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Sona's POV
Another of Mouni's silly parties and all of us have to attend it.
Why?
Because she is the producer and as Verma Sir says "Paise to ussi naagin se lene hai"
Jatin is rehearsing and has packed his bags already because Mega Battles is score dependent and Mouni won't let him come to the finals.
"Ready?" Barun entered my room and asked. He was dressed up in a black jacket and jeans with a white shirt inside
"Knock to kara karo Barun Bhaiya!!" Tanvi said adjusting her blue dress
"Yes let's get going" I said. Barun is genuinely an awesome person but he is too professional and too careless about his manners.
"Jatin isn't coming?" I couldn't see him anywhere
"Naah he is just a little pissed off" Barun cleared
"I'm ready too" Jeevika was looking stunning in her white indo western anarkali.
"Wait I forgot my phone" I dashed inside and took my phone. I moved out but not before giving my sky blue one piece attire a thumbs up in the mirror.
I was adjusting my hair when I heard loud noises outside.
What's going on?
I moved out and found everyone fighting with Rubina.
"What do you guys think? Anyone of you can defeat me? Specially these two challengers. Enjoy your last days here because both of you Jeevika and Sonakshi can't match my level." Rubina was spitting venom.
"Insecure much?" Jeevika said
"From whom? You? You are nowhere near my standards." Rubina crossed her arms and held her head high in her fake pride
"Speak a word and I'll break your nose" Tanvi was ready to punch her and we held her back
"That's all what you can do. I'll win the finals and you all will be just clapping in the background" Rubina was totally overconfident and she was testing my patience now.
"Rubina I swear that defeat will be rubbed on your face" I said
"& who will do that? You? You got eliminated in the 2nd week itself. Remember? Or will your star boyfriend's popularity help you gain votes" Rubina was being hell nasty now
"Let's move guys she's not worth talking" I pulled Jeevika along with me and the rest followed.
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We got out of the luxury cars that were assigned to pick us all up and we got down to face a proper red carpet.
This party was to mark the success of ISS. Mouni had managed after all her attempts to stay on the top of all ratings. ISS was a big hit bigger than Bigg Boss, Khatron Ke Khiladi, Sa Re Ga Ma Pa Lil Champs. Sony Tv officials were super happy because something from their channel was making it big in the TV industry along with KBC.
There was media ready to click pictures of whoever came and we like bhooke bhikari waiting for a langar jumped on the red carpet and began posing for the cameras.
India Forums, SBS, SBB, SBAS, U me aur Tv, Desi Raita and every big name in this industry was after us to get our interviews. I spotted Neha in the crowd and she smiled a genuine one when she saw me.
Before taking my interview she hugged me and whispered a small sorry and thank you.
"I'm sorry for being rude without any reason to you. Its my job to dig out the personal life of people in the limelight. I get paid for it and I have changed after what all has happened. I am blind to emotions. I am sorry & thank you for your efforts in creating peace between me and Bhai but Sona I don't think we'll be back to normal. He chose to not stand by me and now he is regretting it. Karma I guess it is!" Neha cleared her side of the story
"Karma it is Neha but trust me he has had enough of suffering. He needs to look ahead and I know both of us don't want him to be stuck in his past. He needs to look ahead and you too. What happened was a bad nightmare. You have moved ahead. Release Dev from the pressure too. Only you can do it." I said with hopeful eyes.
Neha fell silent for a second. She looked down.
"It wasn't a nightmare Sonakshi. It was the roughest patch of my life. Its my reality. I moved because I wanted that scumbag to see that his actions can't stop me. I am pure because I know I wasn't at fault. I had motivation in life. That incident shaped me. All cool between us?" She asked me
"Yes" I replied.
Rape victims or survivors, as they should be better called are sensitive people to deal with. One should be very careful with the words they speak. One wrong word with the right intention can kill the motivation behind it and that is what just happened between me and Neha.
I smiled back, the brightest one I could conjure.
It took us half an hour to make our way inside.
"I feel like a celeb .... Hfjfdgkbfshjb" Tanvi squealed
When we entered a party popper bursted inches away from Rubina's face.
"Bach gayi" Jeevika cursed
"Ladies and gentlemen put your hands together for the contestants of ISS season 1" Mouni screamed her lungs out
The party was full of hoots and shouts for us.
Mouni made her place in between us.
"Thank you audience for making ISS, my pet project, such a big success. When I look back I realise we have come a long way and I just can't thank you enough. Thank you is a small word in the comparison of all that I feel. I am humbled, honoured, over whelmed what else can I say. Whatever I will say will be small in front of what I actually feel.
And without these awesome contestants how could this journey been half as interesting as it was. Thank you for coming to the show
And also a big thanks to Nachiket and Karan for being the hosts they are!"
Mouni stopped for a while
"Where is Jatin?" She whispered
Why do you care? I felt like saying but I switched to a polite "He isn't well"
"Oh" Her face fell.
We were welcomed inside and the party was going on in full swing. While the rest of the gang hit the dance floor I sat searching for ...
...
For the starters :p. What did you expect?Dev? Well he has been behaving strange and has been hurting himself mentally. I don't understand what he wants and I want a break from this problem.
I watched my friends dance as I stuffed my mouth with chinese delicacies.
Tanvi and Karan were dancing close enough to be together but not catch the media's eye. Smart bacchas. Jenny was busy talking to a few guests. Mouni and Mohit were dancing as if there is no tomorrow. Their bodies were sticking together. Mouni's one hand held wine while the other was around Mohit's neck and he had wrapped her waist with his arms. It was good to see them together. Mohit Sir is too professional and doesn't talk much on set. Its good he is giving time to his girlfriend in the party here.
