*Next Morning*
I check the time '7:30a.m Damn I'm late.
I tried to get out the bed but I fell. I crawled over to my dresser trying to pull myself up after a while I was able to stand I went to the kitchen, living room, and my moms room she's not home.
Fuck it I guess I'm not going.
James P.O.V
"Yall ready for school?"I asked.
"Yea, bruhbruh when will we see Toria again?" Bre asked. "Umm I don't know wassup?" She looked at me and just walked off what the fuck?

"Jaden you ready?" "Yea mane why I gotta wear this ugly shit I'll never get a girl in these clothes" he said. *Smack* "Watch yo mouth and come on."

*School*
"Wassup gang." Wiz said. "Shit none Ma Duece still sick." "Damn Cuh I'll come by there later ight keep your head up." He said.
Jazz P.O.V
"Tot where you at?"
"I'm not coming."
"Why?"
"Ummm I'm sick and so is Vaeh."
"That's bullshit but okay."

The day goes by and rumors are already going around bout Tori.
I really don't understand why they just won't leave her alone.
*This is boring so let's fast forward to Friday*
Go ahead and call me a coward and say I'm not strong
Because I'm not like you
Go ahead and call me crazy cause I live in a maze
Tell me how about you?
I think I live in my head, sometimes I think that I'm dead
I hide behind my youth
No, I been losing my mind and I'm a little behind
Step inside my shoes
Cause I've never been happy with myself
And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
Behind closed doors
Just close the door, let me be by myself
Just me and myself
I'm tired of living, I cry, I hear it's easy to die
I wanna see for myself
And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
But I'm depressed as fuck
Stressed as fuck
Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
I mean, I need extra love
And that ain't even enough
'Said that ain't even enough
And where the fuck is God? (God, god)
Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
But today we gonna see if he's real
And if he is, I guess I'm probably going to hell
Look, I ain't wanna die like this
I ain't picture my life like this
They don't know what it's like like this
Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this
And laugh like you
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like woo
Or would you feel lost without me?
Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me
And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
Truth is, I don't care how they feel about my feelings
I made up my mind, I'm going out like Robin Williams
I guess I'm not the Ordinary People of John Legend
And I've been suicidal since the day I was nine, shit
Okay, the day I was nine
I've been tired of being bullied, couldn't stay out the fire
Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time
And damn it, look at me now, fuck
Fuck, pens runnin' out
Shit, fu—, ugh
Look, just know it's a new day
But if you reading this
Then it's probably too late, blaow!
Toria P.O.V
I finally came to school when I get here everyone's whispering.
I went to open my locker and red paint falls on my head and streamers while my locker is filled with hate notes when I hear "Damn Good prank James😂how you knew shorty was coming to school?" An unknown voice said.
"😂I just knew my nigga."
I ran to the bathroom and shut the stall and cried my eyes out after about 10 minutes I finally went to class still covered in that shit.
I sat down as the class burst in laughter.
I got up from my seat to have my pants ripped off while James held up a super glue bottle.
Jazz just watched I couldn't blaim her for not wanting to ruin her reputation.
I ran out of the school all the way home nobody was here yet so I just laid on the cold bathroom floor contemplating life.
I grabbed my hidden gun from under the sink and put it to my head.
"God why you put me here if you was just going to punish me? I'm tired of living I hate myself. I just wanna fucking die lord.
It's time for me to join you pops I love you Vaeh."
I took the gun off safety and held my hand on the trigger. I starred at the picture of me and munchkin as tears fell from my eyes. I squeezed the trigger with my eyes closed *Pow*

I opened my eyes "What the fuck? Notoria why are you trying to kill yourself?" Jazz screamed.
I looked at the bullet hole in the wall I almost did it.I was almost gone.
"Why? Why? You really ask that my life been shit I've been molested, beating, hated, hungry, broke, homeless, and poor Jazz you have it all but me I don't have shit you should've let me end the pain" I yelled.
"You have me and munchkin. Yeah you ending your pain but you causing others pain stop being so damn selfish." she yelled.
I looked her in her eyes.
"Selfish? Me selfish tell me Jazz which is more selfish killing yourself or forcing somebody to pretend happy when all that wanna do is sleep permanently one minute I think I'm fine next minute I fell like I'm dying." I said.
"It gets better tot."
"They keep saying it gets better but when? It's not changing anything for me no one cares anyways till you're dead. I'll never be beautiful. I wish I was dead I was so close too. I don't even know why I am here any more, I have no purpose. All I wanna do right now is cry and scream and let it all out because it's killing me inside. I hate my life Jazz and everyone thinks I'm happy I really don't see the point in trying, talking, or breathing. Can someone give me a reason to live?" I said tears filling both of our eyes.
