**Adrian's POV**
As Bobby shut the door in my face the last thing I saw was Kylie kneeling on the floor beside Luke looking at him with such sadness and anger.
I stood outside the door just trying to figure out what happened, attempting to put all the pieces together.
I couldn't help but feel the surge of anger burning within me, mixed with regret, guilt and confusion. I honestly didn't even know what to do, I didn't know how to handle this, I didn't know how to fix this...and I wasn't sure if I wanted to...
But I immediately shook the last thought from my head because that was impossible, or at least I thought it was.
The more time that passes and the more mistakes I make the more I realize how I don't deserve Kylie...
I was just so angry and I couldn't deal with it.
Just the image of her in that dress drunk, hanging on Luke for support, looking at him with her big hazel eyes that I adored.
I couldn't believe she actually did that to me. She went out, got drunk and came home to Luke. I haven't seen her that often lately who knows what else she's been doing.
The more I thought about it the angrier I got...and before I realized what I was doing I walked down the steps of the porch and kicked the medium sized ceramic flower pot that was in front of the house.
The noise was so loud as the pieces came crashing apart and the dirt and flowers over flowing onto the ground.
"Adrian..." I heard Michael say strongly from behind me I couldn't help but shake my head.
"What the hell are you doing?" he asked again as I turned to see him standing by the gate looking furious.
"Just here to see my girlfriend..." I said as I let out a small painful laugh.
"Adrian get inside now." He said in a commanding tone that I've learned not to mess with, so I did what he said and I went home.
"What's going on with you Adrian?" Mike asked as I sat on the couch with my arms crossed in front of me.
What wasn't going on with me? I asked myself. Slowly but surely everything in my life was falling apart.
I just shrugged in response as Mike sat next to me with concern filling his eyes.
"Listen Adrian you know you could talk to me, I don't need Bobby calling me up telling me to control you...you know better then this. I know you have a lot going on but its no excuse. You know we're always here for you to help you through anything...especially Kylie..." he said as I let out a deep breath.
He was wasting his time cause he was telling me all the things I already knew...but it didn't matter. I just couldn't help but feel that this was different than anything we've dealt with, something that none of us could handle. To be honest I didn't want anyone involved in this shit...it was just something that I had to deal with on my own, and I plan to.
"Mike just leave it alone..." I said but he shook his head with anger.
"I cant Adrian because I'm responsible for you. I know that we all had to grow up a lot faster especially you. And I know we've done and seen a lot more things than anyone's seen in their whole life...but you're still just a kid..." he said and I just shook my head and let out a small laugh.
"Did you see what you did in there?"
"You lost control, you made a fool out of yourself because you're going back to the old Adrian trying to push everyone away...but you need to stop, cause its not going to help anyone. And if I were you I'd appreciate Chase instead of accusing him of stupid nonsense. He's your brother Adrian, he's family..." he said but I just looked away not in the mood to continue this conversation as my regrets and guilt consumed me.
"Maybe I don't need family Mike..." I said strongly trying to hide the pain and deceit in my voice as I watched Mike shake his head.
"Whatever Adrian, do what you want...just stay away from Kylie and Luke..." he said before he walked away into the kitchen with disappointment clear on his face.
Little did he know that staying away was the plan.
***
**Kylies POV**
I could barely sleep as my mind kept repeating the scene that took place last night over and over again.
I stayed down stairs with Luke and Bobby for a few hours trying to make sure Luke was ok while Bobby made sure I was sober.
Bobby and Luke kept asking if I was okay and I just nodded, even though it was true.
Because as soon as I was alone in my room the tears flowed out of my eyes...
It was just about tonight, it was about everything that has been happening lately between Adrian and I, things weren't the same between us and I was afraid that they weren't going to be.
The pain, tears, and sadness, felt different then all the other times...
It scared me to think about being without Adrian, but what scared me more was living the rest of my life like this stuck in the cycle. Things starting out perfect and then Adrian going back to his old self.
"How do you feel?" I asked Lucas as I walked downstairs into the kitchen and kneeled down by him as I held my fingers lightly by the chin bringing his eyes to meet mine, I looked at the bruise starting to form on his cheek bone and around his eye and the scabbed up lip.
"Better..." he said as he looked deep into my eyes as if he wasn't concerned with his injuries at all.