I was busy eating.
Bliss.
I don't need anyone.
Food is love.
Food is life.
Ahaaa!! Waah Taj! Kya swaad hai! aahaa! Mmmhh!! Its tasty.
"Save your moans for your boyfriend" Nachiket sat on the seat next to me.
"Shut up" I knew he was kidding. Before the ugly break up Nachiket and I shared a strong friendship. He loved pulling my leg.
"Attention everyone" Dev popped out of the blue and stood in the middle of the dance floor.
"Since Mouni has done a lot of 'kharcha' in arranging this party I thought it would be wonderful if I do a little bit of promotion for myself. That's what they call behti ganga me haath dhona... So taking the permission of Mouni and a few seconds of your lives I would like to welcome a special guest straight from INDONESIA ... Ayu Ting Ting! This girl has helped me a lot in Indo and has been a really good friend. With her I would like to make you guys hear my Indonesian single 'Turis Romantis' ... Wanna hear it?" Dev made a big announcement
Yes!!!
The gathering screamed and I guess I was the only one saying NO!!!
"She's his ex right?" Nachiket said while Dev and Ayu was performing
"I ghonta care" I didn't want to show my insecure, jealous side to him
"Well you should care about this ghanti atleast" He pointed towards DevAyu and the compatibility they shared.
The DJ played Ae Dil Hai Mushkil and Dev continued dancing with that girl.
"Want some help?" Nachiket asked
"Help for what?"
"He's trying to make you jealous! Return him the favour. I can help"
I thought for a while. Jealous? Why? This is strange first when I try to think by putting myself in his shoes he sends me off. When I decide to give him his due space he wants me to get jealous. Pagol manush!
"I have a condition... You will have to help me later" Nachiket made his intentions clear.
"Help you? How?" I was confused
"I'll tell you later"
Nachiket got up and placed his hand in front of me. I was reluctant but one look at Devrat Dixit and Ayu Ting Ting Ting Ting Ting laughing and enjoying themselves burned me from head to toe in anger and jealousy both. So I took hold of Nachiket's arm and got ready to help him in which ever way he wanted. I was done with Dev's behaviour. If Neha can muster a sorry and thank you to me what is his problem?
The dance floor was now filled with couples swaying to the romantic number.
Tu safar mera
Hai tu hi meri manzil
Tere bina guzara
Ae Dil Hai Mushkil
Tu mera khuda
Tu hi duaa mein shaamil
Tere bina guzaara
Ae Dil Hai Mushkil
Mujhe aazmati hai
Teri kami...
Meri har kami ko hai
Tu lazmi
Junoon hai mera banu mai tere kaabil
Tere bina guzara
Ae Dil Hai Mushkil
Ye ruh bhi meri
ye jism bhi mera
Jitna mera nahi
Utna hua tera
Tune diya hai jo
Wo dard hi sahi
Tujhse mila hai
To inaam hai mera
Mera aasman dhundhe teri zameen
Meri har kami ko hai tu lazmi
Zameen pe na sahi
To aasman me aa mil
Tere bina guzara
Ae Dil hai Mushkil
Mana ki teri maujudgi se ye zindagani mehroom hai
Jina ka koi duja tareeqa na mere dil ko maalum hai
Tujhko mai kitni shiddat se chahu
Chahe to rehna tu bekhabar
Mauhtaj manzil ka to nahi hai ek tarfa mera safar
Safar khoobsurat hai manzil se bhi
Meri har kami ko hai tu lazmi
Adhoora ho ke bhi
Hai ishq mera kamil
Tere bina guzara
Ae dil hai mushkil
Dev's POV
Sonakshi kept dancing with Nachiket. I moved out. I didn't want her to get upset. Ayu and I were just being professional. Ok I agree I wanted to make her feel jealous. Thoda sa. Itna chalta hai. Eta cholbe as Baba says.
I... I don't know what I am doing.
I have lost my brain totally. If I try explaining my feelings people will get all the more confused because I am muddled up.
I have cursed myself every second for being the terrible brother I am. I have cursed God for taking away my family from me. I have cursed God for not saving my Neha. Her screams must have reached him atleast right?
Guilt. It is guilt that has become a slow poison for me. Sonakshi was the only ray of hope I had and now that she knows this I fear she'll leave me but no this girl wants to stick around.
Why?
I am not a good person. I have wronged Neha. I have not taken care of her. How will I face my parents up there? I wanted to keep Sona to myself. I wanted to potray myself to her as a perfect man but my destiny loves playing games with me. I can lie to her. I can lie to the world. Carry the pretence of being perfectionist Dev Dixit but inside I know what I am. I want to get engulfed in some sort of darkness. I want to stay away from everyone.
I don't want Sona to be a nurse to me. Tending my deep seated wounds. I am done facing her. I am done seeing how good she is to me.
I deserve punishment. I .. I .. Need to be punished. I don't deserve Sonakshi Bose. I don't deserve a friend like Bunty. I don't deserve to meet my parents in heaven. I don't deserve this stardom, my fans. I feel ruined. I am done. I am broken. How could I do this to Neha? How could I not see her suffering?
** Out of all the human emotions 'guilt' is one which can kill. Guilt is something which eats one up like a termite from inside, slowly each day. It can make one's conscience loose in front of it. It can make the strongest of warriors fall flat on their faces. Dev is going through it and so he is behaving in this weird way in which he is***
Precap- Mega Battles