My eyes meet yours. It breaks my heart so much
Seeing you like this
Dark circles under your eyes
Dry and pale lips
Pale skin
Red eyes that looks like you've cried
You are so skinny that I can swim in your clavicle.
"I'll leave you to so you can talk. And I'll go back if the visiting hours are over" the nurse says and we nod and she leave us alone.
"Do you want to come in?" You asked me. I smiled and enter your room.
Its a small white room with small bathroom that can only fit one person and and a window by the bed that has bars.
She pated the bed and telling me to seat beside her.
I sat there and dont know where t start.
" I recieved your letter for me" I looked at you and you looked down.
You are playing with your fingers again and now I know that its a habit you do when you are nervous.
I hold your hands and you darted your eyes on me.
"It's okay, Hayley. Im here now"
You hugged me.
A hug that makes you break into painful sobs.
I hugged you so tight that Im afraid of loosing you again.
"Promise me, Hayley. That you will never gonna leave me again. Dont do that again."
I break into sobs and imagining that you will leave me again makes me hug you more tight.
You caress my hair that makes me calm.
"I promise, I'll never gonna leave you again."
You push me from the hug and look my red puffy eyes.
"please promise me one thing"
"What is it?"
"Please promise me that you'll stay here beside me no matter what happend"
Your eyes full of hope
Begging me to stay on you side.
But, Hayley you dont need to beg for it cause I will be here whether you like it or not.
"I will never gonna leave you, Hayley. Never. Not now. Not ever"
(This is my fave quote from 13 reasons why)
You smiled and its no longer sad and cold.
It makes you more beautiful, love.
Smile more often.
I dont know if I can live without you.
And I need to tell you this...
"Hayley, I have something to tell you"
"Wha is it?"
"I love you, Hayley. I cant hide it anymore."
You are shocked
You didnt say anything
You just stare at me
"Christian, I love you too."