Flashback~
Jaehyun's POV
I was wondering when will all this be over, suffering my ass here out in the rain
I could feel the drip drop water on the bridge of my nose traveling down to my lips, the cold air chilled me to the bone, I couldn't see anything, I was freezing to death in the rain, I hugged myself not caring about my situation, I dont care if I get sick or something, all I know is I hate him so much that he kept everything from me
Three weeks ago..
"Jaehyun!!!Kun!!"
We both stopped talking about something when Taeyong shouted his lungs out to call our names, we both turned around to his figure
"What?" Kun said with a hint of irritation based on his facial expression
"Wait up for me" he catched up to us , and rested both his arms to me and Kun's shoulders
"Its not our fault that those girls rampaged on you" Kun said rolling his eyes like we were used to this, Everytime we would enter the school together, the girls would suddenly be running their way towards us and surrounding us, me and Kun would always escape our way to freedom but Taeyong would stay and do some stupid fan service...schools prince ,insert rolling eye.
We walked going to our locker when i suddenly spotted him passing by.
He looked so pretty with his cute eyes that made him looked like a Bunny.
He was carrying his books pressing it together on his chest when someone suddenly stupidly tripped him over.
He fell down making a sound, everyone around him laughed and picked up his hard written notes together with his hard earned essays and they ripped it apart
I was about to get over there to help him and punch those idiot people
I stepped in the crowd they were kicking his notes on him i wanted to help him but i was such a coward, i dont know what to do, my heart was pounding hard
I was raging seeing him suffer and i really hate myself for not helping him out, i just stood there, not doing a thing.
I hate myself.
When Taeyong suddenly pushed the surrounding students and helped his best friend up ,I was so ashamed of myself for not doing what Taeyong just did,
He scolded the students "you people should be fycking ashamed of yourselves! Doing this to someone who didnt even do anything to you! Im so tired of you guys doing this to Doyoungie! " He screamed at those students , he then grabbed the collar of the guy who tripped Doyoung over and slammed him to the hard metal of the locker the guy groaned in pain "if you do that again, i'll make sure that ill be there to kill you" With that he lets go of his grip
The students suddenly took of running for their lives thinking that they'll be next, gosh whats scary about being slammed on the locker? Not if its Taeyong who did it,
Taeyong was helping Doyoung arrange his books and notebooks
"I wont let them do that to you again" taeyong said to doyoung
"Its okay…thanks.." Doyoung said in a mumble
Taeyong just rolled his eyes
I really hate myself for not helping him out and i hate myself that i cant even talk to him!
I cant look at this, i was so jealous of Taeyong that he get to do this to him, because they're friends and they're even neighbors , whenever Taeyong would hang out with Doyoung, me and Kun would just be in the corner giving way for the lovely friendship, i would always stare at him, whenever he caughts me stare at him i would turn my head to another direction, whenever we passed by each other we would make eyecontact and turn our head to another direction to avoid each other and thats it.
I told Kun that we should head of to the class without Taeyong
"We'll be heading off first" Kun said
"Ill catch up to you later" Taeyong said assuring us
We started walking off to our classsroom, i slightly turned my head
Taeyong was chatting with Doyoung, and they started playing around
I never knew why I liked Doyoung, it just one day that it occured to me when i saw him smiling for the first time when Taeyong was making jokes on him, I loved that smile of his since that day but i never had made it once to him, we weren't close thats why, its a pity that Taeyong was the only one that could make him smile like that, and i coudnt..
"Its a shame we weren't able to help him..we just stood there like cowards.." Kun said breaking me from my thoughts
I didnt reply
Me and Kun liked the same guy , and he never told me the reason why, he just suddenly admitted to Taeyong that he likes his friend, Taeyong being the protective friend he is, told Kun jokingly to back off, but he secretly suports me with Doyoung, because he once told me that i was first, but me and Kun agreed that we'll not hold a grunge on each other since we all know that none of us would even dared to make a move on him
We arrived inside the classroom, and students would start to stare at us, me being used to it just ignored but Kun still wasnt used to it, glared at those students i told him to stop it and he did, we seated side by side, Kun being the one next to the window
Minutes later Taeyong got in and seated at the our back
"You both are such a pity" he blurted out "you could've had helped him, i had to wait for either of you to make the move, but again i did it, as always.."
