~Jayden’s Pov~
As I was sitting in the police car on my way to the police station, all I could think about was River. I wasn’t thinking about my mother or Zayne or any other person in the damn world. It was just River, only River. I could see his beautiful hazel eyes, looking at me with disappointment, betrayal and shame. And right now I wasn’t worried about being caught and having to spend time in jail, I was worried about River not wanting me anymore.
And I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what was going to happen now. He is going to leave me and hate me forever, and I don’t blame him. I mean I lied to him, I didn’t tell him that I was in a gang. Even though I know that I did many wrong things and that River is much better without me, and many people would say that if I really love him I should let him go. But the thing is, I don’t believe in that shit. Why would I let someone I love go? That’s just fucking stupid. I would do anything in my power to make that person stay with me and forgive me. I won’t let him go because I love him, if I really love him I would make him stay. And that’s why I have promised myself that I would do anything to make River forgive me.
I just wanted to be with him, just hug him and hold him in my arms and never let go. Breathe in his intoxicating smell and I feel his warmth, where I felt safe and loved. That’s the only thing I wanted right now.
“Let’s go kid!” Oliver said pulling me out of the car. I hadn’t even noticed that we had arrived at the police station. My hands were handcuffed so I couldn’t really do anything with my hands. Oliver grabbed my upper arm and dragged me inside. I walked in trying to avoid the stares and dirty looks I was getting. I didn’t really care about them, but I was just not in the mood to start fighting anyone right now. And that was exactly what I was going to do if any of them said or did something that would upset me. I have a shitty temper I guess.
"Come on. We have to check you out.” Oliver said pulling me towards the counter where a woman with her police uniform was standing staring at me.
“ Can I make a call?” I asked Oliver.
He nodded “ Yeah, after we are done here.”
They spent about two hour writing down every piece of information I was giving them. They took my picture, fingerprints and gave me an orange overall to wear.
I picked up the phone and dialed River’s number. I wanted to hear his voice and I wanted him to know that I was here from me, not from my mother or Zayne.
After a few rings he picked up.
“Hello!”
~River’s Pov~
I was getting really impatient now. Jayden said he would call me when he got home from work, I don’t think he was covering for Zayne, but I didn’t want to upset him so I didn’t ask more about that. But it’s almost midnight now and he still hasn’t called.
Suddenly my phone rang and I ran over to pick it up.
“Hello!”
“ Hey River. How are you doing?” He was trying to be cheerful, but he failed miserably. His voice was off and I knew immediately that something was wrong.
“ Is there something wrong Jayden?”
He sighed but didn’t say anything and I think my heart skipped a beat. I was getting really worried now.
“ Jayden? What is it?” I asked again, more nervous this time.
“ Ehh.. I did something really stupid River” He replied quietly.
“ Wha- What do you mean?”
“ I got arrested. I'm in jail. "
I didn't say anything for a whole minute. I was to shocked to say anything. But when I came to my senses again I began to freak out. "You’re what?” I yelled. I probably made him deaf but I was freaking out. What does he mean? He can’t be in jail. Why would he be in jail in the first place?
" I got arrested for smuggling cocaine.” He answered quietly.
He is in jail for smuggling cocaine? He can’t be in jail. That’s just not possible, I’ve never seen him do anything like that.
I didn’t even notice the tears running down my face, until I saw my reflection in the mirror. My eyes filled with tears again and it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. My legs went weak and it felt like I was going to collapse any minute.
Jayden wasn’t supposed to be in jail. He was supposed to be with me, he was supposed to come to my house tomorrow and we would spend the entire day in bed, just laying in each other’s arms. He wasn’t supposed to be in jail. There must be a mistake.
“ How did this happen? When did this happen?” I asked quietly, so he couldn’t hear me crying.
“I don't have time to tell you right now.But I just wanted to say that I’m sorry baby. I’m sorry I lied to you. I know I shouldn’t have, I know you’re disappointed and mad and you have every right to hate me. I just wanted a better life for us, I just wanted you to be happy. I wanted to do something for you…”
“So you thought smuggling drugs and spending time in jail is the best way to make me happy? Is that what you thought Jayden?” I asked quietly, disappointed. “I can’t believe you did this, I can’t believe you lied to me about all of this. I thought you loved me, but I guess I was wrong. I feel so stupid right now.” I continued, trying not to cry.
“ What are you talking about? Of course I love you. You are my everything River. You are my life.”
“ No you don’t Jayden. You don’t! If you did, you would have trusted me with all of these secrets. You would have told me everything. You lied right to my face when I asked if you were hiding anything from me. You lied right to my face. Right to my face.” I repeated angrily as the tears ran down my face.
But then it hit me, he is in jail and here I am talking about trust our trust issues.
“ Are you okay Jay?”
He sighed “ Not really no. I feel horrible River. I feel absolutely horrible. I just want to be in your arms, I miss you. I miss you so damn much.” He answered his voice breaking at the end. I know he was holding back tears. He didn't want to seem weak, that's why he wasn't crying. But I know how upset he is.
I felt my eyes water and I blinked them away. I had to stay strong for him. Even though he lied to me and did something as stupid as smuggling drugs, and I should be mad at him and never speak to him again, but because I love him as much as I do I could never do that. I could never leave him. He is my everything and I’ll do anything in my power to get him out of there.
“ I miss you too Jayden. You should have told me about this. But no matter what, I’ll always be by your side. You promised not to leave me and I promise not to leave you. I love you Jayden, I love you so much.”
I just wanted him near me again, close to me, touching me, kissing me, whispering sweet words in my ear, telling me how beautiful I am, how much he misses me. Anything, just as long as I was with him again.
"I love you too baby, you have no idea.”
I heard a voice in the background telling him to hurry up.
“ I have to go now.”
“ Okay. I love you Jayden. I’ll come visit you tomorrow and I’ll ask my dad to help you out of this mess. I promise I will get you out.”
“ No. River you can’t tell him about this. He already hates me. And I don’t want his help anyways. Just don’t ask him for anything.” He said frantically.
“ Okay. I’ll come alone then.“ I said trying to calm him down.
He sighed “ Okay. I love you.”
“ I love you too.” I whispered crying again. I heard the phone click as the call disconnected.
I had a hard time walking to my bed even though it was only a few steps. I laid down and I kept sobbing uncontrollably. I was having a hard time breathing as the tears kept falling and falling. My throat was burning from crying so much and I didn’t know what to do. I felt hopeless. He is in jail and I can’t do anything to help him out of there.
“ Come back to me Jayden. Please come back fast. I need you.”
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I hate it when Jayden or River is sad. I feel like crying myself.
Sorry about the length of this chapter, I didn’t have time to write more. Hopefully it won’t be long until the next chapter.
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