Alex smiled against his lips and kissed him properly, wrapping his arms around Phil's waist to pull him closer gently
Phil shifted his arms around the back of Alex's neck nervously as he kissed back but a shy wave came over him as he moved his lips from Alex's to his head into the crook of Alex's neck as he laughed lightly
"Why the laugh?'' Alex chuckled and he tangled his fingers in Phil's hair as he gently played with it.
"I'm so nervous." Phil whispered softly, his face burning up as his thoughts were racing
"Why so?" He asked as he played with his hair and rubbed his back gently
"I don't know." Phil said as he looked up again at Alex slowly leaning towards him again, his eyes flickering to Alex's soft lips
"Shh, lemme take care of you." He mumbled and pressed his lips against Phil's again gently.
Phil relaxed again, this time kissing back with more confidence and meaning.
Alex smiled and kissed him more, pinning him against the counter as he held Phil's hips in his hands.
Phil gasped as his hand went to grip the back of Alex's top, kissing back as he wanted and craved more of Alex
Alex groaned softly and let his hands slip into the back on Phil's shirt, running his nails down gently over his spine.
"Oh god." Phil said with a breathy sigh of tingles, moving his lips from Alex's as he tilted his neck towards Alex
"Fuck, baby. " Alex groaned and pulled Phil's head back gently with his hair so he could kiss over his neck gently, nibbling.
Phil felt like he was in heaven, blissfully moaning quietly as Alex softly bit his neck
"Can I leave marks?" Alex mumbled agaisnt phils neck as he kissed over a spot gently.
"Please." Phil whined not thinking about the dangerous consequences and more about keeping Alex at his neck, not having had anyone paying attention to his neck before
Alex grinned and immediately bit down at the same spot, sucking in a deep purple hickey. When he was satisfied with it, he moved onto another spot.
Phil was whining softly, his eyes scrunching shut as he clutched onto Alexa shirt tighter, his back falling backwards slightly on the surface of the the kitchen counter he was pressed against
Finally Alex pulled away when Phil's neck was absolutely covered in hickeys. He grinned and pressed a last kiss over Phil's lips and stepped away.
Phil felt dizzy with affection as he was panting slightly, as he blinked "wow."
"Go sit down on the couch, silly, I'll cook us something. " He smiled.
Phil was beyond becoming sexually attracted to Alex, he wanted him bad but he appreciated that Alex probably didn't want to go with him like that so we headed to the very unfamiliar apartment couch and sat down awkwardly
Alex cooked up some spaghetti and got it out. He sat down next to Phil and wrapped his arm around him, handing him his plate as he out on some TV.
Phil felt a heat rise to his cheeks again at the soft hand around his waist as he thanked Alex for the food, politely tucking into it as he wasn't really hungry, his thoughts were far too deep in thinking of what else Alex could do to him
Alex held him close as he ate and they watched bake off. Alex made silly puns and jokes just so he could see Phil laugh.
Phil laughed lightly as Alex spoke, his eyes doey and he studied Alex's dirty blonde hair and his soft green eyes, this was the first time Phil had felt this strongly about another man and his head was full of swirling situations that could play out between them
When they were done eating, Alex just cuddled Phil tightly and occasionally presses kisses all over his cheeks and hair.
"Alex?" Phil asked lightly, nerves settling in as his face permanently had a pink blush to them
"Yes, baby?" Alex asked as he looked down at phils cute little face and blushy cheeks, kissing his nose.
Phil crinkles his nose and laughed, his heart thumping as he heard Alex call him baby "I-erm-" Phil stumbled on his words in a fluster "this is my first time having feelings like this for a guy and I don't know how to handle them but the way kissed me neck-" phil said breathing in to say the next thing as he turned so Alex and himself were face to face "drove me insane."
"Awe, isn't that adorable?" He chuckled and rubbed their noses together as he kissed his lips again. "I could do it again."
Phil gasped with a slight shudder at the thought neither saying yes or no, his eyes closed as his face was so close to Alex's
Alex smiled and kissed Phil's lips gently again after cuddling Phil against him.
Phil was becoming more needy as his emotions ran higher than ever, he was desperate for Alex's touch, he wanted more than he already had
"What's wrong, love? You're squirming a lot." Alex chuckled and gently cupping his cheek to make him look up.
