The devil asked me
how I knew my way around the halls
of hell. I told him I did not need a
map for the darkness I knew so
well.
T.m.t
Later
" Hey, man, could you give me heads up about what happened earlier, I'm really confused and worried about Isa..." I begged I was officially freaking out, I really cared for her in a way I could not explain. Rajiv looked at me with a mixture of pity and sadness " Look Aaron, I'm on your side ... But sometimes you gotta back off, I can't tell anything but she's a survivor with a broken heart, you are going to have to ask her about it..." Rajiv spoke slowly as if those words were too heavy to be rambled.
Isa's pov
Rajiv knew I didn't want to talk about it, so we just pretended nothing had happened. "What is that? I said that a duck?" I splashed Adaline in the bathtub, "Duckie" Adaline said giggling. When I was done bathing her, I took her out the bathtub, laid her on the bed and put some lotion on her. "Who has chubby thighs?" I joked kissing her legs, Adaline laughed trying to stop me "Who has chubby legs?" I asked again "You do, you have chubby strong legs".
Suddenly Adaline held my face in her tiny hands, she stared at me with her gaze suddenly becoming serious, she hugged my face to her tummy just like I did to her to make her fall asleep. She did so as she knew I was in pain, as she knew I was hurting. I rocked Adaline till she fell asleep, right them someone knocked on the door, it was Aaron "Why?...Why are you resisting? Ugh...W-why can't ...ugh... you let me... why won't you give me a chance?" lamented Aaron kneeling in front of me, he was reeking of alcohol. Seeing him so miserable for a moment, an instant made me thought about giving him a chance but then, I remembered... how difficult it was to put my pieces back together last time and decided not to let him in my heart. "Please, ... just" Aaron kept begging holding my leg as if his life depended on my decision.
He was way too drunk to understand whatever I would have said, or so I thought, so I just agreed to whatever he said. I was finally able to drag him to the sofa and cover him with a blanket.
Not trusting him, I brought Addy in my bedroom and locked the door. Don't judge I have trust issues.
The morning after I had a shower and get dressed, while Adaline was asleep. "Isa come out. I made breakfast" knocked Aaron, doing that he woke up Addy who startled, started to cry. "Oh, no, baby. It's okay, don't cry" I rocked her.
Opening the door I hit something " Ouch!" shouted Aaron backing off "Sorry, I didn't mean to...Wait let me grab some ice" I quickly apologized, and ran to the kitchen with a crying Addy on my hip. Between the two of them, I really didn't know who to console first "Here's the ice" I handed a bag of ice to Aaron whose nose was bleeding, " I Know, you were scared, weren't you?" I cooed to Adaline, who suddenly forgot about everything and started to play with my braids.
"I found a spare toothbrush in the bathroom, so I used it. I hope you don't mind, oh an I also made you breakfast" he said leading me to the table full of food. "Just sit and enjoy it, I can hold her if you want.." he was longing for Adaline when I slapped his hands away, " Hands off the baby, before touching her you have to wash your hands" I notified him.
I expected him to give me a strange look instead he straightened himself up and said "Yes, man. I mean ma'am". We then sat at the table first I fed Addy then I ate something, " What's the occasion?" I asked munching a piece of bread, Aaron face got so bright at that question "As first day of our official relationship I wanted to make a good impression..." He admitted, making me spill water everywhere "What??!!"
For the first time in my life I had felt the need to object something but did not, I had just discovered to be itching for a romantic relationship, yet though I was unaware on how to be sure whether or not I wanted to date Aaron, and how would that even affect our relationship.
How do you even date someone? What do you do? I feared that our relationship, evolving from co workers to whatever you wanted to call our relationship, would somehow take away my attention and time from Adaline.
Relationship are hard, from what I had heard harder than medicine, so it came to no surprise to my siblings that I refused to date.
Despite growing up, watching Latina telenovelas in which, everyone has this deep urge, and passion for love, I missed it, and personally couldn't understand how everything was supposed to work.