Hey guys so i just wanna make a smol announcement. So i write the story in past tense, for example- 'said', 'worked', 'kissed', etc. So if i accidentally write 'exclaim' or 'say', dont yell at me. Or if you want to kindly comment 'hey you spelt this wrong', thats fine. I am going to edit/fix the mistakes that are in the whole story when its finished, and i usually do a final check when im done writing a chapter so bare with me. Also this might be a kinda long chapter. Thanks doods you're all awesome.
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Jess
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Luke and I roamed the sidewalk in a comfortable silence on our way to our destination. He occasionally bumped me on my side, and I said an occasional screw you. Of course, this is the Luke we all know and love, so he didn't like that very much. And of course, being Luke, he over reacted. To make it up to him, I bought him an ice cream cone. His favorite today was cookies and cream, considering it always changes. A few minutes after we left the parlor, Luke spoke up.
"Hey, where are we going anyways? I'm curious," He questioned, whilst licking his ice cream.
"Well, while you were busy picking out your ice cream flavor, since you always have a new one, I decided to look up some local fairs. And I found one about a third of a mile from here. So, we my trusted pal, are going on foot. To make it more memorable, of course," I explained, feeling responsible for taking matters into my own hands.
"I like the way you think Jessie," Luke said, with a mouth full of frozen treat.
After Luke make that comment, we continued to walk until we saw a sign up ahead, at least thirty feet tall that read, Come one, come all! Welcome to Sydney's National Fair! Enjoy!
"I feel at home," Luke chuckled.
I also chuckled as we headed into the park, admiring the rides and people as we went. We went to the ticket booth, purchasing our tickets and deciding which ride we wanted to go on first.
"You wanna go on the zipper? It's your favorite," he asked, excitement evident in the way he spoke.
"Luke Robert Hemmings, are you actually considering going on the zipper? Last time I checked, you hated it. Hell, you couldn't even look at it," I replied, folding my arms on my chest.
"I'm making an exception, just today. Hear me when I say, never again will I ride this ride. Ever. I mean it Jess," he exclaimed, putting his hands up in the air in surrender.
"Fine, lets go, tough boy," I said as I grabbed his hand and led him over to the ride.
We handed the lady one of our ten tickets, and we entered a pod. At least that's what I call it.
"You ready?"
"Honestly? No," Luke replied, taking my hand and intertwining my fingers with his sweaty ones.
"Sh, you'll be okay, I promise," I whispered whole heartedly. That comment not only went for the ride, but for life in general. If I was in Luke's position, I wouldn't want to leave the house, eat, or do anything. But he knows what he has to do- make every second count. And that's exactly what he's doing. He put his own fears aside to not only comfort me, but also himself. What he needs is support, and I'll provide it with little time that I have, every step of the way.
Our pod started to rock, and we were being risen into the air, resulting in Luke gripping my hand tighter.
"You'll be okay," I whispered again, and Luke's grip loosened a bit.
The ride was very enjoyable, I think even Luke liked it a little. It had ended only moments ago. Considering after what happened, it's a start. He kept screaming like a little girl, begging for mercy, and he drew a cross in the air. It was actually pretty funny.
When Luke was away in Melbourne with his older brothers Ben and Jack back in 2012, they went to a carnival much like this one. They also went on the zipper as their last ride before they left, but unfortunately the ride had technical difficulties while they were mid-way through it. Luke and Jack went together in a pod, and Ben went in his own. Luke and Jack were okay, but unfortunately Ben wasn't. Let's just say he had a very long stay at the hospital he was taken to. Luke can't stand the zipper to this day, all because of that horrific memory.
But the fact that he put his differences aside for me is what makes Luke my best friend. My trustee. My partner in crime. The only one who I can count on for anything and everything.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Luke was yelling my name over and over to get my attention. (A/N: Cries b/c fetus 5sos.) I shook my head a few times, getting my head back in the game. Luke was already out of the pod, his hand outstretched for me to take. My hand met his, and a warm feeling washed over me like a tidal wave.
"Psst. Jess. Hello? Are you dead?" Luke whispered in my hear, his breath looming on my neck making me shiver.
"I'd like to be," I chuckled. I only laughed to make it seem like I was kidding. But the truth is, I don't feel like going on. I feel like dying would be the better bet to all of this. But, I can't die. At least not yet. I have to stay alive for mom, dad, and especially Luke. I don't know if Luke could even withstand me leaving in the first place. He can barely cope as it is, I know him. But with me dead, he would want to die too. And that makes me want to die even more.
