B O N U S C H A P T E R
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Deleted Scene : One
Sitting across from Nia at a restuarant, Ahmad couldn't help but think about Cali. It had been a few days since he last her saw her at Walmart and his mind was still stuck on her eyes and how they were the exact same ones in his dream. His dreams about her now showed images of her face and that alone freaked him out.
Looking up from his menu, he looked at Nia as she talked and talked about shit he did not care for. Mentally rolling his eyes, he started to second guess his decision on giving her a chance.
He thought he felt something for Nia but it was like as the days passed, he saw how annoying she actually was and saw why niggas never wifed her ass, she talked way too much, she was clingy and the jealous type.
Ahmad knows he's an attractive man, and he knows what comes along with being attractive is women but Ahmad didn't believe in cheating, he felt if he fucked with you, he fucked with you only. So when he made the decision to talk to Nia on that level he cut off every female out of respect for her and she was still buggin'.
Whenever they went anywhere she would be extra with affection, hugging all on him, holding his hand and over using the word, "Baby," just to let females know that he was hers, but she was only killing it for herself.
Tapping his hand, he snapped out of the deep thought he was in clearing his throat. "My bad, what's up?"
"You're not listening and I'm trying to have a conversation .. are you okay?"
He nodded, "I'm straight forreal, just got a lot on my mind."
Rubbing her finger tips over his knuckles, she smiled. "Baby if you need to vent, you know I'm here for you."
Cringing from when she said, "Baby," he sighed not feeling this at all. He honestly didn't see how she felt anything between them because the spark and connection just wasn't there.
"I'm good forreal,"
Nodding her head, she flipped her hair then went back to eating on her salad. "So I was thinking about letting you meet my parents, I told them about us and my dad feels since we're getting serious .. you guys should meet first."
Ahmad frowned, "Nia, its only been a month and some days since we started talking on this level and you already tryna introduce me to the parents like we finna get married or some shit. You stay putting the pressure on a nigga, yes we have been fucking each other for over a year but thats it we was only fucking .. we wasn't talking, going on dates nothing, it was just sex. I don't know you and you don't know me that well either. You tryna rush this and make it into something its really not and thats being fake .. Meeting the parents is always like the biggest step in a relationship and me and you aren't even dating yet so that's pointless. So I'm finna dead this conversation before it even starts."
Nia bit her lip nodding understanding his point, but she felt that if he was serious about this then the proper thing to do was meet her parents out of respect. "Why does it matter when you meet them? Eventually we're gonna date so I feel it doesn't matter." She shrugged.
"It doesn't matter to you, but it does to me. You should respect that I don't want to meet your parents and tell them false lies like me saying, I'm really feeling your daughter and I see a bright future between us .. when I don't, well at least not right now. Meeting them now would be so dumb cause I can't sit there and say I know you as a person when really I barely know anything."
Seeing that he wasn't changing his mind, she threw her hands up letting the conversation go. "Fine, whatever Ahmad."
Rolling his eyes, he threw his fork down on his plate. "So you mad? Man get the fuck..soon as I say one thing you don't agree with you start tripping."
Another thing they have done alot since they started talking on that level was argue. She gets mad over the smallest things, and Ahmad being Ahmad never held his tongue and spoke his mind about whatever she was mad about and it would only escalate from there.
As the date went on, Nia continued to talk about work and how happy she was that Ahmad was willing to give them a chance. The date ended on a good note despite her trying to force him to meet her parents. Ahmad still wasn't feeling her but the date wasn't half bad until they were leaving and Ahmad held the door open for a woman and her kids.
"Why you gotta be so damn friendly?" She blurted out soon as he got comfortable in his seat.
"The fuck is you talking bout now?"
She rolled her eyes, "You, that bitch could have held the door for her own damn kids .. I told you I don't do friendly niggas, her arm ain't look broke .. you ain't have to do all that and leave me walking to the car alone."