"You want one reason? Last week you thought you couldn't survive but you did and the week before then the year before then look at you now You are the best person I've ever met you don't see it but I do you are beautiful and smart don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars it's okay not to be okay I love you Toria and so does Lambchop." She said causing us both to laugh.
"Now get up and let's put some clothes on get munchkin and go out to eat or some" she said.
"You don't think I'm crazy?" I asked
"No actually some times life is to much everybody handle it in different ways I'm just glad I was here in time to stop you." I hugged her so tight.
"I fucking love you." I said "I love you too tator tot lets go."
*At CiCis*
"You ok tot?"
"Yeah can we not talk bout it please jazz"
"Sure bu..."
"Hollup" I said.
Asshole: You gone be able to come today?
Me:Why? You did embarrass me today
Asshole: it's not for me well study is but Bre keeps asking for you
Me:She barley know me come up with another lie
Asshole: listen ion even like you at school why would I like you at my house just come bruh Damn
Me: I'll see
Conversation Over
"Who was that?" Jazz asked.
"James." I rolled my eyes. "Oweee I see you." She said smirking.
"😂None like that he want me to tutor him and his little sister is like attached to me I don't know why though considering I just met her."
"Hmmm well let's take a picture"

'Lunch date with Bestfrann and Niece😍😍😍 @Crownme_Toria'
"Come on so I can take you to your boo house" Jazz said.
"Ho shut up." I said.
"I'm telling you y'all gone get together." she said.
"Suree Bitch keep dreaming."
Me: You at home?
Asshole: Naw my momma there with Bre me and Jaden out I'll be there in 20
Me: What the fuck ight
*10 minutes*
*Knock* *Knock*
"Who is it?" some lady said. I'm guessing his mother.
"Notoria I'm here to tutor James."
"Mommy let her in that's my friend" I heard Bre little voice say causing me to laugh.
"Hey I'm Michelle James mother nice to meet you." she says.
"Notoria nice to meet you too you are so beautiful you sure you're James mom😂?" I said.
"😂😂You too sweet heart and you got meat on them bones baby embrace your curves and stop covering em up you'll regret it in the long run."
I smiled at her comment "Thanks Ms.Jackson " I said.
"Call me Michelle baby you can sit on the couch make your self at *cough* home." she said.
"Are you okay? That was a nasty cough."
"Umm yeah baby it's just cancer don't worry she ain't beat my ass yet I'm a fighter."
"I wish I was as strong as you." I said. We sat on the couch.
"Let me guess baby you and my son don't get alone but that teacher made y'all partners cause she noticed y'all would work great together and you just another insecure pretty girl whose home life is a mess and you even self harm" I just starred at her.
"Hmm and this is your little sister a.k.a your daughter?"
"Yes ma'am it's that obvious?" I asked.
"Nope I can tell a strong beautiful woman from anywhere but believe it or not I was just like you. Lift your sleeve."
I did as told. "What made you do it?" She asked. I looked down and told this lady everything from birth till now. She looked at me but not with sympathy with another look I couldn't recognize then she laughed.
"What?" I asked.
"Baby so you telling me just an hour or so ago you tried to commit suicide now you sitting on my couch telling a stranger your life story baby if that don't show strength I don't know what else do that little girl got the best role model she could ask for." I smiled.
"Thank you Michelle." "It's momma baby."
"Why can't your son be as sweet as you?" I asked. " Welp it ain't my place to tell his buisness but he have seen and felt things at a young age buried his heart can't feel or love none but me, Bre, and Jaden. He was forced to become a man at a young age baby." she said. "That explains alot."
"😂Yep but it's some food in the fridge let me head to bed before he come snapping at me here's my number baby." I hugged her.
She is so wise. I grabbed Munchkin rocking her for her nap but she wouldn't go.
"Babeeee." I heard Jaden yell. "Hey boo" I said. Bre just sat on my lap watching t.v the whole time while laying her head on my chest.
"Bre get off her." James said.
"Naww she okay." I said then Vaeh started screaming at the top of her lungs.
"I'm sorry she has never did this before." I told Jaden.
"Let me see her." He said.
I handed him Vaeh she instantly stopped hollering.
He sat beside me.
"Maybe she don't like you." he said. I threw the pillow at him "Make Me drop my baby if you bad." he said.
"Yo baby?" "Yeah my baby you see she don't like you." I flipped him off and started watching Frozen with Bre. "You a big ass kid bruh." he said.
"So she my friend she can be a kid." Bre said. "High five Bre."
