"The hardest part about walking away from someone is the part where you realize that, no matter how slowly you go, they will never run after you."
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Chapter 11: I hope I'm wrong.
"I'm really sorry, Sean." Paumanhin ko sa panggugulong ginawa ni Godwin kanina.
God, what did I do?
"No, it's okay." Sabi pabalik ni Sean sakin habang umiinom ng alak.
Ngumiwi ako, "No. I made a scene. I'm really sorry." Ulit na pagpaumnahin ko.
"Ba't kasi ininvite mo yung Godwin at Jeremy na 'yon, eh alam mong basagulero yun eh. Tsk. " Murmur ni Swan sa tabi ko.
"Hayst! Hindi ko naman batid ang future ah? Ba't ka nagagalit sakin?" Inis na sabi ni Sean.
"Tama na nga yan." Pigil ko sakanila. "Uuwi na ako Sean, Swan, I'm sorry talaga. " Sabi ko.
Nakita ko naman na biglang tumayo sa kinauupuan si Railey at bumaling sakin.
"Uh. Ako na maghahatid sayo." Sabay lahad nito sakin ng kamay.
Nginusuan ko siya. "Nah, i'm pretty fine. Mag tataxi or tatawagan ko nalang ang isa sa drivers namin." Hindi ko tinganggap ang kamay niyang nakalahad sakin at inabot ko ang bag ko na nakalagay sa sofa ng bar.
Inunahan ako ni Railey sa pagkuha ng bag. "Ako na." Aniya at ibinigay sakin ang bag ko.
I made a face, though it's awkward. "Thanks." I said.
He smiled at me. Habang pinagkakantyawan na siya ng mga kaibigan niya.
Hindi ko nalang sila pinansin at hinanap ko ang phone na nakalagay sa purse ko.
Hinanap ko sa purse ko pero wala, hinalugad ko na ang lahat ng bulsa ng bag ko pero wala akong makitang Iphone.
Don't tell me naiwan eh dala-dala ko lang naman yun kanina?
I bite my lips and look at Swan.
"Uh, Swan did you see my phone?" Tanong ko sakanya pero dahil biglang may nag pa music ng napakalakas ay mukhang hindi niya narinig.
"What?" She mouthed.
Umiling ako. "Nevermind." At umirap sa kawalan.
Ibabalik ko na sana yung pouch sa bag ko nang nilapitan ako bigla ni Railey.
May ibinigay siya saakin. "Is... this your phone?" Sabay lahad saakin ng phone ko nga.
Nanlaki ang mata ko. "Yeah. Where did you get this?" Tanong ko sabay taas ng kilay.
"Uhm.. Sa labas. Nahulog mo yata kanina." Aniya. And then he face the crowd. I mean our friends that were shouting each other because of the noise coming from their speakers.
Kumunot ang noo ko. Nadala ko ba yung phone ko kanina palabas, eh wala naman akong maalalang binitbit nung nag sayaw kami ni Railey sa dancefloor ah?
Pero hindi ko nalang iyon pinansin ang saakin ay nandito na yung hinahanap ko.
Shit. Lowbat na pala 'to? Anong... Da hell.
I guess.. Kapalaran ko talagang mag taxi pauwi.
Hinanap ko si Swan dahil bigla nalang siyang nawala sa tabi ko.
Magpapaalam sana ako dahil, uuwi na ako, kaso nang mahanap ko siya ay nandoon siya sa dance floor kasama si Seigfred. Malamang, nagsasayaw.
I tried to find Sean, pero he's with 3 girls. And he's entertaining them. At least makalimutan niya kadali yung nangyaring panggugulo ni Godwin kanina.
As far as I remembered... Wala akong ginawang masama with Railey. I only danced with him and that's it.
Ano bang nakain ni Godwin para magalit siya ng ganun? And hell, I gave my first kiss to him. And in a wrong way too. Now it's a part of my memories tonight that i've made.
So.. I've decided na lumabas nalang. Sa bahay ko nalang siguro i-tetext si Swan na nakauwi na ako.
I glanced at them once. And their truely busy with their things. Hayst.
