i'm in love with ashton.
it's fucked up that it took him almost dying, me overcoming my addcition and for him to hate me for me to realize it.
it's fucked up because i ruined my chance with him.
i need to see him.
calum texted saying that i should wait a day or two. so i'll sleep until then. but i guess that ashton's insomnia is now mine because i'm laying here on my bed, staring at the ceiling and i can't do anything but think of him.
i love him.