Phil instinctively looked at Alex, his body was twisted in an awkward way "would it be weird if I sat on you? It's way to awkwardly uncomfortable sitting like this." Phil said nervously, his eyes trailing downwards again
Alex chuckled and nodded as he kissed his cheek before leaning back and patting his lap for Phil to sit on.
Phil didn't know where the sudden confidence came from but he slowly but confidently put on leg over Alex, straddling him with a shy smirk
Alex grinned up at him and cupped his closer by his hips as he reached up and pressed their lips together again.
Phil tried hard to stop himself smiling into the kiss, his arms once again lacing around the back of Alex's head as he kissed back with more need
"So needy." He mumbled against Phil's lips and bit his bottom lip gently before pinging it back and kissing down his neck.
Jolts of electricity where flying around Phils stomach at the feelings "uhuh." Phil agreed tilting his head more as he gasped again at the warming feeling
"Can I take this off?" Alex asked gently and tugged at Phil's shirt and nibbled over his collar bone.
"Yes, please." Phil answered breathlessly moving his hands from around Alex's neck to above his head to make the removal easier
Alex pulled his shirt off and flipped them over so Phil was laying back on the couch as Alex got on top of him. "Fuck, so pretty." He mumbled as he kissed down his chest and sucked in hickeys there too.
Phil let a loud illegible whine his back unconsciously arching slightly, his hands looking for somewhere to hold as he watched Alex move around his chest, but his mind was constantly self conscious about his stomach, scrunching his face up in slight discomfort
Alex kiss down his stomach and to his little happy trail, "So beautiful." He mumbled as he played with Phil's zipper and kissed over his abdomen.
Phil was beginning to gasp at the feeling of Alex being so close to taking his pants off, fuck did he want it but he didn't want to be greedy, he wanted to give Alex something that he could offer but his thoughts where out the window when felt the gentle nibble of Alex's teeth as he was at his happy trail, his body reacting positively as he grabbed the couch material and arched his back a little higher, a deep breath being taken in
"Can I take this off?" Alex asked as he looked up at Phil and played with his zipper, palming Phil's cock through his pants.
Phil was sure that the words coming out of his mouth where going to make much sense so he nodded his head, a moan following shortly after at the groping of his cock, he didn't know how it had gotten this far but Phils mind was too full of lust and need to stop the situation
Alex grinned and unbuttoned his pants. He palmed phils cock through his boxers and mouthed along the outline of his cock, "Gonna make you feel so good, baby."
Phil was feeling overwhelmed with the amount of pleasure running through his veins his hardened dick twitching slightly at the contact of Alex's mouth "Fuck Alex, you already are." Phil moaned with a whine raising his hips slightly to get more friction
Alex grinned and pulled Phil's cock out, jerking him off a little before licking up his shaft and wrapped his lips around the tip as he sucked gently.
"Holy shit-" Phil cried out, one of his hands uncontrollably reaching down to grab Alex's hair, his back arching and his head thrown back as Phils mouth was wide open with desperate pants and moans tumbled out, and his eyes scrunched close 'Damn why had he never tried any of this with a guy before' Phils thought
Alex took more of his cock down his throat as he began bobbing his head and letting his tongue lap over his tip occasionally, licking off precum..
"Hngg - ah!" Phil panted as his toes began curling slightly and his thighs wanted to squeeze themselves shut at Alex worked on his sensitive dick
Alex held Phil's legs open as he kept sucking him off. He deepthroated him and kept going, wanting Phil to cum.
"Alex! Alex stop - i'm gonna I'm!-" phil helplessly cried as arched his back pulling slightly harder on the lock of hair on the back of Alex's head, so close to orgasm already
"S'okay, baby, cum for me." Alex smiled as he sucked on the tip and jerked the rest of his cock off.
A few more stroke of Phils cock and he was cumming hard, his legs writhing as he desperately wanted to close his thighs as his eyes scrunching even tighter shut.
Alex sighed as he felt Phil's cum in his mouth. He swallowed it and sucked Phil's tip for any more before tucking him back into his pants
Phil was blissed out, a layer of sweat over his forehead and chest and his eyes closed as he was panting. He didn't know what to do or how to handle what had just gone on as this hadn't happened for years so he just lay there trying to regain some form of normality
Alex got up and picked Phil up, carrying him to the bedroom. He lay him down and got in bed with him, cuddling him close.
