Paglalambing
Kung sa paraang gusto ko, I won't bother answering his question.
Tignan mo yung lalaking 'to. Gagawin ko pa nga lang nagagalit na. Sabi ko nga, siya puwede ako hindi. Tapos magagalit galit siya kung susubukan ko. It's so unfair.
" Explain to me the word cheating, Boss" I asked him. The word cheating has a lot of meanings, I bet.
" You don't get to ask me that when I asked you first, Chief. And you better say no because I won't think twice on doing something you wouldn't like too" He seriously answered
I rolled an eye on him.
" What if I say yes. Would that bother you that much if I said yes. Oh come on, Raven. You have a lot of women to actually think of aside from me." I told him.
But if looks could kill, malamang patay na ako ngayon
He's shooting daggers on my direction.
Nakita ko ang pag-igting ng panga niya sa sinabi ko sa kanya
" You know you're different, Jordan. You're not just some random woman for me because you are my fucking fiance" He said in his defense.
" I still have the contract with me Raven. We have to stick onto that. Hindi kailan man tayo magiging ganito. We would soon have a separate life of our own. Our families are very adamant on the marriage thing we both know wouldn't happen in a million years so you better stop that childish act and get back onto life" I told him. I am trying my best to sound authorative when I am sometimes with him. Palagi na lang kase siya ang namumuno sa relasyong meron kami.
Hindi na ako nagulat pa ng makita ko galit sa pagmumukha niya.
Galit? What for? Bakit siya galit.
The hell with him. I'm not for him to keep. I have a life of my own.
" I hated myself for allowing you to make that damn contract. And I fucking hate myself now for feeling jealous of you cheating on me" He said.
See? I am about to do the act but here he is, pinapangunahan na ako ng lalaking 'to.
" We are not in a real relationship here, Raven. You are allowed to cheat, as well as I am. So we're equal. Quits na tayo" I said.
" Oh fuck with that bullshit thing, Jordan. We are in a relationship and you know that." He said.
Kung galit siya. Galit na din ako.
" Look here, Raven. Hindi ko pinakikialaman ang paglalandi mo sa mga babae mo. If you go out with them, I don't argue you on that. If you bed them, I don't say anything about it. But when I do the same thing, you act like someone else and I don't get you." I said
Bigla niyang sinuntok yung lamesa bago madilim na tumingin sa akin.
" I have flings but I don't fuck them. I'll fuck eventually when you let me fuck you. And you need to tame your mouth about accusing me of something I don't do" He said
" At ikaw pa talaga ang galit, Raven. And don't ever say foul words infront of me. I hated that attitude. I'm just attending a simple birthday party of a friend. What's wrong with that" I asked him.
He eyed me once more.
" A birthday party to begin with. Flirt with someone, go out with someone after that. Well fuck it Jordan. I'm not that bullshit to let you do that." He muttered
That's how this man in front of me get to loose his control. He seems very flirty most of the time but I really can't deal with his anger issues. Sobra 'to pagnagalit.
" Bakit mo nasasabi iyan Raven. Will it cost you that much to let me meet someone? Will it make you less a man when I see someone? What makes it different from what you're doing?" I asked him. Kung puwede lang pukpukin 'to sa ulo hinawa ko na eh.
" Because I don't just want to have a share of you, Jordan. I want all of you all for myself. Masama na bang angkinin ka ng buo? Masama na bang magselos ng ganito? Masama na bang magalit ng lubos kase nagseselos ako? Kung gusto mo paring lubus lubusin ang galit ko, Do it Jordan. Pero huwag mo 'kong patigilin kung sakali mang makasuntok at makapatay ako dahil lang sa selos" He muttered before leaving me totally dumbfounded infront of the table.
Ganito palagi natatapos ang awayan namin. Aawayin ko siya tapos magagalit siya. Tapos ako din lang ang gagawa ng paraan para magbati kami.
I followed him to the direction he is heading to. Nakita kong papunta siya sa kuwarto niya. I entered his room immediately.
Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago tuluyang umupo sa may gilid ng kama niya.
" Huy eto naman oh, huwag ka na kaseng magalit. Nagalit lang din ako kanina, sorry na po Boss" I said. I saw him sit on the other side of the bed completely aroused with his silence.
