THURSDAY 9:15am
LEAH POV
Omg I'm so happy . After today and tomorrow I goes on Tour. Yayyyyy. And the girls are still doing that bet. Ray says I can't do it. Ok I'll show you. He gets nothing he wants for a week. I rolled outa bed did my hygiene and hopped in the shower. when i got out,I put on some red sweats and a black sports bra my hair was just hanging out today. And yes this is what I'm wearing today. Cuz today my lazy day.. I walked down stairs and cut the tv on. Every body was sleep so I decided to just do me till every body wake up . I turned it to the music channel and turned it up loud . I straightened the living room up , cleaned the kitchen and everything else after about 30 minuets I was done . And hungry. So I went to the kitchen grabbed my favorite cereal. Frosted flakes and milk and sugar. I put two pieces of bread in the toaster and grabbed a spoon. Then my song came on dont you by sage tg. I started humming while eating my cereal . Then I felt hands being wrapped around My bare stomach Hmmm. Oh yea the bet not this time .
Me: your not getting me ray
???: Leah dis aint Ray.
Me: oh. Then who are you
???: wont you turn around and see
Me: no cuz you gone kiss me soon as I turn to face you
???: maybe ? But I have a question
Me: yes sir
???: how come you never scared. You weren't scared when Tyga was tryna rape u I know you probably said oh hell naw he ain't raping me
Me: hahah I did say that
???: your not scared now I mean I could be a killer and Slit your throat
Me: well then if u r a killer then go ahead do what u gotta do
???: Leah just turn around
I turned around and saw twist. The fuqq . He started laughing at first then he finally stoped. He looked in my eyes . And frowned .
Me: twist what are you doing
Twist: I miss those beautiful eyes
Me: What?
Twist: and those lips
Me: twist your not making-
Twist: and that body
Me: Twist sto-
Twist:And you. Leah I miss you like hell. I can't get you outta my head. I think about you in everything I do. I dream about you every night . And I'm really sorry . Every time I see you and Ray together I just wanna shoot my self in the head for what I did. And I just feel so damn bad . That Im starting to rethink going on tour.
Me: what twist we go on tour in two days . You can't back down now
Twist: But what's the point of going if I dont have you. That was the whole point of me telling Tez about you
Me: well then why did you do what you did?
Twist: I dont know Leah
I felt the tears building up in the back of my eyes .I can't do this.I hate to think about this. I need to go somewhere to get my mind straight . I sat my bowl of cereal down.
Me: um excuse me.
I whispered lowly. He moved out my way. I ran up stairs grabbed my keys and slid into my inferreds. I put my hair in a high messy bun. I ran down stairs and out the door . I jumped in the car. SOUTH BEACH MIAMI. But then where?
RAY POV
I woke up this morning around eleven something.. I looked to my beside me and no one was beside me. I heard music coming from downstairs. I walked down she wasn't down there either. I walked into the kitchen . Clean no Liyah. Bathroom. Nobody. Out side her car gone so she must bot be here. I walked in the livingroom twist sat there on his phone.
Me: aye man you seen Liyah
Twist: nope she left around 9:45
Me: and she still ain't back
Twist: nah
Me: well, why she leave
Twist: idk to be honest with you
Me: shit! Was you here when she left
Twist: yea I watched her walk out
Me: any idea where she might be
Twist: try the beach she always goes there when she wants to clear her head. And if she not there try the house. But if she not there then try the cliff a few minuets away from the house she went there when she left last summer. It has a pretty water view and she likes pretty scenery
Me: alright thanks man.
I jumped in the car and drove to the cliff instead of waisting all that time. I drove up the path rode and on the cliff. It was a girl sitting on the edge swinging her legs back and fourth . Wrapped in a blanket. I turned off the car but she never looked back. Then as I got closer to her I saw that she had red black and White custom made beats on. I know those beats any where . That's my baby's beats. I walked up behind her and squatted . I tugged on her hair. She didn't budge . I called her name.nothing. I tapped her shoulder she swatted me away like a fly. She must be really thinking. I grabbed one of her beats off her ear and called her again. She turned around quick and I grabbed her arm so she wouldn't fall .
Liyah: oh hey
Me: what you doing out here by yo self
Liyah: just thinking bout life
me: cmon Liyah baby let's go
Liyah: wait don't you think it's pretty out here
Me: it's beautiful baby let's go .
She stood up and wrapped her hands around my neck with the blanket tucked tight. She pressed her lips against mine and I'm telling you that was the most sweetest kiss from her. She smiled and hoped in the car.
