Austin
I stared at my phone, trying to decide if I should call her or not. I've been like this for about two hours. I want to hear her beautiful voice, but I might be pushing things too fast. I just got her back, well technically.
I dialled her number. My heart started racing. Just after the first ring, I hung up. Sighing, I threw my phone across my bed. My fingers ran through my hair as I closed my eyes, letting out a frustrating sigh. My mind thought back to that day on the tree house
Flashback
Me and Becky were 14
I strummed my guitar, thinking of what else to sing until I heard someone coming up
I stopped until I saw that it was Becky
“Becky! What are you doing here?” I asked surprised
“I was walking back from the mall when I heard you singing up here” She smiled
I loved her smile. It always gave me this feeling inside before I even knew I was in love
And I don’t know why
She came and sat next to me
“Keep singing. I like hearing you sing."
I smiled at her then strummed my guitar, knowing exactly what to sing
"The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful stop me from stealing my breath. Emeralds from mountains, thrust towards the sky never revealing their depth."
My back straightened as a smile formed upon my face
"Tell me that we belong together. Dress it up with the trappings of love. I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above."
She put on the beautiful smile of hers. I admire her beauty. Her beautiful face and personality. I strummed my guitar louder as I went into the chorus.
"I'll be your crying shoulder, I'll be love suicide. I'll be better when I'm older, I'll be the greatest fan of your life"
I don’t know why but that just felt like the right song to sing to her. I continued singing while she started blushing. I thought it was cute. Her eyes gazed at me never leaving with each word that I sang out my mouth.
By the time it I was finished, she was amazed
“Austin, you have an amazing voice!” She yelled amazed. I sighed releaved
“Oh good, I thought I did bad. And thanks. I was singing it to you”
“I know” She told smirking and kissed me in the cheek
We always did that
“I love you Austin.”
“I love you too Becky”
I meant in a sisterly way
But when she said it to me, I felt like we had a connection
I ignored it. We hugged
I’m so glad I have a best friend like Beck
I shook my head, thinking of how much of an idiot I was for missing all the hints. My mind thought back to another flashback.
“Please wake up Becky. I love you. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I didn’t mean any of it. I broke it off with Taylor. Please. Don’t leave us. Don’t leave me.” I whispered.
A tear fell to her hand and I wiped it
And there was a moment of silence.
Me, Mickey, Robert, Alex, and Sarah started talking about old memories to Becky
“And remember the time Robert and Alex use to have a crush on you and they both hated eachother for a whole week?” Mickey said smiling
I smiled at that memory.
Robert and Alex both wanted to go out with Becky but she told them that she only saw them as a brother
We all laughed at that memory
“Austin. Are you back to your old self ?” Robert asked hesitantly
I nodded
I never realized how much I've changed that year
“Yes I am. I broke it off with Taylor. I realized what she’s done to me. Look guys, im so sorry for everything. I-“
Sarah cut me off “Shut up Austin. We forgive you. But we don’t know about Becky….”
I looked down ashamed
Why is everything happening again? Why do I always screw up?
I was about to reply until a loud scream came in.
We turned around and saw Taylor.
“AUSTIN CARTER MAHONE! HOW DARE YOU BREAK IT OFF WITH ME! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DO THAT!
I was beyond pissed
“TAYLOR! What are you doing here?!” Mickey yelled
She was about to tell her to leave but Taylor pushed her to the ground
Robert ran and picked her u
“TAYLOR! LEAVE NOW!” I yelled
“No! Why did you break up with me?!”
“Because you’ve turn me into someone I regret being!”
“Is it because of that chick Britney? Bonny? Whatever!”
“It’s Becky and LOOK WHAT YOU’VE MAKE ME DO TO HER!” I pointed at Becky
She glanced and rolled her eyes
“So what? She’s sick. Who cares?” I saw Mickey and Sarah about to go off on her but Alex and Robert held them back “Taylor. She’s in a coma. Get. Out. NOW!”
“Not until you take me back!”
“YOU CHEATED ON ME!”
“NO I DIDN’T! WHERE DID YOU GET THAT?!”
“This.” Sarah said and showed her the picture
She scoffed
“That’s not me.” She said
I groaned “Get out now Taylor.”
She crossed her arms.
“No.”
“GET OUT TAYLOR!”
“I SAID NO!”
“If-“ I was cut off by someone
“Uhh… why are you all yelling? Who are all of you? “We all looked at eachother.
None of us said a thing
I chuckled at the thought of when I discovered it was all fake but then frowned. I was the reason she almost got kidnapped. I'm the reason she got into a coma. I haven't heard from Taylor lately but I know she's friends with Becky again, which is surprising and unbeivable. I was an idiot, and I still am for hurting her.
My fingers ran through my hair as I stared down my phone.
Just do it. Don't back out.
Taking in another breath, I redialled her number. As I was about to call, my door pushed open. I closed my eyes and quickly cancelled the call. My phone lied on my nightstand while my head rested on the palm of my hands.
"Austin, what are you still doing here? You're suppose to be at the studio."
"I don't feel good." I lied, hoping she doesn't notice
"Sweetie, I know when you're lying. And I know you only act this way when you're having girl trouble."
She took a seat next to me. I sighed, knowing I couldn't pass her.
"So who is she?"
"Mom, we don't need to have a talk. I can do this on my own."
As I got up, I heard her sigh.
"Are you sure, Austin?"
I turned and gave her a confused look
"Of course. Why can't I?"
"Because I know you. I know when you're upset and how you handle them. And right now, you aren't doing anything but lying around expecting a miracle to happen."
I bit my lip. She's right. I took a seat next to her. My hands yet again ran through my hair and slightly tugged in frustration.
"It's just that, Becky...." I trailed off not knowing how to continue. I lost my words.
"You miss her?"
"Yes, but there's something more and I just can't explain." My voice trailed off again, trying to find the right word
"Austin, you need her. Face it, ever since she left, you've been one big mess. Only when she started texting you is when you started getting back your old self. You need her in your life and I'm pretty sure she needs you."
My eyes lit up
"She needs me?"
"I'm pretty sure she does. What you two had wasn't something ordinary."
I stayed quiet trying to process this. My mom got up and walked towards my closet. She took something out, it's a red box. It looks familiar.
"What's that?"
She dusted it off a little then handed it to me.
"So you forgot about that? Open it."
I took off the lid.
Cards, letters... pictures of me and Becky?
I picked up one and smiled. It was the first day of freshman year. Becky still had glasses at the time and had her hair in a cute pony tail. She looked adorable. But a figure inside caught my attention. It was engraved with Becky's name. Suddenly, I remember what this box is.
"Mom, when did you get this? I thought I left it in Texas" I said, admiring it. This is the box I kept of Becky and I. We kept all our most meaningful things inside such as these cards and pictures.
My fingers touched the necklace. The one I took off for Taylor. The one I promised to never take out. I searched the box at an attempt to find her piece, and I did. My name was engraved. A tear slipped out, remembering the day I gave it to her along with the letter.
"I slipped it with us while we were moving. I thought you didn't want to leave back that but since the break up, I just hid it until now."
I put the necklace around my neck and watched as it dangled down. My plain white shirt covering it. I grabbed the box, keys to my car, and know exactly what to do.
I can't stand being without her. I need her in my life. As selfish as it sounds, she's mine and only mine. I want to feel her touch, her hugs, her kisses.
I just need her back.