Blair's P.O.V
"You guys look so beautiful!"
Aunt Claire greeted us when opening the door and I chuckled whilst Janey blushed because my arm is around her waist and I kept caressing her sides.
She loves that but also that Aunt Claire surprised us when I was on my knees talking to our little one slowly growing. I felt like I was on heaven and will continue to be as long as I have Janey and our baby.
"Well don't just stand there, come in! I want to feel my grandchild!" Aunt Claire says and it seems it broke into both Jane's and I's train of thought and we stepped inside. It's going into the winter season, we were in November now.
And it was also thanksgiving and Aunt Claire invited us over, I had a talk with mom before that I would visit them after because they had work to which they couldn't attend.
When we were inside I moaned out loud at the sense and Janey gave me a glare and I shrugged smiling sheepishly to which she giggled and came over kissing me softly on the lips.
"Find a room and we have a child here" Chloe's voice interrupted us and we looked towards her smiling amused face but also downwards to see her daughter Alexandra giggling behind her mother's legs.
We laughed and Janey cooed walking towards Alexandra causing the little girl to come out of hiding and jump into Janey's arms. I then was pretty much stuck in the moment, seeing my girl carry another little human being and looking so flawless and beautiful at it.
She's going to be a great mother.. God I love her. From her beautiful long brunette hair, to her beautiful blue eyes and her soft small pink lips and her beautiful body of any model out there. Oh and her beautiful rosy cheeks when she blushes.
She caught me staring and she blushed when she saw I gave her a smile and kept admiring her. She bit her bottom lip and looked up at me through her eyelashes and I felt myself stop and go to the heaven's of my heart.
"Do you want to go to Aunt Blair now?"
I broke out my trance when I heard Janey ask Alexandra and I instantly became nervous, I love kids but I was always afraid of holding them in case I held them too hard or the wrong way.
But one look towards my girl's eager and trusting eyes, I nodded nervously and stretched my arms out smiling at the little one.
Alexandra let out a cut giggle and stretched her little arms out as well for me and I picked her up under her arms to which went around my neck and held her around the waist but then Janey directed my hands to go under her legs.
I smiled at her and bounced Alex up a bit to which she laughed cutely and babbled some words to which some I can catch but the rest still unrecognizable.
"Do you want to hear a joke Alex?"
I asked in a soft childish voice and she broke away from hiding her face in my neck to look me in the eyes and nod vigorously a smile already on her lips and I chuckled still slightly bouncing her.
"Knock Knock"
I said and she giggled proud of herself that she knows this jokes. "Kn..o..ck Knock who?" She stuttered out and I smiled "Cows go" and a confused expression came over her but I encouraged her and she said "Cows go w..ho..?" I chuckled like a mischievous little git and on the corner of my eyes I saw Janey shook her head and a small smile knowing how silly this joke was.
"No silly. Cows go "Moo" " I said loud when saying Moo and immediately Alex burst into a fit of giggles in my arms and I laughed along with her. I then felt Janey's arms around my waist from my back and felt her softly kiss the back of my ear and whispering..
"It's so attractive seeing you like this.. You're going to be a great mommy.. or daddy" I felt my breath hitch when she squeezed my right butt cheek and my lower regions stirred and I immediately put Alexandra down feeling weird holding her while Janey whispered these things to me.
I turned around ready to share how embarrassed and flushed her words left me just to see her hips swaying away from me. She knew how those words affected me. I blushed just by thinking about it. We were making love one night and after our 3rd round she asked me what words turned me on.
I blushed that night probably the 5th time in our relationship and she giggled urging me on and I always told her "It was nothing", she then did the most amazing thing ever.
She rested her arms above my breasts and on my chest and just studied me.. really studied me. Then she said seductively "Daddy" I couldn't help but close my eyes and groaning, my hands gripping her waist feeling myself already sporting a hard on.
I was embarrassed that night and continuously told her I'm sorry because well I'm a woman and like it when my lover calls me Daddy? It's weird and I'll admit that. But she later on proved me she was the woman for me because she told me, and I remember the exact words.
"I love you and I love everything about you, including this.. Who cares? No one because you're going to be with me forever and I'll love this fact about you.."
*Ring Ring*
My phone vibrated and rung in my jean's jacket pocket and I frowned looking at the caller I.D to see my mother's phone number. What the.. I checked to see that everyone was busy before I walked over to another part of the house, a more quiet part and answered the call.