"Alex." Phil said with a quote whisper starting to fall down from his bliss and a warmer feeling in his chest replacing it
"Yes, baby?" Alex asked as he looked down at Phil with a smile and kissed his forehead and check.
"C-can I- wait no- do you want to erm, do anything for you?" Phil said slightly awkwardly as he looked up to Alex again with soft eyes
"You don't have to, baby, you can just rest for now," Alex chuckled and kissed him gently.
Phil was extremely tired but in the back of his mind he felt guilty for what had happened for some reason, so Phil presumed that it would just be that he didn't repay the favour "no, I want to." Phil said with very tired eyes as he tried to kiss back more eagerly but he ached in his legs and back
"Shh, no, baby, rest. You can later if you want." Alex shook his head and spooned Phil as he kissed his cheek. "Sleep, yeah?"
"When will I be able to though." Phil pouted, "I feel really selfish having you do that on me and me not even seeing you shirtless."
"You can see me shirtless any time you want to." Alex chuckled and kissed his little pout away. "For now, though, I want you to sleep."
Phil tiredly gave in as he yawned "okay but I am definitely gonna make you cum like I did because you are stupidly talented at going down." Phil tiredly confessed
Alex just chuckled and held Phil close until they both fell asleep.
Dan on the other hand hated being alive in the hospital. Eveything hurt and he couldn't sleep. He cried hard in pain as a nurse tried to calm him down. He was having a little panic attack. He hated this.
Phil woke up by the movement of another person who was holding onto him, he opened his eyes only to be met by Alex's warm eyes "good morning." Phil smiled blissfully at him
"Morning, angel." Alex chuckled, his voice a bit deeper from sleep. He leaned forward and pressed his lips against Phil's.
Phil crinkled his nose as he pulled away sleepily "ew." Phil laughed but covered his mouth with his hand
Alex pouted at him and kissed his nose and cheeks and then forehead, chuckling, "You can't stop me from giving you kisses!"
"Stop my morning breath is so bad." Phil cringed as he laughed trying to escape Alex's touch but failed when he felt Alex's hand around his waist dragging him back
"Dont care." Alex chuckled and got on top of Phil, kissing all over his cute little face and stealing a couple kisses off his lips.
"Gahh Alex!" Phil laughed as turned his face away trying to avoid breathing in Alex's face but his legs were hooked around the back of Alex's ass
Alex pinned Phils arms over his head and chuckled as he leaned down to kiss him properly.
Phil relaxed into the kiss, feeling secure under Alex's dominant position. "How did you get the energy to do this in the morning?" Phil laughed "I mean pinning me into the most submissive position? I guess I'll just have to try and dominate you if we ever try and have sex." Phil said as his mind completely had no filter
"Are you even a dom?" Alex chuckled as he looked down at him, their foreheads pressed together.
"In all relationships I've always been Dom because I'm the guy of the relationship but like even with Dan I'm the dom-" Phil cut himself off "Dan, shit Dan! We have to go see him!" Phil said in a panic not being able to move without hurting either of them so he waited for Alex to move
"You and Dan were in a relationship?" Alex asked as he pulled away a little, sitting up and pulling him close.
"No no me and Dan weren't in a relationship I mean in our friendship I was the older more dominant one-" Phil said "I really need to go and see Dan no doubt he's probably had a bad night." Phil said as he held Alex, not wanting to leave the comfort yet
"He'll be okay, you can go later." Alex said and held Phil close against him, jealous that even after last night and this morning Phil still was thinking about Dan, of course he would be though he was his best friend but Alex needed to make Phil stay
"He won't be though, Alex I can't leave him on his own he'll be scared shitless in there on his own." Phil sighed sadly as Phil tried to move away from Alex
"Alright, baby, do you want me to take you there?" Alex asked gently as he looked at him.
"Please, can I also borrow a clean t-shirt I can't stand wearing the same one twice." Phil said as he got up off the bed
"Yeah." Alex nodded and pulled out some clothes for Phil to borrow and handed him a new tooth brush. "Bathroom is there." He said.
