[A/N: Just a quick thank you to all the fans of this story for making it my first to reach over 1,000 reads. It means alot to me. I meant to post this on the last chapter but I can also now say proudly that Sometimes Love Is A Little Weird is also over 1000 reads so if you read that one as well thank you. The song I think is fitting for the chapter. Maybe or maybe just my mood :/ anyway if the pic shows up it's not mine I found it on google. I hope you enjoy the chapter.]
I woke in a pair of tattooed arms. Normally this would have made me happy but it only saddened me a bit. I knew the tattoos well but they weren't the ones I wanted to see. Sighing I carefully pushed Zacky's arms off of me and crawled out of bed. Zacky stirred but I put my other pillow in his arms where I had been and he wrapped his arms around it settling down. I smiled at the picture he made cuddling my pillow. I felt my smile drop and I wandered over to my computer. I opened it and turned it on. I rubbed my baby bump silently giving love to my babies while I waited for the computer to load. As soon as it did a window popped up.
SD: Good evening love.
ChristSister: Good evening. Guess what?
SD: We're having twins?
ChristSister: how do you always know these things?
SD: Cause I'm up here with the big guy.
ChristSister: So do you know who Matt is crushing on?
SD: Yeah. Don't you?
ChristSister: No! He won't tell me!
SD: lol you're still to cute love.
ChristSister: What's that supposed to mean.
SD: You'll figure it out when you're meant to.
ChristSister: What do you mean when I'm meant to?
SD: When your heart is ready.
ChristSister: My heart? What does my heart have to do with anything?
SD: I'm glad you want to name one of the babies after me. Assuming that one of them is a boy.
ChristSister: So you don't know either?
SD: Oh I know. I'm just not allowed to say.
ChristSister: That's not fair! Tease! :)
SD: I know that's why you love me.
I stared at the screen for a minute. My eyes starting to tear up.
SD: I'm glad Matt went with you today. I was worried how you would deal with the news on your own.
ChristSister: And you don't think Zacky or one of the others could have helped?
SD: Zacky would stand there with his mouth hanging open, Johnny would be devising plans to keep you from lifting a finger, Brian well he might try to sneak a peek under the sheet ;) and MB well....he's just MB lol.
ChristSister: What do you mean?
SD: He's never had to be responsible for a child and well his maturity level? I think he'd be a cross between Zacky and Brian and that's not what you needed.
ChristSister: Matt asked to come to the rest of my appointments on the way home.
SD: And you said yes.
ChristSister: you were watching?
SD: I'm always watching.
ChristSister: Even when i'm in the shower? ;)
SD: Especially then. :)
ChristSister: I miss you Jimmy.
SD: I know love. But you have to let me go.
ChristSister: I can't Jimmy. I love you.
SD: I love you too love and I always will. Just like you will always love me. But you are to young to throw your life away. You have a big enough heart to let someone else in.
I heard the bed behind me move.
"Katie?" Zacky's voice was groggy.
"I'm over here Zacky."
I heard him turn over and the window disappeared.
"I didn't disturb your sleep did I?" He asked looking guilty.
"No I just woke up a little while ago."
"Oh. Who were you talking to?"
"Just a friend," I said moving over to the bed. I sat next to Zacky and let him wrap his arms around me.
"You know that you can tell me if you are talking to Matt. I promise I'm not gonna freak out over it."
"I know Zacky, but it wasn't Matt. It was just ...." I struggled to find the right word.
"A friend?" Zacky asked before kissing my head.
"Yeah," I snuggled into Zacky soaking up the comfort he was giving me.
"Katie," Zacky said pausing.
"Yeah?" It came out kind of muffled because I had buried my in Zacky's chest.
"I want to be there."
"Where?" I asked lifting my head in curiosity.
"In the room with you. When, you know, the babies are being born."
I blushed. "Uh....Zacky...please don't take this personally but I'm not even sure I want Johnny in there with me you know?"
He nodded. "I promise though I wouldn't look. I just want to be there for you and the babies."
"Thanks Zacky, I promise I'll think about it. I really will, I'm just not sure ok?"
"It's fine Katie. I don't want to push you I just wanted to bring it up."
"Ok," I said settling my head against his shoulder.