"Luke seriously..." I said.
"I'm serious, thanks for taking care of me Ky," he said with a smirk, as his eyes never left mine.
We stared at each other for a few moments before I looked away when I started to think of a time that I was with him and things were normal
"I'm sorry again Luke, I don't even know what happened last night..." I said.
"I know you were pretty wasted," he said but I just shook my head as I poured myself a bowl of cereal.
"No that's not what I meant... I mean with Adrian..." I continued.
"Kylie it's not your fault...I'm okay." He said and I nodded slowly.
"Lets see the patient." I heard Anne say as she entered the kitchen with Bobby following behind.
"Anne..." he whined.
"Look who came back from the dead, I think you're working a little to much." I said as I took a spoonful of my cereal.
"I know, I know, but I'm looking at a good a promotion, just got to work a little harder..." she said as she examined Luke's face.
"Mom if you work any harder you're going to collapse." Bobby said as I nodded my head.
"Its worth it..." she said.
"I'd like to know how you guys thought I wouldn't know that Luke had some type of accident..." Anne said as I looked over to Bobby questioningly as he shrugged.
"You guys could have washed the bloody towels, and Luke could of tried to hid his face. I saw he was all bruised while he was asleep...now Bobby what did you say happened? He tripped and hit his face on the end table?" she asked knowing that it was a lie.
"Yup..." Bobby said as I looked at him with an annoyed face thinking what a horrible lie that was.
"Hm...well I don't believe it but since I'm so exhausted I guess I'll have to." Anne said.
"Mom just go to sleep, you need the rest for tonight." Bobby said nervously as Anne looked at all of us suspiciously before she exited the kitchen.
"What kind of lie was that?" I asked Bobby.
"One that I came up with in a matter of 3 seconds." Bobby said as I shook my head.
"The real question is why the hell are you up before noon?" Luke asked.
"I'm going to meet Bella to go pumpkin picking." Bobby said nervously as he ran his hand through his hair.
"How adorable?" I said with a small smile that didn't reach my eyes.
"Kylie if you don't want me to I wont go...I know last night was tough..." he said but I just shook my head.
"How many times do I have to say that I'm fine," I said as I rolled my eyes.
"Until we believe it." Luke said.
"Well I have to stay home and take care of him anyway..." I said ignoring Luke's comment as they both looked at me skeptically.
"Just go get ready Bobby..." I said to him as he nodded before he left looking at me with concerned eyes.
"So I guess it's just you and me today..." I said to Luke as he nodded.
"Hasn't been just you and me in a long time..." Luke said as I looked away from him.
"Yup..." I said as I avoided eye contact.
As angry as I was with Adrian in the back of my mind I kept thinking about eventually making up with him and things going back to normal. Every time Luke would drop a hint about him and me my heart would race from nerves, from fear...and more.
I just needed one day to pretend that I actually have a normal life, one day to be happy and laugh and forget about it all...
But I don't think it would happen.
***
When Bobby finally left and Anne went out shopping it was only Luke and I left in the house.
" So what's the deal?" he asked as we watched TV.
"What do you mean?"
"Every time I look over at you and speak you look like you're physically in pain," he said as I let out a deep breath.
"It's like awkward...and I don't know why, care to explain?" he asked.
"I'm afraid you're going to try to bring up the past...about us..." I said and he nodded slowly.
"Well I kind of was, but I couldn't help but it...its hard to not think about it." He said.
"I know but you have to try because after everything that's happened all I want is one day of just hanging out and no worries...no past." I said sadly as he nodded.
"I understand," he said.
"You deserve it," he continued as I looked at him with a small smile.
"I promise today will be just what you need..." he said as he looked at me with a smile, I nodded my head hoping he was right.
***
**Adrian's POV**
I was sitting on the cold grass by the waterfall where Kylie and I had so many memories when my phone rang. I saw Kevin's name flashing on my screen I couldn't answer it any quicker.
"Hey Adrian heard you were looking for me..." he said after I said hello.
"Yeah there's something I need to ask you about...things haven't been right lately and I need your help." I said as I let out a deep breath.
"Well anything for a good old friend of mine...there's just one problem though." He said.
"What's wrong?"
"Well as soon as I came back from vacation I kind of flew straight to Cali to handle some business..." he said and my heart started to race.