Ahmad just stared at her, he wondered if she realized the things that just left her mouth made no sense and pretty harsh. "It's called being a fucking gentlemen, the fuck? You right, I didn't have to hold the door but who the fuck am I to let a door shut in a womans face when her kids and her were right there. Just shut tha fuck up, you sound mad dumb right now. I just took yo bitchy ass out and spent a pretty penny on that meal that you didn't even finish, so if anybody has the right to be mad its me. You been pissing me off all day with the stupid shit yo ass be saying, like damn shut the fuck up."
Nia rolled her eyes, "Whatever, next time just don't do it again."
He scoffed already knowing what him and her had was finna be over. He had one mama and she damn sure wasn't it, tryna demand orders and what not. He knew it was a reason why he ain't want to mess with her like this, but he knew after tonight this was it, he was done.
When he pulled up at her crib, she went to get out but stopped when she saw he wasn't making no efforts to get out as well. "You aren't coming in?"
"Nah, I got a early client tomorrow .. so I'ma just go home."
Not liking his tone, she sighed leaning over to give him a kiss then gripped his dick through the pants he wore, but he turned his head causing her lips to press against his cheek instead and moved her hand away. "It's getting late," Was his response after he just rejected her.
Slowly getting out of the car, she shut the door behind her and watched as he pulled off. Letting out a frustrated sigh, she walked up the stairs to her apartment, she wanted to be with Ahmad so bad, but she could feel from the vibes that he gave off that he wasn't feeling the same but she wasn't going to stop trying.
In her eyes, he was hers and hers only.
Deleted Scene : Two
Jumping out of his sleep when he felt the coldness from the ice cubes that were thrown on him, he looked around to see Cali standing there with the pitcher of ice at the side of his bed, "Rise and Shine baby boy .. we are no longer sleeping our days away so get up."
Smacking his teeth, he laid back down. "Man, chill out."
Throwing more ice, he started to get aggravated. He appreciated Cali coming over and talking to him when he needed someone last night. It did lift his spirits but he still wasn't over the death of her and he didn't want to be bothered. "Ahmad get up, or I will throw this whole damn pitcher of ice on you." She snapped.
Sighing, he threw his hands up in surrender. "I'm up damn, you happy?" He asked with hella attitude as he stood up from the bed revealing his nude body.
"Very, take a shower .. throw on some regular clothes and meet me up front and hurry." She demanded sending him a smack on the butt which pissed him off more.
When she walked out of the room, she laughed a little to herself from the reaction he made from the ice being thrown on him.
After thirty minutes or so passed, Ahmad finally emerged from the back dressed in a pair of grey Nike sweats and a black lives matter hoodie that matched with his Retro 11's. "Ready?" She asked standing to her feet.
"Where we going?"
"I'm getting you out of this house, Marcus told me you haven't left this place since she passed and that's not good Ahmad so today we're finna start the healing process, Amira wouldn't want you sulking like this."
Ahmad frowned, "You don't know a damn thing about her so don't tell me how she would feel." He spat.
Cali sighed, if this was anybody else she would have cussed him out but she understood he was coming from a place of hurt. "You told me that Amira was and has always been one of your biggest supporters no matter what. I'm positive she would not have wanted you to stop living your life because of this. We all have lost someone who meant alot to us but that doesn't give us the green light to stop living Ahmad. If anything that is our chance to realize that tomorrow isn't promised and we should live like its our last everyday."
He just stared at her as she stared back not once breaking eye contact, letting out a sigh he nodded knowing she was right. "Alright, I hear you but it still doesn't take the pain away."
Walking out of his door, his eyes squinted from the sunlight and his lungs felt as if they could breath again from the fresh air it was recieving. Locking his door behind him, he followed her down the stairs. "No one said the pain will ever go away, but you can't let what comes with life stop you. Everyone is going to die someday, soom sooner than others but that's just life .. it sucks, and it hurts but there is literally nothing we can do to prevent it." She explained to him as they reached her car.