There was a knock on the door and it opened. Linds bustling in with a tray. I noticed there was only dinner for one on it.
"Seriously I don't know why this is necessary," Johnny grumbled walking in behind her carrying a second tray. He stopped and glared at Zacky when he saw him sitting on my bed holding me.
"It is because I said so. Now put the tray down and get out," Linds said giving him a playful glare.
He opened his mouth.
"Now Johnny. Neither of those directives requires you to say anything."
"Linds..."
"One more word and you are sleeping on the couch for a month!"
His mouth snapped shut and he sat the tray down, turning around abruptly and stomping out of the room like an angered child.
"Don't worry he'll get over it. You two just have a good night." She winked at me and left the room.
"Hungry?" Zacky asked me.
I opened my mouth to say no and my stomach rumbled. I laughed.
"I guess I am though I don't really feel like it."
"Well why don't we try eating it and see how that goes?"
Zacky got up and got the trays bringing them over to the bed. We ate in silence me nibbling away until I realized my food was all gone.
"Want more?"
I shook my head no.
"I'll take the trays down then."
"Wait, I need to take the laundry down too."
"I thought you just got back from MB's?"
"Yeah but he's a bachelor."
"And?"
"Zacky how often do you use a washer?"
"Uh....I just did on Saturday," He blushed as he mumbled.
"Zacky what did you do?"
He ran a nervous hand through his hair.
"I, uh, turned my whites pink."
I laughed.
"Oh, ok, well why don't you take the laundry downstairs and I'll take the trays."
"But..."
"The trays are lighter."
"Still..."
"I'm not completely helpless."
"Ok."
I smiled at his capitulation.
He grinned back. "I know when to give up."
I took the trays and Zacky opened the door before grabbing my laundry bag. I dropped the trays off and moved to the laundry room with Zacky trailing. He sat the bag down and I took everything out.
"Ok first thing you want to learn is that you do the whites separate from everything else or the other colors may bleed onto them or you may bleach out something you don't want to be bleached."
"Yeah," he blushed.
I laughed. "It's ok, Zacky, it's actually a common mistake."
I put the clothes in and added the proper amount of soap and Clorox 2. Making sure I gave Zacky step by step instructions. When I started the cycle I looked at him and he looked absolutely perplexed. I laughed.
"Want me to write the instructions down?"
"Can you draw me pictures?" He grinned.
I laughed. "Sure, and if you ever have any questions just text me ok?"
"Ok," He grinned and put his arm around my shoulder as we walked out of the laundry room. Johnny glowered at us from the sink but kept his mouth shut and slunk out of the room. I sighed.
"I should probably go before I make Johnny angrier. That is unless you want me to stay?"
"No it's alright Zacky."
He kissed my head and then left.
I went to find Johnny and found him sitting on the couch with a beer flipping through channels.
"Johnny we need to talk."
"Are you doing him?"
"What?"
"I just want to know if there is something going on between you and Zacky."
"No, that's not what you asked. For your information, even though it's none of your business, No, I'm not doing Zacky, or Matt or Brian for that matter."
He opened his mouth.
"Or the Berry brothers!" I through my hands up in the air and started to get up.
"Katie please don't go away mad. I'm not trying to be mean to you it's just you're vulnerable and I don't want to see them take advantage of that."
"They aren't Johnny. Honestly the only one other than Val giving me stress at the moment is you. Everyone else has been really supportive and I know that you mean well but it isn't helping."
"Ok, I'm sorry Sis." He got up and hugged me.
We heard the front door open and shut. It was the Berry brothers.
"Hey thought we would stop by and congratulate you on the twins," MB said.
"Yeah though I don't know if the Avenged family can handle another set. Especially a set of Sullivan twins," JB said hugging me.
"Aww Jason I know you're just upset that you will no longer be my favorite set of avenged twins."
He pouted. "Yep you know it."
The front door opened and shut again this time it was Matt.
"Hey," he said removing his aviators.
"Matt you know it's like dark outside right?" Linds said.
He just flashed her a smile.
She shook her head.
"Johnny I was wondering if I could borrow your guest room tonight? Val had a bit to much to drink while we were talking and I didn't feel right kicking her out after that."
"Brian couldn't lend you his?" Johnny said sarcastically.