Me: babe where is your car.
Liyah: I left it back at the house. I walked up here
Me: why
Liyah: I needed to let somethings go .
Me: lemme guess did you go to the beach den the house and now here
Liyah: yes?
Me: wow twist knows you really well
Liyah: he told u I was here? How did he even kno ?
Me: I have no clue babe.
Liyah: ok so can we go get my car cuz I just really feel like screaming right now.
Me: something wrong ?
Liyah: yes! That's why I left. Twist come in the kitchen this morning pouring his heart out to me. I didn't know what to do then I felt memories and had to go some where to get then out.
We drov back to the house and she got in her car. As soon as she closed the door she burst in tears. I got out my car and walked over to hers. She was crying so hard she didn't even realize that I was sittin in the front seat of her car . I grabbed her and pulled her over into my seat . I wrapped my arms around her and rocked her as she sobbed in my chest. I didnt even know what was wrong . She had stopped crying but was still laying on me. She put her arms around me and laid her head on my shoulder .
Me: babe are you ok
Liyah: no I'm not
Me: baby what's wrong
Liyah: I miss him but I don't wanna miss him
Me: miss who ? Twist?
Liyah:( burst in tears again)
Me: baby I need you to calm down so u can talk to me.
Liyah:( trys to stop) y- your r-right I'm so- sorry.
Me: now miss who
Liyah: t-twist.
Me: oh
Liyah: u kno w-what m-maybe I should h- have stayed sin- single becuase I'm so t-tired of hurting people a-and b-being hurt by people
Me: who are you hurting
Liyah: you Ray I'm hurting you
Me: and how do you figure dat
Liyah: Listen Ray wheter you admit it or not, me tellin you that I miss my ex is hurting you and u know that
Me: well do you wanna be with twist
Liyah: I-I don't know
Me:Do you think we should take a break for a while to help see who u really wanna be with
Liyah: no. Ray I'm not leaving you for twist that's not gonna happen . So stop thinkin that
Me: then what are you gonna do
Liyah: I guess I gotta push through it
Me:well I'm here with you
Liyah:thanks babe
Me: Liyah I love you
Liyah: I love you too
Me: alright well let's go back to the house
LEAH POV
Ray got back in his car and we drove to the house and all I could think of was twist. Ok maybe this is just pre tour anxiety . I hope that's what it is cuz I don't like hurting Ray. Was it a mistake for me to be with him or Tyga in the first place. I should have just stayed single and worked things out with Twist. Cuz now I'm hurting 3 people . Twist. Ray. And I'm hurting myself . As soon as we got to the house I cut the car off and ran inside. Tears were rapidly flowing out of my eyes . I saw everyone in the living room laughing and playin as I ran past them upstairs. I laid across my bed and cried.
DOWN STAIRS/ LEAH POV STILL.
Ray:(walks in shaking his head)
Baby: what's wrong with Leah
Prince: did y'all break up
Twist: Leah !!( starts to run upstairs.
Ray: come back down here boy. We not broken up . Well not yet anyways
Diggy: what u mean by dat
Ray: she confused
Diggy: how
Ray: she still inlove with Twist but she falling for me
Diggy: I could have told you she was still inlove with twist don't take a rocket scientist to see dat
Ray: diggy don't get slapped
Star: so are like done
Ray: I don't even kno
Star: maybe you should go ask her
Nicki: ORR. Both of y'all go talk to her
Ray: she not gone talk to me with out cryin
Twist: And she wont talk to me at all
Wayne: well somebody need to go talk to her
Roc: I'll go I mean ain't none hone happen cuz ion feel for Leah like that but shell tell me how she feel any day
Prod: yea you go talk to her and tell us what's up
Roc: alright
UPSTAIRS.
I'm sitting in my corner. The bottom part of the wall is painted red and black . In an arch. And there is a red bean bag here. I call it my thinking corner. Under the bean bag is a journal I keep. It's full of poems songs and feelings . When I reached to get there was a knock on my door. Ugh just great I gotta see the people who are making me cry . I was quiet .
???: Leah? Its Roc .
Oh Roc ok . I walked to the door and wiped my face . When I opened the door he smiled and embraced me in a friendly hug. When he let go he shook hid head.
Roc: Aaliyah are you fine ( British accent )
Me: hmph why are you talking like that
Roc: like what do you propose i am talking like
Me: not like you from south central
Roc: haha just tryna make you laugh lil sis( talking regular)
Me: yea so much for that
Roc: what's wrong?