Hitting the unlock buttons, he got in the passenger seat putting his seat belt on as she did the same. The drive was quiet as the radio played lowly, Ahmad just looked out the window the whole time playing with his hands. He saw they were nearing Downtown Houston as he looked at all the skyscrappers he used to enjoy looking at as a kid.
Eventually he had dozed off from the lack of sleep he has been getting, last night was the first night he actually stayed asleep through the whole night but his body was still drained.
Cali decided to let him sleep so she ran a few errands for herself that she needed to get done before pulling up to the park. Tapping his arm, he jumped out of sleep scaring her a bit hating he woke up this way every time. He would jump out of his sleep like he was scared and that alone worried her. "We're here," She mumbled softly.
Looking through the wind shield to see where they were, he took off his seat belt then got out of the car. "The park?" He asked wondering why she took him here out of all places in Houston.
"Yes, this is a park where I take my son on days when I just need a breath of fresh air to clear my mind. It's peaceful and beautiful .. come on."
Shrugging, he walked alongside of her on the trail grabbing her hand. She looked down at their hands and smiled lightly to herself. "So you must really cut for a nigga .. if you doing all of this?" He asked with a smirk on his face.
She blushed, "Something like that, I care for you .. I'll admit that and I just want to see you do better."
"Why?"
Caught off guard from his question, she looked over at him. "Why what?"
"Why do you care if I do better or not? Most girls don't care for a nigga who ain't they man."
She shrugged, "To be honest, I really don't know .. but its like something in me is like pushing me to help you. Even on the second day we met it was like your body and eyes were screaming out for help and deep down I wanted to be the one to help you."
He stared at her for a second then chuckled thinking back to those dreams. "Help me how? Many people have tried but nothing works."
"I can tell you have trust issues with people and I know that even though Marcus has always been there for you .. You still have that fear that one day he will leave and I want to be that someone like Marcus that shows you all people arent bad .. and that we geniunely care for you and actually want to see you prosper so if you give me a chance to be there for you I can prove it."
Ahmad said nothing as he let her words sink in. Continuing their walk in silence Cali knew she had him thinking and hoped deep down that he let her in cause she could see and tell Ahmad was a good guy, he just ran from love and people out of fear of getting hurt.
Reaching a snowcone stand, Cali smiled dragging him towards it. "What can I get you guys?"
"I want a fuzzy navel sour please," Looking back she tapped Ahmad, "You want anything?"
"I'll take a sour green apple." Pulling his wallet out he paid for their treats then walked off once they got em.
Taking a scoop out of his snowcone, he put it in his mouth then thought of the million dollar question he's been wanting to ask her since they got back in touch. "So why you leave the way you did that night we hooked up after the club?"
Caught off guard by the question, she choked on her ice laughing. "This is gonna sound so messed up but okay so before you and I shared our night I had went two years without sex and I was just at that point where I was feenin' for it and it may sound hoeish but I just needed a quick fix so when my homegirl Anaya told me about going out and how your friend Marcus was bringing friends I was like hm well I guess this will be the guy, but you just so happened to be the person but overall it was just suppose to be a one night stand .. a night just to get away from being a mom and work..no strings attached just a hook up then go back to my normal life."
He nodded, "And that all changed when I texted you huh?"
She blushed, "Apparently but I guess it was meant to be for us to stay in touch." She shrugged eating more of her snowcone.
"Maybe so, only time will tell."
Looking over at him she smiled, "So is that your answer on giving me a chance?"
Stopping dead in his tracks he pulled her into him, reaching his hand to her chin he bent down pecking her lips lightly then went in for a more passionate kiss the second time. She wrapped her free hand around his neck as their lips moved in sync with one another.
Pulling away he pecked her lips one last time, then smirked. "Does that answer you question?"
Not saying anything else she kept her arm aound his neck, as they shared another kiss. Ahmad had to admit he was scared shitless to give Cali a chance but everything about her was just authentic and he really wanted to see if she could be the one he needed to mend his broken heart and trust but he knew only time would show him if she was indeed the woman for him.
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