Hey people,
Here is another chapter! Enjoy!
Well, it's not the happiest of chapters.
It's Shelby's secret diary...
-ALL PICTURES I GET FROM GOOGLE AND INSTAGRAM, IF ANY NEED TAKE DOWN FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE ME!-
Shelby:
My heart was aching. I don't know why. I had only just met Will this week, but it hurt a lot to see him go.
I picked up my diary and started to read.
Dear diary:
There was a lot of things that make me break gently, slowly inside.
My last and only boyfriend left me,
Left this whole world.
Swallowing me into darkness. No one knew, everyone came to me, asking for help.
Of course I helped them, just it hurt me even more when no one asked how I was.
Then my anxiety.
I didn't even know I had it, I still don't know if I do, it's questionable.
I don't even know if it was there in the first place.
Then my fears.
The future, not knowing what's around the corner.
Fire, seeing as my dad was a fireman he always drummed it into us to not have open flames, so it still slightly scares me.
And many others that I can't list.
I get out my depressing thoughts by song writing and singing.
Darkness, by Shelby Grace (or Emisveryrandom xD)
I'm trapped, lost and alone,
I don't know where to call home,
I sit myself down whilst crying in the dark,
I feel like I can wash away all my fears
Wash them out with my tears,
Trying to hide behind the smile,
I wear in public for a mile.
But I'm weak, lost in my own jungle,
Trapped behind an invisible cage,
My door closed for anyone but me.
I find myself. Lost in the darkness.
The darkness of my life.
Bye for now,
Shelby
(Author note: yikes! That might've been one if the darkest things I've ever written, I didn't know that was inside of me, xD) Edit: There's a dark side to me that I didn't know I had, irl I'm the complete opposite.
Shelby( now)
I often look back through my diary.
I managed to keep going everyday, but I needed someone to make me happy again. Then Graser came into my life.
And I started to read more about those days...
---Back to me!---
That's coming in 2 chapters. The next one will be about Wills thoughts.
I did warn you about this chapter being sad, but here's the tissues.
*hands through-the-internet tissues*
Bye!
Em
EDIT: PLEASE READ THE NEXT A/N CHAPTER. ITS VERY IMPORTANT❤
Edit: I do often change parts of this, like I removed a part of the song, because it wouldn't fit in with the rest of the book.