She hit my hand and giggled while James just looked confused. "Anyways what happened to the icecream you promised?" He asked.
"Ian promise you none I promised my baby and boyfrann some."
"So that's what we doing?" he asked.
"Yup" I said and finished watching t.v. I seen a flash from the side of me I looked over it was gone.
My phone vibrated to see a picture of me and Bre with the caption ' tell me why @crownme_Toria supposed to be tutoring me instead watching Disney movies with my sister smh....'
I burst out laughing. "Mad ain't it?" I asked. "Yup The fuck." he said making an ugly ass face.
*20 minutes later*
"Let's go get this ice cream." I said. "Yayyyyy." Bre and Jaden screamed.
"😂😂😂 ight" he said.
James P.O.V
*At IceCream Mania* (madeup)
"What y'all want?" I asked.
"Stawberry" Bre said.
"Chocolate" Jaden said.
...........
"What you want Toria?" I asked.
"My Bad Snickers😂." She said her smile so beautiful.
Some lady came to our booth for our order.
She was just starring at me.
"Welcome to IceCream Mania what can I get you?" She asked. She ain't even decent she look like she hit the club every night got 10 baby daddies and 15 kids I was knocked out of my thoughts by Toria.
"We'll have a strawberry, chocolate, Snickers, and what would you like bae?" said starring at me.
"Uhmm let me get Vanilla." I said watching Toria mug the shit out of the waitor. She cute angry too damn. The waitor walked off with an attitude breaking her back to switch.
"😂😂Jealous much?" I asked Toria.
"Nope I was helping you but if thats your type my nigga help yo self."
She getting so mad let me find out she feeling a nigga now. "😂😂Damn ma chill." She rolled her eyes.
"Can I play games on your phone?" Jaden asked Toria.
"Yeah take turns." she said.
"What's yo story?" I asked. "What you mean J?" "Toria you mysterious ass hell I'll figure you out."
"Nigga like you ain't? Is James even your real name😂?"
Before I could respond the waitor came back still smiling looking stupid. She whispered. "Call me." I looked at Toria then her.
"Females like you kill me dont you see I'm out with my family but you still choose to try and talk to me you make females look bad gone bout yo buisness cuh and Fuck with the next nigga" I said.
She walked away looking dumbfounded.
I looked at Toria laughing her ass off. "Y'all let's go." I said "I gotta take Toria home."
"Jazz was going to come get me."
"Well text her and tell her never mind Wiz probably breaking her back in anyways😂." she laughed.
"Ight Munchkin need to sleep anyway." she said getting up we was in the car with the radio down when she turned it up.
KashDoll 'Everybody was on and she knew the whole damn song.
So I sat and recorded her ass on Snapchat. She song the wife part all the way through no stopping😂
You say you'll never be his wifey
As if you ever had the option
The way dem tittes sag
Milk that gon' bad bitch, I promise he ain't coppin'
Everybody know you boppin
The whole hood know you fair play
That little change that he throw yo way
Hoe, I spend that shit everyday
Let me make some shit clear
I'm fuckin off what you make in a year
You ride in Uber's, I ride in a leer
We not cut from the same clothing, my dear
Talking that shit but bae must I remind you?
I am that bitch, I will pull up and find you
Everything got my name on it
Ring finger got his rang on it
Don't nothing move til' I sign shit
You might as be my side bitch
You probably wanna be quiet Miss
Cause I ain't never been tried, sis
That nigga don't even know you
No contact, no photos
Never seen em in the daylight
Do you know what the nigga really look like?
I mean wow, thought you were winning 'til now?
Sonin' you bitch, you my child
You living foul, you need to polish up bae
Basic shit I don't allow
And that nigga about to get his too
Just as soon as I'm done with you
Cause them other niggas might be for everybody but
I'm who that motherfucker belong to
So get it right bitch, I'm wife bitch
And can't nun of y'all hoes replace me
You proud to be this nigga cumrag?
Hoe you down bad and you crazy
Gon' knuckle up cause I'll fight for mines
Yo' pussy petty, you wasting time
You seasonal, part time
You get fucked up fuckin' with mine you lil' bitch
We arrived at my house to get her stuff "Bre and Jaden gone in the house get ready for bed" I said.
Jaden got out while Bre sat there. "What's wrong Ma?"
"I don't want Toria to go brudah"
"She got to she'll be back tomorrow want to ride with me to drop her off?" She nodded her head yes as Toria made it back to the car.
"Where you stay?" I asked.
"1967 James Rd." "Damn shawty fresh out the ghetto😂." I said.
