"Tell me to stop, Celestine."
How can I freaking stop him from sucking my boobs so good that I'm already begging for more? How can I say stop when I've been wanting this? How can I even stop myself?
"N-No..." Another long moan escapes my lips. "Please don't s-stop now..."
"Look at me."
I did and seeing him between my aching breasts as he plays with my perky, sensitive nipples makes me want to cry in too much pleasure.
"Theon..." I bit my lip.
He's eyes grew darker. "I'm not going to ask again. Tell me to stop now."
Ako na mismo ang humila sa kanya ulit para mahalikan siya. Magsasayang pa ako ng panahon kung magpapaliwanag pa ako. I want him now and I'm not going to stop.
His bites my lip before ending our kiss. Pareho kaming hinihingal.
"Be mine."
"A-Already yours."
It doesn't really matter how we ended up like this but I'm not going to deny him anything. Kahit na ano pang tanungin niya ay sasagutin ko agad agad.
Pero wala ng mga tanong na sumunod. Instead, he continued on what he was doing -- on what I've been begging him to do.
Bumaba ang mga labi niya papunta pababa at sa sobrang magalaw ko ay hinawakan na niya ng mabuti ang mga binti ko. I'm trying my best not to moan so loud but I really couldn't stop anymore. Bahala na si Batman kung sino mang nilalang ang makarinig ng mga ungol ko. The way he kisses and licks my whole body made me gripping on the sheets and gasping for air.
Napapikit ako dahil hindi ko na kaya ang sarap ng ginagawa niya.
So, this is sex. Masarap.
When it was my wetness that he started to lick, I finally my very first orgasm.
Theon finally takes of his clothes. Napalunok na naman ako. Seeing his naked body really turns me on more. Nang sinunod na niya ang pantalon niya...
"Fuck..."
He grins and started moving his hand on his shaft. "You made him mad."
Napalunok na naman ako.
Mas malaki pa siya sa mga pictures na nakikita ko. Even men who do porn would envy him!
I'm having this weird urge na gawin ang ginagawa niya. I want to be one touching his mad, huge shaft. But there was warning in his eyes that I shouldn't do anything so reckless.
He simply leans again and kisses my mouth.
Alam kong dini-distract na niya ako. I read this stuff so many times that I know what to anticipate.
He kisses went down to my boobs again and I almost screamed when I felt his hardness against my own wetness. My nails are already scratching his back and my toes are curling when he started rubbing himself on me.
"P-Please..."
"Please what?"
Yumakap na ako sa kanya ng mahigpit. "Please..."
He kisses my temple. "This is going to hurt."
He finally enters me.
Fuck.
Hindi ko alam na maiiyak ako.
Fuck.
Masakit. Sa sobrang sakit ni hindi na ako makasigaw.
Fuck.
Something inside me was ripped so hard. I didn't know losing virginity would hurt this bad. Fucking hell!
"Tell me if you can handle the pain already."
Hearing his huskier voice, knowing his worried and so unsure of himself, makes me feel suddenly so good. He showers me with small kisses.
I don't know how long it took me to adjust to damn size. Pero alam kong kaya ko naman na...
"Theon, y-you can..."
He takes my mouth again for a kiss and moves his hips. It still stings like a bitch but I don't want his gentleness now. I want him to fuck me harder.
I told him everything I want.
He chuckles before moving faster and damn harder than before. Bumaon na yata ang lahat ng kuko ko sa likod niya at napuno ng ungol ko ang buong kwarto.
"Fuck, Lele, you're still fucking tight..."
"Ahhh!"
He continued his pace and I'm so close to breaking, to exploding into pleasure.
He holds on my waist to even guide me better to him. He was hitting the spot I've never knew existed and I've already screamed his name countless of times.
"Celestine..." He whispers then bites my earlobe.
I'm going insane. He makes me so fucking crazy.
"Come for me."
I did. Countless of times that night, too.
× × ×
"I thought you had a meeting this afternoon? Where's Akio?"
Theon was asking about my hot secretary and I told him he left earlier. May aayusin kasi sila ng fiancée niya. I told him my meeting got cancelled, too.
