el started a private chat with richie.
el:
richie?
richie oh my god
is something wrong? it sounds like you're crying or something
richie:
im fine
el:
no you're not
tell me what's up
richie:
god i try to have a nice sleepover with my best friend and i end up sobbing in the next room
im the worst
el:
you're not the worst
tell me what's up
richie:
it's just
eddie
he's been trying to win me back for two months or something
he broke up with ellie
came out to his parents
and moved in with bill
and ever since, he's been wanting to get back together with me
but i keep declining
el:
whys that
richie:
im just
i can't
i just
i can't deal with the on again off again bullshit
it hurts me too much
it's not healthy
el:
fair enough
why are you so upset now though love?
richie:
because i don't know what to do
at one point he went through the fears i had about getting back with him and told me things that would prove everything is okay
and it was so sweet and i just
and then after i declined i said i couldn't drop everything immediately
and he said he'd give me years if i needed because he loves me and isn't going anywhere
el:
that's sweet
richie:
and every once in a while for the past month and a half he's been sending me really sweet little messages
just like
on random days
and a few minutes ago i got this
el:
that's so sweet
richie:
i know
el:
why are you crying then?
richie:
because i'm remembering everything
el:
do you miss him richie?
richie:
i think i do
i know i do
i miss him a lot
but i just
i don't know what to do
el:
about what?
richie:
im with josh
he's sweet i guess
i can't leave him
and i can't risk myself getting hurt again
but i just
being away from him hurts me even more
el:
the only advice i can offer is for you to talk to him
tell him everything
richie:
i guess so yeah
okay
thank you els
el:
do you feel any better?
richie:
slightly
el:
that's good at least