"😂😂Yeah I guess ion go out like that especially at night." she said. "Smart girl I used to sell around there now I'm making big money now."
"I see." we pulled up at her place shit looked beyond ran down but Ian say none.
She starting out just like the rest of us.
"Bye James I had fun." she said. "Me too but I promised Bre you was coming tomorrow."
"😂Alright I'll come for her cause I'm tired of studying with you." she said.
"😂😂Bye bruh you can't never do a simple reply big head ass." she laughed and grabbed Vaeh.
She gave Bre a kiss on cheek and I waited to make sure she got in the house Damn what that girl doing to me lord?
Toria P.O.V
I made it to the house it was now 9:30.
Damn I was gone that long I went to my room with my baby. I undressed us both and laid down.
"So you just come in when you wanna huh hoe? I seen that lil boy drop you off so you fucking now?" my momma asked.
"No ma'am I promise it won't happen no more." I said
"I know it want stupid bitch." she said then grabbed my hair and pulled me out my bed.
I screamed "Let go."
While Nevaeh started screaming at the top of her lungs. "Momma please." I screamed as she started hitting me.
She finally finished and walked out.
Explict Scence
Moments after her boyfriend came in.
"Hey baby." I tried to not show fear. He climbed on top of me.
I only had on panties and a tank he roughly pulled my panties down and touched my clit.
"You ain't gave my shit away have you?" He asked. I just starred at him.
He pulled his penis out and rubbed my center a moan escaped my lips as tears fell. I hate the way my body reacts I swear to god.
He tried to force himself into me but before he could I grabbed the knife from under my pillow and stabbed him in the back.
OVER
I grabbed my clothes and through them on. He laid there bleeding.
I spit on him and grabbed Vaeh.
I got my duffle bags and stuffed everything I could in em by the time I was done only the bed, dresser, and t.v was left. I grabbed all our stuff and headed out the door.
*Ring* *Ring*
J: hello
N: jazz come get me plz
J: Where are you?
N:down the street from my house please come quick
*10 minutes later*
"You good?" She asked.
"He tried to rape me jazz."
"Who?"
"My Momma boy friend the one who molested me he tried to rape me right after my momma beat me I cant go back jazz."
"Its okay baby you can stay with me we have a guest room for you."
"Thanks so much Jazz."
*Jazz house*
She explained everything to her momma.
I'm blessed to have people like them I put me and Vaeh stuff in the room.
I tried to get some sleep but I couldn't all I could do is think about his body on mines.
*Ring* *Ring*
Me:Hello
Unknown: I just wanted to say thanks for today
Me: No problem James
*Bloop* *Bloop* FaceTime call accepted.
James💕💚: Where you at
Me: Jazz house
James💕💚: Why?
Me: Long story
James💕💚: I got time ma
* i told him everything*
James💕💚:Damn shawty I apologize for being an ass Ian know you had all that going on
Me: Never judge a book by its cover A person next to you can be completely broken and you wouldn't even know a smile can fool anybody and every body always ask what you doing? Instead on how you doing? That's their first mistake .
James💕💚: You really be saying some deep shit ma but I hear ya. Where my baby?
Me:sleep beside me where Bre
James💕💚: probably fucking with Jaden😂Put the camera on her
Me: Ok
James💕💚: She look so much like you she really could be your child but You gone be str8?
Me: Yeah thanks for asking you called at the right time
James💕💚: well I just knew something was wrong
Me:😂Good night J
James💕💚: Good night Ma kiss Munchkin for me😂
Me:😂😂Alright
Call ended
I laid down finally able to sleep and all I could think about was James. Lord give me strength.
James P.O.V
After the phone call all I could think about was Toria.
Damn I think I'm falling for her now.
"Can I sleep with you brudah?" Bre asked. "Come on mommy and Toria said Goodnight princess." I said
"I missed her call?" "Yeah I'm sorry she'll be here tomorrow"
*Next Morning*
It's Saturday so I had no plans.
I went to go freshen up and do my hygiene. Afterwards I went to check on my momma she was still sleeping. The doctors said it's good to keep her on bed rest.
"James?" "Yes ma'am?" "I met Notoria pretty girl but listen son. Don't hurt that girl she's already so fragile but best believe that girl won't be weak forever." my momma said.
"We not even together." I responded.
"See son love works in mysterious ways maybe not yet but wait I'm telling you I seen how that girl make you smile you ain't laughed nor smiled like that since you was a little boy baby keep her close." she said.
"Yes ma'am I love you."
"I love you too baby take care of my kids and my daughter inlaw my time slowly coming baby."