Pagkalabas ko sa bar, dumiretso kaagad ako sa parking lot. Pero I realized na wala pala akong dalang sasakyan. I awkwardly walk back and tryin' to find a taxi.
But suddenly, nagulat ako ng may pumarada sa harapan ko.
"Hop in. Ihahatid na kita. This time, you can't reject me." He smiled widely.
Kumunot ang noo ko. I do can reject him right now if I want to, but I didn't coz' blessing na siguro 'to sa lahat ng kamalasang nangyari saakin ngayon. Like heck.
Nang makapasok ako sa front seat, katabi niya ay agad kong sinarado ang pintuan ng sasakyan niya.
I sighed. And look at him.
I found him staring blankly at my face. Of course.
"Uh.. Thanks!" I said while smiling awkwardly again..
"No problem. I am always here if you need me." Aniya.
Nagulat ako ng bigla siyang lumapit saakin. As.in malapit talaga. Nanlaki ang dalawa kong mata sa ginawa niya. Omg, is he gonna kiss me? Hell no.
Lumayo ako bigla sa mukha niya dahil ng nakalapit yung mukha niya sa mukha ko ay tinitigan niya ako na para bang may dumi.
I heard him chuckled and put my seatbelts on.
Shocks. Yan kasi eh, napaka advance mong mag-isip! Akala mo hahalikan ka hindi naman. God, I won't let him kiss me. We barely know each other. Tsaka ibibigay ko pa sakanya?
Pero if you are asking why i kissed Godwin earlier.. It's because... I really don't know either.
Tumikhim ako, to break the silence. "I'm sorry for what happen. Hindi ko rin inakalang gagawin niya iyon bigla." I explained.
He start the engine and drive slowly and carefuly.
Tinitignan ko lang siya. I admit... Again. He's freaking attractive. Pero I don't know. He's not my type. Like... I really don't know. I should like him diba? Pero as a brother eh. As a brother lang ang paningin ko sakanya and it is.. Yeah. Skl.
"It is really fine. You don't need to say sorry about it. And besides, it's not your fault." Iling niya habang nagda-drive.
Nagkibit balikat nalang ako at tumango. It is Godwin's fault. Ugh!
Tumingin ako sa labas para naman hindi masyadong awkward sa loob.
Madilim na sa labas. All I can see is the light coming from our car, and of course yung mga ilaw ng mga bahay ng nadadatnan namin.
"I have a question to you and please, answer it truthfully." Giit nito para mabaling ang atensyon ko sa kanya.
Nagtaasan ang dalawang kilay ko sa sinabi niya.
"Sure. What is it?" I asked. Bakit parang kakaiba ang kutob ko dito sa sasabihin niya.. I felt something i can never explain.
"Do you like..." Tumigil ito sandali at huminga ng malalim. "..Godwin?" He then stop the car.
I gave a glance sa labas and I finally realized na, we're here. And of course. Heck, do i need to answer his question?
Do I like him anyway? Do I like Godwin? Of course hindi... And my answer is no.
Tinignan ko siya. He has this face na walang makikitang emosyon. And those eyes of him.. Really reminds me of something. Like, he has this eyes to make feel better. He's eyes were truely dark even with the lights that sorround us.
"No. I don't like him." I finaly said. Kaso iba ang nararamdaman ko. Parang kumirot bigla ang puso ko sa sinabi ko. Shit.
Umiling siya. "Then why did you kissed him if you don't like him at the first place? Zac tells me that you don't just kiss anybody if you do not like or love it. And you know what is the meaning of like that I tell you right? I hope you can tell me the right answer of my question.. Someday, and I really do hope.. I'm wrong."
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A/N: Yey. Another bitin update. Sorry sa matagal akong nakapagupdate i was really busy. Mahirap talagang maging secretary at maging estudyante at the same time.
And Huhuhhu~ ang SNOB NI CRUSH yoko nun eh.. Skl.
Pero kahit snob siya? Ipapadama ko sakanya na crush ko siya. Ayie.
Btw, Thanks for supporting my story. And thank you guys sa walang awang supporta ninyo sa story ko. Hehe~ love youu!!