To Luke,
I missed you, Luke. I couldn't tell you that last night but it true. I missed the way you smiled, your eyes, the way you said my name. All of last night was a haunting reminder of the life I once had. I felt sick after you left. I couldn't bear stomach the bitch I once was. I hated myself all semester but all that washed away last night being with you again. The only thing that could have washed away all of the hate would have been a kiss and a warm embrace. I remember how when ever I was in your arms I felt your love wrap around me. God, how I long for that feeling again but I know it better as a distant memory than a prize to re-obtain.
I know I wasn't the greatest friend and a even worst girlfriend but I've changed. I really want to start over with you from the beginning. I want to forget about the how horribly I treated and used you, but I know you can't swept it under the rug like some dust. No matter how much I wish I could travel back in time and treat you like the amazing guy you are, I can't. All I can really do is hope that you want have anything to do with me when we get back to school.
-Ashlen