"Mom are you oka.." I was cut off by her cheery voice, a little too cheery "Blair honey, would you come home, I need to talk to you" I then got more confused because if she wanted to talk to me then she could have come to Aunt Claire's house where she is invited to this thanksgiving dinner. I then made my way towards a window that looked into our house's window.
"Mom can't.."
I was cut off again and huffed out a sigh when her voice turning stern. "Blair Lane Coast, you better be in this house by the next 2 minutes or else.." I gulped, No..not the "or else", I then let out a tiny not like me squeak when I realized she hung up.
Shit. I practically sprinted into the kitchen surprising everyone and went to Janey, quickly pecking her soft lips and then bent down pressing a lips to her stomach which is still fairly flat.
"W..ha Who.. Bla.." Janey stuttered because I was moving too fast to hug everyone in case I didn't see them later and I ran towards the door practically screaming the words "She said Or else" and I knew Janey understood.
I practically leaped over Aunt Claire's flowers and the bush fence over to our yard, jumped our front porch steps two at a time and right when I reached the door knob, it was pulled over and I was suddenly scared I would break my nose because I was falling face forward onto our tiles! Thankfully though my mother being a bit of a busty woman stopped me.
"Godsnamm (Goodness sake) " My mother grumbled in dutch and straightened me out, she then spoke in English when I was all straighten out and calmed down after rushing here.
"Honey..we need to talk.. I've been thinking, well your father and I, and we.. well I now want to talk to you about your baby and Jane" I felt myself sweating, the last thing I wanted was my parents to disagree on our relationship about this and say I'm not ready and it just seems that the gods weren't in my favor because then my mother said "We don't think you're ready".
I huffed out of annoyance and rested my hands on my hips pacing back and forth in the living room while my mom is sitting on the couch.
"Why would you say that mom? I am ready for this, I love Janey and my unborn child" I said importantly and informative but she still had that uneasy look on her face.
"Blair honey, when you were little up until now, you are the most clumsiest girl ever and you do things without thinking about it and say things without thinking about it. What if you say an inappropriate word in front of your child and they pick it up?" I couldn't believe the words my mother was saying, really? Those were her reasons? For fucks sake I wasn't a perfect human being but who is?
"So what are you saying mother? Not raise my child with the love of my life or tell the love of my life to get a abortion? And if that's what you're thinking then you and father have lost your damn mind because you have stooped so low" I said angrily, I didn't think about what I was saying but I needed tot because I was hurting by what my mom was saying. She was happy the other week when we told her and now?
"Blair!"
She said shocked that I spoke like that but I had enough, I could do this. I could look after my unborn child and Janey. I didn't say anything else and left my shocked mother on the couch and couldn't help but think "Thanks for the tips mother" but I wasn't going to use them or even think of them!. I didn't go back to Aunt Claire's house.
I couldn't.
I couldn't enter that house and seeing Janey's concern face and knowing that if I told what my mother told me she would be heartbroken. I didn't want that.
So I turned the other direction from the houses and ran straight down on the footpath, I didn't care that I was in black jeans with my black shirt and light blue jeans jacket. I didn't care about anything but going to this place. Going to see him. So I ran to him without stopping.
I ran until I came face to face with his tomb stone. Hugo. I breathed hard and sat down in front of it and breathed the fresh air around. I swallowed and until I got my breathing under control, I rested my right hand along the cool surface of his tomb stone and spoke.
"I'm sorry I haven't visited in a while.." I said softly.."Been in London and all, getting my degree and..coming back..getting a job I love" I paused and licked my lips, I could feel the emotions swirling inside me like a tidal wave taking place.
"Hey Hug.. The love of my life is pregnant with my child..no, with our child I should say" I said like I couldn't believe it either.."She's so beautiful and so kind Hug.. You would have loved her as a sister in-law" I sighed and then laughed with out humor, knowing the real pain will be appearing now, "Mom talked to me and she said I wasn't ready Hugo.. I..s.. it true?" I said and then let a tear fall because I knew he couldn't respond..
"I just.. I feel like I'm the strongest I've ever been and I could do this, I could conquer anything. I love Janey and our child.. I can do this. It just hurts when ma doesn't understand.. She said I would say something inappropriate in front of my child. Of course I wouldn't.. Well I'll try not to, I mean I'm not perfect!" I said now feeling rage fill me but it is quickly erased with shock when I heard a soft melodious shaky voice say..
"Yes you are, you are perfect.. to me" I stood up and I felt my hands shaky looking at my love and seeing hurt through her eyes and her playing with her fingers, she does that to stop herself from clinging on to me. I sighed and shook my head, biting my lip from saying something or crying.
