A/N: Might do another book titled "BBS Crew x reader"
Warning: Anxiety, Voices, Suicide
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Anxiety pulls you away from fun, excitement and yourself.
Anxiety traps you in your comfort zone
Anxiety can cause panic attacks and all that sh*t that can destroy every single cell you have.
It can ruin your life from time to time. Keeping you away from the outside world
And it changes you completely
And worst...
You couldn't control yourself anymore.
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"(Y/N)!" He bangs the door. He kicks it and calls my name several times
"(Y/N)! OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!" He bangs it some more
"Leave me alone, Evan! I can't find myself anymore. I'm lost, I'm not me!" I curled myself into a ball in the corner. Crying. The voices are too strong.
"Then let me help you!" He said in a gentle voice
He used you! He wouldn't do a thing to you. You wouldn't be helped at all. He won't help you.
stop...stop...stop please go away!
No...you did this to yourself. Nothing can ever get me away from your stupid mind
"(Y/N)! Listen! I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with the person I love the most. I want to give you a happy life. Please open this door
Once you open that door, you would never know who you truly are
Staying here will help you
It will protect from the outside sh*t world
"(Y/N)... I know you're lost. But I'm here to find you. I'm here to protect you and save you from all the harm that comes through us. I love you and I won't let anything get in the way of us having our happily ever after" He leans on the door with his gentle voice.
I should go... I know I can give him our happy ending
He's leading you to the trap. It won't work.
Stay here and nothing can harm you...
No! I want to go to him
He's a cheat, bastard and retard.
What do you mean cheat...?
You never believed me, he cheated on you! Haven't you notice the text he gets. You never believed it. I was there to help you but now look, problems. You never trusted me.
I never will
Fine then... ask him if you're that brave
I knock 3x "Evan... d-did y-o-ou ch-heat on m-me" I mumbled my words in fear and worry. Sadness will flow in me
Silence... nothing
"EVAN! Answer me!" I screamed from the other side of the door
"(Y/N).. I-i..."
I told you...
I'm sorry for not trusting you
"I'm sorry,(Y/N). I cheated on another girl because I-i... i..." He felt silent
"How could you! After all this time! The time I wasted with the guy of my dreams. The time I wasted in doing things with you! I wasted 1/4 of my life being with you! And now? Look what we have done. Conflict!" Tears started to shed down, eventually it became rain.
"I don't love her anymore! I want you"
"Evan...it's not true! You tricked me! You lured me to your trap!"
I'm so sorry for not believing in you
I think I know what to do now
Thank you for helping me find myself again
I got the rinser/bidae and smashed it
"Wha--(Y/N)!!! No! Open this door please!"
"Too late...goodbye, Evan... I love you even if you don't love me. I have found myself already. They are trustworthy. Sorry and goodbye... " My last final words
I cut my arm. Blood dripping down. My tears started to reach my arm in pain but I felt happy because I'm finally found myself again.
"(Y/N)No!" Evan broke the door down
But it was too late
"(Y/N)I still love you! And I would save you!"He grabs me bridal style
But that was it
Blackness...
Darkness...
I was too late to be saved
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Me: Holy sh*t! Do you know what I'm thinking?
Brian: What?
Me: I'M MAKING BBS X READER BOOK!!!
Evan: Oh sh*t she's gonna make some more fiction stories of us with unknown people
Tyler: We can't stop her ya known
Me: Hahahaha! This chapter would actually be my first chapter to the book. So yeahhh!!! I'm so excited
David: Of course it had to start with Evan
Me: don't worry Nogla, maybe you might be the next
David: whe wha??? No I didn't--
Me: anyways vote comment and Share thanks for all the support and yeh see you on Mah next chapter!!
E, B, T: Baiiiii!!!
David: Weit! No I didn't sign up for the sh*t!!! Gabbie come back
Me: *Runs with phone*
Me: Oh yeh! Shout out to VanossGamingCrewFan for inspiring me to do the upcoming book so go check her books. She and They are amazing