Me: I don't even kno
Roc: well it got to be something I mean your crying
Me: well come sit let's talk
Roc: ( sits on the edge of my bed)
Me: ( does the same) ok so you know how Twist and I are um ..( starts tearing up) um done I guess
Roc: oh cmon don't cry
Me: I'm trying not to but it's so hard to be with Ray when Twist still has my heart and Ray is gaining it.
Roc: so do you wanna be with twist
Me: I don't know Roc I'm just so confused
Roc: well maybe you should take a break from the both of them for a while. Get your mind right and see which one you wanna come back to.
Me: how would I do that.
Roc: go on vacation do what left eye did just don't die at the end
Me: hahaha shut up
Roc: no I'm serious then them niggas would really be fucked
Me: ahaha yea
Roc: but no don't do that cuz then you might loose your mind with out either of them by yourside . Have you talked to twist about how you feel
Me: no but he did
Roc: and how do feel
Me: the exact same way. I just feel like I should have stayed single and worked things out with twist becuz right now im hurting 3 people and im not one to hurt the ppl I love
Roc: who else are you hurting
Me: my self
Roc: I personally think you and Twist should have stayed together no matter what but when I saw you and Ray together I knew somebody's heart was gone be broke in the end . But you need to talk to the both of them . Tell each of them how you feel about the other . And how they respond is what you have to worry about
Me: see that's the thing I can't talk to either of them with out cryin becuase my feelings for them come out ando realize how much I'm hurting them
Roc: well let's try this . TWIST!!
Me : Roc what are you doing?
Roc: you'll thank me later. But right now your gonna talk to him . Both of them
Twist:( walks in the door) what?
Roc: come sit
Me: but Roc-
Roc: nope.. Both oc y'all are gonna talk to each other. And neither one of you is coming out this room till Leah tells you how she feels and yall talk ok Twist
Twist : ok
Roc: Leah?
Me:..........
Roc: Aaliyah?!
Me: whatever
He walked out the room and shut the door. It was quiet for a long time. Twist was looking at the wall and I was staring at the floor I'm gonna hurt Chresanto I swear.
Roc: I don't hear no talking
Me: and your not gonna ( mumbles)
Twist: ( laughs under his breath)
I looked at him and he looked at me. I didn't notice I was staring until he smiled . I quickly turned my head and continued staring at the floor. He gently grabbed my face and turned it to his but I was still looking down
Twist: Leah stop it
Me: stop what
Twist: This .. Stop it... Stop actin like you don't know me
Me: I'm sorry I'm not trying to
Twist: Aaliyah look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me and that your no longer in love with me
Me: I can't
Twist: why
Me:because I do and I am
I finally looked him in the eye . His eyes searched my face. From my eyes to my cheeks to my lips. He started at my lips for a long time . Until he leaned in . He got closer and pressed his lips against mine. I smiled. He pushed me back as he got on top of me and started kissing me with lost passion. I didn't kiss back. I couldn't . He rubbed down the side of my body and found my spot that only he knew of. Of course he the only one that knows all of my spots
Me: ( breaks the kiss) twist stop it we are suppose to be talking
Twist: we did you told me how you felt right
Me: yea I guess but....
Twist: Leah I'm sorry but I need you in my life your my one and only. I just want you back . Bad
Me: twist I'm suppose to be telling you how I feel bout ray
Twist: oh well go ahead
Me: well for starters , I'm still so deeply inlove with you. I don't know why I even got with ray or Tyga in the first place. I should have just worked everything thing out with you. But now I'm falling hard for Ray and I just dont know what to do( sheds a few tears)
Twist: ( wipes them away) Leah it's ok please dont cry. You know I hate that
Me: no it's not ok twist , I'll tell like I told Roc I'm hurting you Ray and myself . And you know I'm not one to hurt people
Twist: well how are you hurting me
Me: becuase you have to watch me love some one else when you still think that I'm yours and will always be yours
Twist: ok now , Ray how are you hurting him
Me: it's just not fair to him that I still love you but I'm with him
Twist: and yourself
Me: I'm an literatly tearing my self apart thinking about you two ...... Twist I love you .. Alot. But its not fair to you or Ray that I want both of you. But you , I miss you so much , there is not a day that goes by that I'm not thinking of you and I am thinking of where would be right now .
Twist: well you need to tell Ray how you feel and we gotta fix us cuz this ain't working
Me: I don't wanna endit with Ray though we have a nice relation ship
Twist: yea yea whatever
Me: boy I'm serous Ray is a really nice guy . He's never hurt me and .... Wow I never realized how much of a good person he is Roc!
