup in my guardian's house, though that wasn't the last time we had sex elsewhere. We began 'secretly' dating because of Mandy. Though mas madalas na nagmo-motel na lang kami if we can't do it in his bachelor's pad. We stopped being Fuck Buddies only after I met a guy-who sooner became my better half. May commitment issues kasi si Chuck, and I guess, it's true that sexual satisfaction can only get us so far, yet not too far beyond where true love can take us.
[END OF CONFESSION]
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Author's Note
Chuck's still single as of confession date. Though Nina reveals that, she actually found out that Chuck and Mandy became a couple after they parted ways. She's not sure if he eventually joined Mandy's satanic cult, though. But she's absolutely sure that she's happier now with her new found love.
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