"Johnny!" Linds and I scolded at the same time.
He sighed.
"As long as you are staying in the guest room and not my baby sister's room I don't care."
He tipped his bottle up and chugged the rest of the beer. He then muttered under his breath and went to the kitchen returning with a bottle of Jack Daniels. He opened it and took a swig from the bottle before flipping through some more channels.
I bit my lip and looked at Linds. She shook her head and motioned me back upstairs. I smiled at her and checked on my laundry putting it in the dryer before going up to my room. I gathered everything up and took a nice, long, hot shower. I wrapped the towel around my hair and headed back to my room. Preoccupied with my thoughts of my discussion with Jimmy earlier and Zacky's request I didn't check my room. I just started to drop my towel.
"Uh you might want to keep that on for a minute," a husky voice said from the bed.
I squeaked in shock and grabbed the towel clutching it to me as I turned around to see Matt lounging on my bed.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you. I just wanted to make sure you were ok after Johnny's little display of temper down there."
"Oh yeah, I'm trying not to worry about it or do anything to provoke him. Poor Linds has her hands full with both of us."
He nodded.
"Well I'll go and let you get ready for bed then," he said standing up. He flashed me a smile. "We wouldn't want Johnny to catch me here and misunderstand."
I groaned.
"That's not even funny Matt."
He grinned at me those amazing dimples really standing out. Whoa, wait what? I shook my head as Matt walked past and shut the door behind him. I quickly changed and climbed into bed but my thoughts wouldn't let me rest.
Should I say yes to Zacky's request? Was I developing feelings for Matt? What about Zacky? For that matter what about Johnny? I didn't know how much longer I could put up with the ridiculous over protectiveness. I mean yes Zacky admitted having feelings for me but it's not like he or Matt had tried to make a move on me. My head spun until I found myself dreaming. It was strange but I knew I had to be dreaming because I could see myself standing at the window of my room and it was daylight. Not bright because the sky was overcast with clouds and it looked like it would rain soon but definitely daylight. I was dressed in a black dress and looked very sad as I stared out of the window. A knock sounded at the door and I found myself hoping and praying that it was Jimmy at the door as my sorrowful voice called out a soft come in. I turned after I heard the door open only to have my hopes dashed. Johnny and Matt stood in the doorway looking very sad and formal as well in black suits with muted dark colors underneath.
"It's time," my brother said and I watched my other self burst into tears. Matt opened his arms and I ran into them. He held me soothing me before I finally calmed down and then he led me down the stairs.
The scene changed and we were outside standing in a park? No a graveyard. I could feel my heart pounding. Not my other me's but mine. My other me was surrounded by the guys and girls. Next to me were Jimmy's parents. I looked around searching for Jimmy but I couldn't find him. I looked back towards the casket slowly. I knew who it had to be but I didn't want to believe it. There was a rain falling now. The dress. I looked back at my black dress realizing it was the one I woke up in after sleeping for two weeks. The two weeks after Jimmy's funeral. I couldn't take it anymore, I tried to push away the images.
I screamed and the next thing I knew my bedroom door was flying open. Matt rushing over to me as I bolted upright in my bed.
"Kathy?" Matt said his voice rougher than normal from sleep.
I buried my face in his chest and sobbed.
"A nightmare?"
I shook my head yes then no.
"Want to talk about it?"
"Is she alright?" I heard Linds ask from the doorway.
"Yeah, just a nightmare I think."
"I don't know I think it was a memory."
"Of what honey?" Linds asked.
"Jimmy's funeral."
I felt Matt tense.
"I'm ok now Matt really. Dr. Steinworth said that the day may come back to me in pieces. I just never expected to dream it."
Matt held me tightly to his chest. I buried my face in his shoulder as he ran a hand through my hair.
"Well I'll get back to Johnny since it seems you have everything under control Matt," Linds said before heading off back downstairs.
"Are you sure you're ok Kathy?"
I nodded and he continued to hold me.
"Matt?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you stay with me tonight?"
His only answer was to move us so that we were laying comfortably side by side on the bed before pulling the blankets back up around us. I cuddled into his chest and felt him wrap his arms around me. One hand threaded in my hair the other gently rubbing circles on my back like you would a baby.