"No I'm not Janey"
I said saddened, She then walked closer to me and caressed my cheeks and I melted in her touch..I brought my own larger hands and cradled her smaller ones kissing them.
"What did your mother say?"
She asked me with a still shaky voice and I shook my head, I didn't want to tell her. This would hurt and I hate hurting her. "No" I said firmly and softly, I looked into her eyes to now see anger and she bit her lip pulling her hands from mine to which I wanted to hold again.
"Why can't you tell me?"
She says and I knew this would be an argument and I could just imagine Hugo in heaven eating popcorn watching this with interesting amused eyes."Because I know this would hurt you, I don't want to hurt you" she huffed in annoyance with me..
"Do you want me to walk away?"
That sentence made my heart drop and instantly my life with her practically flashed between my eyes before being burned down and instantly warning signs flashed across my body but knowing me I couldn't just let that go.
"How can you say that? Like it's the most easiest thing? you would walk away from me? And the baby?" I said heartbroken and turned my back on her, now tears streaming down. Fuck I hate my sensitive heart when it comes to Jane..
"N..o..Bla..Baby I'm sorry I didn.." I didn't want to hear it, I knew she didn't mean it but it hurt. So when she touched me, I moved away from her. Still keeping my back on her and hearing a hurt gasp. I flinched, I was not going to turn around.
"My mother said I wasn't ready, I was too young to take these responsibilities and I disagreed with her. Said I would be too clumsy with our child and it led to me basically calling her a coward for suggesting an abortion.. It hurts Janey, hearing that from my mother. She acted so happy when we told her though. And this hurts, saying you would leave just like that? We lost each other once and now again?" I said now demanding and I turned around to see my baby with tears in her eyes.
"Who's fault is that?"
She angrily retorted back and I took a step back because that was a major blow. I didn't know why we fought like this but I knew that Janey still didn't forget about me leaving and not talking to her.
As soon as she said it I knew she regretted it because she covered her mouth with her watery eyes now spilling tears going wide. I left, I ran because I couldn't believe she said that but also believed her. I wasn't perfect at all, the exact opposite.
Jane's P.O.V
As soon as I said those words, I wanted to kill myself seeing the pain it caused her. I didn't mean to say those words!.
It just came out with the anger because of what Blair's mother says. I shouldn't have said those hurtful words and now she's gone. She ran. I felt myself kneel down on the grass and cried. I am a horrible person.
I love Blair with all my heart so why am I still bringing this up? I called after her but she didn't turn around. Why am I so stupid!?. She loves me. That's enough, she's given me her heart to me and our unborn child and that's enough.
"I'm sorry baby"
I whispered sadly out loud to Blair hoping she could hear me and I rested my hand protectively over my slightly little bump of a stomach. I looked at Blair's brother's tombstone Hugo, and smiled sadly. When Blair was away, I would visit him every weekend and rested flowers on his grave. I knew Blair would love that.
"I love her Hugo, Your sister. I love her so much that she has become my sanity and I don't think I could live without her. I made a mistake, I know and I will fix it but I just want to say that...she's so smart and she adores you and looks up to you even now.. I wish I could have met you. I wish you could have met your niece or nephew and see Blair's happy face seeing how her children's uncle is playing with them." I paused and rested my palm on his tombstone and nodded.."Until next time" I said and promised it would be when Blair is with me.
I then got in my car and drove back to Aunt Claire's, house. I wasn't going to go see Aunt Claire though. I arrived and parked in Blair's parents driveway and walked up to there front door well more like stomped.
I knocked on the door and not a minute later Blair's mother opened the door and I was just about to yell or just say something when I noticed her blood shot red eyes, as if she's been crying. I straighten my back and had a little concern for her. Of course I did, she's going to be my mother in-law.
"Mrs Coast, I would just like to say I whole heartily disagree with what.." she interrupted me by pulling me into her warm motherly arms and she sighed lie she was tired and given up.
"I just don't want to realize that my Blair is growing up. I don't want her to. I want to be selfish and just have her young and a teenager or my baby with no adult responsibility..now she's going to have a baby and I know soon to be wife and it just..I'm so happy for you guys and I know I said wrong things but.. I will miss my baby girl" she finished and let me out of her embrace and then I understood.
Blair was there last child, they already lost one and it somehow might feel like Blair is going to leave them too. That's not the case, so I spoke to reassure her.
