In the morning I woke up having thoughts about you.
When did I never ?
After you had left me that night, all I could think about was 'why?'.
Because you had left without giving me an answer to that question.
Why end something so beautiful, just out of the blue ?
I cursed myself everyday for not stopping you, for not begging you for forgiveness.
I had done something wrong.
I hadn't been upto your expectations.
Afterall you were one of the most popular guys in school and I was just a nerd.
I wish I could change it, change myself.
These thoughts haunt me in my nightmares, even when I'm not sleeping.
Am I not enough ?
Not pretty enough ?
Not thin enough ?
Not good enough ?
I guess I'm not.
No matter how hard I try.
Because if I was, you'd still be here.
With me.
Now.
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