Roc: ( burst in the door) have y'all talked
Me: Yes
Roc: good RAY!!
Me: roc what are you . Why are you making me talk
Roc: because you are literature my lil sister and I wouldn't let my sister be hurting like dis so you talking to the both of them and now it Rays turn
Me: well you can't make me talk
Roc: alright twist your out here comes ray
Twist headed for the door . Before he left out he grabbed my face and pecked my lips .
Twist: we'll talk later
Me: hehe ok:)
Roc looked at me weird but I really didn't care. Now I gotta pee shoot. While I was in the bathroom I heard talking then the door close . Great. I got done. washes my hands and braced my self for what to come. When I walked out I didn't see any body. So I walked to my dresser and fixed myself . While I was looking in the mirror I felt his arms around my waist . I half smiled.
Ray: Aaalliiiyaaaah.
Me:.........
Ray: baby what's wrong. If it's my fault I'm sorry. Can we fix it.
Me: no Ray it isn't your fault I know this is break up line but it's really my fault and yeah I'll try my best to fix .
Ray: Talk to me . Don't make me make you talk . Cmon loosen up. Tell me how you really feel
He took my hand and guided me across the room to my bean bag chair. He sat down first and sat me his lap as I lay on his chest. I had covered my eyes with my hair just incase I started crying. He moved each strand of hair with his finger. For some reason the silence that was over the room felt alive. It made me smile.
Ray: there is that millionaire smile I been waiting for
Me: humph
Ray: Leah has any body ever told you exactly how gorges you are
Me: well...
Ray: then I'll tell you right now .. Aaliyah Carter you are the most beautiful , most sexiest , most gorges young lady I have ever been with
Me: no you cant say that beauty is way prettier than
Ray: woah. Aaliyah are you doubting yourself right now
Me: a little
Ray: well stop it. It makes you sound very insecure
Me: Yea I kno
Ray: see this is why you need to talk to me ... I wanna kno how you feel right now
Me: you really wanna kno? Even if it hurts you?
Ray: I'm prepared spill.
Me: I feel in love . Like the most free spirit on earth. But at the same time I feel broken hearted . Like I'm the most horrible person that ever lived .
Ray: and why are you feeling this way
Me: Ray please don't be mad when I tell you this( starts crying in his chest ) Ray I'm sorry , so s-sorry
Ray: i know, you want twist is that it?
Me: see l-look now y-you h-h-hate me. W-why must it be m-me to h-have to choose f-from two h-highly wonder-f-ful men . B-but he is not t-the only one
Ray: huh?
Me: R-ray trust m-me I w-want you j-just as bad as I w-want h-him
Ray:kno what it's all fine be with twist that's who you want more any way
He gets up letting me fall . It took a minute for me to realize what had just happened. But when I did he was already at the door . I sprung up and darted infront the door before he could open it.
Ray: Aaliyah I don't have time , mo-
Me: no. I'm not moving till you listen to me. So either you listen or you don't leave . And you know I'm crazy so try your luck
Ray: no I think I've heard enough now please move
Me: I swear you will leave with me on your back just hear me out
Ray: fine you got five minuets.
Me: that's all I need.... Ray i love you . There is no way you can tell me I don't. I'm not leaving I've told you that . And you are not leaving me like this. We are gonna fix this right
Ray: yeah whatever
Me: you know what look me in my eye and tell me you dont want me any more tell me you have no love for me at all tell me that you hate me
Ray: I don't love you no more ,I want nothing to do with you
Me: haha why can't you look me in my eyes
Ray: because none of that is true . What do I look like telling you that ?
Me: so can we fix this baby . Please?
Ray:( wraps my legs around his waist and holds my back against the door with his hands on my hips) of course babygirl
Me: thank god . Ray I love you
Ray: then show me you do
Me: you mean sex?
Ray: nope just show me you have to figure out how .
He pressed his lips against mine and pulled me closer . I kissed him back with the same amount of passion as he did me. Things got heated and some how his shirt got off. He walked back over to my chair with me on his lap. Never breaking a single kiss
Roc: are y'all - oh I see . Damn I'm sorry twist
He mumbled and shut the door . Ray and I pulled away . He smirked at me as I drifted into his eyes. The rest of this moment was a blur. I just kno I stayed with ray in that same position for like an hour.
Tbc....
Thanks for reading this guys hope you enjoyed.