"You're in California? When will you be back?" I asked urgently.
"Could be next week, could be next month." He said.
"Maybe one of my guys can help you out?" he said but I knew if I wanted answers Kevin was the guy who could give them to me.
"Listen I'll call you back and let you know, I just got a lot to think about." I said.
"All right man, talk to you later then..." he said before he hung up.
I honestly didn't know what to do...
Leaving for a bit sounded good, especially if that meant I was going to get some answers and finally figure all of this out. But the thought of leaving Kylie worried me...
As bad as it was now, I don't think I'll be able to leave her here...especially since she'll be alone with Luke, Chase, and Hunter.
Just thinking about that made me burn with anger.
I couldn't make up my mind, I didn't know what I should do...until I found something taped to my bike.
When I walked through the trees back to where I parked my bike I saw an envelope taped to the mirror. As soon as I saw it my heart stopped in my chest... I couldn't believe this was happening again.
I slowly opened up the envelope my heart beating faster and faster with each second that passed.
There were 2 pieces of paper that I took out of the envelope, one was another newspaper article...and the first was a mug shot...my mug shot.
I was about 15 or 16 in the picture; my eyes were just empty and cold. The memory flashed through my head and sent shivers throughout my body.
'Possession of a weapon, trespassing, and assault...' I read at the bottom...
And in red pen written at the bottom said 'I guess they forgot about murder...'
I could honestly feel my heart stop in my chest as I reread that sentence over and over again.
I didn't have to read the article to know what it was. It was from a deal gone wrong...one of my firsts. I remember like it was yesterday standing in an abandon warehouse with 5 of the members, and 6 from another gang.
I tried to block out as much as I can, but it took me months to forget the feeling of taking a life...
Reading this and remembering it all made my decision much easier...
And immediately I took my phone out and dialed Kevin's number.
"I'll be there..." was all I had to say.
***
It was around 7 at night when I knocked on Kylies door and waited for her to come out.
I could hear her laughing as she walked closer to the door.
"Don't touch that T.V, if I miss Channing Tatum shirtless you're dead..." she said with a laugh as she opened the door. When her eyes met mine they went blank, there was no trace of the smile that was previously on her face.
Just seeing the traces of pain and hurt on her face made my heart ache but I knew I had to stay strong...I knew I was doing the right thing.
"Who is it?" I heard Luke ask from inside as we stood there staring at each other for a few moments.
"No one...just give me a second..." she said as her eyes never left mine.
I stepped back as she shut the door behind her and stepped out on the porch.
"What do you want?" she asked.
"I just need to talk to you..." I said as she shook her head.
"If you're here to apologize then you could save your breath, because I don't want to hear it..." she said as I shook my head making her look up at me in confusion.
"I got to go away for a bit, there's something I need to take care of in California..." I said as I watched her eyes go wide.
"What do you mean?" she asked in disbelief.
"A week or 2 the most...but I just wanted to tell you..." I said trying to hide all signs of the pain I was feeling.
"What the hell Adrian? How are you just going to get up and leave?" she asked angrily.
"Listen I have to...I think this break would be good for us..." I said and that's when I saw her face fill with anger and hurt.
"Break?" she asked strongly in disbelief, as I looked away from her not able to bare the pain and hurt in her eyes.
"You can't do this to me..." she said with tears filling her eyes.
"Its only for a little I promise, I'll call you when I get there..." I said as I watched her stand there in shock.
I took a step closer to her and pressed my lips against her forehead, and turned to leave but not before I stared into her deep brown eyes for a few moments.
"Adrian..." she said in a painful whisper making my heartache...but I couldn't turn back.
All I wanted to do was turn around and wrap my arms around her and kiss for as long as I possible could...but I couldn't.
So I continued to walk away into my house never turning my head to look back at her.
This was something that I was going to have to do in order to get my life back.
I hated feeling like I wasn't in control, like I was a mess, a victim...hopefully this trip was going to change all that.
It killed me to leave her and as much as I hated it, I knew she would be taken care of...
I loved her will al my heart and my heart literally broke as she stood there in front of me trying not to cry. But deep down I knew it was something I had to do.
I need to get things back to normal, and this was the only way I knew how...and hopefully when I get back she'll understand that.
But until then...I had no choice...
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