Sweetest Downfall
I am still speechless when I saw him. Nakatulala lang ako. Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko at tinaasan siya ng kilay.
"Pumunta ka pa?" Naiinis na tanong ko. I tried to sound so chill but I just can't. What the fuck is wrong with me!?
"Hm. Sorry. Actually, dapat kanina pa ko dito. Nakabihis na nga ako o. Kinailangan lang dalhin si Anica sa hospital. Ang taas kasi ng lagnat niya. Ayaw ko rin naman iwan muna si Ate. Kaya... 'Yun. Sorry." Aniya at yumuko.
Suminghap ako. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakaniya. He is damn gorgeous. Darn.
Nilingon ko sina Yas sa likod. Nginunguya niya ang pagkain habang patuyang nakatingin sa'kin. Si Elysa naman ay nakatingin sa pagkain pero nakangisi. B'wisit na buhay.
Binalik ko ang tingin sakaniya. Sinalo ko ang mabibigat niyang titig. He's staring at me intently. Ilang beses ko na bang binanggit na ang g'wapo niya?
"Happy birthday, Tria." He said and flashed his usual genuine smile. Gusto kong panatilihan ang ekspresyon ko na walang pake pero.. Shit. I can't help but to smile too.
"Uh, thanks." I silently said. Dapat nagsusungit ako. Dapat wala akong pake. Nagtataray ako kanina 'diba? Demi naman! Isang ngiti lang. Nakuha ka sa ngiti niya!
Narinig kong umubo si Elysa at tumikhim ng malakas si Yas. "Respeto naman sa walang love life. Utang na loob sa garden nalang kayo." Walang pakundangang sabi ni Yas. Sinamaan ko siya ng titig.
Siniko siya ni Elysa. "Ikaw lang. Meron kaya akong JC." I am about to talk when I felt his rough hands hold my wrist.
I looked at his hands but then he tightened his grip. Hinila niya na ko sa kung saan. I can't believe it. No one ever tried to drag me like this.
Lumabas kami sa hotel. Nilibot ko ang paningin ko sa kabuuan ng garden. Dito dapat ang debut ko kaso ang sabi nina Dad sa loob nalang. Binitawan ako ni Alec at humarap saakin. I am wearing heels pero hanggang tainga niya lang ako. Considering na matangkad din ako.
Nginitian niya ako. "Anong ginagawa natin dito?" Tanong ko ng naiinip. Hmm. I am acting bored but my heart. My goodness.
"Hindi yata ako makakapayag na hindi ako ang last dance, Tria." He simply said at nagkibit balikat. Damn. Kung kanino, tumatalon lang ang puso ko, ngayon? Tumatumbling na yata.
This is why I hate him. His effect on me is creepy. Nakakatakot.
May nilabas siyang touchscreen na cellphone mula sa bulsa niya at nagkonekta ng headset. Nilagay niya sa tainga ko ang headset. A sweet song enveloped my ears.
Nanlaki ang mata ko ng kinuha niya ang kamay ko at ikinawit sa batok niya. Lalayo na sana ako pero hinawakan niya ang likuran ng baywang ko. I felt the electricity from his touch to my bold waist. Deep backless ang dress na suot ko kaya hindi maiwasan. Damn.
Bakit ba kasi ito ang sinuot ko!?
~I think I want you more than want
And know I need you more than need
I wanna hold you more than hold
When you stood in front of me~
~I think you know me more than know
And you see me more than see
I could die now more than die
Every time you look at me~
We started dancing slowly.
Nakatingin siya ng diretso saakin sa mata pero hindi ko masuklian ang titig niya. Ikakamatay ko yata ang pagsalo sa mga mata niya.
Nakatingin ako sa tainga niya. 'Yun lang ang kaya kong tingnan. Natatakot ako. I am so scared with this unknown feeling.
