Why did he leave without saying goodbye?
I was disappointed with the way things ended last night. Me waking up in the middle of the night with Rheese gone.
I have fallen in love with him in a blink of an eye.
My heart was yearning to for him, to touch, feel and hold him but their was nothing I could do, it was out of my hands.
It was Saturday but I couldn't bring myself to phone Ben to tell him I won't be meeting him for our usual Saturday meeting at Sam's.
I got out of bed went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Splashing the cold water on my face, made me realise the reality of what happened. I was no longer a girl untouched, unspoiled. I was indeed touched by a man.
Deciding not to change I stayed in my pajama's and made my way to the kitchen.
Switching on the coffee machine to make me a strong cup of coffee. I picked up the romance novel from the coffee table and started reading while sipping on my coffee.
The book I was reading was called 'After you' the second book of Jojo Moyes. I loved the first book and was glad they made a movie of it, even though the ending crushed my soul.
Losing myself in the book I didn't realise that I have been reading for a long time and checked to see the time.
Looking at the clock on the wall it was 08:30 pm.
Finally deciding to have a shower hours after Rheese left. I wanted to keep the smell of him lingering on me but nothing last forever.
Walking into the bathroom I turned on the faucet and just as I was about to get into the shower my cell rang.
Picking up my cellphone that was on the bathroom counter, I saw Ben's name on the screen and pressed the green button.
"Liz, were the hell are you! I can't believe you missed our Saturday date!" Ben's voice came howling over the cell.
"Hi Ben, what's up"
"What's up? Is that all that you can say? Girl get your ass in gear it's Saturday night. I'm on my way to fetch you and I'm not taking NO for an answer."
"Be..Ben..." But before I could say another word the cell phone went dead.
Getting under the running water, I washed myself knowing Ben would be here soon. Closing my eyes, I could still feel the way Rheese touched, kissed and licked me all over my body last night.
The buzzer brought me back to reality again.
Turning the tap off I wrapped a towel around me.
Answering to make sure it was Ben, remembering what Rheese said about checking who I buzz into the apartment.
"Ben, is that you?"
"Who else!"
I pressed the button to let him in, unlocking the door at the same time.
Going back to my room I dried myself and started putting on my underwear before Ben comes in, I put on a black lace bra and matching panties. Hearing the door open, I quickly slipped on my black skinny jeans and grey strappy t-shirt.
I could hear Ben talking to someone in the lounge as I was finishing up.
'Shit who was Ben talking to.'
Brushing my hair without looking in the mirror, putting my hair up in a high ponytail. I didn't feel like getting all dressed up for tonight.
Walking into the lounge I saw it was Keith.
"Oh, hi Keith. I had know idea you were with Ben. Where is Rheese?" I asked wanting to find out why Rheese was not with him.
"He couldn't make it tonight." Keith replied.
I was disappointed that I wouldn't see Rheese tonight but I didn't show my disappointment to them.
"Come Liz, let's go and paint the town red." Ben said.'
We ended up at a club in Claremont, called Boogie. I always had fun when going their. Boogie was packed with people tonight and the vibe was great.
Maybe the night wouldn't turn out that bad after all.
Trying to keep my mind from wondering to Rheese, I stayed on the dance floor most of the night. Ben and Keith dancing with me when they were not at the bar drinking.
I could see Ben and Keith flirting with each other. It was so cute. They really made a good couple.
I couldn't help but feel a little jealous seeing the two of them together.
'Why couldn't that be Rheese and myself?'
Feeling my cell vibrating in my pocket, I took it out and an unfamiliar number popped up on the screen.
I switched it off . I never answered my cell if I didn't know who the cell number belonged too.
My cell started vibrating again with the same number and I turned it off again.
Finally stepping off the dance floor because it was getting hot, I walked to the bar in need of something ice cold to drink.
"Can I have a double vodka and lemonade." I asked the barman.
"Liz, why don't you answer your cell." Ben's voice came from behind me.
"What"
"Why didn't you answer your cell," he repeated again.
"Because I don't answer my cell if I don't know the number that's phoning me. You should know that by now, Ben."
"Do you know Rheese is trying to get hold of you?"
"Not interested."
Turning back to the bar to get my drink.
"What the hell happened last night? Liz!"
"Nothing but..." stopping what I was saying as I saw Keith approaching. I needed to talk to you Ben but now wasn't the best time with Keith around.
"Liz, Rheese was trying to get hold of you. He sounded worried. What happened with you guys last night?" Keith said as he came to stand with us.
'I didn't need this tonight.'
"Listen Keith, I don't want to talk about it."
Storming away from them and headed straight for the bar on the top floor. I needed the hurt of rejection to stop, because that's how it felt, and decided the best thing would be to get drunk.
I don't normally like to get drunk but tonight I wanted to.
Ordering two double vodkas and lemonade plus two shots of tequila after storming off without my drink.
Downing the shots and having one of my drinks, my mood seemed to lighten up and I started to relax.
"Can I get you one of whatever you drinking?" I heard someone standing next to me ask.
"No thanks, I'm good."
"You look like you could do with another one of those," the stranger pointed to my drink.
"I'm Chad by the way," he introduced himself.
"I saw you downing the shots and drink, whatever it was in your glass, so fast, I thought you could do with another one."
"Oh, what the hell. I'll have a double vodka and lemonade. By the way I'm Lizzy," extending my hand to him.