Luke being in pain because of me is the worst feeling in the world. And to top it all off, I won't be there to comfort him, and he won't be there to comfort me when I'll need him the most.
The only thing we have to communicate with is the Internet. God bless the creator of technology. If he was still alive, I'd find him and give him the biggest hug known to man.
"Jess, you're worrying me," Luke said hesitantly.
"Isn't that my job?" I said, faking laugh again.
"Jess."
That was when I lost it. That one word made me lose it all. I bursted out into tears, Luke being startled at the very second it happened. He immediately wiped the flowing tears off of my cheek, wiping them on his blink-182 tee. (A/N: Also since this is currently 2016, go buy blink's new album, California. Casually advertises one of my favorite bands.)
"Hey, it's gonna be okay," he whispered.
"Can I tell you a secret?" he softly said.
I nodded.
"Jessica Rose, I love you. I always have, and I always will. Until infinity and beyond. You've always held my heart, and you never knew. I have liked you since I was 14 years old. But as I grew older I began to love you. I knew I felt something for you. And look where we are now. God, I'm so, so, in love with you. You're leaving tomorrow. That also means I die tomorrow. The love of my life is leaving me, and there's nothing I can do about it," Luke whispered into my ear, which instantly froze me.
I heard muffled sobs, coming from Luke himself, surprisingly not me.
I grabbed his face, and turned it towards me. I could see his eyes turning to a dark shade of blue. His eyes always did that when he cried.
Luke was right. How could I have been so blind? Everything that he did for me. I never knew it was out of love. I love Luke, but I'm not sure if it's the same way that he loves me. I see Luke as many different people to me. I see him as the older brother I've never had, my best friend, but never as a lover. I've been so self- centered, that I never even considered the fact that he loved me, and I feel even more stupid. My feelings are conflicted for Luke. He's also right when he said that I felt something during that kiss earlier today. It was confusion, but also pure happiness, and I think that means something.
"Luke, I'm honestly speechless. You're right, I never knew, and I've been so selfish. But, I think I love you too. I'm just not sure, and that is what makes me scared," I croaked out.
Luke took both of my hands and intertwined them with his. He held them out in front of their faces.
"You've been with me my whole life. Our mom's have been together their whole lives, Jess. Don't you think that means something?" he said as stared into my hazel eyes, and I stared into his blue. (A/N: Starts singing Colors by my queen.)
"This is getting sort of awkward, standing in the middle of the carnival, two dumb teenagers crying and holding hands. Let's go on the Ferris wheel," I said, tugging on Luke's hand.
He led me to the line, where there was actually no wait. The man in front of the ride let us in without giving him a ticket, and I instantly smiled and mouthed a thank you. He nodded and returned to his post, staring out into the seas of people.
We hopped into the cart which was the farthest from the entrance, hoping that would give us some privacy.
"Jess, what are your feelings for me?" Luke asked randomly. I shook my head, incapable of giving him an answer.
"Luke I honestly don't know what I feel for you," I said softly.
He motioned for me to come to him, so I scooted myself over until I was on his side and rested my head on his chest.
"I think I feel something for you, because you're right, when I said I felt something during that kiss. And I think it was love."
I heard Luke take an in a sharp breath.
He immediately kissed my cheek, holding the kiss for a few seconds. He then cupped my face, and pecked my lips. He then giggled, his eyes sparkling with joy and hope.
"You know what this means right? My parents might let me move with you to North America! If I just beg them enough-" Luke rattled until I cut him off.
"Luke, I like you a lot, I do, but you can't come with me. We'll find another way to keep in touch, but you can't leave your family. Especially for me. And who knows how long I'll be staying?" I said, sighing.
"God."
"True, very true."
"Now that we both feel something for each other, don't you reckon we should make it official?" He questioned, and I nodded, smiling like a hopeless idiot.
"Jessica Rose Renolds, would you do me the honor of being my magnificent, lovely, amazing, beautiful girlfriend?"
Instead of replying, I sat on his lap and kissed him passionately. All I felt during it was pure happiness, that Luke and I finally came together. The kiss lasted for about 40 seconds, and I pulled away from him.
Our foreheads rested against each other, and all Luke and I did was giggle until infinity, him holding me in his arms, and us watching the sun set.
I couldn't picture our last day together any different, and any better than this.
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Hey guys this was eh so I hope you's liked it
I was listening to Jasey Rae by ATL and Cry Out by One Ok Rock and Death of a Bachelor by P!atd and Forever My Father by Go Radio while I was writing this so I'm very sorry if it's a bit sad
I'm also sorry b/c there was a bit of A/N's this chapter
I'm finally sorry there's so many sorry's
Love you's
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