~Well I've seen you in jeans with no make-up on
And I've stood there in awe as your date for the prom
I'm blessed as a man to have seen you in white
But I've never seen anything quite like you tonight
No, I've never seen anything quite like you~
The feeling was so strange. It feels so surreal. Pakiramdam ko nakalutang ako. Lalo akong nakukuryente sa hawak at tingin niya. His touch was so electrifying and his stares are so hot that I might die here. Now. In front of him.
~When it's right it's more than right
Cause you feel it more than feel
I could take this moment now
Right into the grave with me~
I badly want to stop this thing. This dance. A part of me says I should just told him to back off. But my other side wishes to continue and don't ruin the moment.
"Ni hindi mo ako tinapunan ng tingin. But me? I'm completely lost in your eyes. Look into my eyes, Tria." He whispered. I swallowed the itchy lump in my throat.
My cheeks flushed red when I met his gaze. He suddenly plastered his smirk when he saw my cheeks. Geez. Lalo yata akong namula.
Tanging ang sinag ng buwan lang ang ilaw namin. His eyes were so deep. His eyes were enchanting. Thousands of emotions were visible in it.
~Oh well I've seen you in jeans with no make-up on
And I've stood there in awe as your date for the prom
I'm blessed as a man to have seen you in white
But I've never seen anything quite like you tonight
No, I've never seen anything quite like you tonight
No, I've never seen anything quite like you tonight~
~In your eyes oh in your eyes
In our hearts yeah in our hearts
Sometimes words just ain't enough
For this love that's more than love~
~Well I've seen you in jeans with no make-up on
And I've stood there in awe as your date for the prom
I'm blessed as a man to have seen you in white
But I've never seen anything quite like you tonight
No, I've never seen anything quite like you tonight
No, I've never seen anything quite like you tonight~
Kaagad akong bumitaw sakaniya nang matapos ang kanta. Nakakapaso. Ang tingin niya. Ang hawak niya.
Binalingan ko siya ng tingin ng kinuha niya ang kamay ko. May kinuha siya sa bulsa niya na kung ano. My eyes widened when he slid a thin gold bangle with a music note at the tip into my wrist.
Mahal 'to. How come?
Tiningnan ko siya ng may nagtatanong na mga mata. He smiled and said, "Matagal ko ng alam ang birthday mo. Hindi pa nga yata tayo magkausap." Aniya. Naguguluhang tiningnan ko siya.
"Ha? Stalker ba kita?" Tanong ko. Sabi na e. Dati pa man naghihinala na ko. He talks as if he knew many things from me.
Tumawa siya at umiling. "Sana nga ganoon nalang. Sana stalker nalang ako." Wika niya.
"Ang creepy mo." Utas ko na tinawanan lang niya. Kinurot niya ang pisngi ko kaya't tinampal ko ang kamay niya na nakapisil dito.
Sa pagpalo ko sakaniya, nakita ko ulit ang bangle. Napangiti ako ng bahagya at hinaplos ito. "Salamat sa birthday gift." Sabi ko at ngumiti sakaniya. Napawi ang ngiti niya at tumango.
"Take that not just as my gift, but also your forgiveness." My forehead creased by his statement.
"Kanina ka pa diyan sa weird statements mo ha. May ginawa ka 'no?" Taas kilay kong tanong na may tonong pang-aakusa. Tumawa siya at hinila ang kamay ko.
Nagulat ako ng kinulong niya ko sa mga bisig niya. Kanina pa ko nagugulat sa mga actions niya ha! Ano bang problema ko!?
Tunatawa siya pero parang may mali. "I wish someday you will forgive me." Aniya. Binatukan ko siya habang yakap niya pa rin ako.
"Ano ba kasing ginawa mo?" Tanong ko ng naiinis pero tinawanan niya lang ako. The retarded seal is back again huh?
Kumalas siya at tinitigan ako sa mata kaya umiwas ulit ako at umarteng may hinahanap.
He whispered words that made my heartbeat go wild.
"I've fallen, Tria. I have fallen into my sweetest downfall."
Fvck. Now, I'm totally afraid. Afraid from the same feelings as his.
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-Bruu Tenshi