"Hey, can you get me a castle and one of what the lady is having," he asked the barman.
I don't know were I got the courage to talk to a Chad but I did.
We talked for a while. Me telling him briefly about the situation I found myself in and then we said goodbye to each other as he needed to get back to his friends.
The alcohol started taking over and I felt much more relaxed and brave.
So I pulled out my phone and dialled the last number knowing it was Rheese's number by now.
The phone rang and just before I wanted to press the off button, getting cold feet, Rheese picked up.
"Liz, why the fuck were you talking to that guy?!" hearing an angry Rheese on the other end of the line.
'How the hell did he know who I was speaking too. Anyway it had nothing to do with him.'
For some reason I couldn't answer him and pressed the off button.
I burst out crying as I got up to leave but someone grabbed me by the arm. Trying to shrug the hand off, it spun me around.
"Why the hell are you crying. Did that guy interfere with you? And why didn't you answer my calls when I phoned?" Rheese spoke in angry tone.
Looking up into the blue eyes that haunted my mind, I pulled out of his hold an ran.
I couldn't look at him not now, not after feeling the way I did. Those eyes that left me.
'I couldn't face him not after he walking out on me.'
I needed to get out of here and fast.
Weaving my way threw the crowd I headed straight for the exit.
I got outside and I just breathed in the night air, filling my lungs with it. Trying to make my tears stop from falling I began to wipe it with my hand.
Pulling my cellphone from my pants pocket, I started dialling for a taxi while the tears was still trickling down.
Standing outside the club waiting for the taxi to arrive, I felt two arms circling my waist from behind, turning me around to face him, but I smelled him before he touched me.
"Liz, why are you running from me?" Rheese spoke in a gentle voice and not the angry one from minutes ago.
"Just leave me alone Rheese. What ever you want or wanted to say you should have said to me last night, but you left. So leave me alone god damn it! I...I don't need you!" crying as I spoke to him not able to control my hurt and pain.
He started rubbing my arms lightly with his hands and his touch made shivers run threw my body.
His touch was like a lightning bolt bringing me back to live.
I knew that I needed to get away from him and soon before I betray myself.
Stepping away from his touch and looked up at him, I could see the hurt in his eyes, rejecting his touch but I needed to protect myself from hurting.
"Rheese, just tell me one thing. Why did you leave the way you did?" speaking as the tears started threatening to come again.
"No, no it's not what you think, Liz"
"Then why Rheese!"
But as he wanted to say more the taxi pulled up.
Stepping forward I opened the car door and got in and Rheese followed getting in next to me.
"The Table Bay hotel driver." Rheese spoke giving the driver our destination.
"Rheese what are you doing. I want to go home."
"No, your not going home. We have unfinished business to discuss."
'I didn't understand what he was talking about.'
Arguing with Rheese would accomplish nothing so I just sat next to him without saying a word, looking out the car window.
We drove in silence to the hotel. Getting out of the taxi he took my hand in his and we made our way through the hotel doors.
*** Rheese***
Why did I walk out of her apartment? I should have stayed and spend the night with her, holding her in my arms, but I was starting to feel things for Liz that I never felt with any other woman and it scared me like hell.
I had plenty of women throwing themselves at me but for some reason I wanted Liz, every part of her.
I tried calling her but she didn't answer her cell.
I wanted to tell her how sorry I was for taking her innocence.
I wanted to be in her so badly that I didn't think of her.
I am such a dick.
Selfish that's what I was, always thinking about myself no matter who got hurt in the process.
I haven't seen a lot of Keith since he met Ben, so I gave him a call to ask what he was up too, knowing that Ben will be with him and would be able to know where Liz was.
Keith asked me to join them tonight but I made an excuse. I needed more time to think.
Later in the evening I just couldn't take it anymore and phoned Liz but my calls was rejected.
I called Keith to find out where they were and made my way to the club.
When I arrived I found Keith and Ben but they just told me that they didn't know where Liz was. That she stormed off without saying a word.
I had to find her and explain my behaviour, so I went looking for her.
I finally made my way up the stairs, and from across the room I saw Liz talking to guy, but didn't know what to do, so I just watched her from a distance.
Maybe it was for the best that she found someone else.
But as I was about to leave and let her be, the stranger she was talking to got up and left. Then I saw the tears as she got up to leave and I knew that I couldn't turn my back on her while she was crying.
I was the one to walk out on her and I needed to make things right.
I needed to know if I was the cause of her tears.
She got up and I could see she was in a rush and before she could escape again, I reached for her arm and turned her around to face me but all I saw in her eyes was pain. As she looked at me she pulled away an ran.
It took me a second to realise what happened and then she was gone.
The club was so full it took me a few minutes to get outside.
I stepped outside and saw her crying as she was talking on her cell.
She needed me and I stepped close to her and wrapped my arms around her waist.
I needed to comfort her as best as I could and stop being a ass of a man.
****
He opened the door to his hotel room and waited for me to walk in first. I walked over to the window and looked out over the ocean. The view still took my breath away.
"Liz, can I get you something to drink?"
"No thanks."
"I hope you don't mind me having a drink."
"Not at all. Be my guest. You do what ever you want to in any case. " wanting to sound sarcastic in my reply.
'What am I doing here with him. I was playing with fire but the night we spend together had changed me. Not only physically but also emotionally. This is the man I chose to make me a woman.'