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Chapter 38
I rolled over to turn off the alarm on my phone that was playing Tom Ford by Jay-Z. I turned back over and closed my eyes for a few more minutes. I decided I would go into work late. I reset the alarm for another 2 hrs.
I would go in at 10:00; I don’t have any work that needs my attention because I cleared everything up before what was supposed to be my engagement party what went very wrong.
“Dr. Taricone, have you seen Nikki this morning?”
“No Melanie I haven’t seen her yet this morning. I have you checked her office?”
“Yeah but her door was closed and locked, but I knocked anyway just in case she was there trying not to be disturbed.”
"I’ll check her office again later. She’s probably in a meeting or something.”
“Ok, if I see her I will tell her you are looking for her.”
“Thank you Dr. Taricone.” “No problem.”
Standing over by the edge of the desk Dr. Taricone sat there wondering how Nikki was doing. He hasn’t talked to her since that awful night her so called fiancé decided not to show up for his own engagement party.
I was enraged when I looked at Nikki. She looked so defeated, and when I found her sitting outside on her swing I could tell she was crying. I sat down next to her I didn’t want to pressure into talking; instead I just sat next to her and started rocking the swing back and forth. She laid her head on my chest and cried herself to sleep.
I wanted to see her to see for myself that she was ok. I knew he was no good, but if he made her happy, then I was happy for her, I always thought that she was too good for him. He seemed like such a self-centered man even though I have only talked to him a handful of times, but I just knew he wasn’t for her.
I don’t know what to do, I want to be there with her and for her, but I don’t want to be insensitive knowing what she has just been through. I would love to have her as my wife but I know it’s going to be a while before she is ready to talk marriage with anyone else. will just wait for her however long it takes, I’ll be waiting.
I made it into work right at 10:00. I unlocked the door to my office and walked in. I sat my purse down and unlocked the door drawer to put my purse in.
I pulled my chair out and sat down; I found a letter sitting on my desk. It had my name on it, but I was afraid to open it wasn’t sure who it was from.
I finally picked up the envelope and opened it taking a deep breath I pulled paper out opened it and began to read it.
Dear Nikki,
I thought the only way to try and explain myself to you is to write you this letter. I know that I have deceived you and taken your trust away, but since you left, I haven’t thought about anything else, but you. I know right now you can’t forgive me, but I hope in time we can work things out. I know I should have never started seeing Payton, first because she was my assistant, but since have replaced her. You don’t know how many times I have picked up the phone to call you. I took a leave of absence from the firm because I just couldn’t think about anything else, but you and how I messed up and hurt the one true person that was always there for me no matter what. I know it’s too late for an apology, but Nikki I love you with all my heart and if you would let me I will spend the rest of my life trying to prove it to you. I need to see you Nikki, I haven’t seen you since you left and I am going crazy. If you can find it in your heart to meet me for dinner tomorrow night I really really need to see you.
P.S. I talked to your father and I told him that I would spend the rest of my life trying to make up for the embarrassment and the anger I know you felt for me.
Hope to hear from you soon
Kevin
My eyes were watery and I couldn’t stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. How could he write me this bullshit and expect me to just agree to have dinner with him. I said to myself I never wanted to see him again and I meant each and every word I said.
I just sat there looking at the letter that he sent me, I think straight, he has a lot of nerves to say he loved me and missed.
I had my head in my hands trying to stop the tears when I heard a knock on the door and the knob turning. The door opened and there stood Vincent and he had this scowl on his face. He closed the door back and locked it. He came over to my desk pulled me up from my chair and put his arms around me.
I couldn’t help but melt in his arms, still shedding tears as he rocked me side to side rubbing circles on my back whispering words of comfort. I lifted my head and apologized to Vincent for breaking down again in front of him.
“Nikki, what’s wrong sweetheart?”
“I came into my office and found this letter. When I opened the envelope there was a letter from Kevin. Here you can read it.”
“Are you sure, I’m sure he’s said some private things between you both and I don’t want to pry into your privacy.”
“Trust me it’s fine, I just can’t believe he had the audacity to tell me he still loves me. Here just read it.”
I took the letter from her hands and read over the letter and I felt anger and I tried to control my anger, but I just put the letter back down on her desk.
“Can you believe the garbage he put on that piece of paper? He’s got a lot of nerve and some monster balls to write that letter and think it was going to somehow make me want to see him.”
“I understand his reasons for writing this letter; however you have been there for him and you never complained. The one night that was supposed to be that special night when you both were to declare your love for each. Something you thought you both wanted he decides to not show up and then slept with another woman.”
“There is no way in hell you should appease him by joining him for dinner, but it’s your decision so you have to do what you think is right for you.”
“I said the day I left that I never wanted to see him again and that’s how I want to keep it. Maybe at some point I will consider seeing him, but right now, I think if I see him, I would claw his eyes out of his head.”
Vincent just laughed at me, but I was dead serious he just don’t know.
“If you are ok, I am going to get back to the ER I just had to come and see if you were here and how you were doing. If you need anything, anything at all, you have my cell number and whenever you need to talk I want you to pick up your phone and call me. I don’t want to hear anything about you feeling guilty for needing someone to talk to, I’m here for you.”
“I guess nothing I say would change your mind not that I am not grateful, but I don’t want you to feel awkward about it. Don’t worry though if I need you I will definitely call you, ok?”
“That’s all I ask, just let me be there for you.”
“Dr. Taricone you are such a sweet man, I can’t believe that you aren’t in a relationship with anyone. I hope I don’t offend you, but are you gay?”
He grabbed my arm and brought me closer to him tilting my chin up so his lips would cover mine. He kissed me slow, and damn did his mouth taste sweet. He grabbed my waist pulling me closer to him as he kissed down my neck and back up to my ear sucking on my outer ear.
He concentrated on my ear sucking on the area just above my earrings. I heard him smirk, but I couldn’t stop to find out what was funny.
He grabbed my hand bringing it down to his front. He took my hand moving it up and down and I could feel how hard he was against my hand. I won’t lie it felt so big; just before I could move my hand he whispered in my ear and I thought I was going to pass out.
“Do you feel that Nikki?”
I tried to speak, but nothing but a deep moan came out instead.
“Nikki, did you hear my question to you? Do you feel this” as he rubbed his erection against my stomach
All I could do was bob my head up and down.
“You did this Nikki, all I had to do was touch you and I could feel myself getting hard as a rock. Do you still think I could be gay?”
“N…no…I don’t think you are g…g…gay. But could y…you move b…back you are driving me crazy right now. If you don’t move I am going to strip you right here and screw your brains out.”
I couldn’t stop my heart from racing or slow my breathing down. I know I shouldn’t be feeling like this especially since I just ended a relationship. I don’t want to start another any time soon. But I can’t help but feel an attraction to this man.
“Trust me sweetheart, I won’t complain one bit, but I respect you too much Nikki to take advantage of you because you are at a place where you need to sort things out. I just wanted to show you how much you excite me.”
“Thank you so much Vincent for being honest with me. A lot of other men would take advantage of me because of what I just went through pretending to care just to get me in bed. You are just not that kind of guy and that means a lot to me.”
“Anything for you because like I told you before I will wait as long as I have to, just to make you my wife and believe me the only thing I will spend the rest of my life doing is pleasing you and make you the happiest woman in the world.”
I just smiled at Vincent, maybe this is where I should have been, but we work together and that is a deadly combination.