Hey everyone.. I just wanna apologize for not updating on time. I have been very busy with school and general life issues. I don't think updating every Monday is going to work. It's been hard committing to uploading every Monday because for those reasons. For now I will be uploading out of the blue or every week but a random day. I hope you guys aren't mad...okay lets get into the entry. (as I'm writing this I just got demerits)
This journal is sorta gonna be two journal entries in one...Lol enjoy! :))
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December 6, 2016
Study Hall
12:10
I feel like my feelings are hovering over me. Not the happy ones...the bad ones. The horrible
ones. The sad ones. They are coming to haunt me....I hate it..I just wish I can break from this. It
hurts me and I cry every day. I cry from not physical pain, but emotional pain. I still cannot stop
cutting either..It is the only way I can get rid of pain. Is to cut and cut and cut and cut. It hurts,
but It is worth the hurt. I cry, but it is worth the tears. It show, but it is worth the visibility.
I have a new friend. He helped me. He still helps me today. His name will be censored but
people who read this would maybe know who I'm talking about. He's a senior..and cares about
people a lot. I thank God for him being a part of my life. His actions towards me are always so
kind. His approaches are great. When we text on Snapchat (add me: sammykat11423) are
helpful. All the time, he says "if you ever need anything, just text me". That means he cares. He
really does care. I finally find someone that really really does....care!