"Thank you." Phil said gratefully as he headed to the bathroom, he yawned rubbing his eyes when he went over to the sink, looking tiredly at himself in the mirror "holy shit!" Phil cried out if he clutched onto his neck that was littered with hickeys
Alex walked in when he heard Phil exclaim, hugging him from behind, "What's wrong, baby?"
"These hickeys make me look like a cheap whore, I didn't know you did them that deep and that many." Phil whined with a pout
"Couldn't help myself." Alex chuckled and kissed his cheek. "And you're not a cheap whore, baby, now everyone will know you're mine, that's all."
"Really?" Phil smiled as he turned around to face Alex, his eyes brightening up as he looked at Alex
"Really." He grinned and rubbed their noses together affectionately before kissing Phil gently.
Phil kisses back more passionately, "mine." Phils head was telling him as he smiled into the kiss holding Alex closer
Alex hoped he could distract Phil to Phil didn't have to leave to go see Dan. He pinned him agaisnt the bathroom wall and kissed him harder.
Phil gasped as his back pressed to cold wall relaxing into the kiss between them both, but Phil smirked as an idea popped into his head, he quickly turned him around to press Alex into the wall and held him by his pectorals "I've got a favour to repay."
"That's a good boy." He chuckled and cupped Phil's cheek, running his thumb over Phil's bottom lip. "Can't wait to see your pretty lips wrapped around my cock."
"Don't say that, it makes me feel weird." Phil said with an uncomfortable tone
"Why not? Not used to being a sub?" He asked gently and let his dom attitude dissolve a little as he looked at him with warm eyes.
"Just don't call me a good boy I don't wanna sound like a dog." Phil pouted slightly as he started to reach his hand down to Alex's pants
"Alright." He chuckled and looked down at him. "My previous subs liked praise, that's all. But I won't call you that." He let out a soft grunt when he felt Phil's hand in his pants.
"Previous subs hey? What are you some kind of Christian Grey?" Phil said raising an eyebrow going to kiss Alex's neck, still feeling Alex's hardening dick through his jeans
"Shut up, I'm not Christian Grey." Alex rolled his eyes. "I just had previous boyfriends and girlfriends who happened to be subby." Alex slowly shut up at the feeling of Phil palming him
"How many exactly?" Phil said with jealously hanging in his voice as he backed off Alex's bulge
"Five." Alex said. "But, not in contact with any of them." He whined when Phil pulled away.
"Oh-" Phil said as he stepped away, "I'm sorry I really need to see Dan, do you mind if I do this later." Phil replied to him, not feelings in the mood
"Hey, did I say something wrong?" He pouted and looked up at him, his cock poking through his pants.
"No look in sorry I just don't feel in the mood." Phil said as he grabbed the change of clothes, quickly removing the dirty shirt for the night before
Alex bit his lip and nodded. He let Phil take a cab, noticing that Phil was clearly asking for privacy. He waved goodbye and walked back into his apartment, not wanting to see Dan.
Phil felt bad, really bad, but there was something that really made Phil feel funny about the way Alex spoke about his ex's, he shook his head out of those thoughts as walked into reception "Daniel Howell to see please."
Dan was in the middle of getting his stitches replaced when Phil walked into his room. Dan didnt even notice him as he was too busy howling in pain, screaming bloody murder as the nurse tried to hush him.
"Dan calm down it's okay." Phil said quietly as he walked over to Dan and sat down next to him, going to hold his hand
Dan was surprised to see Phil. He panted as he clutched his hand tightly and looked up, tears running down his cheeks. He cried out again as the doctor put some weird antiseptic on the stitches before bandaging, which hurt like a bitch, making Dan whimper loudly in pain.
"Shh it's okay Dan, I'm here it's okay." Phil tried to reassure him as he cried out in pain, Phil was so glad he was here now to help him
The doctor made Dan swallow some pills before leaving. Dan just lay back and cried silently, recovering from the pain, "Should've l-let me die than have me g-go through this shit."
"Dan I care about you way too much to have let you die, I couldn't do that to you the pain that would have caused a lot of people including me would have been far worse."
Dan knew that wasn't true. Why was Phil humouring him? He sighed and finally gazed up to look at Phil, only realising that his neck was absolutely littered with hickeys.