"What I say momma? Stop please. I can't lose you." I said
"Okay baby I'm still fighting everyday but I'm getting tired baby." "I know momma it's okay get some rest.😚" I kissed her cheek and went to go cook breakfast.
Toria P.O.V
I woke up early to get me and Vaeh ready.
I was going apartment hunting I know I'm to young so I got somebody putting it in they name.
I was in the room with Jazz when my phone rung.
*Ring* *Ring*
Me:Who this?
Unknown: August
Me:oh hey how you get my number
August👅💦:Grandma
Me:Aww ok
August👅💦: Toria she really sick she won't be here longer I just wanted to make sure you got a chance to say Goodbye
Me: Ok here I come August
CALL OVER
"I heard grab Vaeh come on." Jazz said.
We was in the car all I could think was what the fuck bruh can't have shit.
*At the hospital*
"Mimaw, How you feeling?" I asked. "Baby listen I'm dying soon we gotta face it but Toria you are beautiful you will be something in life that baby needs you I wont be at your wedding, babyshower, graduation, and a lot more physically but I will be spiritually baby I'm with you through everything me and your daddy expect big things from you and I know what happened was terrible but trust me baby it gets better stay strong and please stop self harming baby for me" she said.
I was now crying hard as fuck. "Yes ma'am I promise." "Pinky promise?" She asked. "Pinky Promise."
"Now I said my goodbyes to you and August it's Vaeh turn" she said.
I handed her munchkin.
"Hey pretty lady you don't know what's going on do you pumpkin? It's ok.
Well baby I love you and as you get older you not even gone remember my name but you know what it's okay cause I'll remember you and I'll be your angel and promise me you won't give Toria a hard time."
She grabbed Vaeh pinky doing pinky promise as Vaeh just smiled.
"I love you MiMaw" I said.
"I love you too and you August and Nevaeh even you Jazz I'll be watching over y'all from a better place byeeee."
As she said that her monitor started beating.
"Nooooooooo please get up its a dream you're just sleeping you're okay I love you Mimaw." I screamed.
"Come on Toria it's time to let her rest ma." August said.
I looked up he was barely holding his own tears in. "I'll contact you bout funeral plans." he said.
"Ok Auggy." I grab Vaeh and left the room with one last look I seen her lifeless body I just wanted to lay in bed all day.
James P.O.V
*Ring* *Ring*
Me: Hello
BabyGirl👪💍: This Jazz someone special to TatorTot just died can you come over here ASAP I miss my bestfrann all she doing is crying she ain't even checked on Vaeh and I think she slipping into depression
Me:Damn ight here I come you don't mind if I bring my sister
BabyGirl👪💍: Naw just get here
...........
"Yall I gotta head out you coming Wiz?" I told the crew.
"Yeah I need some pussy anyway😂" he said. I just shook my head.
"Damn she got you around her finger my nigga aint no bitch ever been able to do that." my nigga Smoke said.
"Cuh calm down with that bitch word and she not everybody else." I said.
"Ight G my bad."
I went by the crib to get Bre. Jaden over his friend's house for the weekend so I headed to Toria and Jazz crib.
*knock* *Knock*
"What you knocking for nigga? I got a key." Wiz said.
We went in and he led me to Toria room I got Vaeh from Jazz. "Toriaaaaaaaa." Bre screamed and jumped on the bed.
Toria P.O.V
When we got back all I did was sleep and cry.
I was just finna go back to sleep when I heard Bre scream my name. "Hey baby" I said and kissed her cheek.
She crawled under the cover with me and put the t.v on Disney Channel.
"Where Jaden?" I asked.
"A sleepover?" he asked. "Oh." I scooted over so he could get in. "How you feeling ma?"
"Honestly I feel drained " I told him.
"You ate?" "Not since this morning." "Well we here now so we finna take yo mind off everything." He said.
I gave him a slight smile as I laid on his chest while he held Vaeh and Bre took over the t.v. "Smile we going on Snapchat." he said.
I laughed and smiled.
"Don't have your side hoes trying to kill me😂." "Ian got no more side hoes I got my eyes on one female." he said.
I blushed. "That female is not you boo so stop blushing."
I hit him in the head.
"😂Bruh chill with all that hitting shit for I give you some act right." I flipped him off.
"I got you later but not in front of the kids mam" "😂Stop playingggggg" I said.
"😂Ight bruh watch t.v."
We all watched Despicable Me till we fell asleep.
I feel like this chapter has been my best one so far. Toria and James are getting closer Bre speaking more when she's around Toria Toria finally left home Ms.Daniels passed and James and Toria starting to look like a couple .Will August pop up any time soon continue reading vote and comment Thanks-Kisses💋💋💋