It's been days since things got a little clearer between us. Simula din ng araw na 'yun, iisa lang ang panaginip ko. My dream that would leave me wet in the middle of the night.
Akala ko kasi kapag nag-ayos na kami, may mangyayari na. But I was wrong. Dahil hanggang ngayon, he never even bother to look at me in his usual way. At kapag sinabi kong usual way, 'yung tingin niyang parang ang sexy-sexy ko.
This is really frustrating and his teasing ways are not fun anymore. Ang sarap niya--masarap talaga siya pero mas masarap siyang sabunutan ngayon.
Hindi naman masyadong halatang kulang ako sa sex nito.
"Lele, are you even listening?"
"Huh?" Literal na wala akong narinig sa sinabi niya kaya ngumiti na lang ako.
He was driving so he just kept his gaze on the road. "I asked what you want to eat."
Ikaw. Ikaw ang gusto kong kainin. Pwede bang take out ko na? Now na!
Nag-init ang mukha ko sa sinasabi ng kalandian ko. I cleared my throat. "Kahit ano."
I forced my mind to think about something else. Something wholesome.
When we were back in high school again, we used to buy things for everyone. Naging financer nga pala kami ng buong klase namin noon tuwing may kailangang pagkagastusan. We would even go for a bet. Palakihan ng share kaya nauuwing hindi na kailangang magbayad ng iba naming classmates. He would always win and I still don't know why and how he does it.
Naaalala ko din noong pumunta si Theos sa school namin. Lahat ng babaeng nakakita sa kanya sumaya kasi daw "if you can't have Theon, have Theos instead". Pakana ng magagaling naming classmates 'yun. Kaya sa ibang school din nagpapunta si Theos after that.
Adrianna, Rozaine, Veronah, and Leondelle knew about Theon even before I get to officially introduce him. Hindi ko alam pero pare-pareho lang naman sa mga lalaki namin. Kilala na namin ang mga lalaki namin sa buhay bago pa namin maipakilala.
My wholesome thoughts helped for a little. Okay na ako nang makarating kami sa isang restaurant.
"Are you okay?" Nag-aalalang tanong niya.
Pumasok kami sa VIP area kung saan alam kong reserved na para sa aming dalawa. I assured him na okay naman ako.
Buong akala ko talaga magiging okay na ako ngayon pero maling-mali pala ako.
Theon takes off his coat and necktie. He even unbottoned his shirt's first three buttons. What the...
Huminga ako ng malalim at nag-iwas ng tingin.
Celestine Rafael Morden, get a hold of yourself! Magbehave ka nga!
I told myself na ako na ang aakit sa lalaking 'to pero kahit kailan, hindi ko yata magagawa 'yun. Theon has the upper hand when comes to this teasing business.
I tried my best to set a side my lust for this man. Mabuti na lang at marami siyang kwento sa'kin. I tried my best not to think about sex and any lewd thoughts of him.
Everything is okay until the food came in with our wine.
Dapat matatakam ako sa pagkain namin pero mas nakakatakam ng 'di hamak ang lalaking ngayon ay kumakain sa harap ko. I tried to start eating, too, but I'm just too distracted.
Everything he takes a bite and sips his wine... He's sexy to watch and watching him is very pleasing to the eyes. You'll defintely want to eat him instead. I never thought eating alone could be this sensual.
"Aren't you hungry? Hindi mo pa ginalagaw 'yang pagkain mo."
I'm hungry. Really hungry. But not for food though.
"Nakalahati ko naman. Mabilis lang ako nabusog kasi kumain din kami ni Akio ng miryenda kanina."
That wasn't a lie. Totoo 'yun.
His eyes turned suspicious for a moment but then he smiles. Amusement is written all over his face now.
"Are you okay?"
The question was not from worry anymore. He knows I'm not okay. He already catches the fact that I'm frustrated over him.
Umiling lang ako.
He suddenly got up from his chair and walk towards me. His scent is filling up my nostrils and damn he smells nice.
He leans gives me a chaste kiss on the lips.
I wanted him to kiss me more. I want him.
Pero saglit lang ang halik niya at bigla din niya itong pinutol.
"You're being a tease yourself, Celestine. All you have to do is ask."