"She will always be your baby girl, hell she's my baby girl even though she's way taller and well you understand but yeah.. She will always be your baby girl. No matter what. I am not taking her from you. She will visit and bring our little baby over to see there Grandma, I reassure you that you will not lose her" I spoke softly and reassuring and after a minute of studying me, she nodded and a smile appeared on her face but then drowned with worry..
"Oh no, Blair.." I stopped her, "I'll handle it.. I might have an inkling of where she might be" I said and she nodded pleading for me to find her. Then I rushed out her face and dialing Blair's phone at the same time but also thinking how easy that went.. this next thing wouldn't be easy though.. Oh Blair I'm sorry.. I sat in my car and waited for her to pick up but then it went to voicemail. I banged my steering wheel, hating myself a bit more.
I spent the next few hours looking and calling Blair at the same time. I was getting worried, and started to panic when I checked everywhere I thought she would be.
She might be at home...your apartment my subconscious says and I swallowed, if this didn't work then I was going to call the police. I arrived at my apartment building and made my way inside saying hello to the receptionist at the desk and made my way into the elevator.
Blair has a key so she would not have been questioned if she came here. I pressed the number my apartment was on and waited, tapping my heels as I did and biting my lip feeling an ounce of hope and just as the elevator doors opened it seemed as God answered my prayers because Blair was seated down on the floor in front of my apartment door and resting her head on it. When I walked out and towards her, she must have heard my heels and she looked up and we locked eyes.
Her green ones towards my blue's. I made a sorry face, hurting because I hurt her. She slowly stood up, still looking into my eyes and walked over. Softly cupped my cheeks in her hands and bent down gracing my lips with her irresistible ones, I gasped at the feeling and she chuckled, might I add sadly.
"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I made you mad.. and you are right it is my fault" As soon as she said that I looked into her eyes and shook my head, now my turn in caressing her face between my hands.
"No..I'm sorry I said those hurtful meaningless words..baby I didn't mean them. And no..it's not your fault and I'm sorry I said it was..It's taking me time but I have forgotten about it and I promise I will never say that to you again" I said softly nearly crying at the emotions within her green eyes, I closed mine and tiptoed and softly kissed her lips, pulled away and kissed them again. She loves that. She closed her eyes when I still peppered her lips with small kisses and she cleared her throat..
"I'm sorry I ran..I should have stood and talked it out.." I shook my head again..
"If you did then you wouldn't be my Blair.." I said truthfully and she laughed...she then looked down to my stomach and knelled on her knees, pressing her lips on my sundress I was wearing to my stomach.. she caressed it also.
"I love you little one.. so much.. I love your mommy too...I can't wait to hold you in my arms" She cooed and I wanted to die and replay this moment over and over again. She stood up, and wrapped her arms around my waist and I sighed with happiness. Everything was okay again and I loved that between us. How did I get so lucky?
We are so crazy in love with each other that we couldn't bare to ever walk away. We then made our way inside my apartment and Blair apologized that she couldn't have thanksgiving with Aunt Claire, Chloe, Alexandra and I.
I said it was alright.. that I understood. She smiled and informed me she was going to make a late night snack and as if our little bean could hear us, we heard my stomach grumble and we both chuckled looking down at my stomach with admiration. While Blair is cooking, I entered our bedroom and smiled loving the scent that now resides in this room.
It's a mixture of my scent and Blair's natural interesting and amazing scent. I walked to the bed but then bumped into something, I looked down and saw Blair's suitcase. I chuckled, picked it up and went to put it somewhere when something fell out of it. It looked like a roll of papers wrapped together in a roll and a bow tied over it.
Confusion fell over me and I picked it up. It was heavy, there was probably about over 100 papers. I knew I shouldn't have done it but something with in me said so. So I pulled the bow to untie it and the pages curled out, my heart leapt in my chest as I read the first few sentences of the first page.
"Dear Janey..." I choked back a cry realizing what this was.. Blair didn't write or email or call me but she wrote me letters, and kept them to give to me while she's here. It's the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me.
"You've found them"
I heard Blair's nervous and I turned around from my position on sitting on the bed and saw her leaned against the door frame, her hands in her pockets that made her tattoo sleeve more noticeable. She smiled sheepishly then walked towards me. I was still speechless.
She softly took the letters from my hand and sat across from me, criss cross legged and looked down, she then looked at me with soft adoration green eyes and held my hand and started reading..with a concentrated face and her tongue sticking out the corner of her beautiful lips. Each letter, each word I heard I could feel myself, my soul being tied to this woman. For the rest of my life.
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