"You already know that would never happen right?" I say as a matter of fact tone
"Im still hoping though.." He sighed "well whatever, i just concluded that both of you are such cowards"
I just laughed in reply to ease the mood, but Kun just silently stared at the window
After classes ended we head off to our usual hang out, we would play around and enjoyed each others company that's what i loved to do every weekdays, spending time with them, even if i cant hang out yet talk to Doyoung, I still have my friends with me
But not until my parents filed a divorce, because my Mom just realized that dad has been cheating on her with some Chinese woman and its not only that, they had a son which my dad kept from us for fifteen years already, so it meant that we have the same age, I locked myself inside my room, i put my earphones on and listened to the music, i hate hearing them, cursing each other, it makes me sick.
I wasn't able to sleep that night, thinking about my parents, that woman, and the child,
If that thing was never born it wouldnt be this worst, I thought to myself
me and my mom thought it was okay, but the fact that, my dad is still seeing that woman and supporting the child it just made everything worst!
It is said that he or she goes to the same school as i am, fuck this
Its been three days since my mom left the house, she left me with my dad, and to fend for my life inside this horrible mansion of this discusted family
I never got out of my room since mom left, i tried contacting her but she wouldn't answer
I never gave up as i kept on dialing her number, when to my suprise, she picked up
Tears started to invade my sight "eomma!" I said , my voice sounded hoarse
No answer
"Eomma ,please talk to me!" I begged her, i know its her, i just know it is, what did dad do to you? My heart was about to explode
When i suddenly heard crying on the other line
"Eomma! Dont cry! Eomma!" I cant stop these tears from falling on my face, what exactly did he do to you? I was so scared to ask that question because I myself is also afraid of my horrible father
"Eomma is fine, you should worry about yourself Okay?? I love you.." With that the line ended,
I punched my chest, it hurts so much that my mom had to suffer, if only i coyld replace her i cried and cried that night. And i never get to sleep.
When someone suddenly knocked on my door,
I didnt answer i just stayed in my spot.
"Young master Jaehyun sir?" It was one of the house maid
I opened the door slightly
"Sorry to disturb you sir but your father instructed me to tell you that you should get ready and change because your step mother together with his child is moving in here" the maid said
I just slammed my door, i dont fucking care if they move in or not , I wont be going out of here
Hours later the guest already arrived i didnt bother to go out, i might ruin their stupid family bonding
When Taeyong suddenly called and i picked it up "gwenchana?" He asked with a hint of concern on his voice
"No."
"Mian..do you already know?"
"Know what?" I started feeling curious for some reason
He sighed and continued "im so sorry but you need to get out of your room right now"
"What why? are you out of your mind?? I thought i already informed you about my fucked up situation??"
"Just! Arghh, even im worried about both of you!"
I opened the door walking down the stairs
"What? Both of us? what are you-" my voice suddenly faded when i came to see who was the illegitimate son of the jung family ,it was none other than..
"Kun?" I cant believe this, why him? Of all people? "Tell me this isnt a joke?" Why is my life like this? I was so shocked i dropped my phone and Taeyong still on the line
"Im so sorry I never told you" he said ,drips of tears started to river down on his face
"Wait? You knew?! The whole time?!" I screamed my lungs out
"Sit down." Dad said , ordering me
I just stayed silent, glaring at my used to be friend
"I said sit the fuck down!!!!" He shouted at me
"You dont take orders for me anymore, im done" with that i left the house picking up my phone
I drove off using one of the cars inside the garage
I head off to Taeyong's place as i arrived I got off from my car
I saw doyoung carrying a tray of cookies at the front door of Taeyongs house with taeyongs mom
"Thanks again for the cookies mrs lee"
"No problem doyoung ah, tell your auntie to stop being so stressful for one day, i baked these for both of you and tell your mom thanks for the carrot cake ~"
"Okay i will! Thanks again~" with that Doyoung turned and paused when he saw me
We stared at each other for awhile until he continued walking and passed by me, and got inside his house ,just next door
I was thankful that i saw him, seeing him makes me calm my nerves a bit, was that the reason why i liked him? Since the moment he smiled, i couldnt think of any reason Why i suddenly fell for him, since then i started searching for the reason why i liked him, he's not even close with me, he's not even popular, he's even a boy..
Moving on, i walked up to Taeyong's door and rang on their doorbell, Taeyong opened
"Can i stay?"
With that he lets me stay he helped me cope up and told me that Kun told him yesterday, and that he was sorry.
"Kun told me that he knew this since then...im sorry i didnt tell you, because i knew that you would eventually know, and i dont want to hurt you because you were suffering "
"It just made it worst" i said
"Im sorry" he said patting my back
After that his mom baked me cookies like the ones she baked for doyoung's aunt.
they let me stay in their guest room next to Taeyongs room
I could see Doyoungs window on the left ,in front of Taeyong's window.
i dozed off and slept
Its gonna be a long day tomorrow..