its a ethereal thing to know when your kitten,
finally learns their lesson.
but it's not so pretty when they
do one more distasteful thing.
unfortunately, that's exactly
what jimin did.
he told me to leave him be.
to let him go.
and i only wanted to touch him.
to feel his warm, soft pale skin
against my fingers.
to run my fingers through his hair.
but he disregarded me,
like i meant nothing.
now i thought he knew better.
he shouldn't be scared of me,
i wouldn't hurt him.
unless the voices tell me to,
unless they make me.
but i'm fine,
completely fine.
"only the best for my kitten"
that's what i tell him.
my precious, beautiful kitten,
only deserves the best.
i thought he would know that i love him.
i mean, i remind him.
every.
single.
day.
but yet he tunes me out.
like i tuned out the screams and cries for help,
when my other, older, kittens would beg.
i tell him.
every.
single.
day.
that he is now my only priority.
i only will focus on him.
but he's stubborn.
stubborn and insignificant to me.
yet,
i can't get rid of him.
i promised him a good life with me.
with no one to get between us.
"why don't you love me?
it's as if,
you never cared.
i just wish,
you would learn,
how to be good.
i wish,
you would follow my rules,
and accept the barcode,
and stop trying to escape.
i only love you jimin.
but if my kitten,
is going to act bad,
then my kitten,
will face the punishments."
now, he has a ball gag,
he screamed too much at me.
when i wanted to hear was,
'i love you.'
barcode, leash, and now a gag.
oh jimin, what are you going to do next?
are you going to keep trying to leave?
because i won't hesitate,
to hurt you either.
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i really wanted to make this a long chapter but i'm not okay and i needed to update. i'm going to try and calm myself down now. night lovelies~