"You're going to be okay, you're going to move back in with me and you're going to get better." Phil said to him softly, his eyes averted downwards holding Dans hand
"You're l-letting me back in?" Dan asked in surprise. Why would Phil do that? Was this all just out of pity?
"You were coming back in anyway it just so happens that this is the situation we're in." Phil said as he let go of Dans hand, looking to meet his eyes, self consciously rubbing his neck
"Are you sure?" Dan asked and bit his lip, looking over Phil's hickeys. Wouldn't Phil want to live with Alex? Now that they were boyfriends or whatever.
"Yes Dan of course you're my best friend, I need you in my life." Phil laughed slightly as he looked into Dans brown eyes that had turned dull over the months
Dan just nodded and swallowed thickly. His lips were chapped and caked in some dried blood because he had thrown up blood all night along with the stupid panic attacks. He looked so broken and beaten down.
"I need you to be strong, for me please." Phil begged, "I can't loose you I need you to fight this."
"What's the point anyway." Dan sighed tiredly. "I'll move in and get healthier and it'll be the same shit all over again."
"Not if you fight Dan." Phil said a little more harsher "I'm going to stop you from doing anything stupid. I'm here for you."
"I'm sorry, i'll do it." Dan whimpered at Phil's tone and looked down, his whole figure tensing up. The way Phil had treated him in the past few months had taken toll on his mental health
"Hey I'm sorry for shouting but I need to you to try a little, please I know it sucks now but I'm trying so so hard to make sure you're okay." Phil said with a slight guilty lie, thinking back to last night with him and Alex
Dan just nodded, not saying anything. He swallowed thickly as he looked at the hickeys again. He couldn't help but blurt out, "So, you and Alex, huh?"
"What do you mean me and Alex- oh" phil said as he watched Dan and realised he was talking about the hickeys "yeah no we aren't a thing at all." Phil said turning red and looked away
"I can tell." Dan snorted. Judging from the blush on his cheeks, Dan was very sure they were a thing. A pang of pain shot through his heart as he couldn't help but think; what does Alex have that I don't?
"I can tell you like him." Dan said as he tried to force the words up his throat. "He's a nice guy." He kept his eyes down.
"He keeps me company and he's sweet, I just feel bad that it's happening now." Phil confessed
"Nah, it's fine, don't let me get in the way." Dan mumbled and looked down. Alex was going to be a much better boyfriend than Dan would ever be. Dan just wanted Phil to be happy. But at the same time, he felt abandoned and unloved.
"Isn't it weird though? Me being in a relationship with a guy? Let alone a guy I've know for a like a day and a half?" Phil said saying his thoughts aloud
"I mean, I'm not judging." Dan shrugged. "I don't know. You do you." He decided that was the safest ander for now. He was just beating himself over the fact that there was no way Phil would ever love him.
"I never thought I'd be attracted to a man but here Alex was dominant and just- so sweet and kind and-" Phil trailed off as he looked at Dans face who looked like he just had his heart shattered "Dan are you okay? Is it uncomfortable me talking about a gay relationship? I could stop seeing him that way if you wanted?"
"What? I'm not homophobic." Dan shook his head. He tried to compose himself. Phil sounded like he really liked Alex and who was Dan to come between them? He said, "I mean, i'm not the straightest either."
"Wait what?" Phil said in shock a little "since when and why didn't you tell me?" Phil asked with a small grin
"Surprise?" Dan blushed and looked down. "I didn't really want to label myself, you know, anything other than 'not straight' so I didn't say anything. And I knew you weren't homophobic so it's not like I had to worry about that."
"Well I'm glad that that's out in the open." Phil smiled as he brushed him thumb slightly over the top of Dans hands "I feel like I might even be able to crack a smile out of you." Phil said with a large grin
"Were you trying?" Dan raised an eyebrow and looked up at Phil. He felt like he was talking to his best friend after years. They were having an actual conversation. Not a shouting match with Phil being annoyed and Dan apologizing way too much.
"Of course I was, I missed your smile, Derek the dimple must be tired of hiding away, now that we've come out it's only fair derek does." Phil made a pun as he laughed lightly
Dan couldn't help but smile. Fuck he's missed this so much, just fooling around and joking with his best friend. He looked down to hide his smile and blush, his dimples finally popping out.