" Huy, sorry na" Saad ko sabay lakad papunta sa tabi niya.
Dadaanin ko na naman ang pagtatampo niya sa paglalambing.
I hugged him before resting my head on his chest.
" Sorry na, Boss." I said
I heard him breath in before placing his finger on my chin, tilting me upwards in order to have my eyes leveled with his.
" Kiss me" He said
I didn't think twice and just obliged at what he asked for.
Hinalikan ko siya. We only settled for a kiss. For all those years that we've been together, he never went beyond just a kiss. Hanggang halik lang ang ginawa namin. And I appreciate the fact that he respects me so much.
It was a wet kiss. Kung makahalik siya, parang inaangkinin na niya ang bawat sulok ng labi ko. Ang bawat pagkatao ko. Sobra mang isipin pero iyan ang totoo.
I guess I just need to calm down most of the time when I get to deal with this kind of Raven, himself.
Mahirap makipag usap sa kanya kung pati ikaw, galit. Ang simple simple ng pinag-aawayan namin ngunit sobra siya kung magalit. At ayoko ng ganun. Hindi ko gustong nagagalit siya ng ganun.
" This will be the last time you would act this way again, Raven. When you're jealous, don't just break in. It's better if we talk about it calmly. Walang pinatutunguhan ang usapan natin kung palagi kang galit at nagseselos" I muttered to him
" When was the last time I got jealous, Chief" He asked me.
Hindi ko rin marandaan eh. It was long time ago.
" Last year pa ata" I answered.
" I got jealous yesterday, I got jealous the day before yesterday. I get jealous everyday, Chief" He honestly said.
" Blame this for that matter" Turo niya sa puso niya.
" Sobra naman ata iyan, Boss" I told him.
" I never wondered why I get to feel jealous when it comes to you. I don't really get jealous but when it involves you, I may be the sweetest person you know, but I can also be the bastard you don't want me to be " He answered.
I slowly closed my eyes.
" It sucks talking about your jealousy issues, Aldamante. Where did you get that from" I asked him.
He kissed me in my forehead.
" Believe me, you don't want to know it either" He muttered.
I removed my arms from hugging him. Ang lalandi namin. I swear. Ikaw ba naman ang makagawa ng mga ganun ang aga aga.
Dumiretso na ako pabalik sa kusina upang ayusin yung pinagkainan naming naiwan bago ako naghugas ng mga pinagkainan namin.
Magpapaalam na sana ako para umalis ng magsalita siya.
" Sama ako" Saad niya.
Iyan na naman tayo Aldamante eh.
" Sige, go change your clothes." I said. Actually mamaya pa 'yung birthday party na dadaluhan ko ngunit gusto kong magrocery. Halos wala ng stock sa ref ng lalaking 'to palibhasa, tamad magrocery.
I've waited him to change. Ako pa talaga ang naghintay. Ang galing din ano.
" Chief, we'll both use my car" Saad niya. I was already anticipating that though.
" Okay" I simply said. Lumabas na kami pareho ng unit niya bago naglakad papunta sa elevator.
Ba't ba kase nasa top floor pa ang unit ng lalaking 'to. I thought to myself.
We headed straight to the parking lot.
Pumasok agad ako sa kotse niya pagkabukas niya nung sa kanya.
" Where to go, Chief" He aksed
" Sa supermart tayo." I said. Bahagya siyang napatingin sa akin.
" For me" Agarang tanong niya
" Who else, Raven. Kawawa naman ang kusina mo. Walang laman. Nahiya naman ako sa kayamanan mong hindi mo ginagastos" I sarcastically said.
Tumawa lamang siya.
" Kaya nga meron ka eh." He answered.
Lahat na lang ako. Ako na nagluluto, ako pa nagrogrocery para sa kanya. Kung puwede lang ako na din maglaba para sa kanya.
" Ang sabihin mo nag-aabuso ka na" I told him.
He smiled.
" Grabe ka naman, Chief. Hindi naman ah. Masyado mo lang kase akong pinapahalagahan kayo ganon" Saad niya.
" Ewan ko sa 'yo" I said.
" Totoo naman ah." He muttered.
" Isipin mo kung anong gusto mong isipin, Aldamante. Okay" I said. Kainis kase